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(I DIDN'T WRITE AND I DON'T OWN THE SONG IT'S TITLE IS 'RUSH' BY: KATTY PERRY AND FERRAS.)
CHAPTER 14 : Plan, Argument, and Question...
The ride to Forks was short but Mary-Lee and EJ fell asleep. Which was good so that we could talk everything out.
When we pulled in to the drive way of the Cullen house Ray and Kate were the first to greet us I was holding Mary-Lee and Edward had EJ.
Ray came to me and Hugged me awkwardly because I was holding Mary-Lee. Then he said " Are you okay." I nodded.
Everyone had bags when we got inside Jake was there everyone had worried expression when they looked at me.
I said " Esme do you have a bed that I could laid them in?"
"Yes honey their room isn't ready yet, so they can us the guest room bed is that okay." Esme said
"That's perfectly fine." I would address the whole 'their' room issue later.
Edward and I put them down and head down stairs. He was looking at me like I was going to fall to piece any minute.
When we got downstairs I took the seat in one of the love seats. Edward stood leaning on the wall.
I said " I suppose Jake told you guys everything."
They nodded it was Carmen who spoke " Mi Nina how are you."
"I'm fine I have had worst."
She nodded and when I though she was done I was about to turn to speak when she said " Que esta's pensando? Fighting con Victoria and two New Born's." She was livid. Carmen had become like my mother exactly like Esme and right now they were both looking at me positively livid.
I said " Sorry. It was just a spear of the moment reaction. And you know that am good at fighting right you guys." I turn to get assistance from any of the guys. But they just stayed silence and I understood way. No one want to get on Carmen or Esme bad side.
"Bella next time you will not do that do you understand." Esme said with such authority that I just nodded.
" Ok. Alice said their would be twenty New Born's. So I figure that with the pack and the Cullen's. And of course I wanted to ask if you Denali's would help?"
"Tell me she just didn't ask that." Tanya said she looked mad.
"I was just making sure." I said
Kate punched me and said "That was just a stupid question."
"Fine sorry. Ok so Jake the pack has sixty wolfs altogether right." Jake nodded
"Well then we can have two-thirds of them fight with us. Angie and Ben can go stay on the rez with the other twenty incase any New Born's get by." Angie and Ben nodded.
Before I could continue Alice said " No the fight it's going to be here any New Born wouldn't make past the treaty line so Angie, Ben and maybe ten wolf's and be spread out in the forest to stop them."
"Yeah that make sense. And for now Ben and I could stay at the Rez incase anything happens."
"Okay so we need someone to stay with EJ and Mary-Lee in the house."
" It won't work Edward. Their safer here then if we try to move them." Alice said Edward just glared at her.
" So who should stay with them." Jasper asked
" I think it should be Esme and Carmen. If you don't minded their more comfortable with you."
"Of course it's fine with me. How about you Carmen?" Esme asked
" That's perfectly fine." Carmen agree.
"So that would leave Seven Denali's, Six Cullen's , Forty wolf's, and Angie, Ben, and Me. That makes fifty-six which leaves us perfectly fine even after we spread the ten wolf's out and Angie and Ben go. "
"So we have to train." Max asked
"Yeah, I think Jasper is more capable off training to win. Due to his experience."
"Yes, I don't mind we can train."
"I think the Denali's should leave to set everything up. The fight won't be until two day after the first snow fall here in Forks which is due to happen the first week of October."
"Okay. That makes sense we should go then we can comeback September 1st. That way we can plan Bella birthday party." Tanya said and Alice squealed and was bouncing up and down.
I groaned and said " Oh came on we have a psychotic vampire on the lose and you guys are thinking about a party." I shook my head.
"Okay Bella we'll go back to Denali and Max and Laurent will get on find blood and getting it shipped over here."
"Yeah that's fine." I nodded the Denali's got up and headed for the door.
Ray was walking out with them when Tanya said " No you have to be with your mate."
"He is Tanya that's why he's leaving with you guys." I said Tanya look utterly confused.
"But your staying here?" She asked. Sometime Tanya was really blond
"Tanya after all these years of seeing you play matchmaker I just couldn't stop myself and I set these to kids up." I grabbed Ray and Kate hands and held it together.
Then I continued " Ray is my brother. We don't see each other like that . And I mean it was right under your nose. So be happy."
"Okay. That gives me a chance to keep searching." Tanya said with a smirk.
"No Tanya. No more matches especially not now with the Battle coming up."
"Fine I'll wait until Christmas." I hugged her and nodded that was as good as I was going to get.
The Denali's left and I headed back to the living room. Alice was looking at me strangely angry and upset.
So I said " What wrong Alice?"
