.:Twilight Series - Nightshade's Hale:.

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.:Chapter Fifteen - Hero?:.

I shifted uncomfortable when I felt a hard form stopping me from rolling over. I tried desperately to push the thing away but it was no use, the ting was to hard.

I groaned slightly when I heard a soft chuckle echo around me. I tried desperately to fall back into a deep sleep, but with the large lump next to me it made it hard.

I stiffly rubbed my eyes and then forced them open. I was completely confused when I found none other than Jasper Hale laid next to me like a statue.

I shuffled back in shock, only to fall off the bed, but instead of feeling the hard floor, I felt a strong pair of arms catch me and pull me back onto the bed. I lay shocked next to him, until my memory of last night came back.

"You stayed?" I ask in shock.

I stared at him in shock, I mean why would Jasper Hale of all people want to stay or be around me, I was a explosion waiting to happing. Jasper's face brightens into a smile as he brush a strand on hair back.

"Why would I ever want to leave your side?" he asks softly.

I shrug slightly as I say "Because I'm one big flaw".

"Flaws make a person who they are – and your flaws make me admire you" he tells me as he brushes his thumb across my check.

"You had a phone call in the middle of the night. I played back the voice mail, it was Morgan. She said she's gonna be gone for the rest of the week, and that you shouldn't worry" Jasper tells me after a few minutes.

I nod slightly, in the back of my head I had to count up the days, Morgan would be gone four days. Which meant no nagging or over eating.

I look back up at Jasper as I ask "What time is it?".

"Just after 7. Which means you have enough time to get ready, and have breakfast... Oh and Morgan said to take your shots".

I nod slowly, and then roll over and climb out off bed. I stretch slightly as I walked towards my wardrobe and pulled out some clean clothes. After grabbing the things I needed I left the room without a word and headed for the bathroom.


I breathed out in relief when I entered the bathroom. Jasper was so hard to be around, he was like a drug, something I thought I'd never feel, or deserved.

I breath in and then let it out as I walk towards the sink. I stared at myself in the mirror as I turned on the hot water. After a few seconds I cup the water in my hands and then throw it up into my faces.

I sigh as I look back up at my reflection, only to suddenly feel dizzy. I suddenly stared to cough, causing pale fluid to leave my body and hit the white sink. I wiped my mouth with water and then pull a pool blue with white dots carry-all case towards me.

I open the case and then pull out a light grass green make-up organizer, I then pull a clear syringe out along with a small glass bottle that has a white liquid in it. I quickly fill the syringe and then pull up my sleeve as I grab a see through tube out of the box and wrap it around my arm just above my elbow.

After a few seconds I push the needle into my arm, and then push the fluid into my body. I felt myself fall before it really happened. I gripped the side for leverage, but my hand slipped and I hit the bathroom floor hard.

I attempted to grip the edge of the bathtub, but my grip slipped as the bathroom door swung open. I look up to find Jasper stood there. Jasper was at my side like lightning. I shivered when I felt his ice cold hand at my neck.

"Are you ok?" he asks.

I couldn't reply, how was I supposed to tell him about this, it was something I'd hoped never to bring up with anyone. I watch as Jasper's eyes land on the discarded syringe and then bottle of white liquid.

Jasper looks back down at me, his eyes finding mine, and instantly I knew what he was going to ask, but I had to stop him before he did.

"It's not what you think" I tell him with a shaky voice.

"What else am I supposed to think Lace?" he asks, his hand never left my body.

My heart sank at the hurt I felt in his voice. I had to tell him the truth, not all of it, but some, just so he wouldn't sound like that. I killed me to think of him in pain.

I sat up as best as I could, and then reached for the bottle only to have Jasper's free hand curl around it and then passes it to me. As his fingers brushed mine I looked up into his eyes.

"Listen, please. I'm not a druggie, I take it for a reason, and that reason is because I'm ill. And it's not something that can be stopped, or I could have stopped. But I wish I could have stopped it" I tell him.

Jasper eyes finally met mine, his eyes were now soft, but there was a mirror pain that was been masked. Maybe I was stupid to tell him, because it seemed to kill him even more.

"Is there a chance you can get better?" he asks.

"No. It'll be with me till I die, it'll probably be the cause" I tell him.

"It's cancer, isn't it?" he asks.

I shake my head slowly as I tell him "No. That would be easer,.. simpler, than this. If I had cancer I could possibly get better, but I can't with this".

"Will you tell me what it is?" he asks softly.

"No. I've caused you enough pain for one day, you need no more" I say.

Jasper smiles ever so slightly, and then slowly helps me up. I sigh as I walk towards the sink and place the glass bottle back in the make-up organizer, along with the tube. I then bend down and pick up the dropped syringe.

I then wrap it in tissue paper and then throw it in the bin. I sigh softly when I feel Jasper's hand on my shoulder.

"I'll leave you to your business" he tells me.

I nod slowly, and then slump forward slightly when I hear the bathroom door close. After a few minutes I put the make-up organizer back in the carry-all case and then close it. I sigh slightly as I rinse the sink out, and then begin to brush my teeth.

After brushing my teeth, I wash my face, and then shut off the water. I then turn around and begin to change into fresh clothes.


I smile when I see Jasper waiting for me at the bottom of the stairs. Jasper stood almost like a solider waiting for orders. I smile up at him as he hesitantly placed his right hand against my still bruised side. Jasper's eyes down cast towards my side, almost as if he could feel the tender tissue under my clothes.

