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**Italics = Cal thinking.**
**Cal's POV**
Oh I am so angry! That bloody woman. And here is Gerald. I bet he is going to ask if I had a fight with the Mrs..
Gerald perked up and said, "Well, well Mr. Rigby. Did you have a fight with the Mrs.?"
Damn! I need to clear my face so that no one can read me. That bloody woman has me all tied up! I will just smile. "Oh, she just wants her space." I grin so this old man can leave me alone. Finally we get to the lobby. I hear Gerald say something but I don't hear him correctly. I need a fucking drink! I am sure – What the hell?
Paul had bumped into Cal. "Oh, I am so sorry Mr. Rigby!" He bowed and went towards the elevator.
Stupid little git. Why is he wearing a hat inside? Whatever. Now I am sure there is a bar somewhere around here. I'm sure if I walk in one direction, I will find one.
That bloody woman! I'm not angry with the fact that she lied to me, I'm angry with the fact that she didn't even take her own advice. What kind of a psychologist is she? Here she is giving advice to me when she can't even internalize it herself. Damn it! Cal kicked the side of a building. Then he started limping.
Damn it, damn it, damn it! That will hurt in the morning. In fact it hurts right now. The things that woman makes me do. I never kicked something when I fought with Zoe. God knows I wanted to but I never did. But Gillian is different. I meant everything I said in that room. I do love her. I had only come to this realization a couple months ago after that crazy bloke came and held me hostage. When he pointed that gun at her, I almost died. Later that night when she fell asleep on the couch, I just watched her. I knew then that I was in love with her.
Cal punched his fist into his other hand. Damn it! I laid everything on the table for her and she pushed me away like I was one of her patients. What she doesn't know is that I will push back as hard as I can. She is a very stubborn woman but I am equally, if not more, stubborn. I think my game plan should be to let her know how much I want her. And I want her badly. That so-called pick-up line was just the beginning. I have plans to do things with her that I am sure she has only read in those stupid romance novels.
Oh, there is a pub. I knew there would be one around here. And it doesn't look that crowded. Good. Oh that dress she was wearing. I had to be very careful not to let her see my hard on. I think I had one all night, well except when she slapped me. That did hurt. Other than that, she was simply superb. I wanted to be the one to take that dress off… now Cal, ol' buddy, don't get too worked up. Damn, too late. She was utterly oozing sex and I wanted to… I will just stop right here. Think of something else, like nuns! "The hills are alive with the sound of music…"
Cal went into the pub and sat down at the bar. Just what I needed, thank the good lord! "Scotch, neat, thanks." The barman gave him the drink. Here is to Gillian's sexy dress… and nuns. He drank it all down and ordered another one. I think I will nurse this one. I don't want to be wasted when I go back then she will have a reason to hate my guts.
I really hate what she said about saving her own skin. I think she just said it so that I could back away but I don't think she meant it. But she did look angry. She looked angry and sad. Did I cause that sadness? Did I do something wrong? What did I do to her to make her say that she didn't love me?
"Penny for your thoughts," A beautiful young lady sat down next to Cal and finished, "drinking doesn't always solve the problem, but it sure helps." She flash him her bright smile and so he smiled back. "So what has you looking so confused? Is it a woman?" She looks at his face. Damn it, Cal, clear your face! "Yeah it's a woman. Honey, no use clearing your face, it is always a woman causing problems. Believe me, I am a woman." A very attractive woman. "Is there anything I can do to help?"
Oh, there are plenty of things you can do. But I can't do these things anymore. These games are fun in the beginning but in the end you end up lonely and you have to deal with a pissed off daughter and partner. So I will just shake my head and prey that she gets the picture. "You can't help me. I have already dug my hole. This woman is a pistol." Should I tell her? Why the hell not, I will never see her again. "I told her that I love her. She said that she didn't love me, but I know that she does."
The woman coyly smiled and said, "How do you know she loves you? Did she show you her love like a real woman?"
Um, she is getting very close and I can smell her perfume. Think of Gillian, damn it. She always shows me she loves me. She cares for me and sticks her neck out for me and she did walk around half naked for most of our time here. "She shows me everyday. I think she is just scared to cross that line. Hell, I am scared to cross that line." Did I just say that? Holy hell, I am losing it. I need to stop drinking.
She leaned in closer, "Well, darling, I know how to take your pretty little mind off of her."
Red alert, red alert! Stop this now! Cal put his hand up, "You are not Gillian, so—"
She interrupted him by saying, "I can be anyone you want me to be. Came on baby, let me help you forget her for a while. I can clear your foggy head." What am I doing following this woman out? I have always imagined Gillian doing this to me. What is this woman doing? Whoa, did she just push me against the wall? Suddenly, I am very attracted to her. Oh, her lips are very pouty. Her lipstick is cherry flavored. For a reason unknown to me, I love cherry flavored lipstick. It drives me nuts. One time Gillian put some on and… Shit, Gillian! I need to get away from this person as soon as possible. Stop kissing her! NUNS! NUNS! NUNS! She is now grabbing my balls… run away now! "I'm sorry but I have to go. Bye!"
Run like the wind. Sounds a like something Gillian would say. I get it now, I know why Gillian doesn't love me. It's because I pull this shit all the time and in front of her. I am a selfish prick. She does deserve better that me. She was right. I will need to go back and I will get a different room. I am sure she can tell that I have been a prick, even after I told her I loved her. I really have the urge to punch something really hard. But my foot still hurts.
Is that a rain drop I feel? Oh shit, what a great night to pour. You better run like the wind, Cal.
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