I dooon't knoow. This story is coming to an end. Whether I like it or, you guys like it. Chapter 30 is it. I'm sorry Dx I wish I could make it last forever, but then really, no one, would read it. :(, and then I'd be sad.

Yamato

A sigh of frustration escapes me as I glare at my brother's door, all though things have gotten better in the last month or so, I manged to upset him. I'm not so scared to be around Tai anymore, I will hold his hand in public, but that's as far as it goes. Once in awhile, he's allowed to kiss me, but only behind closed doors. Sure, it's not perfect, but right now, I feel it's as good as it's going to get. Tai understands, and he hasn't pushed me, much. Vincent had been pretty much non-existent to me, and I don't even know where Billy he. He left with Sherria. T.K is slightly heart broken and mopey, over Kari. Apparently, she went on a date with someone else. As much I love him, I can't bring myself to worry over it. It may sound heartless and cold, but I'm still learning about this relationship thing, and even though someone once said 'How would it make you feel if you saw Tai enjoying himself with someone else.' and my only response was that I did. All the time. It never affected me. It didn't make sense for something like that to bother me. If he's happy, then, whatever, right? Apparently not. I give the door my iciest, meanest look, and it opens. My eyes widen in surprise, and then, I see T.K. He gives me a dirty look and slams the door again.

"T.K, come on. I'm sorry." I say through the wood. He says nothing.

"Really, T.K. I don't know how I'm supposed to help you okay? I don't know what it's like, you're right, but.."

"Uhm...Are you talking to the door?" I jump at the voice, and turn to look at the very person who started our fight.

"No, I'm talking to my brother. Because you upset him. And then I upset him. And now I don't know how to make him not hate me anymore.." My voice slowly fades as I speak, and I don't know if Kari even heard the last five or six words, but T.K did, because suddenly the door opens again.

"I don't hate you, Matt.." He says. I can see the hurt in his face. When his eyes drift to Kari, his entire body slumps.

"Look, T.K, we need to talk.." She says softly. I crawl on the floor back to my room, and away from them. I watch from my door as Kari and T.K go into his bedroom and the door closes. I wait for a few seconds, listening. Not to my brother, but for noises downstairs. If Kari's here, Tai can't be far behind, and as it would figure, I'm right. The tan skinned boy appears at the top of the steps, food in hand. He doesn't notice me though, so I disappear into my room and onto my desk chair. When Taichi appears at my door, I turn to face him.

"Oh, hi, Tai." I say. He smiles through a mouthful of food.

"You're gross," I say, turning away slightly disgusted.

"You love me, Matt." He says. And then, his arms are around me, his head gently pressed against my own. I don't respond to his comment, and I can feel his body deflate slightly. Then he lets me go. I miss the contact immediately.

"Can we talk?" He asks. My heart freezes and I spin to look at him. He's serious. Here we go, it's coming. 'I'm sorry, I can't do this.'

"Uhm...about?" Tai sits on the floor in front of me.

"Well...I guess kind of about your past." My eyes narrow in defense.

"Not, like, anything..like, detailed or anything...it's just, sometimes, when I do stuff, you get upset or angry and kinda...hide from me..I just don't want to do anything that could hurt you.." He says. His eyes are down, and he plays with the bottom of his pants.

"I don't know if I can, Tai.." I say honestly.

"You can't tell me what you don't like me doing? I already know you don't like being touched, in anyway, in public. Except occasionally holding my hand. I know you don't like being touched at all anywhere else." I could list a thousand things Tai does that bugs me, but if he didn't do those things, he wouldn't be Tai, and I don't think I'd like him so much. I watch the brunette, who has yet to look at me.

"Let's just stick to the touching. And don't bring my past up around anyone else.." I mumble.

"There's more then that, Matt.."

"There's a ton more things then just that, but I can't dislike everything, Tai. A lot of the stuff I don't like, is normal every day things..It's not right." His eyes finally come up, and blue meets brown. He can see that there's no winning today, so he just gives up. He looks defeated. I slid off my chair, and move so I'm directly across from him.

"I thought you had a picnic today." He seems to brighten at this thought.

"I do. I actually came to see if you wanted to come!" My head tilts slightly, and Tai laughs. Although I get why he's laughing, and normally it would seem funny to me, it doesn't right now.

"But, your friends don't really like me, except Koushiro.." I say.

