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IMPORTANT INFORMATION:I did change this fic to Rated M because of the usage of profanity used in here. As you can tell I am a potty-mouth -_-" (I am working on it though!) I did not change it because there will be future lemon in this fic D: I would like to inform you that I will NEVER write smutt because I'm not mature enough to write it xD But I don't know...I'll give it into consideration.
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Enjoy Ch.2 ~ Roxas' first weekend at Oxford (:
Thank the Lord that it was a weekend because I would have never found my classes by the next day. Riku walked me around campus, showing me important places that I needed to know. I was surprised to see that Riku was well known around the school. I didn't quite understand if he was popular through him being a badass, or if he was just a really cool guy.
"I told you. You don't have to be that around here." He smiled down at me and showed me where the building to my science class was. "You can be anyone you want to be."
"The closet gay you mean?" I snickered, and opened the door.
"Well from what I hear people got your respect even though you were gay."
I gave him a look. I guess he was right, but there is just something wrong with the feeling of having everyone judge you.
"They won't judge you if you just be yourself." Riku pointed to classroom 534 C, and I marked it on my map.
One think struck me though. "How did you know I was being respected at Hollow Bastion?"
Riku smiled really big, and brushed off a piece of hair in his face back to his ears. "Sora told me."
I stopped, and pulled his arm. He saw my face, and knew what was coming.
"What? He found me on Facebook. How could I not resist befriending him?"
"You Facebook stalk the guy."
"I told you why!"
"Ah, don't even mention it again…"
We laughed and we continued our walk to my next class. Oxford was a really big school, and I just know that there will never be a day where I will wear sandals to class. The conversation about being me always came up, and it made me think twice about what kind of person I wanted to be.
"This is your chance Roxas, to start off fresh, and make new friends based off of what kind of person you really are. Forget about your Hollow Bastion friends, and think about who you really want to be."
I thought really long and hard before I answered Riku back.
"I don't want to be known as 'Roxas the Gay'. I'm better than that."
Riku smiled and placed a hand on my shoulder. "Well only if you act like it."
I nudged him in the ribs, and he started laughing. Then he punched my chest, and then we both began to tickle each other. Our laughs were echoing around campus because we were that damn loud. Riku all of sudden pushed me to the grass, and he ends up winning the tickle war. I cry out for help, and suddenly Riku lifted off me. I stopped laughing and looked up. There, right above me, was Axel, smiling his wicked smile, his big green eyes glaring down at me.
I sighed in annoyance, hoping he got the message. "Can I help you?"
"Actually you can," he started as he looked at Riku, then back to me. "I seem to be having some trouble back at my dorm with the sheets on my bed. I can't seem to put them down on the corner of my wall. I was wondering if you could help me."
I lifted my brow. "Your bed sheets?"
Axel nodded. "It is kind of a rough job for someone like me. I need someone who is small, and –"
"Is this really a way to ask someone out to your dorm room for sex?"
I looked up at Riku, wide eyed. "What the hell are you talking about?"
"Axel here is someone you should watch out for Roxas." His expression was serious, but he was speaking in a fun loving tone. "He likes his boys young and fresh."
I looked up at Axel as he shrugged. "I cannot deny the truth."
I scoffed, and got up from the grass. "Excuse me but I have to find my classes with Riku."
All of a sudden, Riku's phone rang, and he took one look at the screen and freaked out. He whispered that it was Sora – as to how he got his number I do not know but I will kick his ass later – and left me with Axel.
I slowly looked at him, hoping not to see him smiling that stupid big smile of his. But of course, he was smiling that big stupid smile.
"So Roxy, I believe that you need to find your classes, but you have no escort who knows this place." He extended an arm and did a polite bow, as if it was the Elizabethan age. "Allow me to provide you with my services."
Are you fucking kidding me? I can't fathom how hot he looked right about now. But there is no chance that I would ever say that to him.
I walked right past his gesture, and continued on with my own tour. It was second later that I heard footsteps running towards me.
"So I'm pretty sure that you were supposed to accept my offer back there."
I shrugged, trying to not have all my attention on him. "I don't need an escort to help me find my room."
"Oh, but you need an escort to escort you to your room."
I stopped, looking up at his gorgeous smile.
"What's up with you? Are you trying to annoy me?"
"No." He put his hands in his jean pockets. "I'm just trying to pull you out of Narnia."
I looked at him funny, but then gasped as I caught onto what he said. I pouted at him, which probably wasn't the smartest thing to do, and stormed right past him, walking far away from him.
"You can thank me later, by helping me with my sheets!" He called after me.
I turned around and bumped into his chest. He chuckled rather loudly, which made me uncomfortable. I was pretty sure he felt the awkwardness I was giving out, so I quickly backed away, having him chuckled even more. Oh Lord, it took everything in me not to wrap my arms around him and have him just hold me. Thoughts of those big skinny arms wrapped around me gave me shivers. I tried to press that thought away, but they just stayed there. Axel crossed his arms, grinning from ear to ear. I tried everything I had in me to give him a sour look, but I think it came off as some stupid face only a puppy would give. I could tell because right after Axel laughed. I scoffed, and began walking away. I didn't even hesitate to turn around when Axel began calling me. I heard footsteps come closer to me, but that didn't stop me. I was just embarrassed, and I didn't want to endure anymore of it.
"Roxy!" He called. And that was the final straw.
"First of all," I turned around, and pointed a finger at his chest. "My name is Roxas. Second, I don't want you near me for as long as I stay here. And third,"
I had to think a second for what was the third thing I was about to say to him when all of a sudden I looked into his eyes. I instantly got lost in them because they were just there, staring at me, all sad, and worried. Damn it! Why does he have to be this way?
"S-stay away from me."
"You already said that."
"Well me having to repeat means how serious I am! So be gone and good day!"
I made it back to my dorm room in one piece. I don't know what it is with Axel. What makes him so fucking attractive? It just pisses me off. I guess the best way to avoid anything that is going to happen is to just straight up ignore him. That is the best solution.
Before I could enter my room, I noticed Zexion and Demyx standing right in front of my door. I slowly walked up to them, and gave them a questioning look. The two spotted me, and I knew something was wrong. I noticed Zexion had a grin on his face, and Demyx was pouting with his head down.
"What?" I asked, obviously knowing they were about to tell me something.
"Every year the hall decides to pick someone to do the nasty chore." His smile never faded away.
"It's just that I was the newest kid so they picked me," Demyx began, looking like he had sympathy for me. "B-b-but then you came, and then so the title came to you."
I looked at them curiously. "What's the chore?"
Zexion smiled even bigger, and Demyx put his head down.
"It's the bathroom that's down the hall."
I shrugged. How bad can it be?
Zexion and Demyx walked me down the hall, and we stopped at a door which was old and rusted. Zexion reached for the copper doorknob, and smiled at me as he opened it.
