A/N: Year 5… I hope this one goes good. It feels kinda OOC to me, but it's up to you. Thank all of you for reviewing and supporting this, I'm thinking of making a variant of this with a dark fic or Izayoi or Sessmom with Inu-Taisho, I'm not sure. But don't expect a daily update anymore, my studies resume tomorrow but I'll try to update every other day.

Disclaimer: InuYasha belongs to Rumiko Takahashi.

January 4th Nothing much has happened in the past week I haven't written in you… besides I now know Kazuko is leaving on the 26th, I have nothing else to say, so goodnight Sasshi.

January 26th I think Lady Kaede is really sad that I'm entering my last year with her. She tried to be happy, but I knew she was sad behind it all. Sesshoumaru-sama visited me today, but with no kimono. I didn't mind, I have a lot of kimono from him already, even if some of the older ones are too short now. When he left, it was dusk so I walked back to the Shrine. Kazuko was leaving, and she stopped to say goodbye to me. She asked me if I planned on marrying someday. I told her yes, and she smirked I think, and told Sesshoumaru-sama would tear me to pieces. I don't like to think of the two ways it could be interpreted. My hand hurts from writing, so I'll go to sleep. Goodnight, Sasshi.

February 10th I haven't gotten any sleep, Sasshi… my menses are still hanging around from January, and I didn't really care to ask Lady Kagome about it being normal or bad. I'm growing up, Sasshi; I'll have to learn to accept things now. …I feel weird saying that. Goodnight, Sasshi.

February 17th Lord Sesshoumaru visited today, and I wondered why he still does. I thought that after the first year, his visits would get less frequent, but I guess not. It's kinda nice, Sasshi. He talks to me more now than he has. I bet Lady Kagome is gonna make fun of me for saying that, so I'm going to sleep to avoid any more embarrassment. Goodnight!

March 19th This year is going well so far… Lady Kagome told me my handwriting is really good, and she's teaching me how to 'talk like a lady', but she doesn't talk like that herself, so how would she know? I don't know. Are you a Lady of some sort of lands, Sasshi? Well, goodnight.

March 25th Milord visited me today, and the tightening in my chest was really bad when we watched the sunset. I don't want to believe its love Sasshi; he's like a father to me. What do you think I should do? I shouldn't tell him, because he might not visit me anymore, and won't allow me to rejoin him… I'll think more about it later. It's late, so goodnight.

April 11th It's been really rainy, and it's killing the flowers. I planted seeds for spring back in February, and they're drowning right now from the downpours. But, I always like the smell after it rains. Do you like it, too, Sasshi? Well, goodnight.

April 24th 17 years of my life have just gone by like that… 10 years almost since that day. Milord of course visited me, with a 7 layer kimono. It was beautiful, and it was yellow this time. The sleeves and bottom had these strange white and gold patterns… I don't know what they are, but it's really pretty. I try to tell you what it looks like so you can get a better picture of me, Sasshi… you only see me in a sleeping yukata, never one of my pretty kimono. I hugged Milord, but I was careful to put my arms around his waist. He did something I never expected, too! He hugged me back, Sasshi. He finally hugged me back, and I thought I was going to have a heart attack the way my heart was pounding! I think… I think I might love him. I don't want to admit it, Sasshi. I'm too young to love, right? I'm not an adult for another whole year! Haha, goodnight.

May 10th My menses have begun, and they got on the white under layer of my black three-layer kimono. I might've ruined it, Sasshi. I tried really hard to get the stain out on the white, grey, and even the darker stain on the black, but it just wouldn't come out! Do youkai like you have these problems? I hope not, Sasshi, I'm so sad. It was one of my favorites. Well… goodnight.

May 21st Sesshoumaru-sama visited me, and I had gotten over the kimono finally. I got to wear my 7 layer kimono, and I felt really good in it! I told Sesshoumaru-sama this, and he gave me the almost smile again. It was nice, and I think I don't love him, but maybe… like him. Yeah, it's just my affection to all the kimono he has given me! Sasshi, I finally figured out how I feel. Well, I'm going to sleep happy today. Goodnight!

