A/N: Woah. I got so many reviews in just one day, I feel like I'm actually writing something good! I hope I am, but I feel like Rin and Sesshoumaru are OOC… Well, you tell me, I guess. The reason this update is quick is because I write faster when I listen to music… I just got the complete InuYasha soundtrack XD
Disclaimer: Rumiko Takahashi owns InuYasha. All I own is the okami-youkai, Kazuko and Hatsujin
January 10th Well, Lord Sesshoumaru handled the boys. I won't tell anybody but you, Journal, this because they don't know who hurt the boys, and I don't want Lord Sesshoumaru to be frowned upon even more. The biggest and meanest boy got his arm ripped off, one lost an eye, one broke his arm in a very bad way, another got an ear andpart of his cheek cut off, and the smallest got scratched cleanly across his face, and is now poisoned. I thought they were gonna die, but it's not up to me. Thank you Lord Sesshoumaru, they don't even look at me anymore! Well, one can't, but… um, goodnight now!
January 26th It's been a full year. It feels weird to say I'm almost 14, I feel so old. Lady Kaede I was growing up really fast. Lord Sesshoumaru came and visited like I thought he would, and we went to the cliff. I thanked for everything as the sunset. He said he had to leave soon, so we walked back to the shrine like every other time, and before he left I couldn't help but hug him. His Mokumoku tickled my face, it felt so funny! I could've swore I saw that small smile when I looked up, but I smiled back if he was smiling. He left soon after that, and I finally got to wave to him as he left. He always left after I had gone to sleep. Well, goodnight.
January 30th Lady Kaede said she's proud I'm writing so much. She says it's good practice. She comments on everything I do. I realized how much of a grandmother she is to me now, and Kagome is motherly towards me too, since she's now almost always at the shrine. Maybe it was the right choice for me to be here? I wish I could write more on what everyone says like my funny conversations with InuYasha, but I'm tired tonight. Goodnight!
February 10th I began my menses a few days ago, and I realized witheach day I feel less sick and less blood flows. Lady Kaede still can't stop laughing from when I told her and was worried this was bad! She told me she shouldn't laugh and told me she and Lady Kagome could answer all my questions. I asked Lady Kagome for an answer and she giggled a bit, but told me it's fine. I think I like her better than Lady Kaede for now. Goodnight, then!
February 20th Lady Kagome found my journal today and, actually asked if she could read it! She said it wouldn't change anything if she did read it, and wouldn't hold anything against me. I finally cracked and said yes. She helped me spell words right, and is still helping me learn new words and 'grammar'. She didn't say anything about the content, besides that she was glad to see me writing so much. Now, I'm gonna let her read it whenever she wants so she can see my 'improvement'. I'll mark the words she taught me, like 'improvement'. Thank you Lady Kagome! Goodnight!
March 12th I feel happy learning so much, but I just realized Sesshoumaru-sama had told me he won't visit until April because of a journey thing. Wow, that sounded really 'non-chalant', I should be more formal with you, Journal. Sorry. Well, we start making new medicines soon, so goodnight.
March 21st We started making new pastes, creams, anything we could. It was fun, and everybody was proud of me for mixing so well. I can now identify almost 200 different herbs, and can make so many new things! But, I just now realized I'm not really learning how to live like a human. I'm learning to be a miko and medicine woman. I don't want to be a miko… spare me, Journal! I do not want to be sucked into a life where I must see dead bodies and sick people. I think I would cry every time. Well… goodnight, please have a restful sleep. I don't think I will.
March 30th Less than a month until I'm 14, and the count goes from 5 to 4 years until I can rejoin Milord! Lady Kagome said it sounded like I had a 'crush' on Lord Sesshoumaru. I didn't understand, until she said it meant I liked him. I told her I loved him, he was like a father to me kinda! She just nodded. Am I what they call 'naïve'? I hope not, Journal. Goodnight.
April 10th I'm having nightmares of my parents dying again. It's not as if their death dates were near, so I didn't know why. Until one night, last night, the dream continued past me hiding. It went until I tripped over a root when I was 6 or 7, and Sesshoumaru-sama brought me back to life. Well, two nights ago it went until I died. Last night it went until I opened my eyes to see Sesshoumaru-sama. I don't get it, Journal! Please wish me to not have those nightmares again… goodnight.
