It's official. I am on a ROLL. xD Here's chap 4 :D please read and review :D


Cured

Dear Diary,

Harry, Ron and I went to Hagrid's today. It's been a while since we did. I heard Ron ask Harry, before he invited me, if I couldn't come. You know how much that hurts, Diary? Ron actually asked Harry to exclude me from a visit to Hagrid. I don't know what came over me but I got mad at him. I told him that Hagrid was my friend too. I had every right to visit him and I was about to leave when Harry told me that I should come with them. I hesitated for a moment but Harry insisted. I swear, Diary, if I was to choose, I wouldn't have joined them. I'd rather not go somewhere with Ron. I might just burst out crying in a random moment. Luckily, I didn't, a while ago. Hagrid asked how we all were. He even asked if Ron and I were together yet. What was that supposed to mean? Yet? Ron was the first to answer. Actually, he answered very quickly. He just said no, in a really cold voice. It ripped the remaining pieces of my heart out. I think Hagrid saw me teary eyed, even if I was looking down. He suggested that we go back already. He said it was getting late. I was the first to get out. I ran up to the library. It was quiet there, I think there were only less than 5 people. I found a secluded place and let out my silent tears. I don't know how much of it I can take, Diary. I don't want to love him anymore, but I just CAN'T. I CAN'T! I don't know what's wrong with me. You know, while I was crying, Malfoy showed up again. I didn't want him to see me cry so I tried to hide myself behind a book. I guess he wasn't stupid enough. He sat down beside me and we began to talk. It felt weird talking to him without the obnoxious behavior. I can't believe I'm saying this but we sort of talked like we were old friends. It felt good, though…talking to someone.

-Hermione-