I couldn't breathe. The smell was horrible, which also blinded my eyes. Zexion slightly pushed me inside and I got a good look around the restroom. The smell was a mixture between sweat and a decaying animal. I noticed that the four shower doors to my left were closed shut. Demyx made his way in with me, and clutched my arm. I felt Zexion's stare over my shoulder, so I gently pushed Demy off of me.
"What the hell is in those showers?" I dared to ask.
Zexion smiled once more. "Your worst nightmare."
He kicked open one of doors, and I couldn't believe my eyes. Black mold covered from the ceiling to the floor. The shower door was yellow with tiny black spots, probably mildew that's been there for over some years. The smell got worse, making my breathing very shallow.
"The whole hall expects me to clean all this shit?"
Zexion chuckled in delight. "The whole entire thing. You do this, and everyone will think you're a god."
"Or they might think you're just plain stupid for saying yes." Demyx commented on Zexion's last statement.
Zexion nudged Demyx in the ribs, which made him squirm.
Everyone will think I'm a god huh? That doesn't sound like a bad idea… Now that you think about it, it would be nice to be recognized as the newbie who dared to clean the shithole down the hall. 'Roxas, the one who cleaned the restroom down the hall'… It was a nice ring to it.
"Alright, this bathroom will be clean by the end of this weekend." I smiled
Zexion smiled wickedly, exposing his straight teeth. "Well Roxas, I underestimated you. I wish you all the luck."
I needed all the luck I could get. It was barely Saturday, and I told them I would finish it by the end of this week. What was I thinking? You need power tools to clean all this.
I decided not to lose any time. I needed to start on it at least today. Once Zexion and Demyx left I headed straight to my dorm, quickly getting my stuff I would need to enter that restroom again. I took my iPod dock – along with my iPod– and changed into clothes that I would wear around the house, or in this case now, around my dorm area.
I sighed at the thought, thinking what I would be doing right about now with Sora. We would probably be out at an arcade, or some stupid shit like that because dude, we're guys! What else are we going to do, knit? The both of us would be trying to beat each other's score at the arcade in the mall that is near our house. Then once we do, we would go around the other games and beat the other high scores. But that's only the afternoon. Half the day is spent and we are still not done. We would then sit by Hollister, or Abercrombie and Fitch and just see all the guys walk into the store. We would wear sunglasses so that way they don't know we are looking at them. The best days are when the models are in the entrance of Abercrombie. Oh Lord… Those are good days were we would call them 'miracles'. Those were the days.
I could help but check my phone every five minutes just in case I missed his call, or text, something. I wanted to hear from my brother, and I had a strong feeling that my father was keeping him from having any contact with me.
I tried pushing the idea away and maybe a few tears as well. Right now I was about to endure cleaning the disgusting growing particles on the shower wall.
I walked to the mold infested restroom, and stood in front of the door. I took in a few breathes of fresh air because I figured I won't be getting much of that for a long time. My hand reached for the door, and the odor of sweat and balls filled my lungs. I made a gag reflex noise, which echoed around the restroom. I placed my iPod dock near the sinks, which was also filled with grime and green looking shit. I turned around once again, and began looking through my music. What's a good song to scrape shit off the wall in a restroom? I began getting tired of finding a song, so I just put on shuffle. The sounding of the guitar intro to Saosin's Voices filled my ears, and I closed my eyes, nodding my head to the beat of the music. I started dancing over to the cleaning supplies under the sink. It is true that music soothes the soul, because I'm so calm when I listen to my music.
I take out a bucket and a shitload of cleaning substances that will make you high with one whiff. I took a second look at the CLR, eyeing it a bit. I haven't gotten high ever since that time with Riku. Maybe if I… I threw the CLR to the ground, and forced myself to say 'No' out loud. Yeah sure it's a good high, but why would I want to get high? What's the point? Plus, there's no one around here to get high with. It's no fun when you do it by yourself. I sighed, and looked further into the cabinet if there were face masks. Surprisingly, there were some. I put one on, picking up the CLR, and heading over to the shower. I took a second to look at it, and then shook my head. That can wait until tomorrow. I walked over to the toilets, and open it, gasping as to what I saw what was inside. I'm pretty sure the toilet was clogged way back when, but god damn I couldn't tell if it was a huge ass hair ball, or a big ball of shit. I knew there was only one solution, and that was to pick that shit up with my bare hands.
I quickly ran over to the cabinet again, searching for gloves. Once I found then I ran back. Okay Roxas, the sooner the better. Just reach in there and grabbed that shit. I closed my eyes and reached inside. To my luck, it was hair inside the toilet. I sighed, and threw the wig into the bucket. I took a seat on the floor, and sighed. The floor probably needs cleaning first, so I don't know why I decided to pick out hair in the toilet. I sighed, and got a broom, beginning to sweep.
I think I spent a good hour just sweeping and mopping the floor. It looked spotless after I was done with it. I decided to take a break, and check my phone, to see if Sora tried calling me. I took off my gloves, and checked my phone. My screen was clear. I sighed. Now I know my dad had something to do with Sora not getting in contact with me. Damn, I was starting to miss Sora very much and my mom as well. Oh, I missed my mom's cooking the most though. She made good food. I checked the time. It was barely 12:45; lunch was being served at the dining hall. I sighed, and promised myself that I would work most of the restroom today. I decided that I need to lose a few pounds because hey, I want to still look fit, and maintain my body weight. I began examining myself in the rusted mirror. I started flexing, showing off my some-what muscles. They were there, but there is always room for improvement. I smiled at myself, at shook my head. What am I thinking? Am I trying to look good for myself, or for Axel?
Whoa. I didn't think I would say something like that.
Not once have I admitted to myself that I liked the guy, and it kind of scared me as to how easily I said it. I didn't hesitate at all. I don't even know the guy! How can I be confused as to if I like him or not? Obviously it would be not because I don't fall for assholes.
Okay I take that back.
I don't fall for guys like Axel, who are stuck up and rude.
…
Maybe I should stop talking and start cleaning the shit off the toilets.
I grab the toilet brush and the stupid bubbles spray and walk over to the toilet. I began spraying the whole bowl until everything was covered in soap suds. I placed the mask back on my face, and began scrubbing.
And there I sat, scrubbing toilets for another hour. Stall after stall, I cleaned the walls, and then the toilets. There were a total of four stalls, and all of them were cleaned. Thank god I'm not a perfectionist because I knew that if I was I would be scrubbing those toilets till the end of the day. I did a good days work, and decided that was enough work for today. I would clean the walls and showers tomorrow. I shuddered as I thought about the showers. I checked my phone once more, my hopes shattering once I saw my screen to be empty. For about the fifth time to today I let out a disappointed sigh, and headed back to my dorm. I quickly got a new change of clothes, heading off to the newer showers. Chemicals were on my skin and it felt nasty and sticky. On my way to the nice, clean restroom, I caught Riku leaving his room.
"Roxas!" He smiled as he looked up from his phone.