April 24th I'm now officially 14! Lord Sesshoumaru finally visited me, with a new kimono AND a yukata as a birthday present, I assume. This one is now my favorite! It's like the color of my eyes, and it comes off my shoulders to show the yukata, which is lighter. The pattern has these silver flowers, but the flowers are different than all the rest. It looks like it belongs on a princess, andI hugged Milord again today, but he still didn't touch me when I did. Oh well. I talked to him about how happy I am andhow Lady Kagome is expecting to give birth in less than a month, and wants me to help take care of the baby! I felt like he was silently proud of me, and now I can go to sleep happy. Oh, I also told him about my nightmares, and how they stopped a few days ago. He seemed concerned… but I couldn't tell. Maybe I hoped too hard? Ha, well, goodnight, Journal.
May 10th Should I name you, Journal? I asked Lady Kagome and she said I should, since I talk to it so much, and we both laughed. Well, your name is now Sasshi! I even tried to draw you on a page… Lady Kagome said it looked like a 'manga' character. Whatever that is. I think the eyes are kinda big, and the nose is small… I'm sorry. But, Sasshi, you're an inu-youkai, like Milord! I wish I looked like you; you look like somebody who anybody would want to marry. Lady Kagome said I'm pretty, too, but I didn't believe her. Why am I so worried about this now? Well, goodnight… Sasshi.
May 25th Lady Kagome had a baby boy today! She asked me to name him, and I couldn't think of a name until I thought back to my mama. She named her first-born, my oldest brother, Daitaro. My mama told me it meant 'great first son'. It stuck out in my mind… I remembered how my mama had named all her kids for a reason. Mine was Rin because I didn't kick much, so she thought I would make a good companion, and I smiled at that thought. Well, my job as a big sister (kinda) starts in a few days. So, let me rest peacefully! Haha, goodnight Sasshi!
June 5th Lady Kaede said I looked really grown-up, taking care of a baby, and wearing my favorite kimono, I call it the 'princess' one. She said she could see me taking on 'womanly changes'. I knew what she meant, my chest felt… heavier. I feel so embarrassed; I wish I didn't have to talk about those things, ever! But anyway, Daitaro is a really 'rowdy' baby! He's always doing something weird or sneaky. He's also a fast learner, and can crawl after only a few weeks. He's ¼ demon… it's weird. I also tried to redraw you Sasshi, this time with better details. Your hair is really pretty! Well, goodnight, Sasshi!
June 20th I don't think Lord Sesshoumaru likes the summer. He hasn't visited me since April, and I guess it's better if he doesn't visit every month. Then I feel like a burden… oh well. Oh, oh, also Lady Kagome went to her time today to get things for Daitaro, and she gave this candy… it's like cooked bread with… stuff on it. The box it came in says 'Pocky Variety Pack" and that they're "Biscuit sticks with Flavored Icing". She said they're really good, and they are! There's 'coffee' and 'chocolate' and strawberry and some have almonds or something on them! They're so good; I wish I had saved a few. Well, goodnight.
June 30th Sasshi, do you like your name and how I drew you? I hope you do. Oh, I visited InuYasha to say thank you to Lady Kagome and take Daitaroto 'babysit'. We talked for awhile, and he asked why I cared so much about Sesshoumaru-sama. It was a weird, out of nowhere question. I told him how he had saved my life, twice. InuYasha seems smarter than he looks. I think he was good at piecing things together. He then told me I had taught Sesshoumaru-sama'compassion'. I wish I knew what that was. Do you, Sasshi?
July 10th I asked Lady Kagome what 'compassion' is. She said it's when someone cares about another person when they're hurt. Is that really true? I hope so. I was so happy when I heard that. Lady Kaede asked me why I was so happy again. I told her and she smiled too. She didn't laugh, but she smiled. It felt nice. Do you ever wish to smile, Sasshi? It's nice. Goodnight.
July 20th Another month of no Sesshoumaru-sama. Well, I'm still happy. It's really hot this year, so me and Lady Kaede walk to the nearby springs and bathe every day, instead of the hot springs. It's nice of her to talk to me too. I asked about her eye… she told me about Kikyo, Kagome, and the arrow and I was scared just hearing it. I remember Lady Kikyo… I learned a lot today, again. I'm happy, Sasshi. Goodnight.
