Chapter 13
Authors Note: I was going to make you guys wait a week or so, but that's mean. Here it is! J
EPOV
I'm done? What the hell did she mean by that? Before I could even process what she said she was gone. She left upstairs to the guest bedroom. Did she just end our relationship? I was still too pissed off to think right.
I was just so mad. She knew for a whole week she had plans with a another boy who was her 'friend' to go to the movies and after went to get food. Seriously sounded like a date to me. Also it is not like she mentioned him to me before. I never even met her so called 'best friend'. This whole argument was going on for the whole day since I got home. I am just so stressed. I needed a drink.
I went downstairs to my personal bar stocked full with any drink you could think of. For a day like today, I grabbed a bottle of whiskey aged 15 years. And took it to my library. I sat in a chair facing my piano. And started to drink. looking at my piano, looking at the wood, how it glistened in the moonlight. I looked at the white keys. They looked as if they never been touched before. All I did was sit still with a drink in my hand instead of getting up to play, which is what I usually did when I was stressed.
I sat for who knows how long. At least 2 hours. The bottle was gone quick and I could feel that I was drunk. I haven't been drunk in years, not since my grandmother Elizabeth died 7 years ago. I still had her words in my head. I'm done. It kept repeating like a broken record. It was driving me crazy. I'm done. I hated that I still didn't know what she meant.
Yes, I could have talked to her and ask her right now if I wanted to. But I know wherever she went the door was locked. And by now I bet she was sleeping. I decided to stop drinking because I didn't want to so anything stupid.
Words cannot describe how much I wanted to bend her over and give her what she deserved. All the swearing and yelling. Not to mention that she hung up on me. But I decided against doing anything when we were fighting because I would be a hypocrite. I hung up on her, I yelled and swore. So for that I did nothing.
I went upstairs. And tried to go to sleep. But it was hopeless. Sleeping without the love of my life by my side was impossible. Especially because our relationship might be over. Soon enough I fell into a deep slumber and woke up with pounding in my head, sure enough after all the whiskey I was hung-over. I looked at the clock and it was noon. Haven't slept that late in a while. I got up and went to the bathroom to take a Tylenol. I showered and put on jeans and a button up shirt.
I went downstairs it get some food. I grabbed an apple and decided to find Bella. I looked in the library first. She wasn't there. I looked in the basement, not there either. Searched the house upside down and eventually noticed the guest room was locked. She was in there.
"Bella? Are you in there?" I asked.
"Yes." was all she said.
"Can you unlock the door?" I asked. Trying to keep my cool and not yell.
"No, I can tell your still mad." she said.
"I'm not mad anymore. I'm confused." I said.
"What's there to be confused about?" she asked.
"Your done?" I asked.
"Ye-" I cut her off.
"Isabella I am not discussing this through the door. Please unlock it so I can come in." I said. I heard her groan and come to the door to unlock it. She was still wearing clothes from yesterday, the bed in the room was still made up. She didn't sleep. She walked back to the chair while I went to sit on the bed.
"As I was saying.. I am done." she said.
"What do you mean 'done'? With our relationship? With the fight? I don't understand." I said.
"I mean, I'm done having you control me. Telling what I can and can't do. I am a legal adult of 18. I can do what I want. Your not my dad." She said.
"I've told you before that's the kind of man I am. And there is no way I can change." I said truthfully.
"Do you love me?" she asked. Was she insane?
"Bella, I love you more that life itself." I said.
"Then please… please, lighten up on me. Try to change, for me. I don't want to wake up one morning and resent you and our relationship." she said as tears start to form in her eyes. It broke my heart.
"Don't cry Bella. I love you and if that's what it take to not loose you. I will. I'll stop. Or I'll try. Anything." I said.
If not being as controlling as I am so that I can keep her I will. I love her more than anything. If this is what it takes. I don't care. I will do this. For her. For me.
"Thank you Edward. Its all I want." she said.
"Bella, I would do anything if it means I wont loose you." I said in all honesty. I got up from the bed and I helped her up I hugged her, and I didn't let got for a long time. And neither did she.
"Bella, I love you." I said.
"I love you too." she said. After a few minutes Bella announced she needed to take a shower and get dressed. I kissed her and let her go.