I gave him a look, and stopped in front of the door to the restroom. "Did you just get off the phone with Sora?"
Riku had guilt written all over his face. Oh my lord.
"Riku, that was at least a good three hours that you talked to him."
Riku began fiddling with his phone, and looked up at me. "Two hours and 56 minutes... to be exact."
My mouth flew open. "You talked to –" So that's why Sora didn't call me, because he was on the phone with Riku. He would rather talk to his crush rather than his own brother. I see then. Anger started rushing in, but I managed to control it, and not let Riku know about my disappointing two hours. "You make my head numb, I'm going to shower. I just finished cleaning half of the restroom down the hall."
Riku stood still, holding my arm. I looked down at his arm, remembering the talk we had about touching me. He instantly pulled away, and continued to look at me wide eyed.
"Please don't tell me you said you just cleaned it."
I gave a confused look. "I just said that I did…"
"Oh my god, Roxas why didn't you come to me before you cleaned it?" Riku almost yelled in my face.
"Oh, well excuse me for thinking of you and your privacy with MY brother! Who by the way, I haven't talked to since I got here!"
Riku stepped back a bit, looking sorry. "Roxas, every year an upper classman tricks the newbie to clean that restroom. Dude, that restroom had not been touched since the 80's. No one has gone in there and cleaned it when they were told to."
My hands were clenched in a fist. What the fuck? Cleaning that shit was just a prank? I started to lose it. I dropped my towel and clothes, punching the nearest wall next to me.
"Roxas!" Riku called to me. He touched my shoulders, but I shrugged him off because of our talk. He quickly took them off of me and began speaking.
"Roxas it's okay! It's just a prank!"
"I did a good job in there! What the fuck man! Who does shit like that?" I felt anger building up inside me, almost to the point where it was the same feeling like the moment with Hayner.
"Roxas, you have to calm down. It was just a prank." Riku began telling me.
I started to regain my sense of thought, and took a couple of breaths. "Sorry Ri, I don't know what –"
"It's cool. Now I know not to piss you off. You just got to control that."
I sent Riku a small smile. I picked up my stuff, and told him if he wanted to get lunch. He told me that he would wait for me once I get out. So I quickly showered, and was out in about 15 minutes. Riku and I began walking to the dining hall, which was on the other side of campus. He started talking to me about Sora, which depressed me a bit. He told me that Sora is not allowed to text me, call me, or be in any sort of contact with me because my father said so. Riku commented my dad as a class A Asshole. I agreed, and he continued on. He kept bragging about how cute Sora's voice is on the phone and how that if he ever has free time, Sora and him are going go somewhere, like on a date.
"Whoa," I stopped him right before we were going to go inside the dining hall. "Who said you could take him out on a date?"
Riku looked confused, but happy. "He did? Roxas what's the big deal?"
"I'm saying that the least you can do is ask permission to date my brother. My dad is out of the question, so I'm the next big thing."
"Roxas are seriously –"
"Go ahead. Ask me."
"Ask you what?"
"You need my permission to date my brother."
Riku laughed, and began looking around awkwardly. "You're kidding."
"I'm serious."
"Roxas, you can't be serious," He started whining.
"I'm fucking dead serious. Ask me permission to go on a date with my brother."
Riku laughed awkwardly. He licked his lips and placed his hands on his hips. He stood still, and looked me straight in the face. I crossed my arms, waiting for him to ask me. It was only fair. Call me old school, but my brother deserves a gentleman, not some jerk.
I waited for a good 2 minutes.
"Roxas Rogers," Riku began.
"Yes?" I answered.
"May I have the pleasure in taking your brother, Sora Rogers, on an outing with just the two of us, alone?"
I placed a finger on my lip, as if I was thinking about not considering it.
"Change your tone."
Riku let out a deep sigh, and lifted his arms in the air. "What the hell Roxas?"
"Is my brother worth this?"
Riku stayed silent. He rolled his eyes, and sighed.
"Will you give the honor of taking your lovely brother out on a proper outing?"
I thought about it again. "Now, with an Irish accent."
He punched my arm, making me laugh. I said yes right afterwards, and we continued our walk to the dining hall. As we entered inside, there were a massive amount of people. I was surprised to see girls here because this was an all-boys school.
"They are just the girlfriends of some guys. They come over on weekends. Most of them come from our sister school, Lavender Academy. They are really pretty girls let me tell ya."
I gave him a funny look. "How pretty are they?"
Riku looked at me with a smirk. "Pretty enough to make you think straight, damn those girls..."
Hmph, well now there's a thought I should keep in mind.
We walked over to the lunch line, picked up our plates, and began grabbing food.
"So what do you make of Axel?"
I stopped, and stood still, looking up at him confused. "What's that supposed to mean?"
"Oh, you know what I mean. You have the sweet eye for him."
I held back a small silent gasp, but then I choked on my own air. Riku looked down on me and let out an 'Mmm' sound, and he continued on getting food.
"Well from what I hear, you guys hit off after your group meeting last night."
I looked up at him again, this time more concerned than confused. "What do you mean?
Riku stopped walking, and leaned on the counter for our trays, and looked at me suspiciously.
"You mean to tell me that you are not even going to tell what you guys did?"
"What? What is there to tell you? We just talked! That's it!"
Riku opened his mouth in shock. He only stared at me briefly, and then continued on to put more food on his plate. "Well I guess you haven't heard what was going around."
I stiffened. No, people can't be talking about me already. What if they think I'm some vulnerable thing? I couldn't have it, I just couldn't….
"What exactly, did you hear?"
Riku shrugged. "He said that you were all over him, and that you couldn't keep your hands off him."
I stopped yet again, and almost dropped my plate.
"What?" I shouted a bit too loud.
Riku looked at me seriously, as if silently telling me to keep my voice down. "Hurry up and get your food so I can tell you about it."
I quickly just picked fruit and walked over to Riku, who was already seated on a table far away from people who can hear us.
"Alright. Well last night I guess when you were asleep, he was telling all his friends that you made a move on him after the group meeting you had with Marluxia and everyone."
"What the hell? He was the one who put the moves on me!"
"Shh!" He told me. "He was being all descriptive, how you went towards him and told him that you liked him, and that you were going to have fun with him –"
"HOLY SHIT!" I shouted once again. "No Ri, he said all those things to me! He put the moves on me!"
"Will you shut up and let finish? Stop getting your panties in a twist."
"I don't wear panties." I pouted.
Riku sat back in his chair and gave me a sour look. "Right now you're acting like you are."
I sighed, and sat back as well. I waved my hand to motion him to continue.
"So then I hear this and walk in. He was making shit up, and I knew it wasn't true because you don't do shit like that."
"What was it?"
"Like, full on kissing him, and you were making out."
WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK!" I stood up in my seat, furious.
"Roxas sit the fuck down! Stop making a scene!"
"Where is this fucker?" I asked angrily.
