It was snowing. I watched the freezing flakes fall from underneath a stony overhang in the castle. Snow always inspired me, and as this was one of the only snowstorms this winter, it rose my spirits. I watched, smiling, as the white grounds got piled up higher and higher by it.

I was sitting down, leaning against the wall, notebook in lap. The scene where Scorpius had told me the truth kept playing over and over again in my head, and now I could remember every single word he had said that day.

"But I can't hang out with both of you, and well...Rose is something else." His words echoed through my head, and I sighed, feeling misery wash over me like a wave. Was I of so little importance for him to not even have noticed that I was falling in love with him? I sighed, and closed my book with a snap. Wasfalling in love with him. Not anymore; he had broken my heart, and left me bleeding.

"Are you doing homework?" I jumped- I believed everyone was still at class.

"N-no," I stuttered, glancing back. Neil stood towering over me, making me feel intimidated. "I was..writing."

He didn't question this, to my relief. "You weren't in class," he observed.

I shook my head. "No," I agreed softly. "I was...busy..." That's no excuse for ditching class! I felt slightly ashamed; this was the first time I had ever not gone to class.

Neil grinned. "You didn't miss much," he mused. "Professor Binns was just droning on about some war..."

I laughed tentatively. "I'll go ask him later to give me a brief review," I said. Missing one History of Magic class wouldn't kill me...

We were silent for a while. Then he broke the silence. "How come you don't hang out with Scorpius anymore?" he asked. There was no jealousy in his voice; just genuine curiosity.

"He's too busy with Rose to care about anyone else," I said bitterly.

Neil glanced down at me, his eyes narrowing slightly. "I thought you got along with your cousin," His voice was full of confusion.

I was silent for a moment. "It's complicated," I said slowly. Not really wanting to get farther into this conversation, I changed the subject.

"Is your mother really famous in the wizarding world too, even though she writes muggle books?" I asked politely.

Neil looked confused. "What?"

I shrunk down towards the ground. His mother wasn't Jane Griffith? "You're..you're not Jane Griffith's son...? I asked lamely.

He laughed. "Yes, I am...do you read any of her books?"

I nodded vigorously. "Yes!" I exclaimed, a little too eagerly. "They're fantastic."

He laughed again. "I've never read any myself, but I heard they got good reviews."

I sighed. "Her writing is so amazing, and so original," I breathed; she was my favorite author ever.

Neil smiled. He opened his mouth to say something more, his voice was cut off by shock. "Hey- is that Scorpius?" He asked suddenly, walking forward to squint out into the snow.

I hastily stuffed my notebook into my bag, and stood quietly next to Neil. I looked out into the snowy landscape, and my mouth fell open.

Rose and Scorpius were standing close together, kissing passionately.

I felt my eyes well up with tears.

"I didn't know they were together!" Neil exclaimed, watching the two with fascination.

I looked down at my feet so that he wouldn't see that I was crying. How could Scorpius do this? "I... I didn't know either." My voice shook slightly.

He glanced over at me, and to my regret, he noticed that I was crying. "Hey, Lily! What's wrong?" His voice was gentle as he tried to calm me down.

It didn't work. The tears silently streamed down my cheek, burning slightly. "Nothing," I tried to say, but my voice came out contorted.

Suddenly realization dawned on Neil, and his eyes widened. "You- you like Scorpius?" he asked incredibly.

I shook my head. The anguish in his voice was too much to bear.

Neil took a step away from me. "I didn't know," he murmured. "I'm sorry, Lily."

He shouldn't have been trying to comfort me! I didn't deserve anyone's comfort. I turned away, hastily wiping my eyes to stop the flow. "It's not your fault." My voice was muffled.

Neil was silent for a moment. A giggle sounded close by, and I looked up sharply. To my horror, Scorpius and Rose were coming our way. She was skipping next to him, their hands intertwined.

And I, the coward, fled. I ran towards the castle, entering at a quick pace. They hadn't seen me, to my relief, and I slowed my pace until I was sure that they wouldn't be able to find me.

I collapsed onto the floor, sitting quietly by myself. I didn't cry this time, just sat, lost in thought. Inside, I felt as though I was crying, but surprisingly it wasn't because of what I had just seen.

I had pushed Neil to the side, not caring how I had made him feel. What kind of a person was I?

Neil didn't try to follow me, though I wish he would have.

Happy Valentines Day! Sorry for a short chapter, and sorry that on the 'love day' I made such depression in this fic ;P

Anyway, I'll put a new chapter up soon!

~Cloudsong~