Ok, I would've waited until tomorrow to update but I got a lot of reviews asking me to update now. And I'm also extremely bored so I figured why not update early? Anyway, the fanfic's coming to an end. *pouts* It's the last chapter. I hope you enjoy it while it lasts!

Normally, I don't do chapter songs but when I was listening to this when I wrote this, I thought it was perfect.

Song: Breathe by Taylor Swift

ENJOY!

Johan sat in his room and traced his fingers over the spot that Judai had kissed.

Judai…

His name echoed in his head every minute. He loved him so much. But only if he had the guts to tell him. And he wasn't sure if the brunette was ready for it.

The last time he had built up the courage to confess his feelings, he had a panic attack and completely pushed him away. Sure, he shared a little bit more about his life but he refused to talk about any type of relationship except for friendship.

He sighed and ran a hand through his untamable hair. Then he lay down in his bed and fell asleep with Judai's name still echoing in his head.

The next morning, Johan woke up and stared at the calendar. Only one more week until summer.

He smiled. As much as he loved to learn, he was grateful for three months of freedom.

Johan grabbed his skateboard and went to Judai's house. It was a regular thing to go to school together.

The bluenette rang the doorbell and saw the door open. He expected a normal hello but what he got was a kiss.

Judai jumped out of the house and into Johan's arms and pulled him down into a warm and infuriating kiss.

Johan pulled away with wide eyes. Is this real? he asked himself. Is this all a dream?

Judai smiled. "I'm ready."

It a moment for the European to make sense of what he just said. He was ready to have a relationship. A relationship better than friendship.

Johan grinned and picked the boy up and kissed him again. "That's great!" he exclaimed. "I wasn't sure how much longer I could go without feeling your lips against mine."

Judai laughed.

DURING LUNCH

Judai and Johan entered the cafeteria holding hands.

"Hey, guys," Johan greeted.

"Hi," Asuka and Jim said together. Then they glared at each other.

"What's the matter? Are you guys in a fight or something?" Judai asked.

"No, it's a bet," Jim said.

"On what?"

"Nothing."

Johan cocked a brow. "O-kay?" He looked over at Judai but he only shrugged.

"Oh, Judai where's your lunch?" Asuka asked.

"I forgot my lunch money at home."

"I'll get you something, Ju-chan," Johan said as he stood up. Then he lightly kissed Judai on the lips.

"HA!" Asuka screeched. "I told you! Now pay up."

"Huh?"

"Jim and I were betting on how long it would take for you two to hook up. He said after school ended and I said before school ended. And I won! Now give me my five bucks."

The Aussi groaned and gave her a five dollar bill.

Johan rolled his eyes and went to buy Judai's lunch.

When he returned, Johan heard Jim talking about buying a gift for his mother's birthday and the bluenette saw the discomfort in Judai's eyes. So he quickly changed the subject but that didn't help one bit.

That same look stayed in his eyes and it broke Johan's heart.

After school, Judai was still distancing himself from his boyfriend.

"Judai, is something bothering you?" Johan asked already knowing that there is and what it is that's bothering him but he wanted to hear Judai say it for himself.

"Yeah," Judai said. "There is."

"What is it?"

"It's my mom."

"I thought we talked about this?"

"We did, but it still hurts."

Johan pulled him into a hug and kissed the top of his head. "I'm sorry."

"It's ok." He pulled away and looked at the door. "I should go, Hiroshi's probably waiting for me."

Johan nodded. "I'll see you later."

"Kay." Judai walked inside and went straight to his room. He hated this feeling. It was always in the way. It was always interfering with him and Johan. And frankly, it was pissing Judai off.

That weekend, Johan took Judai to the skating rink. It finally got his mind off of his mother and Johan was very pleased with himself.

Then after a good round of skating and joking, they went to Judai's favorite ice cream parlor and got their favorite flavors.

Strawberry for Johan and chocolate for Judai.

But after Johan dropped Judai off at his house, his depression came back. As usual.

So Judai sat in bed in the same position as always. Flat on his back and with his knees up.

There was only two days left of school. But Judai couldn't take feeling like this anymore. When would the ache in his heart heal?

He sighed and let sleep consume him.

Now it was Tuesday. Last day of school. No more essays, no more finals, no more bullies.

It was all over and Judai couldn't be happier. He just had last seven more hours.

The doorbell rang and he fetched his bike from the garage and answered the door to find no other than Johan standing there with his skateboard.

He leaned down and kissed the brunette and smiled. "Hey."

"Hi," Judai said as he blushed.

"You ready?"

"Yep, let's go."

When school ended, everyone ran out of the building screaming.

Judai was doing the moonwalk when he noticed Johan laughing at him. "What are you laughing at?"

"Nothing," he giggled. "You're just funny." Then he kissed him tenderly. "Oh, my mom's here. We're celebrating the first day of summer so I can't-"

"It's ok, go," Judai said as he faked a smile. The pain was back again when he saw Johan's mother. "I'll talk to you later, ok?"

"Ok." He left and got in the car with his mom.