"Roxas, you need to sit you ass down and calm down. I'm not telling you shit about him until you calm down."
I noticed the attention I got, and it reminded me of the moment with Hayner in the cafeteria. Everyone's eyes were staring at me, just looking at me, wanting me to punch Hayner in the face for cheating on me. I slowly sat back down, and looked at Riku as calmly as I could.
"Alright, continue please." I told Riku.
Riku just sat still, and waited a couple seconds to speak again.
"Well I come into the room knowing that half the shit he speaks of isn't true and call bullshit on him. He gives me a smile and asks if were dating."
"And?" I eagerly ask.
"And I told him that we weren't. I told him that Axel was just thinking those things when he was masturbating in his room just minutes before and confusing that with reality."
I smiled, but let out a small chuckle. This is why Riku is my best friend. He knows me so well, and defends me when I need defending. He has changed so much since the last time I talked to him back at Hollow Bastion High. I smiled at the thought.
"So eat up, and we'll confront him together, okay? I don't want you to go in this alone. And plus, I want to be there when you tell him off."
I laughed, and we continued I began to eat. I was about to say something when I saw the expression on Riku's face. It was serious, and very concerned. It looked as if he was looking at someone. I turned my head and looked behind me. Maybe I shouldn't have turned around. There, watching towards our direction was none other than the devil himself. His big red spikes bounced up and down, and he smiled towards me, giving me a wink. The fucking nerve he has for walking towards this direction. That dumb bitch has no idea what's coming.
"Hey guys!" He greeted us politely. "Hiya Roxas." He spoke softly to my face, rolling the letter 'R' in my name. He sat down, moving the chair backwards so he can sit down. Oh lord, my name never sounded so good once he said it. Damn why did he have to roll his 'R's? I think I was starting grow attached to "Roxy" more than I was to my own damn name.
I felt a kick in my leg, and I jumped. I looked at Riku and he silently whispered that I was looking like a girl. He made the motion of a weggie, which indicated that I had my panties in a twist. Damn him…
"So what's up? Did I miss anything between you two?"
"Why the hell are you telling people that we hooked up last night?"
Axel sat still, eyes wide. He looked at me, and then bowed his head down, smiling. I looked over to Riku, who was drinking his milk through his straw very quietly. Axel then looked up and smiled, not exposing his teeth. His emerald eyes were not big, but normal sized. They trailed up and down my body, which made me shift my position of sitting.
"Axel, be straight up with the guy." Riku spoke.
"You had no right to do that." I said right after Riku. "Thanks to you, people will think that I'm some needy whore. I won't meet anyone else with them fearing that I might pounce of them."
"Roxas I'm sorry." He said as he looked up at me with those damn big green eyes. One look in his eyes and I felt that he was sincere, and that he was genuinely sorry for what he did. Just one look, I wanted to drop the whole thing and tell him that it was okay. I forgive him because I just look into his eyes and know the truth.
"A-alright. Glad we covered that." I didn't know what else to say. I began picking the sticker on my apple, and just looking so concentrated on it anything to keep my attention from his eyes. Oh Lord, those big green eyes… Oh just thinking about them is making me feel all soft inside. Any anger I had towards him were gone, and my weird feeling for Axel took over.
"You know Axel, I think if you wanted to do those things with Roxas, you should have just asked." Riku spoke.
I looked up quickly. I gave him a glare; oh boy did I give him a glare. What the fuck does he think he is doing? This isn't how it's supposed to go! What in the hell just happened? It went from confrontation to full on permission to ask me out.
"So Roxas," Please for the love of god, stop saying my name. "What do you say that you and I head over to my room and we can get to know each other?"
Just when you think he is a new person, he turns back to being a dick.
"You're fucking disgusting." I looked up from my apple. "And I don't play for your team."
I began concentrating on my apple again, picking the sticker that was apparently super glued to the damn fruit. I felt Axel lift his hands up, and then I heard them slam down on his side.
"When are you going to stop playing around with the Narnians and admit that you feel something for me?"
"Never!"
Axel's eyes widened and he smiled, and started to laugh. Riku then followed, and before I knew it, they were both laughing. It took me only a minute to understand what they were laughing at, and I instantly blushed.
"No! What I meant was –"
Axel interrupted me. "No, no I get it now. You like your Narnians, and I should not be someone to separate you from them."
Riku spat out his food, and ducked his head parallel to the table, continuing to laugh even more than he was before.
"Oh Roxy, you have no idea how much fun I have when I'm with you." He then patted my back, got up and left, leaving me speechless.
I looked over to Riku, who was still red in the face from laughing so much.
"What the fuck was that?" I asked.
Riku was still smiling, picking his food.
"Riku!"
"What Roxas?" he asked, almost laughing again.
"What the hell?" I told him.
"You told him what you wanted to say, it's done!" He was still fucking smiling.
"Well, you were laughing and –"
"Roxas he was right though. You like the guy; he obviously likes you, why don't you do something about it?"
"Ri, I've only known him for one day, one fucking day. I don't know if I like him or I don't."
"Oh believe me, you do. Don't think I didn't see your face when Axel looked you in the eye, and apologized. I mean that was some legit stuff, looked like it came out of a fucking movie."
"Riku, I don't like him."
Riku looked at me seriously, and held his burger in one hand. "You keep telling yourself that. All I know is what I see, and from the looks of it, you have it bad than he does."
I sighed, and grabbed my apple and stood up. "I'm going back to my dorm."
Riku asked if I need to be walked back but I told him that I was fine. I walked out of the cafeteria and into the bright sunlight. It was barely 2 o'clock and I had nothing to do. I checked my phone to see if Sora called, but then I thought of dad, and how he was forbidden to contact me. I sighed and didn't even bother to check my phone.
I continued the path, following the sidewalk. I tried to clear my mind and process everything that just happened this morning. My day wasn't even spent yet, just the morning. So much shit happened in just the morning. I tried looking for my iPod, but forgot that I left back in my dorm room. I then started to think of a song to listen to… Sadly, I suck at picking a song to fit a certain situation. I kicked a rock and continued on walking the curb.
"Roxas," I heard a familiar voice call out.
I stopped, and lifted my head in the air, annoyed with the world right now.
"Will you please just let spend the rest of the day without any of your shenanigans? I'm kind of tired too so please let me just –"
"Calm your tits Roxy; I was just going to ask if you wanted someone to walk you back to your dorm." He offered.
I thought about it, and I noticed that I was mesmerized by just his voice, and that I was willing to just nod and agree to anything he would probably tell me right now. I have no idea what it is with this guy, but when he can be nice, he can be really nice. But then there are times where he can be a real dick, and you just want to punch his face in. It was at this moment right, that I knew for a fact that I would constantly be mind-fucked by him every single day. This was something I did not want to go through. But one look at him makes me rethink my motive, which pissed me off because when I decide something I want to stick to it.
Ah! He is going to break me one of these days, I know it…
"No, I-I'm fine." I spoke quickly. "Just please, leave me alone."
