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After school that day, Johan decided to go home since Judai was feeling awkward after their kiss-or whatever it was. He didn't want Judai to feel pressured so he told Judai that he had a project to work on and walked home.

Johan sat down on the couch and stared at his cell phone, trying to decide whether to call him or not.

When he thought he couldn't take it, he stood up and started pacing while gripping his hair.

Call him, a voice said.

No! Don't call him. You need a distraction.

His beautiful brown hair…

STOP IT!

He huffed and picked up his phone and dialed Asuka's number. Hopefully they could strike a conversation so he wouldn't have to think about you-know-who.

Meanwhile, Judai sat at the kitchen table and tried to figure things out.

Ok, he thought. First, I had a panic attack. Second, I had a…vision of loosing Johan. He couldn't help the shudder. Third, Johan took me to the nurse's office. And last, I…kissed him.

He shook his head. It wasn't a kiss. It was just a mistake. It didn't mean anything…right? He wasn't sure which one to believe. His head or his heart?

But his heart was already hurting. His heart had been ripped from his chest and stomped on when Megumi went away. He was lucky it was in good enough condition to keep beating.

And yet, it still wanted more. Or was it tricking him?

"DAMNIT!" he screamed as he banged his head on the table. "What's wrong with me?"

"Judai?"

His head snapped up.

Hiroshi walked in and ruffled his hair with a smile. "Hey, kiddo."

"You're home early."

"Yeah, it's been real crazy at work today and I told a little white lie to get out." He chuckled. "How was school?"

Judai swallowed the small lump in his throat. "It was, um…it was decent."

Hiroshi looked back at Judai but only to find him fumbling with his phone. He never heard him talk like that before. "Huh."

When dinner came, Judai grabbed a plate of food and excused himself from the table.

He walked up to Megumi's shrine. It seems like forever since he'd been there.

The brunette crouched down and took a bite. "Hey, Mom," he said after he swallowed. "I know its been long since I had dinner with you. Sorry. I just wanted to talk to you about something. Well, someone.

"Um, you remember Johan? Well, today at school, we kinda…kissed. But then I pushed him away 'cause I thought that was best to do. But now that I think about it, I'm starting to regret it. Or am I?"

He groaned. "I can't get my thoughts together. I mean, I know there's a part of me that's attracted to him but there's this other part and…I dunno. It scares me. I just don't know what to do." He sighed and took a slow bite of his food.

"Why can't you just come home? I could really use some of your wisdom right now. Please?"

He slowly finished his dinner and left the room silently.

THE NEXT DAY AT SCHOOL

Judai purposely arrived at school early. He sent a text to Johan telling him to meet him in the back where the woods were.

"Judai? Are you here?" Johan asked breathlessly. The minute he got the text, he threw himself out the door to meet the boy.

"Yeah," he croaked. He cleared his throat. "Over here."

The bluenette followed the sound of his voice and saw him sitting on one of the branches of the tree.

He jumped up and pulled himself up to Judai's height and sat down next to him. "Hey."

"Hey," Judai repeated. "We need to talk."

Johan bit his tongue to keep a sarcastic comment from coming out. No matter how much he might love the little brunette, he couldn't help but feel frustrated from his slightly slow brain functions. (A/N: sorry, I didn't mean to make it sound like an insult)

"You know…about yesterday-"

"Ju-chan, you don't have to explain yourself to me. I-"

"Yes, I do. You're my best friend." He paused to think of what he would say. "I know…I know that we may have kissed yesterday but I need you to know that it meant nothing. And it was nothing personal when I pushed you away."

Johan only nodded.

"And…I know you have feelings for me."

The European's eyes widened.

"And to be honest, I don't have a problem with it. But, you have to know that…it's literally impossible for you to make a move like that again."

"Why?" The question slipped out before Johan could stop it.

"Because…'cause you're gonna wreck everything." He closed his eyes and took a deep breath. "I'm broken. And you can't just take a roll of duct tape and put me back together."

Johan tilted his head as he listened further. This was the first time Judai had ever opened up like this.

"And…and I need you. For everything. And if you…if you go away…" he couldn't finish the sentence. He just shook his head and tried to push his tears back.

Johan scooted closer and hugged the brunette. "Judai, I need you to listen to me." He waited until he nodded. "I'm never going anywhere. I promise."

"Ok."

The first bell rand and the two of them hopped down and ran to homeroom.

And for the rest of the day, Judai and Johan were silent. They only spoke when absolutely necessary.

But right now, the two were just being with each other. They didn't need to talk or anything. They just needed to be.

Ok, I know that was a really short chapter. Sorry! Hopefully I'll do better next time. Stay tuned! Oh great, now I sound like a lame TV show lol. Review!

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