Sorry Sorry Sorry! It's finally here...I don't own anything New Moon...i promise!

Sorry again for how long it took me, but I had to add in a lot of schemes and then make the best/worst argument in the history of forever. I'm not really sure how great it is, but I hope you all like it. Well, not really like it, because I mean, Edward's being a jerk...but nevermind. Just read for me and tell me what you think...

Oh, and go grab the tissue boxes now...


It Can't Be The End...

I don't think I slept more than twenty minutes the entire night. People are going to think I purposely made myself look more like the Cullens with the whole dark under eye shadows.

I just kept my eyes trained on Edward's face most of the night. He had his arms wrapped around me in my bed, but wasn't watching me like he normally does. I was going to just go to sleep, but I figured I check to make sure he was still alright before I drifted off.

He wasn't alright. He was staring straight ahead at the wall with an anguished look in his eyes. He must be coming to a decision was all I could think about. So, to make him feel that I needed him around, I tossed and turned, pretending that I was having a really bad dream. I kept whispering 'Edward' over and over again as I moved. I would peek up at him after each turn, too, to see what would happen. He just looked even sadder after I did. Once I actually did drift off to sleep I had a movie dream. I was dreaming about the trailer.

First, Edward and I were in the Cullen's living room talking about the Volturi, when suddenly Alice whisked me outside to drive to my house to tell me that the Volturi could kill us all. I almost woke up when I dreamt about Edward leaving me, but in the dream, I picked myself up and walked all the way to La Push. Jacob was standing there waiting to tell me that he would never hurt me. Then I went around doing all sorts of reckless things including bitch-slapping a couple wolves.

Finally, something that shook me to my very core, Edward getting thrown around by some guard of the Volturi. I woke up again screaming, but Edward clamped down on my mouth before enough sound came out to wake anyone up. "You okay?" He whispered into my ear, not taking his hand off of my mouth.

I didn't have any choice but shake my head no. I mean, I just dreamt that Edward, my Edward, got slammed into the stairs in the Volturi estate. I am so not okay. He took his hand off of me, but didn't ask that I go into detail about what I dreamt about. Instead, he kissed my forehead quickly and jumped out of my window. "Jerk…" I mumbled under my breath hoping he would hear me.

I got to school on time since I had woken up exactly twenty minutes before my alarm clock was supposed to go off. I got dressed and got to school quickly, hoping to see what progress Ava and Alice had on Edward in the twenty minutes he was at his house. I pulled up next to the Volvo as always, but the scene I saw was odd. Before I got out of the car, I swore I saw Alice and Ava ganging up on Edward in heated conversation, but as soon as I walked around the truck to the other side, there were all smiles. Fake smiles.

"Happy Halloween, Bella!" Alice and Ava sang to me. "How was the rest of your night?"

"Peachy. Alice, how's Jasper?"

The same plastered on smile was still there. "He's fine. A little upset with himself, but fine. Everyone and everything is fine." She shot the smile towards Edward. I wonder what sort of argument they had together before I got here. I'm going to have to corner Ava later to find out. Maybe it involved whether they would all wear Halloween costumes to school or not.

"Good. That's great. Edward, are you okay? You kind of flew out of the window this morning."

"Yeah, Bella, I called him while you were sleeping and asked him to hurry home so I could talk to him about…some stuff. You know, just regular old vampire stuff." Ava told me. Edward had yet to say a thing.

"Mkay, Ava, can I talk to you for a minute? Alice, Edward, you guys can go ahead to English. We'll meet you there." Edward didn't look or say anything to me before he walked away with Alice. God, what did they say to him? Once they were inside, I turned back towards Ava. "What the hell happened this morning? I totally saw you three arguing."

"Okay, listen, I can't tell you everything now because…you know, supersonic hearing. I'll get it to you later, okay?" She was really worried about me. I can always tell with her. She acts even more like my sister-slash-mother now that she's a vampire. I guess that part of her got especially magnified once she was turned.

"Okay. Just tell me is tree leafing?" I sounded so stupid. I didn't want to straight out ask if he's leaving since Edward could still apparently hear us. She looked at me like I should be put in a strait jacket. Rhyme it, I mouthed.

Realization hit her finally. He's leaving? She mouthed back. I nodded. "No, tree's not leafing just yet. Not if I can help it," the bell rang, "we'll continue this session of Dr. Seuss later." She had a mischievous look on her face once we got into English.