July 31st Lady Kaede and Lady Kagome weren't here when I woke up. I panicked until I realized they had told me about not being here for the last few days of a month until next January. Apparently they're looking for a rare type of herb or flower and it only appears in the last 5 days of a month. Weird.
August 7th I walked with Lady Kaede and Lady Kagome to the springs to bathe today. When we were bathing, they asked if I had made any new friends and liked my new life. I felt saddened for some reason… well; I told them about how you and me, Sasshi, were best friends. I've had dreams where we're picking flowers for each other andl aughing like friends do. But, beyond Lady Kagome, Lady Kaede, you, Daitaro, and InuYasha… I have no other friends. Well, Lord Sesshoumaru and Jaken are too! They're my best friends, like you Sasshi! Goodnight.
August 23rd Lord Sesshoumaru visited me today! Er, well, yesterday… Maybe because it was oddly cold for this time of year? I told him how much I loved the princess kimono again, and about you, Sasshi. He asked if I was happy. I told him of course I am, and he gave me that almost-smile again! We walked to the cliff since I didn't want to pick flowers. I liked talking to him. I told him about Daitaro and everything else. He knows so much about me by now, it's funny, I think. But, like last year I remember, I fell asleep against his Mokumoku. I think he put his arm around me before I fell asleep, but he took me back to the shrine. He's nice, and I need to thank him again. Goodnight Sasshi, I hope you're as happy as I am!
August 31st My menses began, thankfully without Lady Kaede around to poke fun at me. It hurts so much more than the other times though, and I don't know why. I bet youkai like you, Sasshi, don't get menses. Lady Kagome calls them 'periods'. I thought a period was the circle at the end of writing? Hmm. Goodnight Sasshi.
September 4th My menses lasted until yesterday, almost 8 days! It was really scary, and it didn't slow down until when it just… stopped yesterday. I'm worried. Sasshi, do you ever pray for me? I hope you do. Goodnight… best friend.
September 19th It's gotten colder. Lady Kagome was worried about me too when she read what I wrote, Sasshi. I had a dream a few nights ago when you were worried about me, and I was crying on your shoulder. I'm scared Sasshi, please don't scare me anymore. In order for you to enter my dreams again, you have to be happy! Haha, goodnight!
September 27th Today, an inu-youkai showed up at the shrine, asking for a miko! I was scared… she looked like Sesshoumaru-sama, with the markings on her face, and hands, and even her stomach! But, her moon was a brighter blue, and had a star. But, she had dog ears, so maybe she was a hanyou? I don't know. I told her all the miko's weren't here. She just stared at me, and asked if she could come in… I was too scared to say no, and just stared at her. She's still here, sitting outside the shrine as I write. Goodnight, and please pray for my safety, Sasshi…
October 10th She isn't a hanyou. She isn't an inu-youkai, either. She's an 'okami-youkai', or the wolf demon. She's like those people who killed my family! I found all of this out when she was still here in the morning. She told me her name was Kazuko, and she was an okami-youkai. She said she wouldn't hurt me, and was just coming to talk to Lady Kaede. I didn't understand. But, Lady Kaede finally arrived, and KNEW the girl! It was so strange, they were like friends! I found out a lot by listening to them—apparently, this youkai is usually around these parts this time of year, and since she doesn't desire to kill humans that haven't done anything to her, she visits the miko's and priests and gives them herbs, flowers, and many other things from wherever she came from. She didn't call her home place anything, but that's all I'll write about for now. The girl has decided to stay here and help for a few days, so I'll have more time to learn about her. My hand might just fall off for you, Sasshi… goodnight!
October 22nd Kazuko is actually nice. But, a few days ago, when she was still here, Sesshoumaru-sama came to visit. I felt like they knew each other, and I was right! Maybe… they were mates a long time ago? I had asked her that before Lord Sesshoumaru came, and she laughed and said that's impossible. She told me inu-youkai mate for life, as do okami-youkai. And… they're related. Maybe she's a cousin? I can't tell. When Lord Sesshoumaru saw her, she saw him and smiled, waving and called him 'little brother'. Was she related to his mother or father, as an aunt? When Sesshoumaru-sama saw her, he pushed me away from where she was and we walked for awhile. I asked him many questions about her, but all he said about her is that he doesn't 'particularly like her'. Hmm. I'll ask her before she leaves tomorrow; we've both been too busy to talk to each other. Bye.