"Bella you just agree to a set up. That's not right after what Edward..." I cut her off and said.
"Alice I didn't agree to anything I just nodded so that on September 1st she doesn't show up with a surprise." She was about to say something I turned to Jazz and said " When do we start training?"
"Tomorrow morning. I will go against each of you to see what we need to strengthen."
"Ok. So we start tomorrow. Do you think it will be to bad." I asked
"No why?" Jasper quirked his eyebrow.
"The kids like to watch me train so I wanted to know if it would be to dangerous. Obviously I wouldn't let them." I answered
"Oh it will be fine. They can watch." Jazz said I just nodded
"Esme could I go out back I need to think if you don't mind." I asked I was two minutes away from braking down.
"Sure honey do what you please this is your home."
"Thank you."
I head to the back and set down on the deck staring into the forest. These last two day's had been filled with surprise after surprise. Before my mind could even register one thing something else happened.
Then we have to come back here. This house nothing's changed. It brings back so many memories. Happy one's and Sad one's.
But right now the sad one's are what weigh more. What Alice said brought back the conversation I had with Edward this morning
. And I know I could never really forget it I had made so it was so far back in my mind that I didn't have to deal with it now. But she brought it back and it hurts. These tears actually feel nice it's like am letting everything out.
...
I headed back into the house I heard shifting and grunts from the boys and instruction from Esme. She was having them move things. Not that she couldn't, but she probably wanted to keep them busy. I could hear Alice and Rose talking about the new purse's available from Parade. I walk into the living room and saw the piano. This piano was where he played me my lullaby. Where we shared a kiss it had good memories.
I ran my hand on the keys and played the open to the song that I had first wrote after Edward left and I started singing and gave myself into the music :
"I kissed your sweet lips
I floated so high
Your eyes looked at mine
The world froze in time ."
The fist lines came from the reminder of the first time Edward and I kiss. How the world just stop and it felt like it was just me and him.
" What is this feeling ?
I am on cloud nine
Guess
I'm still reeling
From your body next to mine"
It was that unknown feeling that course through me. That made wonder what it was and made me feel hell when he was away.
"It's rush
I can't explain
Like you shot
Something crazy
Into my veins
And I'm ten feet
Off the ground
And I don't want
To come down
Don't want
To came down"
Even though All those feelings were new I wanted them to last forever. I never wanted to lose them.
"I know
You're sleeping
I wish you
Were right here
'Cause my bed's so empty
I'd hold you so close dear
And I sang my song to you
Your smile was priceless
What else can I do?
I'm a junkie over you"
It was my need to have him near how the pain was horrible especially at night when he wasn't their to hold me. How much like now.
I would cry because it was my way to dealing with the withdrawal of not having him near. Because everything I was revolve around him. My well-being depended on him.
"It's rush
I can't explain
Like you shot something
Crazy into my veins
And I'm ten feet
Off the ground
To come down"
"Is it me
Or is everything spinning
I'm wide awake
But I must be dreaming
It's like
You're some kind drug"
The thing I felt at times. Like everything in my life went in an opposite direction. How I was afraid that it was dream and that I would wake up.
Then the realization that he was my drug as much as I was his.
"Try to catch my breath
And see
If I'm still breathing
Touch my heart
And make sure
It's like
I'm falling in love"
Even after he was gone those feeling were ever so strong it hurt so much to know at that point that it was love.
"It's a rush
I can't explain
Like you shot
Something crazy
Into my veins
And I'm ten feet
Off the ground
And I don't"
"No I don't
No
Don't want
To come down
Don't want
To come down
Gonna come down"
And as much as it hurt I didn't want to let my feelings go it was all worth it. As I finish the song I felt the tears in my eyes.
I let the tears fall freely I need to let out. I felt the eye's on my back staring at me but II couldn't turn back this song ripped that hole open.
So I just let the tears fall then I felt two warm arms wrap around me it was Jake.
"Bells calm down what's wrong?" Jake asked me. He knew the song perfectly well he would tell me that at night I would hum and speak some of the words. And would usually end up in tears.
Of course that was back when I was human he knew what this song meant and he knew what it did to me.
"It hurts to much Jake and it feels like I can't breath." I said and my voice crack twice.
"Came on Bella your strong. Please everything will be fine."
"Jake the hole it hurts some much. I feel like I can't breath."
"Bella look at me," pulled my face up and said " Look its hard but you made it once and you can now. And you can because you have your family with you." I nodded
"Thanks Jake." I hugged him and got up the Cullen's looked sad.
"You wrote that Bella?" Alice asked
"Yeah." I said
"It great." she said and hugged me tight. And I hugged her back and a couple of tears escaped.
"I'm sorry am a little emotional mess up right now." I said
They nodded.