"Roxas," He started in that tone. "I just –"
I walked away from him. Damn I didn't want to but I knew that I had to. I barely knew him, but for some reason I felt alright with the world when I'm around him. It felt nice. I don't know what was keeping me from trying to get to know him.
Oh wait, I do know; my dad.
I was sent here to become straight, not to fall in love with a guy. I was supposed to change for my father's sake. I'm supposed to change for him, because his opinion of me only matters.
I started running away now, just thinking about it. But one thing for sure that I knew; I defiantly had feelings for Axel. Very strong feelings
I reached my dorm room. Hell I ran all the way back. Screw that shower, I'll finish it tomorrow. Right now I have to take my mind off of Axel. This guy was driving me crazy. It bugged me so much that he is so fucking attractive, and that he had no idea what the hell he does. It bugs me that I know nothing about him, but yet I want to be held by him like I've known him for the longest time. It bothered me so fucking much that he is just too damn attractive!
Why!
I threw myself on my bed, and yelled into my pillow, because I felt that was all that I could do. Yell. Let it out. I flipped myself over and stared at the ceiling. I then took another glance around my room. I saw that my bags were still unpacked. I let out a groan and figured that it would have to be done either way. I rose from my bed and sat on the floor, bringing my suitcase down as well. I let out a sigh, and unzipped my suitcase.
I didn't even get to begin without someone knocking on the door. My feelings were telling me not to get up, so who am I to not listen to my feeling? I yelled that the door was open, and in came in the person who knocked.
"Hey," a familiar voice sounded.
I threw myself back as I found Riku standing in my doorway.
"How much did you see?" I asked in monotone.
Riku smirked as he walked over to my bed, waving his hand at me. "I saw enough to make me believe that you two are involved."
I groaned, and kicked my suitcase far from me, knowing that I won't get to it. I might as well just leave my clothes in my suitcase because there is no way that I'm going to sort that shit.
"I don't even know the guy Ri…"
"But you do feel something for him. Isn't that the only thing that matters?"
I sighed. "But it bugs me that I don't know anything about him. I mean, I want to know him. I want to know why he's here."
Riku chuckled. "Good luck with that. Not all of us know why he's here either… But wait –" Riku stopped, and he adjusted himself on my bed. "Do you like him because he's a mystery, or because you think he's hot?"
"No! I mean, I think…" I couldn't even finish the sentence because I was confused myself. Did I like him because he was a mystery? Or did I like him because I thought he was one attractive person? My head began to hurt, and I groaned as I held my hands to my face.
"Roxas, will you for once in your life tell yourself the truth? You're starting to confuse me now."
I sighed, and sat up, facing him. "I like him, but I don't know why I like him."
Riku shrugged his hands, and smiled. "There you go. Now was that so hard?"
I gave him a stare, and got up from the floor. "You have no idea."
Riku smiled. "Well I actually came here to get you. We're going out."
I gave him a weird look, having the rules we settled flash through my head. "Riku, you can go call Sora because I won't –"
"Oh shut-up will you? I'm not taking you out on a date," Riku got up and brushed himself off. "There's a game party in the lounge downstairs. Everyone comes and shows off their mad skills." He did a little gangster pose, and laughed at his joke. "You want to come?"
I didn't give it a second thought. I quickly responded with a yes.
"Alright then, it starts in a few minutes. I'll meet you down there."
Riku then left, leaving me alone in my room. I took in a sigh, and breathed it out slowly. I tried looking around for my guitar that I brought, and I found it leaning on my desk. I walked over to it, remember howling I used to play and Sora would sing the lyric to the song I would try and make him guess. Damn, I miss Sora so much. I didn't understand how he could be in contact with Riku and not me. It hurt to know that. But then I also knew that my dad was behind it. Thinking about my dad got me frustrated, and it irritated me to think about him.
But then to my surprise, my phone rang, and I rushed over to it. I looked at the screen, and even though it was a text, a smile was still brought to my face as I read Sora in big bold letter. I clicked "READ", and I quickly read the text.
"Skype yo! Get your ass on! (:"
I laughed, and began digging for my laptop. My heart was racing as I realized that this would be the first time I'm going to see Sora's face in over 24 hours. Well, more like 12 hours, but it feels like 24 hours! I place my laptop on my bed and pounce on my bed, almost knocking my laptop to the floor. I waited as my computer took FOREVER to turn on. Seriously, why does it need to take like a fucking decade to load? You just need to turn it on, and then go around with your business just like a Game Boy, or a Wii system. It's that simple.
Once it turned on, I quickly clicked the Skype button, waiting yet another lifetime for that to load. But once I saw Sora's icon, and how it said 'Available' on it, I squealed like a fan girl. I was really going to see Sora, and I couldn't wait to see his face.
I clicked the 'Video Chat Now', and waited as I was connected to my brother. I did not have to wait a lifetime for it to connect because a second later, I saw Sora's grinning face on my computer screen. I began getting teary-eyed, because it was actually seeing my brother. The only thing separating us was a computer. I held my hand over my mouth, and touch my screen.
"Ah, come 'on Roxas," Sora began talking, which made my feeling even worse. "You're supposed to be the tough one!"
"Oh shut-up." I started whipping my tears. "It's just really nice to see you."
Sora smiled his adorable smile. "It's nice to see you too Roxas."
I smiled at him back, and tried to regain my whole being.
"So," I began at my normal state. "Want to tell me about your Riku business, and how you can talk to him, but not me, your brother?"
Sora got very still, and his face was shocked. "Well he –"
I listened to him stutter as he tried to find words to explain himself.
"He likes me, you know." Sora ended up saying.
I gave him a brow. "Well then, I guess I have to approve it because he likes you huh?"
Sora nodded. "Roxas you have no idea how long I've been crushing on him. It's amazing that he even knew who I was! I mean ever since that day in the locker room –"
"When he was high as fuck, by the way, I thought I should add that in there." I interrupted, and continued on. "And to why you never told me what happened between you guys that day, I'll never know."
Sora began to blush, which is something he usually does when we talk about Riku.
I decided to press on. "Why didn't you tell me anyways?"
Sora looked like he was fiddling with his thumbs, which is something he does when he is nervous.
"I don't want to talk about it. Besides," His voice went from very deep to high pitched, which worried me a bit as to what they did in the locker rooms. "I'm seeing you now! Tell me how it is over there! Any cute guys that you met?"
And then it hit my face. I knew I was blushing because I looked away.
"Oh… I want to know everything."
Sora always knew when I was having guy trouble, or if there was a guy involved. It's his fucking gift to detect if something is wrong.
"His name is Axel."
"Axel what?" Sora asked right after.
I noticed his hand moving, but I ignored it and continued on.
"I don't know because he's so fucking mysterious. I don't know anything about him and it annoys me so much. I mean, the first day I met him, he insulted me, and then told me that I was a piece of work."