"I am sorry about that" he says.

I shake my head slightly as I place my hand against his and then say "Its ok. It almost healed. I hold no grudge with you Major Whitlock".

Another smiled played on his lips as he looked back up at me.

"Its been a while since I've heard that name" he says.

"Then I'll always call you it when were alone. Just so you never forget who you really are" I tell him.

Jasper's lips curved into a brighter smile as he looked at me, and instantly I felt weak at the knees. Jasper slowly raised my hand in his and brought it to his lips. I shivered slightly as the feel of ice cold lips against the knuckles of my hand.

Jasper eyes glistened slightly as he slowly lowered my hand and then reached up with his other hand to brush my cheek.

"I wish to kiss you - May I?".

His voice was soft, but I could still hear the slightly hesitant wave that lined it. I nodded slowly, not really able to muster a reply, my throat felt closed and weak. I step closer to him and then slowly stand up on my tip toes.

I smiled softly when I felt ice cold lips against my own; ice cold lips that were smiling back. After a few heart stopping moments I dared to deepen the kiss. I pressed my lips deeper into his, my hands were now skimming over his ribs.

But before I could deepen it any more, my body screamed at me to stop and take a breath of air. I pull back slowly, my cheeks felt hot and my head felt dizzy, but it was soon replaced by the rush of air. After a few moments I look up to find Jasper staring down at me with slight amusement.

"You need to breath Lace, please never forget that, not even for me" he tells me with a serious voice.

"I promise I never will" I assure him.

Jasper smiles again as he brushes his thumb across my cheek.

"Your having the day off today".

This sudden statement startled me, and then I glanced up to look at the clock that decorated the hallway walls. I was hit with shock when I noticed it was around 10, Jasper had lied to me.

"You told me it was seven" I tell him.

"You looked to peaceful to wake. And anyway Alice tells me she has a surprise for you later. She's getting acquainted with a new friend at the moment, so she'll be by later" he tells me.

Jasper then slowly leads me through into the kitchen, and I follow him calmly. I sigh as he ushers me into a seat. Jasper then begins to rummage around the kitchen.

"Tell me about Alice, about your life with her" I asks softly.

Jasper stops and then turns to face me, a soft smile on his face. He nods slowly and then begins to pull out a pans and a bunch of cooking stuff.

"Alice is, special, she like me has a gift, like I told you. She's sees the future, but Alice doesn't remember her human life, we know she had one, but her memory of it was never there when she woke to her new life".

Jasper's voice stopped for a short time as he lift the stove, but he was talking straight after that.

"Alice had seen me years before we met; she saw that we would meet in a half-empty dinner in Philadelphia. When I first saw her, she was dazzling and beautiful. And then she walked towards me, a smile on her lips, she teased me about keeping her waiting a long time, and I felt sheepish about it all".

Jasper sighed slightly as he turned to face me and then continued.

"And then she held out her hand, and I took it without stopping to make sense of what I was doing. For the first time in almost a century... I felt hope".

I smiled softly as his eyes met with mine. Jasper then slowly made his way towards me. After sinking down into the set next to me, he slowly took my hand and began to speck again.

I listened to him carefully, liked he had asked me to before he had fully continued. The words he spoke to me were shocking and yet some how I felt the reality behind them.

Jasper had told me that Alice had seen a girl long before she saw him at that half-empty dinner; she saw how this girl would fix this broken soldiers soul and heart; fix it more that she could.

In a way, all Alice was doing was just covering up the wounds with brightly coloured plasters, but the blood was still falling. And that's why Alice hoped this girl would find them soon, so she could fully fix this broken body.

But the problem with that was that this girl wasn't even conceived yet. Jasper told me that Alice had told him that the girl was me; but the funny thing is - I don't know how I'm supposed to heal him,.. I'm no hero.

After Jasper had spoken I sat quietly, thinking over what he had told me. Jasper told me how he was told this the day he first saw me. I felt guilty suddenly, I had been the reason they had broken apart.

I was pulled from my thoughts when a plate of bacon, eggs and waffles was put in front of me. I looked up to find Jasper sat next to me again.

"Wow, a man that knows how to cook".

I knew instantly that Jasper had heard the strain in my voice. Jasper smiled lightly as he took my hand once again.

"Mine and Alice break up was not your fault. It was long since due, and were both fine with it. Our relationship was more platonic anyway" he tells me.

I shake my head slightly and then say "That's not the point. You deserve some one better than,.. me. Alice never had the past to worry about telling, but I have the past to worry about. One that, I'm scared you'll run away from if I tell you".

"Your not the only one with a bad past, part of mine is probably still out there to. So, here's the deal, you tell me your past when your ready, and I'll listen. Now eat your breakfast" he says.

I nod slightly and then quickly lean forward and kiss his lips. I then sit back and pick up my fork.


A/N - I tried hard for this chapter, some of the parts from Jasper's past might be wrong, because I haven't read Eclipse yet. I'm only on New Moon at the moment, but I got some facts from my fiance, and some of Twilight Wiki.

Anyway, I hope you liked it. Please review and tell me if I made any mistakes on his past, it would really mean a lot. :)

Next chapter will have a kinda big suprise, from MarsPlaentsGirl, aka Me - Emma. x