Journey towards Love

Chapter 7

Good news! Father's been arrested! Satoshi and Graves called the cops on him this morning. Right now we're on our way to a victory meal at Jonny's. Satoshi and I sat next to each other across from Graves and Kaname. The whole time we sat there and talked, I noticed that Graves was blushing. After a while of guessing, Satoshi finally told me why he was blushing. Graves has a crush on Kaname. About 30 minutes of talking, Graves finally said something to Kaname.

"…uh…K-Kaname… I-I'm glad your dad's in jail. Now he won't hurt you…" he turned and smiled at Kaname. She just smiled and said "me too..." with no feeling at all. I told Satoshi to take Graves away and talk to him about us helping him get a date with Kaname. As Satoshi dragged Graves away, I sat across from Kaname and had a quick bonding time.

"…so…Kaname…is there a guy at school that you like…?"

"…yeah…" still no feeling.

"Who is it? Is it one of our friends?" she blushed and looked down at her hands.

"…y-yeah…" I knew it she does like Graves!

"Who is it!" she continued to look down and stayed quiet.

"Kana~?"

"…its Satoshi…he's the one I like…"

"What!" I jumped out of my seat and slammed my hands on the table.

"I love Satoshi! I always have!" Kaname said jumping out of her seat ready to fight me.

"…why do you always do that! Why do you always try to take the things I like!"

"It's not my fault we like the same things! Or in this case…The same person!"

"But you know I love him! You know we both love each other!"

"Yeah right! He doesn't love you! No one does! I bet mom didn't even love you!"… She's right. No one's ever loved me. I've always been alone… I bet if Kaname wasn't my sister, no one would be talking to me…

Kaname and I stood across from each other and remained quiet. The other customers stared at us and whispered lies about us. Satoshi and Graves walked back in and saw us. They ran to the table and started questioning us, I remained quiet.

"Kyoko. What happened? What did Kaname say to you?" I ignored Satoshi and walked out of the restaurant. I bet Satoshi doesn't love me either…the world would be a lot better if I was dead…

I got home and went straight to my room. I sat on my bed and reached for a bottle of pills from my nightstand. I poured a hand full and began to count them. I got a glass of water and struggled to move my hand with the pills.

"Just do it, Kyoko! It'll make everyone happy! Everyone will have better lives! Satoshi will be happier!" I clutched the glass and slowly brought the pills to my mouth. Seconds before the pills reached my lips; Satoshi ran in and pulled my hand away, dropping the pills to the floor.

"What the hell are you doing, Kyoko! Do you want to die!"

"If it makes everyone happy, then yes!"

"Do you think it'd make me happy!" I paused and looked away. Satoshi got up and sat at my desk.

"…Satoshi…do you…love me…?"

"What?" he looked at me confused. "Of course I love you!"

"Then prove it! How can I truly believe you love me!" I know I sound like an idiot to him…but I need to know…

"How am I supposed to prove I love you…?" Satoshi asked looking away. I held on to my words a little long and threw myself back my bed. I stared at the ceiling and slowly opened my mouth.

"I don't know…" I began to cry a little. I rolled to my side to hide my face from Satoshi.

After what seemed like hours, Satoshi (still quiet) got up and I listened to his foot steps fade away… as I rolled onto my back, I saw Satoshi standing above me. He looked down at me, looked away, and then sat next to me on the bed. After a while of silence, he sank his head into his hands.

"Kyoko, I don't know what Kaname said to you…but don't let it bother you…I promise I'll always be here when you need me…and I'll always love you…" Now I know he truly loves me…

A few minutes past and I shot up, scaring Satoshi. I quickly hugged Satoshi and made him confused. A long pause came between us as we continued to hug. We loosened our grip on one another and stared into each others eyes. As we got ready for a kiss (and a night to remember…), Kaname walked into the room and was still mad. She walked toward Satoshi and me ready to fight. I continued to sit on the bed and stared at her.

"…Kaname…don't be an idiot…there's another guy out there, a guy as great as Satoshi, that's in love with you. Why do you still want to fight me for Satoshi?" she stopped, looked down at her feet and clutched her fists.