"Oh well, Matt, please? I want you to come. I won't let them be mean to you." The look on his face it what makes me agree to go. I've stayed away from pretty much the world thus far, and I'd like to keep it that way, but I know I can't stay away forever. Tai throws his arms around my neck, and kisses me toughly in his excitement. I gently remove his arms from me, and pull myself to my feet. I go through my routine of getting ready, except most of it's done in the bathroom today.

"Do you do this every morning?" Tai asks me.

"Almost." I answer, without looking at him. Kari and T.K appear at my door, T.K has perked up a little bit, and that's good.

"We're going now, are you coming?" Kari asks her brother.

"No, not yet. I'm waiting for Matt." I see the way Kari's eyes widen and shift, and I roll my eyes and shrug. Kari looks back at Tai,

"Okay." She says. That, is enough, to tell me that I'm not actually welcome.

"Maybe this isn't a good idea, Tai.." I mutter. Tai ignores me. And when I'm finally ready, which, I purposely slow down, we're already an hour later then Tai normally is. He grabs my hand, and for once, I don't protest as he runs down the sidewalk. I try desperately to keep up, but I keep losing my balance.

"Tai, stop! I can't keep up to you," I beg the brunette. He slows down, but doesn't actually stop. As we reach the trees in the park, he let's me go, and keeps moving forward. I follow him, but stay back. I can hear him greet his friends.

"Hi, guys!" There's a soft murmur of hello back, and that's it. I stop, still out of sight of Tai's friends. It was a bad idea.

"Why can't you give him a chance?" T.K's voice demands of the group of kids I haven't seen yet. Someone answers something, but I don't hear it.

"Tai gave it a chance, and likes him, an-"

"And he punched me out," Tai adds, cutting T.K off, but he goes on like Tai never said anything.

"And so did Kari."

"I think he's sweet," Kari chimes, in my defense. Someone is walking towards me, and I turn to face the other person, only to be greet by Kou.

"Oh, hey, Matt. You were invited to?"

"By Tai.."

"Come on, then. We shouldn't make them wait."

"They don't like me.."

"Well, I like you, so you can sit with me, okay?" I nod my head, and follow the smaller boy into a group of strangers. I immediately realise that Sora, who I've meet a few times before only, is the reason for the hostility. So I ignore her. And other then that, the rest of Taichi's friends seem to actually accept me. The more I ignore Sora though, the madder she gets. Everyone else does they're best to ignore her, too. I watch as the group shares food, and drinks, and talks, and plays. Although I don't really fit in, they leave the offer in the air for me to join if I wish. Which, I don't. I'd rather watch. The entire group is up and playing soccer, which apparently, is more then one persons favorite game. I hear a body drop beside where I'm laying on Tai's sweater. I turn my head, and notice the boy I had the brief confrontation with at T.K's school not so long ago. He gives me an awkward smile.

"Uhm.." He starts. T.K and Tai both have their eyes on me, although they're both trying to pretend they don't.

"I'm really sorry..about being an asshole." He says. I shrug.

"I've had worse, trust me."

"Well, it makes ME feel better."

"I'm sure it does. Now go play soccer." I tell him. He grins at me, and jumps up to rejoin his friends. And this time, T.K joins me.

"He wasn't a jerk, was he?"

"No, he was apologizing."

"Matt.."

"He was, honestly." My brother lays down beside me.

"Sora's jealous, and has a way of getting the rest of the group to take her side." He explains. I shrug this off again.

"I'm okay, T.K. Go play with your friends. I like watching. Makes me a proud big brother." He laughs and places his head against my shoulder, just briefly, to show me affection. And then, he's back to the field. And even though I don't actually join them, I laugh with them when Daisuke misses the ball and lands on his back, and when Taichi and T.K smash into each other, and both have to sit out. I wish I had a normal life, so that I could do things like this with my own group of friends, but then again, I guess, this kind of is my group. When it gets dark, the group comes in and begins packing up. Most of it's done in silence with hugged good byes and promises of seeing each other tomorrow. Tai's finger's lace through mine as we begin to leave the park, and I don't care. I squeeze his hand. When we get back to my place, we fall into bed together, and I cuddle up the brunette, who holds me close to him.

"That was...actually..not that bad." I tell him. His only response is to kiss me, and I kiss him back. And some time after that, I fall asleep in his arms.