I Want You
He went to her apartment first and retrieved her mail that had been piling up for a week and a half and then headed inside. He went straight to her bathroom and packed up just about everything her could find. He took specific care to get her toothbrush and toothpaste. There were several different types of shampoo and conditioners and instead of picking which ones he thought she would want he took them all.
He also decided to take her body wash and lotion with him. He wasn't sure if she could or would need them but he figured that when it came to these things it was better to be safe and not sorry. He grabbed her mouth wash and deodorant as well. He then looked around the bathroom checking to see if he had missed anything, once he was satisfied that he hadn't, he moved onto the bedroom.
Hotch didn't have too much trouble finding her over sized t-shirts and he decided to take a few of her sweatpants and PJ's with him just in case they were lucky and the clothes would fit her. He knew she acted excited to wear his pants but he was pretty sure she would be more comfortable and relaxed in her own clothes.
At first he felt a bit weird going through her clothes but once that wore off he was kind of happy. She trusted him to go into her apartment without her to get her thing and pick out movies for her to enjoy. She was always so trusting of him, more trusting than he thought he deserved given his previous actions towards her. She always saw more potential in him than he ever saw in himself. That made him love her more and he was happy that he had come to his senses and allowed her into his life completely.
He moved onto her books, there were about eight books stacked up next to her bed, he took those and then went to the bookshelf in the corner of her bedroom and looked for her Kurt Vonnegut books. Based on her reaction on the plane he thought that she might like having some of her favorite books with her.
Then came the part he was most concerned about. Choosing movies from her DVD collection. He decided to stick with popular well know movies that he had heard of and stay away from the ones he didn't. He knew he was playing it a bit safe but this could be considered the first test of him as a romantic companion and he didn't want to screw up too badly.
He took a few from all the major genre, Transformers one and two, Ironman, the Hangover, Caddyshack, Pride and Prejudice, and While you were Sleeping. The only Disney movie he took was Miracle and to make up for playing it safe he grabbed all six seasons of Sex and the City and the movie. He would even agree to watch them with her, though in all truth and honesty he would probably be surreptitiously looking at a case file or something else work related. He was human after all and could only take so much.
He had filled up several bag worth of her stuff and it took him two trips to get it all down to the car. He then headed to the grocery store, he picked up every type of soft food for her that he could think of: applesauce, Jello, pudding, soup and broth; fruit juices and sports drinks to help keep her hydrated; and oatmeal and bread for toast when she had a bit more of an appetite. He got her both chocolate ice cream and Popsicle as a fun treat. He also bought more of the basics like milk and cereal for him and Jack, hoping that she would be joining them in eating those things soon. His trip took him longer than he had hoped for and he tried to get back to her as quickly as he could.
When he got back from her apartment and the store it was about 9 pm and Emily was still fast asleep. He really wanted to just let her sleep but she hadn't eaten anything since the hospital which was about six hours ago. She didn't have much of an appetite because of the shock her body had gone through and all the pills she was taking. But she needed to eat to help her heal and on top of that it was time for her to take more antibiotics and she needed to take those with food. He set to work warming up a simple chicken broth for her; he didn't want to try anything too complex on the first night home.
When it was done he put the broth in an over sized coffee mug and carried it into the bedroom grabbing her antibiotics along the way. He put the cup on his night stand then sat down on the bed next to her and gently woke her.
Her eyes fluttered open. "You're back" she said trying to sit up, he helped prop up the pillows to make it easier for her to sit.
"I got all the stuff you wanted and the fridge is now stocked so I thought you might like to have something to eat it is just some basic chicken broth" He said handing her the giant mug. "You might want to blow on it first it is still quite warm."
"Could you have found a bigger mug?" She said, she wasn't all that hungry and she was a little concerned about being able to drink it all.
"Just try and drink as much as you can. Plus you need to take you next dose of antibiotics."
"Ugh" she said "I hate them already, they make me feel like I am going to throw up."
"I know but you only have to take the bad ones for ten more days so keep that in mind and that is the reason you are taking them with food so that they will upset your stomach less."
"Right, ten more days. Did you get ice cream maybe if I have some of that with the drugs it might work better?" She said with a hopeful look.
