My cheek feels hot. My head is throbbing. Where am I?
No, I know this place all too well. It's the place where my fantasies occur, almost every night. And revolves around a single living being who happens to be my bestfriend.
Uh. But why am I here?
"So you're awake now" a deep voice speaks, overwhelming my senses.
I don't know if I should either be happy or sad at the sound of his voice. But that's alright, I never make good decisions anyway. Not when I'm around him. He's too... distracting.
I nod my head. And my cheek still feels insanely hot. I wonder why.
"You passed out" he states casually. And I didn't believe him, since I don't remember doing so. My mouth lifted into a smile. "Yeah right... No really, what happened? I don't remember anything." Well.... wait. I do remember one thing.
I blush boisterously, recalling my naughty dream. Sasuke was utterly seductive. And I loved it. Just thinking about it, made me hot, all over. It felt very surreal though. And for that to happen in real life is just a wishful thinking.
Apparently, Sasuke thought my statement is somehow comical since he chuckled. The sound of his laughter penetrates my ears. And I reminisce on it. It's a song that is stuck on my head forever, and everytime I hear it, it makes my heart crazy. It's as if my heart is in a roller coaster ride when he laughs. Always bouncing, up and down, down and up.
But no matter how catchy that sound is. Or the fact that it is my favorite tune. I have no idea what caused his laughter.
"Huh? Why are you laughing?" I ask frustratingly. And he just laughs again. I love that voice, always. But right now, I'm just plainly annoyed. "Hey, Sasuke! Quit laughing or at least tell me why you're laughing!"
He places his hands on his abdomen and it makes me want to see his abs. "You, actually believe that it was all a silly dream?" then unexpectedly, he thrusts his hand forward to meet my burning cheek. "Trust me Hina-chan, it was as real as it can get."
Oh my. My dream was real?
I find that hard to believe. Sasuke would never do that. ever
My mind couldn't process his actions. But because I wouldn't allow it to. I wanted him to continue touching me. I didn't care that my dream was real, or that my head is still throbbing. I just want to feel his hand caressing my cheek over and over again.
"Sa-sasuke." was all I could say. It was the only thing I could think of at the moment. He makes my mind go blank.
"I don't really have a girlfriend you know..." he says all of a sudden, in between his sweet strokes. And I froze. I couldn't even feel his strokes anymore. It was all coming back to me now. What happened earlier was for real.
girlfriend. jealous. seducing
My mind paused to analyze my situation. There was confusion and then there was anger. But anger apparently overpowered my senses. So I did what any girl would've done-
I slapped him. hard
"What the hell Sasuke?" I yell and slap his hand away from me. "So that was all just a lie? Why did you do that? I don't fucking understand."
I was in rage. He made me go through all that, to know that it was all just a lie?
Sasuke held his hand up. "I'm sorry Hinata... But I just wanted to see your reaction." he sighs. "I just didn't expect that you were going to react so differently than what I had originally thought."
I've never felt this mad before. I didn't even have the time to think before I speak. "How did you think I was going to react!? You think I would just take it easy? That knowing my bestfriend in the world liked a girl I never even knew!?"
He sighs again. "Well ofcourse, I never thought you would act like that since you never expressed any interest in me"
"I was no way near jealous! And everything you do always sparks my interest. You're my bestfriend!"
"I mean intimately. And I never said anything about you being jealous. "
My eyes widened. "You didn't?"
In the background, I could almost hear someone saying 'Busted' . But that didn't matter.
How am I going to explain that to Sasuke?
I wish I could've just let go of my pride, that way none of this ruckus would have happened. But being such a stubborn girl, I didn't, and so instead of doing nothing at all, I mess it up all the more. And I have no idea how I could fix it.
5 minutes have passed and no one uttered a word. And hopefully, it stays that way. Silence is always good.
Great. Just fucking great Hinata. Don't you just love ruining yourself? And your relationship with Sasuke?
"So you changed your whole demeanor, just coz' you were insanely jealous?" He states calmly, and he seemed contented. It pissed me off, just a little.
"I never said anything about being insanely jealous. I said 'jealous', not insanely jealous cause that would mean that I-"
Oh shit. I just fucked it up to a whole new level. Couldn't I just shut my mouth?
"That you?" he asks me to continue, raising his eyebrows in the process. A strange glint shone in his blood red eyes. But I ignored it, cause if I don't, I would jump to conclusions again.
