.:Twilight Series - Nightshade's Hale:.
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.:Chapter Seventeen – Truths! - Lace's POV:.
I sat quietly at the grand piano. When Jasper had seen it and asked whose it was, I could tell there was slight shock written on his face when he found it was mine.
I ran my fingers over the smooth ivory keys. Jasper was sat quietly next to me, waiting patiently to hear me play.
"I might not be any good" I tell him.
"I'm sure you'll do fine" he tells me.
I sigh as I slowly begin to play the chords that belong to the song Anything But Ordinary by Avril Lavigne. I breathed in as I slowly began to sing along with the words;
'Sometimes I get so weird I even freak myself out,
I laugh myself to sleep - It's my lullaby.
Sometimes I drive so fast, just to feel the danger,
I wanna scream; it makes me feel alive.
Is it enough to love? Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out, and leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die? Somebody save my life!
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.
To walk within the lines, would make my life so boring,
I want to know that I have been to the extreme.
So knock me off my feet. Come on now give it to me.
Anything to make me feel alive
Is it enough to love? Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out, and leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die? Somebody save my life!
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.
Let down your defences. Use no common sense
If you look you will see, that this world is a beautiful,
accident, turbulent, succulent, opulent permanent, no way.
I wanna taste it, don't wanna waste it away.
Sometimes I get so weird, I even freak myself out.
I laugh myself to sleep - It's my lullaby.
Is it enough? Is it enough? Is it enough to breathe?
Somebody rip my heart out, and leave me here to bleed
Is it enough to die? Somebody save my life!
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please.
Is it enough? Is it enough to die?
Somebody save my life
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please - oh.
I'd rather be anything but ordinary please'
I took a deep breath as I finished the song. I look down at my knuckles when I feel something fall from my left eye, and hit them. I look up when Jasper's fingers curl around mine.
"Told you, you'd do fine" he tells me.
I was grateful for his not mentioning the tear, because I didn't really know why it had fallen from my eye. I smile slightly as I pull my hands away from the keys.
I look round towards the hallway when I hear a knock on the door. I stand slowly, and then make my way towards the door. I look back when I feel Jasper following me.
I take a deep breath as I grip the handle and then pull the door open. My eyes widen when I find Sirius Drachen, my best friend, well altogether my only friend, (besides Bella), stood there.
Sirius had always been there for me, even though he'd never pushed to know what was going on, or why I had bruises, or why I'd appear with a tear socked face, still he'd always been there with a shoulder to cry on, and over the years me and Sirius had created a somewhat brother/sister relationship, and we liked it that way.
I practically launched myself at him, my arms wrapped around his neck, and instantly I felt the ice cold skin that resembled that of Jasper's, but I pushed that thought back.
For the moment all that mattered was the Sirius was here. And I knew instantly that everything was going to be ok. I held onto him tighter as he lifted me up and spun me around.
"Your ok. Thank god. I was so worried" he tells me.
"You taught me how to look after myself big brother" I tell him.
After a few seconds he puts me back down on my own two feet. I smile as I look up at him, but it fades to a look of confusion when I see Alice Cullen stood a few steps away from us.
"Hello Lace" she says with a bright smile.
I nod slightly and then ask "Is this the surprise Jasper said you had for me?".
Alice nods as she says "Yes. Can I come in?".
I nod and then turn and lead the way back into the house. After Sirius and Alice walk past through into the hallway, I close the door. I then turn and lead the way through into the living room.
I sit down on one of the sofas, I smile when Jasper sits down next to me. I look over at the others, only to find Sirius was sitting way too close to Alice.
"Is there something I should know?" I ask in slight amusement.
"There are a few things" Sirius tells me.
I sigh as I say "Well, I've got all day, probably all night".
Sirius leans forward slightly as he runs his right hand through his slightly spiky hair. I shiver slightly when I feel a something flutter past me. I look towards Jasper with a questioning look.