"Ooo, it sounds like he was flirting with you."
"Yeah well, he's a big dickhead." I began to remember just an hour ago, and what happened in the cafeteria. "He told everyone that I made a move on him, and that we got it on."
"Ouch, his cuteness just went down."
"Yeah," I started getting worked up. "But then get this, when I confronted him about it, he just looked me in the eye, and said," And I tried to do my best impression of him when he said this. "'I'm sorry'"
I saw Sora's jaw drop.
"I know right? All he said was he was sorry and I'm flipping my shit!"
"No! This guy is fucking hot!"
I looked at Sora confused. "How do you know what he –?"
"Oh my god Roxas, you hit the jackpot!"
And then I realized what he was doing.
"You did not just Face Book stalk Axel."
"I did, and right now I'm looking at all his photos, DAMN!"
"Will you please be a normal human being and just ask me what he looks like?" I almost yelled in embarrassment, covering my hands in my face.
"Whoa, whoa, his hot factor just went up."
I looked up at Sora and he's lurking eyes.
"What." I asked in a one-voice tone.
"He's a writer. Like, almost a legit poet. That or these are really good song lyrics. Hold up." I heard the song of keys being pushed one after another in a steady rhythm. "Yup, these are song lyrics. And they are to your favorite band."
I sighed. "You should get paid to stalk people."
Sora shrugged. "Suit yourself. They're Anberlin lyrics."
My eyes went wide. No way does he have Anberlin lyrics as his Face Book statuses. There is no fucking way that is possible. They only time you met someone who knows the band Anberlin is at their concerts, not out in the real world. That is not true.
"See for yourself." Sora puts a link to his Face Book page, and I'm tempted to click on it as fast as I can so I can see that it is true, but I don't.
"I'm not going to Face Book stalk him. That's just ridiculous."
Sora grins. "Oh, the shit he posts on here. I think he wrote one about you."
And then all sense of respect and not stalking people flew out the window. I clicked on that damn link like my life depended on it, and I waited anxiously as his profile came up. The first thing I saw was his picture, which was a full body length of him with a leather jacket on, some skinny ass tight jeans, shades, and then his defied fire red hair sticking up in different places.
My pants felt uncomfortably tight, which was not good because I was going to this guy in just a couple of minutes.
"Um, I don't mean to break up your masturbation moment, but you should scroll down to the third status he posted today."
I remembered that Sora could see me and my staring, so I did as instructed and scrolled down. Sure enough, I saw a post that would make my emotions go crazy.
"That moment, you took my breath away. Blondie, you have no idea what you've done (;"
"WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK?" I yelled out. It was the first thing I could process to say. I couldn't understand what I just read, so I re-read, and then re-read again, and then once more. What just happened? I can't even imagine as to if he was referring to me, or some celebrity. I wanted to believe it was me, but I didn't know.
I cleared my throat, and straighten myself on my bed, sitting Indian style.
"I don't know what he is talking about." I told Sora in the calmest tone I could process.
Sora gave me a confused look, and then chuckled right after.
"Oh Roxas, you have it bad for this guy… I want candid picture okay?"
"Sora? Who are you talking to?" a voice in the back round was heard. My heart stopped, and I saw Sora clicking away, probably hiding the Skype tag.
"Just a second dad!" I didn't breathe once I heard Sora say who it was. I saw Sora get up and take a shirt from his bed and put it over his preppy collared shirt. He fixed his hair a bit, and then sat back down, as if he was doing homework. I sat back, holding my breath as the word 'Dad' was the last thing I heard. What if Sora gets caught talking to me? What will happen? Oh no…
"Come in." Sora said in the straightest voice he could manage. Sora gave me a glance, and then turned to look at my father coming in.
I saw him enter Sora's room, hands in his pockets, calm, not like how I last remembered him. He walked over to Sora, and glanced at his computer screen.
"What are you up to?" He asked normally.
Sora shrugged. "Homework, that's all."
"You were talking to someone earlier."
"I was talking to myself." Sora tried to look confident in lying to him, but even I could tell he wasn't convincing.
"I heard another person's voice."
My dad was right in front of Sora's computer screen, and I saw my dad face to face for the first time. He wasn't angry; he just looked like how I remembered him before.
"I was pretty sure I heard another person's voice. You're not hiding a girl in the closet are you?"
My jaw dropped, and I had to cover my mouth from snorting of laughter.
"No dad, no girl is here." I saw Sora's face towards me, which almost made me laugh, but I kept it in.
I then saw my Dad leave the computer screen and towards the door. I saw Sora's face, and he mouthed for me to get off. But it was too late.
"Roxas, hurry up!" Riku called from the outside of my door.
It wasn't a second later that I froze, and I heard my dad's voice. "What the hell –" My dad's voice increasing, and I quickly sighed off, closing my computer afterwards.
Riku opened my door, and stared at me in the darkness of my room. I didn't even know that he had been that long since I Riku left to go get ready for the party. It must have been an hour or so…
But my thoughts kept going back Sora, and how I left him by himself to handle my dad's wrath. I sighed, and lowered my head, gripping my hair in my hands. What have I done?
"Roxas, are you okay?" Riku asked.
"Ri, I don't want to go, okay? I think I'm just going to sleep. I don't feel too good."
"Roxas, just because Axel said those things doesn't mean everyone –"
"It's not about that. I just want to sleep okay? It's been a long day."
I heard Riku sigh, and then tell me "Okay, goodnight."
And then I pushed my computer off my bed, putting it on the floor, and pulling the covers on me, closing my eyes. It scared me to think what happened to Sora, and I hoped for him to text me, or call that he was okay. I needed to know that he was okay. I just laid there, thinking what happened after.
Then, my hope of relief came. My phone vibrated somewhere in my covers, and it scared me. I search nervously around for it, and once I found it, I saw that it was from my mom. My heart raced, but I quickly opened the text.
Hi sweetie. I wanted to let you know Sora's fine. He made up something that he recorded your voice so that he could hear it often. Your father believed it, but then took away his phone for the rest of the night. I knew you would be worried about him so that's why I'm texting you. Sora says that he will talk to you tomorrow. I hope you're safe, and well. I love you honey, and have a good night's sleep. Talk to you soon.
P.S. I would like to hear more about this boy (: Good night.
I cried. I fucking cried, and I wasn't ashamed of it. Sora was alright, so everything was alright in the world. I curled up in my bed, and hugged my phone. It was at this moment I appreciated my mother, and all that she did for me and my brother. I loved so much, and I wanted to talk to her so badly.
With shaking hands, I texted back to her, saying that I'm fine, and that I love both her and Sora, and that I'd tell her about Axel when I find out myself. I pressed send, and cried once again.
It wasn't a moment later, that my door flung open, and I looked up to find Riku back in my doorway.
"Roxas, I just want to let you know that –"
I think the sound of my sob frightened him, and it didn't take him another second to walk over to me, and hug me. He didn't ask about anything, or as to why I was crying. All he did was hug me, and rub my back, telling me that everything was going to be fine.