Mr. Berry had already started class when we hurried inside. He glared but continued. "As I was saying, today's in-class essay will be worth half of this semester's grade and—" he completely stopped and got a sort of blank look on his face. I was worried he was having a heart attack or a stroke or something, but after a minute, he continued, but his eyes reminded me of something. It tugged on my memory for a while, but I shrugged it off so I could listen to what his new instructions were.

"Today in class, we are not writing an essay because it's Halloween and who really wants to write an essay on Halloween? We will be acting out Act 1 Scene 5, when Romeo and Juliet first meet. I know we've read the entire play already, but we've not acted out anything other than a few bits of the first scene. Since seeing Shakespeare performed is the way it was meant to be showcased, we will be doing that. Yes, now who wants to be my Tybalt? Mr. Newton, how about you?" Mike didn't look that pleased, but shrugged it off since we didn't have to write anything today. "Capulet? Miss Alice Cullen?" Alice looked shocked that he'd actually called on her, but nodded anyway. "Nurse, you have only a few lines…how about Miss Elizabeth Cullen? Now, now, now, our Romeo and Juliet, very important couple, I need two people with oodles of passion." Oodles? Now, who do I know that uses a word like that? Who also can control what people say if she really wants to?

Mr. Berry looked around and landed his eyes right on Edward and me. Oh, God, Ava. What are you up to now? "Here we are, Forks High's favorite couple, Miss Swan? Mr. Cullen? If you don't mind…."

I saw Ava smirking once we all took our spots. Yeah, I'll bet she's smirking. Alice and Mike hurried through their lines, which left me and Edward in front of the class alone. Ava was off to the side, staring intently at Edward. He looked like he was concentrating on something pretty hard too, but eventually got the glazed over look in his eyes and looked at me. "If I profane with my unworthiest hand, this holy shrine, the gentle fine is this: My lips, two blushing pilgrims, ready stand, to smooth that rough touch with a tender kiss." He looked at me like he'd never seen me before five minutes ago. Yeah, the blushing started here and didn't end…ever.

I mumbled through my lines, completely mortified at the display he was showing. When I looked out to the rest of the class, it seemed like they weren't even paying attention. In fact, most of them were asleep. Ava! We got to the part where Romeo and Juliet are supposed to kiss, and finally Edward snapped out of whatever Ava had made him do. We sort of stood there, thinking we were done, but no, Mr. Betty piped up. "No! Don't stop! Come on, Mr. Cullen, you have to kiss her."

"Mr. Berry, I don't think that's completely necessary—" He growled in Ava's direction.

"YES IT IS! KISS HER, EDWARD!" Ava and Mr. Berry both screamed at the same time. He pecked me lightly on my cheek and glared over at Ava. Alice was practically laughing her head off in a corner, Mike was just staring at us like an idiot, and Ava and Edward were having a glare off. Soon, Edward looked towards me with the most passionate look I'd ever seen before. It made Romeo look like a freaking puppy dog! I almost did fall over due to weak knees, but before I could he wrapped me in his arms, dipped me, and kissed me like no tomorrow. He didn't even bother with his usual boundaries. When he finally let me up, my face was about as red as my blood was last night.

Mr. Berry snapped out of Ava's influence the second class was over, as did the rest of the class. Edward, though, I wasn't entirely sure. Edward and I had our next class by ourselves, so I whipped out my phone to text Ava. Although, I thoroughly appreciated the break off of writing an in-class essay in English, I had to know why she'd thought out that whole little episode. WTF WAS THAT?

THAT was your birthday present that didn't involve lingerie. You're welcome.

No, I mean, why'd you make Edward kiss me like that? Did he say something this morning about leaving? Is that supposed to be my good-bye present????? I NEED ANSWERS WOMAN!

I didn't make him kiss you like that. That was all Edward! No joke, I made him talk like Romeo at first, but he shook me off. I was completely out of his head when he kissed you like he did. But you have to admit it was a brilliant idea making Mr. Berry do all that stuff today!

Yeah, yeah, yeah…Well, I hope that lovely kiss means that he's staying. But you didn't answer me before…what did you three talk about before I got here?

He wants us to distance ourselves from you. He wants us to leave, but Alice and I said no. More like HELL NO. He's not very happy with us, but told him we weren't going anywhere. I put on that little show in English to remind him of how much he loves you.

I couldn't breathe. He wanted to leave? I will kill him! Or re-kill him! I took a deep breath, but it didn't entirely help my heart from beating its way out of my chest. I glimpsed at Edward next to me, but he was avoiding any and all eye contact from me. Damn vampire! Maybe he is soulless. Ava must have somehow sensed my shock because she sent me another text.