"I did get ice cream but I think maybe we should wait till tomorrow you were just complaining about how much broth I brought you. Tomorrow will be a good day we will wash your hair and eat some ice cream."
"I suppose I can live with that, and who would have thought two weeks ago that a fun day would be eating ice cream and washing my hair." She said with a tiny laugh.
"Just think of how exciting it will be when you start eating solid food again."
"Ha ha you think you are so funny that must be one of your mildly funny jokes. So tell me what movies you did you bring back?"
"I got a little bit of everything Comedy, Action, Chick flicks, I even grabbed all you Sex and the City Dvds and on top of that I will be willing to watch it with you."
"Sure you will with a case file on the side to get you through them right? I see that no dramas made the trip or did you just forget to mention those."
"I thought we had enough drama of our own for a little while." He said ignoring the earlier comments because they both knew it was true.
"I would have to agree with you wise decision." They were quiet for a little while she sat there taking sips of the broth, after several mouthfuls she held out her hand and he placed several pills in it.
"We'll wait a little while before giving you more pain pills."
"That's good I don't want any of them yet they put me to sleep if you hadn't noticed and I would like to stay awake with you a little longer."
"That is fine but try and remember that you need to sleep, it is helping you get better.
"I just want to curl up and sleep this away but I can't actually curl up and I know that even if I could, it wouldn't work. I know that I have to come to terms with what happened, I am just having trouble figuring out how to deal with it."
"Well maybe you should try talking about it first it doesn't have to be with me, anyone of the team would gladly volunteer."
"No I want to talk to you, I trust you, I can't actually think of anyone I would rather talk to about this, I want you if that's ok?"
"I will always be here for you, you know that right?"
"Yeah I know." She said blowing on the broth and then taking a sip of it. They sat there in silence while she finished the rest of it; once she was done she put the mug on the night stand. Resting her head on his shoulder she decided it was time to talk about a few things.
"He hit me from behind, I never heard to saw him coming." She said quietly.
"Emily do not blame yourself for this, you didn't do anything wrong."
"I am an FBI agent, I should have heard him, I should have seen him, and above all I should have been able to fight and catch him. If I had done my job none of this would have happened."
"You did everything right, he was really good at surprising women, he had done it five times before you and none of those women did anything wrong either. If anyone other than the Unsub is to blame it is me. I don't want anything like this to happen to you or anyone again. I promise to never send you into a dark parking lot by yourself again."
"Aaron you cannot blame yourself it was not your fault."
"It was a little my fault, as a team in general, bad things tend to happen when we go off by ourselves, both Reid and JJ will agree with that. We don't split up very often but someone usually ends up hurt when we do and as the leader of this team I need to make sure we always go with a partner."
"I suppose that maybe true, but please don't blame yourself for this. I don't blame anyone but the Unsub." What she didn't say was that she still couldn't help but blame herself. "You know I don't even know his name."
"Does it matter he is dead he can't hurt you anymore."
"I don't know if it matters but part of me wants to know the name of the horrible person who hurt me. Also it felt like he didn't want me to know and because he didn't want to tell me, I want to know as though it would make me the winner."
"How about this, if you still think you need to know his name tomorrow then just ask and I will tell you, deal?"
"Deal" she said with a yawn.
"I think it is time for you to take more pain meds and sleep some more." He said reaching for more pills. She dutifully held out her hand and took the pills. She was feeling very tired and no longer felt like fighting him on the issue. He helped her lay back down and she tried her best to snuggle up next to him.
"I know I keep asking this but will you stay with me until I fall asleep. I am afraid that if I close my eyes this will be a dream and I will wake up back in that concrete cell.
"You don't have to ask I won't leave you. Didn't you say you wanted about fifty years out of me?" He gave her a light kiss as if to prove his point.
"Thank you for everything, I love you." She said closing her eyes.
"I love you too sleep tight. I will be here right next to you all night." He said as she gave into sleep.
It broke his heart to know she was now so afraid of being alone. Emily had always been strong and independent he hated that some Unsub had robbed her of some of that strength. He was prepared to do almost anything to get her back to the person she once was, but for now he would settle for laying there next to her helping her sleep.
A/N Sorry I didn't update yesterday daily events just got in the way but I am sorry. I hope you enjoy that chapter, Thank you all for continue to read and an extra thanks to those who review.