Riku stayed with me that night. Out of the rules we put out, he slept on the floor. I woke up that morning and smiled to myself, as I was in the presence of a true friend. One thing I know now was that Riku was a light sleeper, so when I got out of bed, he woke up right after. I told it was fine, and that he needed to go back to bed. He nodded in his daze, and did so, falling back asleep. I quietly grabbed my towel, and walked over to the showers. I didn't even know what time it was, but I still wanted to keep quiet. I put my stuff in a cubby, and my towel on the shower door. My shaking hands turned on the water, and as I was waiting for the water to get a bit warmer, I started taking off my clothes. A moment later I took off my shirt, I heard the door creak open. I freaked out, and looked quickly to the door to see who it was. All I saw was the door slightly moving, and that was enough to scare me. I then waited a moment to continue on with my pants, but then I didn't want to risk it. I reached my hand out to feel the water, and when I decided to go in, I quickly took off my pajama pants and went into the shower. When I felt it was safe, I took off my boxers, and dropped them outside of the shower door.
That rest of my morning shower felt so uncomfortable. I constantly had to look over my back to see if anyone was there. When I heard the door open, I had to keep telling myself that it was probably the time where all the other guys woke up and took showers. I being a fucking early bird just took a shower early. I finished my shower, and then quickly got my towel and went straight to my cubby to get my shit, and get out of that damn restroom.
I literally ran to my room, probably waking up Riku as I did. I panted, and Riku caught my eye as he sat up, rubbing his eyes. I took this moment to go to my closet and change as quickly as possible.
"Good Morning." Riku said in a deep tone. He probably just woke up.
"Hey." I said out of breath.
I heard Riku get up, get his things, and walk to the door.
"We'll get breakfast in a sec; I just got to shower first."
And then he left. I let out a sigh that I was apparently holding, and I fell to the ground, naked. I had no idea what just happened, but God knows if that happens again, I'm not going to shower in that place again. I'll clean that stupid bathroom if it kills me. There is no way I'm going back into that shower place.
After a quick breakfast, I race back to my dorm room to get ready to clean that shit hole. By this time everyone knows I'm cleaning it, and I don't give a fuck what they think. My response back to it is "Hey, another free bathroom." Of course after I said this, many of the guys stay quiet, and jut carry on with what they are doing. While on the way back, Riku and I were cornered by none other than Axel.
"Hey there Blondie," Hey, it's better than being called 'Roxy' or my own name. Those words just do wonders to my emotions. "Why weren't you at the kickback yesterday?" His smile made me want to punch his face in, yet I wanted to smile back.
I gave him a serious look, and continued on walking with Riku.
"Roxas!" I heard him call to me.
"Don't look back Roxas." Riku whispered to me. "Just keep walking."
And did such a thing; I kept walking, ignoring my name being called and the close footsteps that followed. It was when my arm was being pulled back ever so gently, yet with a bit of force that I was forced to look into his eyes; Those big damn green forest like eyes.
"Roxas, are you okay?" Axel asked in his tone that makes me rethink everything that is right.
No! I most certainly am not okay! You ruin everything! Well, not everything, but…
"I don't like you." I say softly.
I see his eyes grow big, and then a smile forms on his face, indicating that I pleased him for the day. I noticed what I had just said, and think to myself that I can never let that happen again.
I begin to walk back to the direction I was heading, but then Axel steps right in front of me, still smiling.
"You were thinking about me, huh?" He asks in a low tone.
What is this guy, a fucking mind reader? Great, now even my thoughts aren't safe.
"Oh Roxy," Axel started speaking in his tone, taking steps forward to me, making me walk backwards. "I come up in your head a lot don't I? I seem to have that effect of people."
"Will you just leave me alone?" I ask in a soft tone. I felt my cheeks flushing, but I ignored it. Right now, even though he was super amazing gorgeous right now harassing me, I felt my body tensing, and it was something that seemed almost similar to what I experienced with Hayner.
"What got you thinking about me again?"
A group of guys laughed from the bushes where Axel stood before.
"Axel, can you go dick around with someone else?" Riku came in. I bet he saw my face, and that he knew that I was about to get furious.
"Why? So I can leave you with my precious Blondie here? No-way."
I felt my body tensing all over, and know I knew that I was about to explode on Axel. I felt my thought clearing away, and I all I knew was that I wanted to go back to my dorm, and get other things done. But, no, of course this asshole has to be right in front of me, gawking at me with his enormous eyes, and big stupid smile. I felt my feeling towards him go away, because no I knew that I would never ever go out with someone like him. It was fucking ridiculous.
"So Roxy, wanna answer my question?" He pressed on.
I looked at him, and it took everything I had to walk away and not leave him with a broken nut.
"Hey Roxas, I'm asking you something!"
And the moment he grabbed my arm was the moment I realized that I was done.
My instincts came in, and I pushed his chest. I saw the expression on his face, and it was pure shock. The people around us stood silent, and they waited for what was to happen next.
"You," I started, and I pointed at him while I spoke. "Do not fucking touch me ever again."
Axel was still shocked, and he just stood there, jaw open.
I looked at him, admiring him for one last time, and began walking away. I felt Riku's astonishment, but I ignored it. We both knew something was going to happen if Axel had said anything else. Hell, it would have been a Hayner repeat situation.
Riku and I walked back to our building safely. Axel didn't follow us after, and I'm glad he didn't. It's only been two fucking days that I've been here, and I already liked/hated the same person. It brought comfort to myself that I was starting to notice when I was about to lose my temper. That way, I don't accidently kill people when I am on my rampage.
I threw myself on my bed, leaving Riku to stand up and watch me.
"You have to explain yourself." He flatly stated.
I shrugged. "Explain about what?"
"Um, let's see here." He walked around the room as if he was thinking really hard, but I knew he was being sarcastic. "Oh yeah! Explain how you were crying all night, and that I had to stay here with you! Oh, and let's not forget what just happened 10 minutes ago. Oh how could I forget that! You went off on Axel, which I applaud you for doing so." Riku lifted his hands in the air, and then began speaking. "I mean, are you on your rag?"
I sighed, and laid on my back. "Last night I was talking to Sora on Skype."
I saw Riku's face light up. He was about to speak, but I didn't let him.
"May I remind you that I have not seen or heard him for a whole fucking day? My own brother, Riku, and you got to talk to him before I did. How do you think that made me feel?" Riku looked away from me, and put a strand of hair away from his face. I lifted my hands, and rested them on the back of my head. "My dad came in on the web chat and he almost got caught talking to me. He's okay now, but it just freaked me out to think that something might have happened to him because of me."
Riku shoved his hands in his pockets. "Roxas I had no idea."
"And I thank you for not questioning me about it. So, thanks."
Riku smiled at me. "Anytime bro."