But don't worry! We're all working on it! It'll be fine! Don't say anything too needy or something like that. We don't need him saying that he 'just needs space'. Act normally, or whatever normal is for you two. We'll work it out later.

"God, I hope so…"I whispered to myself.

"What was that?" Edward whispered down to me. He used the detached emotion-less voice, but his eyes were filled to the brim with worry. I started blushing again just because his close proximity made me think of our steamy kiss five minutes ago in English. And the fact that he didn't say anything about it made it all the more confusing.

"Nothing. I'm just thinking about some stuff. What was that whole thing in English about?"

His eyes turned harder. "Nothing. I don't know what Ava was up to."

"Ava made you do all that?" I asked, trying to see if he would lie.

"Yes, I don't know why, though."

I blushed again before adding, "Even that kiss?"

He didn't answer this time. The teacher brought everyone's focus to the front of the room. I wouldn't ask him again, since he already sort of lied to me. I wanted no more of that. Ava and Alice were as engaged in conversation as they usually were once we got to lunch. I needed their help now. I didn't know what to say or do to make Edward knock the hell out of whatever he was thinking about doing. I tried to send them my plea with just my already depressed look.

"Edward, what's wrong with Bella? Is she trying to be Kristen Stewart for Halloween?" Alice asked Edward. She liked to make fun of Kristen Stewart's lack of emotion in the Twilight movie by calling me that whenever I'm not as emotional as I usually am. Like right now, for example.

"I don't know, Alice. Why don't you ask her yourself?" Edward said back without much enthusiasm. On normal days, if something like this happened, he would have his arms around me in a second trying to make me feel better. Today, if anything, he scooted farther away from me. I looked up at Ava, begging for help.

"So, Edward, I noticed you did something without me having to make you in English today. That kiss was sure something! Angela, did you hear about it?" Ava and Angela were semi-good friends. She just approved of Angela the most since she was the nicest of the humans around here apparently.

"No! Lizzie, Bella, Alice, give me details!" She scooted farther away from the invisible line that separated the Cullens and me from the rest of the group. She and Ben always sit close to us, unlike Jessica and Lauren and their posse. Ava and Angela went into total teenage girl mode and started gibbering about how passionately Edward had kissed me today in class. Alice and Edward were carrying on some sort of silent conversation because Alice was sending massive glares towards Edward. He was glaring right back at her. Maybe this'll give me a chance to talk to him.

"What's going on you two? Some big fight down at the Cullen house?" I tried desperately hard to keep my voice upbeat.

"No, Bella, we're just working out some issues about Jasper." Edward said without so much as glancing at me. Alice instantly joined in Ava and Angela's conversation.

"Can you at least acknowledge my presence, Edward? I thought you said you weren't mad at me." I couldn't really help it from slipping out. I felt a bit neglected. Actually, a lot!

His eyes softened just the tiniest bit, but they were still too hard. "I'm not mad at you, Bella. I'm mad at…well, no one in particular."

"Then will you tell me what's wrong with you?" I challenged.

He tried to look innocent, but I wasn't buying it. He should know better than that. "What makes you think that there's something wrong?"

"One, because you just avoided the question with another question, and two, because I know you Edward Cullen. There's something wrong that you're not telling me about."

"Bella, believe me there's nothing wrong. Come on, would I lie to you?" Wow, use the lying card. I'll show you mister!

"Well, when we first met you lied for months about being a vampire plus how you felt about me. You also just lied to me when you said there's nothing wrong. Now, you come on and tell me what the hell is wrong with you." I caught him and he knew it. He looked mad at first, but then his eyes got that anguished look again that I saw so much of last night.

"Bella, I—" He was about to tell me. He really was, I could totally tell. He was going to tell me that he was upset about what happened at my party, but then everyone started getting up to go back to class. He noticed the sudden emptiness of the cafeteria too, and regained the impassive persona. I HATE THIS! I WAS THAT CLOSE! "Come on, we don't want to be late for class."

I didn't get another chance to talk to him for the rest of the day. Ava and Alice wanted to come over to my house after school to discuss strategies about keeping everyone together. Of course, this was all through text messages since Edward would be listening intently to whatever the three of us are talking about. I felt like we'd gone into full-on spy mode. We were talking in codes, but mostly saying things about which scary movie we would have to watch while texting what our actual plans were.

Edward came by around the same time that Uncle Charlie got home and flipped on ESPN. Alice and Ava both knew the second he entered the house, but we were in the middle of a breakthrough and didn't want to be interrupted. Alice thought I should go ahead a try to seduce him pre-Eclipse, and sadly Ava agreed.

