Tell Me the Truth

Early the next morning Emily and Aaron where watching TV, each enjoying just being in the presence of the other. While he didn't want to break the peaceful silence they were enjoying but there was something he wanted talk about.

"You don't have to put on a brave face for me; I want to know how you are really feeling both physically and mentally. I know you are still in shock and you need to rest but when you are ready I will be right here and I just want you to tell me the truth."

"I promise, no secrets if something hurts I will tell you even if it results in a trip to the hospital." She said squeezing his hand.

"Are you sure you are feeling alrigth because you don't sound like the Emily I know." Hotch said playfully.

"Shut up" she said with a laugh "I want to go back to work as soon as I can and I know you will never let me go back until you are convinced I am in perfect condition so for now Agent Hotchner I will play your game." She said with a grin.

"Ah there is the Emily I know and love." He said with a smile. They turned their attention back to the TV the peaceful silence returning once again.

After a little while they were joined by the rest of the team who all managed to find a place to sit in the room which was a tricky feat even with Hotch sitting on the Bed with Emily.

"The jet should be ready to leave whenever the doctor releases Emily" JJ informed them.

"That's good because I would really like to go home." Emily said though she didn't add that it would be Hotch's home she was going to not her own.

"We finished all the paper work so you don't have to worry about anything." Morgan added.

"Did we ever find out why he did this?" Emily asked

The rest of the group looked at each other they hadn't decided how much they should tell Emily. They all looked at Hotch silently leaving the decision up to him.

"Emily I'm not sure it's a good idea you to hear any of this, I think you should just concentrate of moving on and getting better."

"No Aaron I want to know, I need to know, I will always wonder if you don't tell me and I don't think I can get closure unless I know about him." No one commented on the fact that she was now calling him Aaron, after what happened and the feeling they both had shared it wasn't surprising.

"Okay" he said taking her hand "But if you start to get too worked up then I am pausing this little session of profiling, I don't want you making your injuries worse, agreed?"

"Agreed" she said with a smile, part of her liked this protective side of Hotch though that would likely only last a few days and if he thought he could be this protective once she was better he had another thing coming.

"Okay" Rossi said "He had a huge number of journals going back at least twenty years not to mention he had plans and detailed drawings of his plans all over the place."

"It appears from his journals that from a small age he and his mother had an incestuous relationship that continued until she died. She would read him fairy tales and molest, him so in his mind the two became linked sexually." Morgan continued, he knew that each of them could have gone into more detail about everything they knew and found out but Emily only needed the basics.

"In his journals it is clear that he hated every woman except his mother, she was the only woman he ever loved. It is likely that she turned him against women telling him they were bad and dirty and he was only meant for her. She wanted to make sure that she would be the only woman in his life." Reid stated.

"The journals contain all his fantasies for hurting women as he got older they become much more detailed. He refined them into the murders he ended up committing. The classes he took were all classes that he needed to pull off these murders, which was his only reason for taking them." Morgan told her.

"These thoughts remained fantasies until his mother died a little over a month ago that was the stresser that is why he started to kill. He no longer had an outlet for his sexual feelings and hurting women turned him on." Rossi finished.

"Also in the journals he wrote about the murders, he took notes of what worked and what he didn't like and the changes he wanted to make." Reid said without thinking, though he immediately received glares from everyone in the room except Emily who looked like she was about to throw up.

"I think that is enough Reid" Hotch growled, Rossi had told him about that particular part of the journals while Emily had been sleeping but he had hoped to keep that information from Emily as long as possible.

"What did he write" She asked.

"Emily I don't think now is the right time for that, later once you are all healed up if you still want to know then I will tell you." Hotch said stroking her arm.

She began to protest but Rossi stopped her. "Kiddo Aaron's right you don't need to know that stuff right now." Morgan and JJ nodded in agreement.

She decided to let it go for now but there were still other things she wanted to know. "Fine but at least tell me this one thing; he said Snow White was his favorite, why?"

"Apparently his mother looked like Snow White" Reid said sheepishly earning another glare from Hotch.

"So he thought I looked like his mother?" Emily asked as a wave of anxiety flowed through her and the tears began to pool in her eyes.

"Em do not think about that right now you are here and he is dead that is what is important." Hotch whispered to her. His presence helped her calm her breathing and so she asked the last thing she wanted to know.

"What was he planning on doing after he killed me? He made it sound like I was some type of finale but men like him don't stop killing."

"He was planning on starting over in a different city; he listed a lot of different cities in the journals. It looks like he was going to spread out and go to closes major city abduct women bring them home and then dump their bodies he already had the dump sites planned out. Once he got too far away he planned to rent property, his plans covered most of the country. He was going to move from city to city, he had been planning this for a really long time. We saved a lot of women's lives when we stopped him." Rossi told her hoping to make her feel a little better and not dwell on all the horror.

