Stand In The Rain

Chapter 18: Memoria Pt.1

Light stirred. He slowly opened his eyes, blearily blinking away the sleep. "Ryuuzaki...?" He called out. No light shone into the room, so he couldn't see. He strained his eyes and ears to find any sign of the raven haired man, his pulse starting to quicken as his panic rose. "Yes, Light-kun?" L's voice called from the darkness behind him.

Light rolled over, searching for the detective's location. He reached an arm out and jumped when it came in contact with a firm warmth not far away. He felt L's hand rest on top of his and blushed as he realized he was touching L's chest. He tried to withdraw his hand, but L squeezed it to assure him it was alright. "I was just wondering where you were. What time is it?" He asked the darkness.

"It is 1:22am. You've been asleep for roughly 21 hours. Are you hungry, Light-kun? I believe you haven't eaten anything for about 2 days now, correct?" L asked him, true concern showing in his voice.

"21 hours? Ah...yeah, I haven't eaten for a while. Im not that hungry though." Light could still taste the blood in his mouth and on his tongue, so his appetite was about nonexistent. He sat up and waited for L to do the same. He had this weird feeling that something was missing, and after thinking, realised the handcuffs were gone. "Ryuuzaki, where are the handcuffs?"

"I have decided to leave them off for now, Light-kun. Please don't concern yourself with it." was his reply. L stood up and led Light to the kitchen down the hall from their room. "What would Light-kun like to eat?" L asked the younger man. "Umm.......I...I don't know. I'm really not that hungry, so something light." Light said uncertainly. L watched him for a minute, before turning away and starting to gather some ingredients. "Then I believe Light-kun will be alright with some rice cakes and tea." Light sat at the island table and watched as L moved around, cooking the rice cakes on the stove and adding ingredients every now and then.

"I didn't know you knew how to cook, Ryuuzaki." Light was shocked. All he saw the detective eat were sweets. "I was bored and ended up learning. I don't normally eat foods like this, but I find cooking to be an enjoyable hobby." L turned around and set the plate of rice cakes on the table. He cleaned up the dishes and got Light a glass of tea, then sat on the chair in front of Light in his usual weird way, wide eyes watching the youth. He looked like he was going to fall off the chair. Light thanked him and picked up a rice cake, nibbling on it.

The rice cakes were delicious, but he could still taste the faint coppery flavor of blood. It made him slightly sick, so he ate slowly. Finishing the plate, he washed it and walked back to L. "Now that Light-kun has eaten, we must tend to his injuries." L grabbed Light's wrist just in case he wanted to bolt, which was obviously his intention seeing how he turned around so quickly. He lead them back to the room, stopping at the bathroom to get the first aid kit. Light looked at his reflection in the mirror while L searched for the kit. Something black caught his eye, on his neck. His eyes widened in horror as he realised what it was, raising a shaky hand to lightly touch the metal buckle-like lock. 'How did I not notice this?!' He cried in his mind. His hands fumbled with the lock, but to no avail. "L...L, it won't come off!" He cried, distressed. L looked at the distressed teen, his eyes widening slightly at the sight of the collar.

Shuffling forward, L's hands joined Light's fumbling fingers in attempting to unlatch the collar. This went on for about three minutes before Light realized it was useless. His hands fell to his sides and he looked down, his bangs hiding his eyes. "L, there's no point. Its not coming off."

L paused in his attempt and looked at Light. Sadness shone in his eyes as he sighed and stepped away from the teen. "Please forgive me, Light. I will ask Watari to look at it later. We should go treat your wounds now." Holding the first aid kit in one hand, he used his other to hold the door open for Light. They sat on the bed and L opened the kit, turning to look at Light.

"Light-kun, please remove your shirt. I will wait for your permission before I start cleaning your injuries, however." L assured Light. Light was kinda touched at how caring L was. He had figured the strange detective would remain in his usual monotone, not showing any emotions. He had sensed that the sadness in L's eyes earlier was real, and not just a facade to make him feel better. Light nodded and began working on the buttons of his shirt. He was slightly shaking, making it harder to undo the buttons.