So, as I was saying, we were on a breakthrough to nowhere. Although the thought of seducing my amazingly gorgeous boyfriend was a fun idea, it would definitely not work in this situation. I figured we should just kick Uncle Charlie out of the room to have a scary movie night and work from that point on. Ava knew that I could not tolerate any form of scary movie whatsoever but still felt the inclination to bring over The Witches, the old Roald Dahl book that was made into a movie. I know, it's a kid's movie, but it scares the living day lights out of me.

So, once we kicked Uncle Charlie out to go with Sue to visit some people in La Push, Alice and Ava sat me directly next to Edward and then squished in next to me so that I would have to be snuggled up against him. Under normal circumstances I wouldn't have minded so much, but I was mad at Edward for trying to leave already. Still, as soon as the movie started and the first witch made me scream, I buried myself against Edward's chest since it was the only place where I felt safe at the moment.

I'm not sure if it was his natural reaction either, but he wrapped his arms around me reassuringly, murmuring over and over "It's okay, Bella. It's just a movie." I still couldn't watch it, though. I stayed in the same position against Edward the entire time, eventually falling asleep since I didn't get enough last night.

The next morning, I woke up to Edward leaning against my window frame watching me with those damn unemotional eyes. "Feeling better?"

"You stayed?" I figured he would have just left me alone despite the magnificent genius of Ava and Alice yesterday of bringing us back closer together.

"Of course! I had to make sure that no witches snuck in to turn you into a mouse."

Starting the day off blushing, lovely. Well, since we're alone now and since I didn't get a chance to talk to him yesterday, now seems a good a time as any. "So, you stayed to keep me safe? That's awfully considerate of you. You know what would be even more considerate of you? Telling me what exactly has been the matter with you since yesterday."

I could tell there was some definite internal debating going on in that thick head of his. I have to remind myself that I do incidentally love that thick head, and everything attached to it of course. Come on, Edward, we don't actually have all morning! He wouldn't look at me while he talked. Oh, this is just great. "Bella, there has been something I've been keeping from you, but, you have to understand, it's all to keep you safe. I would never want—"

"Bella? Are you awake, sweetheart?" Sue knocked lightly on my door. Must I continue to suffer through these constant interruptions?!?

I glanced back towards Edward, who was rubbing his temples like he was trying desperately hard to concentrate on something. Or maybe he was just thinking along the same line I was about all of the interruptions. "Yeah, Sue, I'm up. I'll be out in a minute!" I swung myself out of bed so to stand directly in front of Edward. "We'll continue this later." I warned, sounding more like my mother than I intended to.

He nodded before jumping out of the window without another word. Well, at least there was more than just one word on the subject this morning. There had better be time to get some more words in later today or I swear I will kill somebody. Or at least try to beat up a vampire.

Alice and Ava were both still at school when I got there, which was a magnificent relief since, according to the book, Alice was supposed to be long gone by now. They looked pretty triumphant, too. Maybe they've completely talked Edward out of going!

Ava didn't do anything else that was out of the ordinary today, but sometime I could swear that she would glare at Edward out of the corner of my eye. Once, during lunch, Alice looked like she was getting a vision, and dragged Ava to the bathroom as soon as she snapped out of it. Neither of them would tell me what Alice saw either. They just told me there was some sort of crisis up in Denali that they would handle themselves. Well, I guess being a vampire makes you entitled to keep secrets from your human best friend. Humph!

What was even more disheartening was that Edward completely avoided me all day! I mean, there were some occasional glimpses of interest and a few half-hearted lopsided smiles, but hardly more than ten words. Not a good sign. But, despite the lack of words, Ava and Alice kept throwing me reassuring smiles and thumbs-up all day. Alice sent one text shortly after Edward left this morning. Whatever you did this morning or last night has made his decision all fuzzy! Good job, darling! I knew you had it in you! Did you do the deed? ;)

For some reason, Alice and Ava both thought that I had somehow managed to keep him here through methods of the not-so-good-girly type. I tried telling them otherwise but they refused to listen. I wonder what Emmett is saying about their idea. Oh, God! I'm going to have to go over to the Cullen house soon. I wonder if the other Cullens left like Edward told them. Well, I know that Jasper and Angel didn't or at least didn't go far since they would never leave their girls behind.