"Thank you for telling me and I know it is wrong but thank you for killing him I'm not sure I could live knowing he was still out there even if he was in jail." Emily said with a few tears still in her eyes.

"So how are you feeling honestly" JJ asked.

"Well everything still hurts a lot but I can tell that a few of the smaller cuts are healing because they are starting to get itchy. I am not sure what is worse the pain or the desire to scratch and not being able to." That made everyone smile. "This cast is going to get annoying really quick too it is already starting to itch as well."

"We can all sign our names to it if that would help" Morgan joked.

"Yeah right like I would trust you with a permeate marker near me, no I think I can survive without your graffiti on it I'm not in fifth grade anymore."

"Oh hey before I forget again there is someone else you need to say hi to" JJ said pulling out her phone "I got in trouble when I didn't let Garcia talk to you last night"

"Are you still trying to apologize for what you said to her the other day?" Morgan asked.

"No I promised she could play with Henry as much as she wanted when we get home." JJ answered.

"See I told you so" Emily Whispered to Hotch and just smiled in response. The two had talked more about JJ and Garcia earlier and Emily was sure all JJ had to do was use Henry to get back on Pen's good side, Hotch was skeptical he thought it would take more.

"Penelope I have Emily here and she can't wait to talk to you." JJ said into the phone.

"Hey Pen how are you?" Emily asked

"Oh My God Emily are you ok? I am so glad you are alive, it is so good to hear your voice, don't ever do that to me again okay." Garcia practically yelled through the speaker phone of JJ's cell phone.

"I'm fine and it's really good to hear your voice too, I am sorry you had to see that and trust me I hope to never do it again."

"How are you really feeling are they giving you the good pain meds?" she asked with a laugh.

"Oh they are giving me a lot of drugs though I am not sure if any of them are good but they are keeping most of the pain away so I can't complain. Everything hurts but I hope to heal quickly. Did you hear they are letting me out later this afternoon so we should all be home tonight?"

"That's great I wanted to fly out but Morgan said to just wait that you would be home soon though tonight isn't soon enough but I am so happy you are alive. Will you be okay on the plane with all the bumps and bruises and whatnot?"

"I should be just fine don't worry Pen nothing is going to stop me from getting home as soon as possible."

"Okay well I will let you rest and hopefully that they will let you out soon and Promise me that I will get to see you get home, sometime soon don't make me wait a long time."

"Sounds good."

And with that the two said goodbye and the line went dead. They were all silent for a while until Emily spoke up.

"I just want to say I am so sorry that you had to watch what happened I never wanted any of you to have to see that." Emily said to the entire team, she had tears in her eyes once more.

"Hey no don't you dare worry about that, you didn't do that you didn't do any of it. The Unsub hurt you and he turned that camera on for us to watch. None of this is your fault don't you are feel guilty about any of it. You survived that is all that matters." Rossi said moving to her side and patting her leg. He would have grabbed her hand but the only one free was encased in a plaster cast.

"Thanks" she whispered taking a few breathes.

It was then that she realized that everyone had moved closer to the bed when she was talking to Garcia. She suddenly felt trapped and unable to breathe like everything was closing in around her. She tried taking a few deep breaths but it didn't help it was actually getting worse and she was getting close to panicking she had no idea what was happening but she wanted it to stop.

Hotch noticed the change in Emily right away, she had a look of panic on her face and she kept taking deep breaths. She was also trying to move away from all the people who were now surrounding her bed. Realizing that she was getting claustrophobic he immediately took action.

"Why don't we give Emily some room I think we might be smothering her at the moment." The group immediately moved away from her. Even Hotch moved to the chair next to the bed forcing Morgan to stand next to him though he continued to hold her hand. She had made no attempt to let go and he took that as a good sign.

Soon Emily's breathing returned to normal and the panic had disappeared. But she was getting tired and against her will she began to fall asleep. "Its okay Em" Hotch said when he noticed her yawning and shutting her eyes. "They aren't going to let you out till late this afternoon why don't you get some more sleep." She nodded in response and soon she was asleep once again.

Once she was asleep everyone but Hotch decided to go get some food and get their bags from the hotel so they would be ready to go when Emily was released. JJ promised to get both Hotch and Emily's stuff including Emily's cell phone which was still in evidence at the police station.

Aaron Hotchner just sat there stroking her hand thankful that the drugs where allowing her to sleep peacefully. The more sleep she got in the hospital better because he knew once they got home the nightmares would soon invade her dreams.

A/N They are all going home to Virginia I felt that it didn't do the story justice to end it here I felt obligated to show at least some of Emily's recovery so that Emily and Hotch could have a real happy ending, I hope no one minds. I hope you enjoy that chapter and thanks for the reviews because I enjoy them very much.