We stayed quiet for another second, and then I saw him begin to speak, which indicated the change of topic. Here we go.
"Axel's a dick. I've just come to now realize this."
"Yeah, well Roxas you shouldn't have pushed him. You don't what he is capable of doing."
I pointed a finger to my face. "Does it look like I give a fuck?"
Riku chuckled, but then continued. "You should. You don't know what he did to get here."
I sat up on my bed. "Let me guess, he robbed a bank?"
Riku shook his head. "It's even worse."
My face got serious, and for a second I was concerned for him. But then I quickly stopped feeling sorry for him, and continued being mad.
"Well I don't care. He keeps harassing me, and I don't like it."
"That's Axel; you just have to learn how to deal with it."
"Well, I hope he knows that I don't want to mess around with him. Besides, look what he did to me on my first day here!"
Riku gave me a weird glance. "Technically, your first day doesn't start until tomorrow. But Roxas you have to know that all of that was for fun."
And then it struck me. "Why are you defending him?"
Riku looked like he tensed, and that he was suddenly caught with something. His expression stayed that way until a moment later when my door flung open. To my utter shock, it was Axel, breathless, and still in a state of shock.
"I don't know what you're talking about…" Riku spoke quickly. "But all I know is that you like him and then you pushed him, which wasn't a very wise thing to do."
"What the hell is he going to do?"
Riku stayed quiet. "Fine, find out on yourself. But next time when you get the urge to push him, don't say I didn't warn you."
Riku's warning still stayed in my head as I got ready to finish the other half of the shower. I didn't want anyone to know that I was cleaning the restroom, so the door was kept closed. My arms were sore, and I was beginning to sweat. The heat of the water was getting a bit too hot, so I had no choice but to take of the shirt I was wearing. I took a moment to admire my muscles, or lack of muscles, and I shrugged. I need to hit the gym, because the flabbiness I was looking at right now was not at all attractive. I began cleaning on the last shower in the restroom. It was just this one, and then I would be finished. For some reason I had not seen Zexion or Demyx at all. My thoughts began to wonder about if those too were going together. It made me laugh to think that they would ever be together. It would never happen.
The last spec of grime was a bitch to get off. It was like glued to the tile. Okay yeah, but I mean come 'on, who the fuck doesn't at least keep up the hygiene of a restroom? That's just ridiculous.
I took a moment to relax my arms because they were aching like crazy. I tried to breathe in fresh air, but all I got was chemicals into my lungs. I didn't really care at this moment. Maybe I should get a good high right now…. Besides, I've had a long weekend filled with crazy shit.
I started breathing in all the chemicals that was in the air: CLR, Windex, Clorox, and anything else that was in the air. I felt my head to become a bit dizzy, and I was thinking I was losing it too because I could have sworn I heard the door open. If you get high this easily on chemicals, then I should keep this in mind.
I was pretty sure I was high when I saw the shower door open, and I saw a person sticking their head into the shower. The heat and mist of the shower didn't allow me to see the face that was lurking in. I could picture the state I was in: Standing in the shower, chest exposed, hair all wet, and clothes soaked. May I remind you that when your clothes are wet, everything is exposed, even things that are under your clothes? Yeah, okay.
I blinked my eyes a few times, and then moved my hands around in front of me to blow away the mist. Now, I officially knew I was high when I saw those big fucking green eyes staring right back at me. Now I'm hallucinating because I'm thinking about a hot steamy dream of Axel. It's always a hot sexy dream when steam is involved; it's like the dream logic.
Like an idiot, I kept waving my arms around, as if telling him to go away. It was when I touched him that I realized I'm not hallucinating.
He was the real deal.
He is really there in the shower.
He is really coming in the shower to look me in the eye.
I suddenly felt all my senses come back, and this was the moment I took to realize that I wasn't fucking high, I was thinking too much.
"I should punish you for pushing me in front of everyone." He spoke softly, but loud enough for me to hear under the rushing water.
I swallowed hard, and looked at him. "See if I care." I tried sounding menacing, but it came out as a little boy trying to sound tough.
Axel smiled his wicked smile. "Oh Roxy, I love seeing you try to be all bad."
All my shit was flipped when Axel stepped into the shower, making me step into the water. The hot water stung my back, but at this moment I didn't care. All I knew was that this was the closest I've ever been to Axel, and it freaked me the hell out.
No, correction; it didn't freak me out, it turned me on.
"I'm not scared of you –"
"Oh, yes you are." He spoke in the voice that would turn my legs into jelly. "Now, I'm going to tell you what I do to boys who try to mess with me."
His face leaned in closer to mine, and I held my breathe. "I mess with them back..."
The next thing I knew was Axel leaning in closer towards my face. The only emotion that was able to function properly was fear, which took over my reaction. Hell, it took over everything in me. Instead of standing there like any normal person would when they are about to be kissed, I fucking slip on a flat surface and fall ass first into the ground. Want to know the worst part? I grab onto Axel as I fall down.
My bottom is throbbing, and I try not to show my pain, but I couldn't help. The only thing that made the situation better was Axel laughing in the background. I catch his face, and he is laughing hysterically that his whole face turns red. I crack a smile, and lift myself up with my hands holding me up. He looks at me with a smile that was genuine, and it suited him more than the wicked smile he usually gives me. It then became quiet and serious seconds later. Axel's eyes were only focused on my lips, as was mine. He lifted himself up, for what I thought at first was a movement to take off his shirt. Instead, he opens his legs to settle one in between my legs, and one on the outside. He then lowers his body down onto me, his chest touching mine. I felt him move forward a bit, creating just the slightest friction. But holy hell that friction drove me wild. His face then began to linger along with mine. Not once did his lips touched my face, but just ghosted around it. He then stopped and looked me straight into the eye, having me to look back at him.
Axel took one last shaky breath, and he leaned his face towards me. This was it. I was about to kiss Axel in a fucking shower. From the looks of it, we were just going to do more than just kiss in the shower. This was the moment I thought I would lose my virginity in a shower, the deadliest place to have sex. To why this is true I will never know, but what I do know is Axel is about to kiss me.
And right when I think he does, something happens.
"Roxas!" Riku calls from the outside of the hall. "Hey Roxas?"
Axel sighs and his breath lingers on my face, which leaves me with eyes wide open trying to process a single thought. He then lowers his head to the side on my neck, and bangs the wall behind me. He gives me one last look, and then lifts himself up and leaves.
Just like that. As if nothing happened.
That dick.
"Roxas?" Riku's voice echoes throughout the bathroom.
I try and catch my breath, and my mind goes off and processes everything that has just happened.
What kind of person does that? Be a total jerk, then seduce you through voice, and then actually tries to seduce you in a fucking shower, then just straight up leaves? Axel was becoming mysterious by the minute, and now it was pissing me off.
"Roxas, are you okay?" Riku asks me.
I'm still shocked myself, but manage to answer him as calmly as I could.
"I honestly don't know anymore."