Finally the last button was undone and he let the shirt fall from his shoulders revealing his bloody, bruised, and cut up skin. L gasped as the gothic B was exposed. Unconciously, he reached out to trace the edge of the morbid design. Light flinched, but remained still as memories assaulted him.

He suddenly felt a blade cut his chest and ripped open his shirt.

"W-what are you d-doing?!" His voice broke. The imposter laughed. "I'm going to have even more fun with you. You are most likely a virgin, and i'm going to take great pleasure in tainting that innocence." He took the blade and started to carve inticate designs onto Light's chest and stomach. Stepping back, he looked at his handiwork. A capital B carved in Old English text.

The rain started to fall.

He barely felt the tears trickle down his face. L had noticed his tears and drew his hand away as if he had been burned. He barely felt it when L's thumbs reached up to wipe away the tears, barely felt it when L hugged him, whispering soothing words into his ear. His sluggish mind caught up with him and identified the feeling that was starting to fill his veins.

Numbness. Lack of feeling. A barrier against the pain.

In his dazed state, he found this feeling new and foreign, so strange it was absolutely fascinating. He felt he had to share this feeling with L, so he did.

"Ryuu...I feel...numb." Light told the detective, staring at his hand like a child seeing something new. Part of his mind told him he was being silly, but he couldn't hear it.

L looked at him strangely. "What is Light-kun talking about?"

Light giggled in a kinda choked, deranged way, making L jump at the strange sound. "I mean i'm not really feeling anything. I wonder why? Hmm...Ryuu, eggs are so wonderful...they're just so...yellow. Heh heh." Light started giggling again, because L was gaping at him with his proverbial jaw on the floor. It was just so funny.

"Light-kun, are you alright??" L reached up and placed a hand on the teens forehead. "Light, you are burning up with a fever. I believe this has caused you to become delirious. Please stay still." Light laughed again and stayed still as L reached over and started cleaning the teen's wounds. He wrapped some gauze around Light's torso, and several places on his arms and legs. He threw away the dirty cotton balls and took some medicine from the kit.

"You're a really good nurse, Ryuu-chan." Light said, watching him.

L hoped Light did not remember his current behavior, the teen would be mortified. He held out two small capsules and a glass of water to sick teen. "Please swallow these, Light-k-"

"Chan."

"Excuse me?" L asked the young man.

"You're supposed to call me Light-chan. He did, so that means you do, too." Light answered.

"O...kay, Light-chan. Please take these. I have some questions I need you to answer once you are well." L watched as Light took the pills, making sure he didn't choke. "Now please lie down. You need to rest." L lightly pushed the younger man's shoulder so he was lying on his back. He let out a sound of surprise when the teen grabbed the front of his shirt and pulled him down along side him.

"Please stay. I'm so numb and you feel so warm. Maybe you'll keep the nightmares away..." Light whispered, already drifting to sleep in L's arms.

"Of course, Light-kun. I'll try to help you in any way I can. Sleep, and I will be here when you wake." L whispered back, singing 'My Immortal' by Evanescence softly in his ear. Slowly, they both drifted to sleep.

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Yaoi-sama: Hey guys. Sorry I haven't updated in awhile. I've been moving in to a new house and i've been in the hospital for a spinal tap and kidney infection. (Which was extremely painful) Not to mention lack of teh interwebz for a month or so. This is part 1. Part 2 is where the title comes into play. BTW, my titles will be in either Japanese or Spanish, just so you know. Please Read and Review ^_^

Also, i'm doing 2 new stories: DN LxRaito MelloxMatt (extra chibi pairing KyoxYuki) (Bx?) called Animal I Have Become. In this one, Raito, Matt, B, Kyo, and Yuki are all Lycans, which is basically a werewolf. Raito has a bit of a fucked up past that catches up withhim during the Kira case. He is Kira, yet he is not Kira. There are 3 versions of his name used in this one: Light(KIRA), Raito(main one), and Luscious(feral). Its a case of MPD.

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DNAngel: pairing of SatoshixDaisuke If you want DarkxKrad, please vote on it and tell me any ideas you might have for this pairing. I'm not very experienced with writing DNA stories. Srry.