"…I continue to fight you for him because…because he doesn't love me…everywhere we go guys fall in love with us…but this time you ended up with the guy…he loves you. Not me….and I just want to know…why would he love you instead of me…?" Satoshi looked at both of us confused and tried to understand what was going on. Kaname continue to walk toward us and leaned toward Satoshi…she kissed him… I've always hated Kaname for everything different in our lives. She had a roof over head, a hot meal everyday, and loving grandparents that were willing to watch her. Me? I lived in a cardboard box with my mom, if we were lucky, a meal every other day, and then she was murdered after her death, I was raped. After that I had no where to go. Not even my own grandparents would take me in! After mom's death I had to survive on my own…well, until the day I got sent to the hospital…after that dad took me in. My whole life's been hell and Kaname's trying to take everything good I have away from me! She's trying to take my first and only love away from me! ...I'm not gonna let her take him…this time I'm gonna fight her and I'm not gonna be the nice, caring, big sister anymore…if she wants something that's mine, she'll have to fight for it!

"Kaname! You little bitch! I'm gonna kill you for that!" I ran at her and punched her in the cheek. She struggled to her feet and ran at me. I dodged her attack and hit her again. She ran at me again and I kicked her in the gut, knocking her to her knees. As she started to cry from the pain I walked toward her and got ready to finish her off. Satoshi came at me and pinned me down trying to control me and prevent me from hurting Kaname anymore.

"Kyoko! Stop! If you keep this up, then you're just as bad as your father!" After he said that I snapped back to reality. If I keep beating my sister, it'll be just like father beating her…I'm becoming like my father...Satoshi got up, I sat on the ground staring at my hands covered in my sister's blood. I looked back at Kaname and saw that I broke her nose, and somehow cut her with a sharp object that left a huge cut on her arm. I can't believe what I've become…if I stay around people I'll end up killing them…I'm psychotic! I can't be around people anymore…if I don't want to hurt anyone I'll have to leave…

"…Kyoko?" Satoshi snapped me out of my thoughts. I looked at him and noticed that he was bleeding too…sometime as I was beating Kaname, I hurt Satoshi. At that moment I knew I was dangerous… I jumped to my feet and ran away.

I ran so fast and so far, I couldn't even see a town for miles. I was surrounded by a forest of trees.

"Damn it! If the police see me they're gonna think I killed some one! I have to get this blood off me!" I searched for a river or a lake and washed off the blood from my hands and arms. I took off my t-shirt and tried washing the blood off of it. I stared at my reflection in the water and chuckled.

"Heh…if everyone were to see me now then they really will call me an animal…" I got out of the water and sat on a rock near by. I hurt my sister and my boyfriend…what's gonna happen to me now? They're gonna call the police on me and say I went crazy…I'm gonna go to prison with father…I continued to sit on the rock and started to cry to myself. I sat there crying listening to the "sounds of nature". I bet I look stupid right now…suddenly I heard a voice calling my name.

"Kyoko! Where are you!" it was Eiji and the others. I wanted to shout back to let them know where I was but I was afraid they'd hate me for what I did to Kaname…I ran toward a tree and climbed up so high even I couldn't see myself.

"Kyoko! Come out!" Sorry, Mio. Not gonna happen.

"Kyoko! ...goddamn it! Why are you doing this to us! Why are you trying to torture us! What did we do bad!"…Eiji…I'm sorry…

"Are you just gonna be a coward and hide forever! It was just an accident, Kyoko! It wasn't your fault!"… No matter what you guys say, I'm not coming out.

"…have you guys found her yet?" great! They did bring Satoshi and Kaname!

"No…she's hiding somewhere around here, but we can't find her…"

"Kaname…what did you say to Kyoko…? What did you say to my best friend that caused her to run away like that?" Mio…don't bother…she's just gonna say it was all my fault…

"…I didn't say anything to her…she just went crazy and attacked me! She's an animal!"…I was right…she always does this to me and I always get in trouble…

"…Kaname, stop lying and tell them the truth…because if you don't, I'll never be able to see Kyoko again…" Satoshi…? What are you talking about…?

"…I got in a fight with her about Satoshi…I want her to feel pain like I did growing up…" you little~! You had a better life than me! How can you say you had a painful life!

"What are you talking about! We all know you had a better childhood than Kyoko! You had everything growing up! Kyoko had nothing! Only her mom! How can you say you had a painful childhood!"

"…I…I was…raped when I was 9…I was raped and beat by my grandfather and his friends everyday…I made up lies about my life to hide my past…when I heard about Kyoko getting raped I felt bad about the lies I told…I just wanted her to think she had a worse life than me to prevent her from worrying about me…I'm sorry everyone…" Kaname…