I stayed in the room. I have to apologize. No I NEED to. I wasn't even that mad. I honestly wasn't. I was… I don't even know the right words. All that I know was I fucked up and its not right. I needed to talk to someone and who better than my dad. I went to my office and dialed the number. After a few rings my dad answered.
"Hello son! How are things?" He asked
"Well dad, I screwed up. Bella and I got into a fight." I said.
"Is everything okay?" he asked
"We stopped fighting and I realized I was wrong. I don't know what I was feeling." I said
"What happened to make you so confused about your feelings?" he asked
"She went to the movies with her friend Jake. And I over reacted. I yelled and swore, called her a liar. It was just bad. And I don't know why I over reacted because she told me that they were like siblings." I said.
"Oh. I see. Well maybe you were feeling rather jealous?" he said questioningly.
"I don't know… maybe. The only reason it pissed me off was because she knew for at least a week they were going and she never told me. Her excuse was that she forgot" I said.
"Well the best thing to do is apologize and explain how your felt. So she can understand your point of view, People forget things Edward. I know you love her, promise me you wont let this silly fight ruin it." He said.
"I do love her and I think your right. I'll apologize. Thanks." I said.
"Anytime. I'll see you in a couple weeks Your mother and I are going on vacation to Europe." he said
"Okay, Have fun on you trip." I said
"Thanks son, good bye." he said as he hung up.
I was Jealous. Jealous. I have never really felt that way before. The thought of another guy making Bella smile, laugh. I put it all together and realized my dad was right. I over reacted big time. And I had to fix it. The only thing I could do was apologize. We were good now. And to think about it I wasn't mad anymore, Well not mad but jealous.
I found Bella in the kitchen eating a banana reading the newspaper. I decided to apologize now. It was the only way I could clear my regret.
"Anything good in the newspaper?" I asked.
"Ehh, Nothing new, just small town stuff." she said.
"Seems normal." I said.
"Yeah." She said.
"Okay Bella look, I need to apologize." I said. She looked up at me waiting for me to finish.
"Bella, I over reacted about the whole thing. Please don't blame yourself for any of it. I wasn't mad, but after some thinking I realized I was jealous. Jealous that another guy could make you feel just as happy as I can. And I am hoping for your forgiveness." I said. Waiting for her to say something. But I got nothing.
"Well?" I said. She did nothing she got up and kissed me. We kissed for about three minutes until she pulled away.
"That means a lot Edward." She said.
"You mean a lot." I said back to her.
"And I promise you I will try to get better." I said adding to my comment,
"That's all I ask." she said.
Everything was better now. Our day was continued with out a fuss. We didn't fight or anything. It was like it was when we first started dating. I was enjoying it. And that's when I decided to vow to myself that I will not screw up again. I can't screw up again. I know I can be an ass at times. But I'm changing.
Later that evening Bella and I were in the library when she came across the bottle of whiskey.
"Was this full?" she asked holding it up.
"Yes it was." I answered honestly.
"And you drank it all?" she asked shocked.
"Yes I did.. It was a hard couple of days I needed a drink." I admitted.
"Oh. Well I'll just go take care of it." she said. I could tell she was sort of bothered I drank a whole bottle of whiskey but she kept her mouth shut. So I did the same.
She returned a couple of minutes later.
"Bella, I wrote you a song." I said. Which I did I wrote it a while back. And I thought now was a perfect time to play it.
"You did? Well lets hear it!" she said as we both sat on my piano bench.
I played her the some it was about three minutes ling and I played it twice. The entire time I was playing Bella looked at me with nothing but a smile was on her face. I could tell we went from our lowest point to a new all time high. And I don't plan on going anywhere but up.
"Edward, that was beautiful. I love it." she said as we embraced.
"Well I wrote it special." I said kissing her.
"Edward, I have never been happier with you than I am at this very moment." she said to me.
"I was thinking the same." I said.
We decided to call it a night and I had a good sleep because I knew that the woman in my arms wasn't going anywhere anytime soon. Or so I hoped!
Authors note: Maybe Edward isn't as much of an ass as we all thought! But I guess we will see, hehe! Next chapter soon!