Jasper looks towards me with a slight smile as he takes hold on my hand. I look back towards Sirius to find he looks a lot calmer that before, and instantly I silently thank Jasper for helping him out.
"Do you remember how, two weeks before you left, I went missing for a few days, and when I turned up, I kept wearing those stupid sunglasses all the time, and I wouldn't come out into the sun light, and I kept avoiding other people?" he asks me.
I nod slightly and then say "Yeah. I just though you were being you,.. more than normal".
Sirius sits up right as he looks me in the eyes, he then says "Well, I... I'm a... vampire now".
The words hit me quickly, almost like a bomb, but what I felt broke my heart. I pulled my hand free from Jasper's, and then stood up, and walked off into the kitchen.
As soon as my feet connected with the kitchen floor, the tears began to fall. Was this supposed to be my life from now on, a life revolved around Vampires. I screamed in frustration as I sent the plastic fruit bowl flying across the room.
I turn round when I feel a set of eyes burning holes into the back of my head. Stood there was Sirius, behind him was Jasper and Alice.
"I thought you'd take it better than this" he tells me.
"Not you! Not you!". I was pleading with him as he stepped forward slightly.
"You promised!! You said we'd grow old together, that we'd die together! You said we'd be laughing as we died, because we'd know we'd still have each other after this life! But this, this isn't fair! Why does everyone lie?! WHY?!".
I felt myself fall, but I wasn't really paying attention to what was happening around me - apart of me didn't care any more. A part of Sirius had been taken from me, his lively side, his human side.
I reach up and cling hold of the arm that now encircled my upper body. I knew it was Sirius holding me, he was holding me up, just like he had always done. I let the scream in my throat pass my lips, I need it to be free, so they could hear my pain.
I look up to find Jasper's features riddled with pain, and I knew he was feeling what I was feeling. And suddenly I felt their pain to, some where deep down I knew this life wasn't there fault, and instantly I wished for the ones who had done this to die.
"I promise Lace, I'll be there for you till the end".
I hug closer to Sirius as he tells me this. I knew he'd keep this promise, but I didn't want him to. I knew deep down it would kill him to watch me die. He'd already watched his Mom die, and I didn't want to hurt him. I didn't want any of them in pain.
I look up at Jasper and Alice as I ask "Is Edward a vampire?".
They both nod as they look at myself and Sirius.
"Does he mean her harm?" I ask as my tears finally stop.
"No. Edward finds it hard been around her, but he wouldn't hurt her" Alice tells me.
I slowly stood up with the help of Sirius. I then look up at Sirius with a slight smile. I then slowly looked round towards Jasper and Alice. They stood quietly as they watched myself and Sirius.
"I'm sorry" I tell them.
"You'd be insane not to have that kind of reaction" Jasper tells me as he walks towards me.
I smile slightly as I look up at him – how could he still want to be around me after this? I didn't have the answer to that, but I was grateful that he'd not left, and I hoped he wouldn't leave any time soon.
Almost as if he'd felt what I was feeling, Jasper gentle pulls me into his arms, and holds me close to his body. I curled myself around him, my arms came up to his shoulder blades as I pressed my face into his chest. I sigh as I inhale his sent, I could faintly smell fresh grass – the sort of grass that gets cut and then has fresh water sprinkled over it during the summer.
There was also the faint smell of fresh soil. It hit me then, I could smell what I barley remembered of my home. I pull my head back slightly and look up at him.
"I want to know everything that you'll let me know. I want to know your past, but I want to know it when your ready" I say to him.
"I tell you anything you want to know" he tells me.
I smile slightly as I lean up on my tip toes, and gently kiss his lips. After a few seconds I pull away feeling a little flustered. Jasper smiles slightly as he leans forward and rests his forehead against mine.
"Sirius and Alice are waiting for us" he tells me after a few moments.
I pull back slightly as I nod slightly. I then turn and walk back into the living room, with Jasper by my side. I sigh inwardly as I sit down, knowing that this was gonna be the conversation I didn't want to have with anyone.