November 10th Kazukois a liar. She said she's the sister of Sesshoumaru-sama's great-grandfather, Hatsujin! I asked her how old she is, and she answered 10,847! Ooh, I hate her! I hate liars, wolves, and people who don't care that they've lied! She's all three, and I'm so grateful she finally left. Well, maybe I should ask Sesshoumaru-sama? That'd be stupid, she's obviously lying… nobody is that old, right? Do you hate liars too, Sasshi?
November 20th Hmm. Lady Kaede said she wasn't a liar, and had seen Kazuko's mother and father before. She said it did seem 'far-fetched' but was true. She was a demoness, and her mother was the one to first have the human-loving trait. Maybe that's why Sesshoumaru-sama allowed me to be with him, he had the trait too? I asked Lady Kaede and she said everybody in that family does! This was all too weird. They were playing a joke on me, I know it! Oh, I forgot last time to add that Kazuko also looked weird. Her eyes would change color… they 'transitioned' from Lord Sesshoumaru's gold to a bright silver to an even brighter blue like her crescent moon, and just kept changing! Her hair was silver, at least. But I swore she had blue streaks. Lady Kaede told me it was a form of controlling genetics, to get the baby to look however you want. Yeah, it's a big joke. Goodnight Sasshi the not-liar, I hope they stop lying to me!
November 30th Lord Sesshoumaru visited today, bringing me a new kimono. He told me I was getting taller! I was so happy he was noticing my 'womanly changes' as Lady Kaede had put it. I spent most of my time with Milord today talking about that weird girl and what everyone had told me, and I told him it couldn't possibly be true. He said 'It is." We spent the next few minutes just staring at each other. I can't believe he was lying to me too! I bet I looked stupid with my eyes wide open. Jaken came running up to us and said they had to leave because Jaken got tackled by a wolf and didn't want to be here. I didn't think they would, but they left. It was strange until I came back to the shrine… Kazuko was here again! She told me she had to talk to her 'little brother' and laughed, walking away. My life couldn't get stranger I think. Goodnight, Sasshi. Oh yeah, Lady Kagome told me it's weird how I'm best friends with a book.
December 12th Kazuko is causing a lot of trouble, I think. She's kinda crazy. InuYasha called her a 'psycho' and told me more about her. He said he remembered her from a long time ago, and that she was here to visit his father. She didn't know he was dead, and that's when she showed her power—she can summon wolves… they're made out of the spirits of all the people she's killed. She summoned them to kill whoever killed her great-nephew. But InuYasha told me she would never kill a little innocent girl. Should I still be scared, Sasshi?
December 23rd I was 'approached' by Kazuko today, Sasshi! She was asking about how I knew Sesshoumaru-sama, and her wolf ears kept twitching with each word I said. It was kinda creepy. But I guess she is kinda nice, she answered questions I had. Maybe she isn't a liar, Sasshi? I hope not… but I told her why I'm scared of her, and she said she could understand the wolf thing. She's leaving tomorrow to go visit Sesshoumaru-sama in the Western Lands. She calls him Sesshoumaru-kun. It's kinda funny… well, goodnight, Sasshi!
December 31st It's almost another year done with. This year was very fun, Sasshi! You're running out of pages… would you like a husband or a brother, Sasshi? Haha, well I'll just try to put more pages inside of you, Sasshi. Well, goodnight. In the morning… it's going to be a new year.
A/N: Well, most questions were answered I hope. Also, this picture I found was semi-inspiration, not particularly for this chapter, but probably for future chapters. http:/i30(dot)photobucket(dot)com/albums/c315/GlintChan/PhotoAlbums/AliltwoclosethereRinandSessO(dot)jpg) It's adorable, right? But there are about two questions I think I should clear up: Rin was never given a birthday, so I made it April 24th. She is now 14 at the end of this chapter. And I'm avoiding raping characters like the plague in this story -_- So don't expect sex until… a few chapters xDWell, thanks for reading :D