June 9th Summer has begun, and my visits from Sesshoumaru-sama end. Well, only for a few months, but still. I've been thinking about my 'affection' and so-called love. Lady Kagome laughed at my excuses, and said affection and love are the same thing. She said I should just tell him. Honestly, I'm kinda scared. What happens if he hates me, Sasshi?

June 30th Summer isn't really eventful, is it Sasshi? Lady Kaede has been sick these past 2 weeks, and she's getting better, but… It's not fun without Lady Kagome to talk to, not being allowed to leave the Shrine until Lady Kaede doesn't need me anymore, and no visits from Lord Sesshoumaru. I hope it gets better… goodnight.

July 10th I'm excited for something, finally! I got some seeds from the now healthy Lady Kaede for fall and winter flowers again, and I'm gonna plant them on a special day. I'll tell you about it on that day, Sasshi… it's really important to me. I feel like a 'giddy' little kid again! Well, goodnight!

July 16th 10 years ago on this day, I was rescued by Milord. I've told you how I was attacked by wolves Sasshi, right? Well, I always remembered the day I was resurrected. I always feel kinda better on this day, and I would always try to make the biggest bouquet of flowers for Milord as a way of thanks, I guess. But, I'm planting flowers today instead of picking, which I think is better. I remember when I went back to where I died once… it was covered in pretty, colorful flowers. The entire path was, Sasshi. It was beautiful.

July 31st Lady Kagome came back to the shrine today. I think she left awhile ago without telling me, only Lady Kaede. I asked her what she did, and she said she never left. She was just at home, because Daitaro had gotten sick too. I miss Daitaro, but InuYasha said he shouldn't be left with me all day, instead he should be with his father. Well, that's probably the most eventful thing that's gonna happen this summer. So… goodnight.

August 7th Today, I saw something amazing, Sasshi. I think I saw you. I went to the meadow to get away from the Shrine, but when I got there, there was a girl there. She was a youkai, like you. She had the same hair style like you, same hair color; even the eyes and eye color were the same! She looked at me when I just stood there. We stayed where we were for a few seconds, and I bet I looked stupid with wide open eyes and mouth. She had a diary like mine in her hands. I ran away really fast because… well, I don't know. But, she looks so much like you, Sasshi!

August 23rd I even looked at the old pictures and the new pictures I've drawn of you Sasshi, and you look exactly like the girl in the meadow. The hair, eyes, markings, clothes, everything! I think it might've been fate or destiny for us to at least see each other once. I've been going back to the meadow to see if she was there or if she had left anything, but no. Goodnight…

August 31st I can't get that girls face out of my mind! I knew she was a demon, and I shouldn't be scared of demons, but still… it happened. I saw her, and then I saw you. I ran away, in case it was a dream about to turn into a nightmare. I guess it wasn't a dream, Sasshi. Well, goodnight.

September 4th I'm still thinking about what happened awhile ago, Sasshi. That girl looked exactly like how I had drawn you. Maybe it was just a coincidence? I don't know, but maybe I should forget about it. But, I always imagined you to write about me as well as yourself, so was it kinda like destiny, that we meet while she's writing in her journal? I don't know, Sasshi. Goodnight.

September 19th Lady Kaede said Kazuko would visit late this year and leave early. I was really happy about it, but she had a 'somber' look on her face. I asked her why she was sad, and she didn't say anything. She wouldn't happen to actually like Kazuko's visits, did she? I knew old ladies were secretly crazy.

September 27th Hmm, no Sesshoumaru-sama this month. I'm not worried, but Lady Kagome laughed and asked if I 'longed' for him. She's kinda mean about the whole 'love' thing. I don't think it's love, but she's trying to force me to love him! It's kinda creepy, the way her voice gets lower, and her face suddenly has weird shadows on it. I've had nightmares of her, Sasshi.