Judai got on his bike and slowly rode home. He couldn't take it anymore. No matter where he went the pain would always come back in the end.

He walked into his room, grateful that Hiroshi wasn't home. He didn't want him to see his son like this.

Judai sighed and started talking to himself. It was something he did when he thought that Megumi would somehow hear him.

"Mom, I just realized something," he said. "You're really gone. And there's no bringing you back. The pain in my heart will never heal. Never. So what am I waiting for? It doesn't make sense." He sighed. "I love you, Mom."

He grabbed his phone and sent a text, knowing that he was breaking his promise when he said he would talk to him later.

He went downstairs and into the basement searching for the one thing he needed.

Would you like me to take over? Haou asked inside him.

"No," he spoke out loud. "I wanna do it myself. But thanks anyway."

No problem.

Judai smiled when he found it. He snatched it and walked outside and started to climb a tree. When he reached a branch that was at a reasonable height, he tied the rope to the branch and then the other end to his neck.

He closed his eyes and said a mental goodbye to everyone he ever cared about as a tear rolled down his face. Then he looked up and said, "Hello, Mom." Then he jumped and smiled as the oxygen stopped coming.

Black dots came into his vision and soon took over so he saw absolutely nothing. And then it just stopped. He couldn't even think about how happy he was. Because he wasn't there anymore.

LATER

Johan had just came home from dinner. He and his family went out to the fanciest restaurant that charged a glass of water for five bucks.

He went up to his room and checked his messages. He had gotten a text from Judai at four o'clock.

"Crap," he muttered. Hopefully the brunette wouldn't be mad at him for not responding. But that was until he read the message.

Johan, I hope that you're still celebrating so I don't have to face you afterwards. I just don't think I'd be able to handle your expression if I did.

I realized that this pain in my heart, will never go away. Not even if you try your very best to fill it. There will always be some gap that'll separate us forever. But please, don't take this personally. It's not you, it's me. And I'm not just quoting some lame romantic comedy.

I love you, Johan. And I'm sorry I never got the chance to tell you in person. I will always remember you. And I hope to see you again in a few years time.

But until then, this is goodbye.

J

"WHAT?" Johan ran out of the house, not bothering to tell his parents what was going on. He raced to Judai's house and ran in the house and saw Hiroshi staring out the window in the family room.

"Mr. Yuki!" he called with tears running down his face. "Please tell me it isn't true."

He turned around with red eyes. He shook his head and turned back around.

Johan ran to the window and saw Judai hanging from the tree. "NO!" he cried. "JUDAI!" He ran outside and kept calling his name but he never moved.

"Please, Judai! PLEASE! ANSWER ME!"

Hiroshi ran after him and saw the bluenette on his name screaming bloody murder.

He pulled Johan into his arms as he sobbed Judai's name over and over. "Summer just started! He looked so happy just a few hours ago! WHY? WHY?"

"Ssh," Hiroshi cooed as more tears fell from his own eyes. "It's ok. Everything will be just fine."

"I loved him! And he loved me! We loved each other! Why would he do this? Why?" He sobbed harder. He couldn't even find the strength to say another word. It was all just incoherent sounds.

It was all over. Everything that Johan had hoped for. It was all gone.

When he finally calmed down, Hiroshi called his parents and explained to him what happened.

"You're parents are coming to pick you up," he said.

Johan nodded as the tears continued to spill over. "Thanks for calling them."

"You're welcome. Now c'mon, before you leave I want you to have something."

Johan looked up.

"Follow me."

The European stood up and wiped his face as he followed Hiroshi into Judai's room.

Hiroshi pulled out Judai's deck of dueling cards and handed it to Johan. "He would want you to have this."

Johan took a shaky hand and grabbed the deck which started a new set of tears. "Thank you," he croaked.

Then a car horn sounded and he sniffed. "I guess that's my ride. Bye, Mr. Yuki."

"Goodbye, Johan."

The bluenette walked out the door and into the car ignoring all his parent's questions. He just wanted quiet. That's al he wanted. Was that so hard to ask?

The next day, Johan sat up with a headache from all the crying. But he wasn't gonna cry today. Judai wouldn't want him to.

But he found himself smiling. After all he's been through, he wouldn't change a single thing.

He met Judai, he kissed Judai, and he helped Judai heal. Of course there was a part of him that was still hurting but Judai took care of that.

He was with his mother now and he couldn't be more happy for the small brunette.

He grabbed his phone and replied to Judai's text.

I love you too, Judai. I'll miss you.

J

Then before he hit send, he showed it to the sky to show Judai. Then he hit the green button and smiled when the little box popped up that said, You're message was successfully sent.

He sighed and blew a kiss to the sky. "I hope you're a having a good time with Megumi, Ju-chan. And don't worry about me. Either way, I'll ride it out totally fine. That's how it is with soul mates. That's just what they do. I love you."

Ok, that's it. I hope you're not too upset with me. If you are, please forgive me. I wanna hear your thoughts. Review plz! And don't hold back your anger lol I'm giving you full permission to call me a bitch so DO NOT ON ANY TERMS, HOLD BACK!