"That I.... I ...." Think Hinata, think you bitch! "That I would need a boyfriend!"
His face turned stony. "What?"
Well, what did ya know, my brain actually saved me this time.
"Yeah, I was jealous that you have a girlfriend and I don't!" I cried out. It was actually the truth, I just didn't say the truth clearly. I'd rather not say to Sasuke that I was jealous that he wasn't my boyfriend. That would totally fuck up our relationship beyond repair. "But I guess the whole girlfriend thing was a lie then... "
hollyyyyy fuccck. I'm so going to hell and be tortured alongside Satan. But I guess that's better than not having Sasuke around.
His face remained impassive. "Oh, so that's it?"
I smiled sheepishly. "Yup, pretty much." no, not really
Quickly, I shoved the blanket out as I stepped out of the bed with my bare feet. The floor was frigid, but it felt nice.
"Okay... I'll go eat something. God, I'm starving.."
Yet again, a sinful lie. "Uhh... see ya." I added hastily, hoping he wouldn't see through my lie. But that was impossible.
Pivoting me heels, I stalked towards the door in a quick motion. Silently, I thanked God that it was finally over, until Sasuke grabbed my hands, and turned me around. I think my heart pulsated extra-fast again.
He breathed and exhaled on my ears. "Mind if I tag along?"
uh no thanks
"Are you sure?" cause I really wasn't planning on eating anything. But I didn't voice that out, that would make him really suspicious.
"Yes..." his voice was husky and sort of.. angry?
I kept silent since didn't trust my mouth enough to speak.
Then, he followed me as I walked down the stairs. I hoped that it wasn't obvious that I was making my steps extra- slower than it already is.
But God wasn't on my side.
"Are you doing that on purpose?"
Damn. He just had to ask, didn't he?
I rotated my head to his direction, in a robotic kind of way. Well, I didn't do that on purpose.
"Do what on purpose?" I batted my eyes sincerely deceitful. Really, I was hopeless.
He narrowed his eyes. "You know... you're walking too slow."
My heart palpated vigorously. Any further, I could have a cardiac arrest. "Oh... I didn't notice."
"Sorry..." I added, not sounding sorry at all.
I walked faster this time. But I notice something strange- he was walking faster than normal, like he was in a hurry almost. And my suspicions were confirmed when he walked passed me and grabbed both my shoulders. It felt nice.
"You know what?" He looks disturbed and mad. Honestly, I don't know what's wrong with him.
"Hm... what?"
Then, in one quick motion, his lips landed on mine.
My lips against his, unmoving. Is this really happening?
The softness of his lips and the husky pungent scent that engulfed me told me it was for real. 100% Authentic.
Tentatively, he pressed his lips deeper into me, then on the spur of the moment, my brain decided to hibernate as my insights quivered queerly.
It feels good. Odd sensations washed over me like unending rainfall. I let them entrance me as I permitted them to consume my entirety. This bizarre feeling, I never want it to end.
Kiss me more.
Abruptly. my mind aroused from it's sleep. With my mind slowly functioning, I was beginning to acknowledge what was truly happening. And my body froze.
Why would Sasuke kiss me? It doesn't make sense. I crack myself with these question until only one thought came to mind-
a pity kiss.
I felt forlorn overcome me upon my realization. I didn't desire a pity kiss, no matter how good they were. So, I shove him with as much strength as I could decipher on a whim. My hands tingled as they felt the hard planes of his chest beneath the thin, cotton shirt. I've always known Sasuke had a good physique, just didn't realize that he would feel so masculine.
Afterwards, he shot me a questioning look as I reminisce on the splendid feeling. His expression was as if I betrayed him or something. Or maybe this whole kissing thing was really getting into me, either way, I just didn't want a pity kiss.
"Why?" I hear him ask. Should I be asking that question?
Confused. I asked "What?"
Slowly, he ran a hand through his hair. "Why did you break it off? I mean, we had it going there..."
I wouldn't deny that it felt good, because it was better that I'd ever expect. But... "You didn't have to kiss me out of pity. It'll only make me feel much worse."
Just because I never had a boyfriend...
"What the hell are you talking about? I thought you wanted this!??" his eyes, furious and piercing. It bothered me how he could still look beautiful even when he's angry.
"Who said I wanted this?"
"Well you wanted a boyfriend right? Well, here I am."
I would've laughed if he didn't look so serious.
