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CHAPTER FIVE : It's Time
When she was done she ran upstairs. And Alice and Jasper walked back towards me. Alice was sobbing and Jasper was sending wave of calm.
" Am sorry about that. EJ is just a little hesitant to meet Ed….Edward. But I know he wants to he is just scared."
"Bella what exactly did Jake and Ben say?" Alice asked.
"Well, when you guys left I was a mess. I was cationic for a few days. Then a zombie and I even cliff dive which is how I found out about the twins. And sometimes even while pregnant with the twins I was depressed the mood swings didn't help. And Ben, Angie, and Jake saw that. And that's what the kids heard. Angie was mad at Ben for weeks she sides with me when it comes to your brother."
"What exactly is it that she agrees with." Jasper asked
"Well, in these years I have come to accept that Edward was right to leave. He didn't love me and for him to have stayed around just to keep me safe or happy. It wasn't fair to him and Angie agrees with that. And with the fact that if Edward would have known about the twins he would have never left. That he would love them a lot , but Ben and Jake think and feel completely different."
"Bella what do you mean by 'He didn't love' loves you so…." I cut her off
"Alice please don't. I know what he said and I know he meant it and believe me when I say I understand. So please don't open old wounds."
"Bella," Jasper said with a sympathetic look "You can't open wounds that never closed."
" I was thinking that I should speak to everyone before they meet the twins. So maybe I could go to your house so that we could talk privately. The Denali's will be here and I think it will be just a little uncomfortable. So you should call them and as soon as am done talking to EJ and Mary-Lillian we can go?"
"Yeah sure Bella." Alice said
I ran upstairs vampire speed and when I walked in to EJ and Mary-Lee room they were asleep. And I couldn't wake them I walked over and tucked them and covered them and gave them a kiss. Then I walked and head downstairs. When I got down their Alice was standing alone.
"Where's Jasper?"
"He went to the house to explain that we were coming."
I nodded and pulled out my cell phone and called Angie.
"Hello."
"Hey Angie I need you to come back and watch EJ and Mary-Lee. Am going to talk to the Cullen's."
"Ok."
Before I could say another word the door swag up and Angie stepped in with a smiled.
I said " Thanks Angie their asleep. I won't take long."
"It's no problem and good luck."
I nodded and Alice and I bounded to my car.
I was driving when Alice said "Bella pull over please."
I stop the car on the side of the road.
"Bella what did Jasper mean by 'You can't open wounds that never closed? Do you still love Edward?"
"Alice I never stop loving him and EJ and Mary-lee are a constant reminder of the happiest and sadist moments of my life. When I look at EJ he reminds me so much of Edward that it hurts and I just want to breakdown. But one smile makes it all worth it. I would do everything the same if I was giving the choice. I take the pain for two reason. One because of EJ and Mary-Lee and two because even though to Edward I was only a distraction the time we were together was the best of my life and I wouldn't change it for anything.
"My heart hasn't been in my chest since the day he left because he took it with him. But I can't hate him. Just because he wasn't wrong I want him to happy and if its not with me then he was right to move on and try to find it.
"But now its not about me its about EJ and Mary-Lee. Because I know what its like to be pass from one parent to another like a toy. To be in between the agreement and I don't want that for them . I know that even though Edward doesn't love me he'll love them and he'll be a great father."
Alice just sat their in shock. After a min of silence she said.
"Bella Edward dose…."
"No Alice please don't I can't think about him and me aside from being friends for the twins sake . I can't not know first lets get over one thing and I'll deal with whatever else there is later . So please tell him that I don't want him to apologies or try to talk about the past. Not know I can't deal with it please."
"Sure Bella and if he tries I'll beat him up." she put up her two fist and punched I started laugh I could help it.
We drove to the house it took two minutes to get their we were in front o f the big white house. The house that held so many memories good and bad ones.
Alice squeezed my hand and said " Am with you."
And we ran to the door and Jasper appeared and lead us to the living room.
Where I met Five golden curious eyes.
