Day 18: Sunset

It was a gorgeous, windy, mild September evening with the sun setting nicely over the Pacific. I know it's weird that I can remember something that happened a whole year ago but how could I not? It was the day I told James I loved him for the first time.

The guys and I spent the whole day at the beach, from sunrise to sunset. Well, Carlos was getting bored so Logan decided to bring him back to the Palm Woods around five, leaving me and James by our-selves. At this time, I've been in love with James for half my life now and I knew this was the perfect moment to tell him. I was scared shitless but I knew I had to do it. Now or never, right?

We were walking along the beach, just talking about random crap when I brought up the subject of our friendship and how much it meant to me. Since he knew me so well, he knew there was something more to it, so he made me get right to it.

So I did.

I told him everything and I mean everything; how I realized I liked him, when I realized I loved him, why I love him and why I kept it to myself for so long. After my 20 minute confession, his eyes were so wide with surprise and something else I couldn't understand.

Right before I was going to break down and cry and plead for him to forgive me, he did the one thing I never, ever expected him to do.

He said he loved me back.

I wish I could have seen the look on my face; James said it was pretty cute. He also said that it was the reason why he kissed me; he couldn't resist me cute little face. His words, definitely not mine.

But, even though I was acting like such a girl, I couldn't help but love every freaking second of it.