"So? Why did you leave?" Sirius asks me softly.
I look at him and Alice, but I notice that Alice has a look of sympathy on her face as she looks at me, it was almost as if she knew what had happened.
I sigh as I look down at the floor and say "It's not like I wanted to leave. Things,.. they just happened, and I got caught in the cross fire".
"I heard about your uncle. How bad did it get?" he asks.
I look up at him as shrug and say "Bad, bad. The neighbours heard everything. They called up the social workers, and he got sent to jail, and me,.. I got sent to sunny old Forks".
Sirius nods but I could tell he knew I was leaving something important out, and I hoped he wouldn't push it. I curled my hand around Jasper's when I felt him get a little closer to me.
"You're leaving something out!". There goes my hope!
"Ok, so what if I am?" I ask, my voice rising slightly.
I saw the shock on his face at my tone, even Alice was shocked, and I only guessed that Jasper was, I didn't have the strength to look at him and find out. Sirius stands up and walks towards me, when he reaches me he crouches down in front of me and takes my free hand.
"Please, little sis. We've never kept anything from each other, I know what you went through. I have the scars to prove I tried to stop it. And so do you. So, please,.. please don't hide what happened from me. You need to tell me, or you'll blame yourself forever, and I won't allow that to happen. Please. What did he do?".
Sirius looks deep into my eyes as he speaks. I knew he was right, but how could I tell him. He understood what I went through, but to say it in front of Jasper and Alice,.. to let them find out what happened to me.
I could already see the disgust on their faces when they found out. I sigh as I finally give in, there was no way I could hide it forever. It was best they knew now, instead of later.
"Ok, fine... Your going to live forever, while I,.. I have months, maybe days left. I'm dying and there's nothing any doctor can do about it. My body is rotting, slowly, from the inside out. And all because I didn't have the strength to stop him".
My voice was trembling slightly as I held onto both Jasper's and Sirius' hands. I could see the hurt and confusion in Sirius' eyes, but I had to tell him, he had a right to know, even if I didn't want him to. After all these years I owed him that - the truth, nothing more, nothing less.
"I'm not scared of dying, cos I know I'll see my parents again, and all my other family. But I don't want to die young. I never told you, but I have this dream, a dream in which I marry a nice guy, and have a couple of kids. Where I live on a little ranch with a white picket fence, there are horse and large open fields of fresh green grass were the kids can run and be free, where it always smells of summer, and I grow old and die in my sleep surrounded by loved ones.".
I pause after telling him this, not only I had I just told my best friend about the only good dream I'd ever had in my life - that I could remember - But I'd also just told Jasper, the perfect guy, the guy I wasn't even sure was mine yet, and Alice, the girl I wanted Sirius to be happy with.
I smile through hazed eyes when Sirius places his hand against my cheek.
"You listen to me, there is nothing wrong with wanting that. A wise woman once said that even a little Fire-Cracker like you, Lacey Nightshade, deserves the very best life. Do you remember who said that?" Sirius says.
"Ma-ma. Ma-ma said it to me, I was twelve, and I'd just caused a fire in the kitchen because I wasn't watching the stove. She called me Fire-Cracker from that day on".
I spoke mainly to myself, but I'd still answered his question. I look up at Sirius as the tears finally fall from my eyes.
"But she was wrong. Ok, so I'm not denying that I believe I deserve some form of better life. But I'm not gonna get that better life... I'm gonna die young, and we both know I'm never wrong about these things" I tell him.
"What would make you think that Lace?".
I turn to look at Jasper, the tears were still falling, but at the moment I just couldn't care, maybe I needed these tears to be let loose. Maybe I'd find some sort of peace if they were gone.
"I don't know. I just know that, I'm going to die young" I tell him.
A/N - Another chapter, and just to let all my readers know i plan too do ever few chapters from Sirius' point of view. Any way i hope you liked this chapter, i wrote it from the heart. Please READ and REVIEW. Please.