October 10th Lady Kagome said it as rude how I talked about her in my last passage. I finally got to laugh at her, and she sulked the rest of the day. Daitaro came by today, and he's gotten really big. He's only 2, but looks 5 or 6! He's walking and trying to talk, and he's really cute. Now I really want a kid, Sasshi! Wait, not like that, I meant, when I'm older and found love and everything. Well, goodnight.

October 22nd Lord Sesshoumaru visited today, and I made a bouquet of the blooming fall flowers. He always accepts my flowers, but I never know where he puts them. I also wonder where Jaken has been, or if he's dead yet. Haha, I could see Jaken getting punted from Sesshoumaru-sama to Kazuko back and forth! I feel sorry for him. I asked Sesshoumaru-sama if Jaken was okay, and he said he was. Sesshoumaru-sama doesn't talk a lot, so I wonder if he doesn't like me asking questions? I think it's too late for him to do anything about it, though, Sasshi. Goodnight.

November 10th Kazuko arrived a few days ago. She didn't seem happy or anything. She was almost like… Lord Sesshoumaru. She was 'aloof' and just sat around. At least she isn't causing trouble. Yet. Goodnight, Sasshi-chan.

November 20th Kazuko hasn't been really active lately. She just goes out and sleeps near the river. I wonder why she isn't sick yet. But, what if she's saving up energy now and later will just go insane and destroy things? I don't think it'll happen, but still, Sasshi. Goodnight.

November 30th My winter flowers should bloom soon, Sasshi. They should've already, but I guess that they don't want to come out. I wouldn't come out too if Kazuko was visiting. Haha, goodnight.

December 12th Today, Kazuko invited me to the frozen lake with the waterfall. It seemed weird that she was nice today, but I did. She asked me what death was like. I told her, since she didn't seem hostile. She seemed… sad. She took her necklace off, and handed it to me. She told me it was a mermaid's tear, and held her mother's blessing. She said the world didn't need another hanyou. Kazuko told me her mother would come soon, and she had to leave. I don't understand why she did any of this, and I still really don't. But, Kazuko took a knife out. It was decorated and looked like one that was for show. She lifted it up, and she pierced the crystal in her chest, Sasshi. Light burst out, and those weird souls poured out, and she fell to the ground, and she just… vanished away in the wind like Kagura had. Had she killed herself, Sasshi? I wish I knew more. I don't think I'll sleep tonight, I'm scared.

December 15th I talked to Lady Kaede after she asked where Kazuko had gone. I told her what happened, and Lady Kaede said she wasn't dead—well, she said her body was gone, but her soul wasn't, and she could get a new body later. Lady Kaede said she had done it a long time ago, to hide from her mother's wrath. Lady Kaede didn't understand what Kazuko meant, so neither do I. Why would she be scared of her mother? I'll wear her necklace from now on. I still don't get the 'The world doesn't need another hanyou' thing she said to me. She wasn't that bad though, I think. Goodnight, Sasshi.

December 22nd The winter flowers bloomed two days ago. They're white, blue, purple, and some even came up in different mixed colors, like grey and purple on one. Lord Sesshoumaru told me they were nice. I thanked him and hugged him, and we got to walk while it snowed lightly. I love it when he visits, Sasshi. I love him. I won't try to stop it, or try to stop the tightening in my chest… unless someone else comes into my life, I'll love Sesshoumaru-sama.

December 31st I can't believe it Sasshi. It's time for my last 4 months here… I'll be 18 soon, and ready to re-join Milord. I swear I'll never forget you Sasshi, or my time spent here. Thank you… goodnight.

A/N: This took me awhile to write. Also, some people said Rin seems too naïve for her age… and yeah, it's true. I had originally written this fic out before posting, but it was a lolicon (Rin was still 7) and was supposed to be her diary, with smut. Of course I've redone it and now have this, but I'm still following the basic events I planned out, and now I see she was really naïve as a young girl, it carried over to this, and if you're still reading this Note, thank you xD This'll be a fic I'll go back and edit at some point… but thanks for reading :)