They must have somehow been able to not let Edward hear about their little plan since he never once talked about it. Heck, he didn't talk all day. I mean, he talked, but not really talked. We made small talk. SMALL! Not big, in depth talk about how much we adore one another or anything. I mean, I'm totally used to him telling me that he loves me like twelve times a day, but today I've only gotten that almost-confession.

Today is also the day he's apparently not going to show up at my house after school or call or anything, but since he wasn't supposed to stay last night and he did, maybe I can figure something out. I kind of wished I had told him everything now, about the books in the plural sense because maybe he wouldn't have overreacted about there being a large quantity of books and about the whole Jacob thing since I technically haven't done anything with him. My previous reasoning didn't really work out, since I was only not going to tell him to avoid this whole situation that I'm in now.

I'm going to trip again if I keep thinking like this and walking at the same time. I was walking out to the truck with Edward, not really paying attention to where I was walking. I could see Alice and Ava chatting over by the Volvo, looking pretty nervous about something. Alice had spilled earlier that the huge crisis was something about Tanya slipping in her control or something. Edward started to climb into his car before saying goodbye to me, so I had to stop him. I'm not giving up that easily, and besides, I couldn't let my heavy contemplations ruin my plan to keep him here. "Hey! Wait a minute…aren't you even going to kiss me goodbye? Or at least say goodbye? Come on, we've hardly talked at all today, I'm missing the sound of your voice."

He got out of the car slowly with a crappy half-smile. "I'm sorry, Bella, but you've been pretty engrossed in your own thoughts all day. I thought you shouldn't be interrupted."

"It's fine, just answer me something," he raised his eyebrow questioningly, "Do you still love me?" I couldn't help it, I really couldn't. Tears starting rolling down my face, which made me blush, which made me cry even more!

"Bella…" He reached to wipe the tears that were rolling down my face away. And as amazing as that was, I got even better results. Edward pulled me up to look him dead in his now-molten eyes! Oh, yeah, I did it! I did it! "Always, Bella, always…" Damn, he makes me cry every time I see him…Oh, yes! Yes! YES! YES!

"Okay, that's good. I was a little worried. Umm, anyway, I'll see you later? At the house?" Please, please, please?

He started getting back into his car again as he spoke, "No, I've got to help Ava and Alice tonight with whatever Alice saw in her vision. I'll see you tomorrow, Bella." And with that, he drove out of the parking lot without another word.

Well, that wasn't terribly bad. Or, at least, it could have been a whole lot worse. I'm sort of indecisive about coming to school at all tomorrow if all that's going to happen is that I'm going to be forced to watch my Edward leave. Maybe I'll call in sick. Sick of having to plan my life around my boyfriend's possible departure…

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The next morning was different. It was different because I had no new text messages when I woke up, which was unusual for Alice and Ava. There was also no Edward waiting for me in my room. And finally, Ava and Alice weren't waiting by the Volvo with Edward when I pulled up beside him. "Where are Alice and Av—I mean, Elizabeth?"

"They went to help out with the Denalis. Apparently there was some sort of problem and they wanted Ava and Alice specifically to help."

"Oh," well, at least that means that they'll be back, "well, when are they coming back?"

"I'm not sure. Let's get going, Bella." We had to survive a whole day without our favorite fashion correspondents and best friends just because some stupid strawberry blonde can't control herself. Oddly enough, Edward still hasn't figured out that it's Tanya who I'm thinking about whenever I look like I'm thinking about someon-thing annoying. Well, he'll get it eventually.

Today went by really quick, and Edward had actually been attentive. He was pulling out my chairs, asking me about my homework, and carrying on an actual conversation during lunch. I guess I've been worrying a little too much. Maybe all of mine, Ava, and Alice's little tricks have completely worked like a charm. Good thing, too, because I found a grey hair yesterday. I am so not going to have grey hair for forever.

Anyway, as Edward and I were walking out like usual, he asked "Do you mind if come over today?"

"Really, Edward? Do you think I'm going to mind? Just as long as you don't watch ESPN with Uncle Charlie again, we're all good!"

"Okay, I'll follow right behind the truck then." I drove remarkably slow just to annoy him a little. Not too much, though, I wouldn't want a relapse into those leaving ideas. As soon as I stepped out of the car, he was standing right in front of me, with eyes that were slightly harder and more focused than they were at school. "Come for a walk with me," he grabbed my hand, heading for the forest behind the house. Oh, no, no, no, no! I can't! This can't be happening! I thought everything was working out so well! NO!

We were about halfway into the forest before I pulled my hand away from him. "Actually, I don't think I'm in the mood to go on a walk." I turned around running back towards the house.

"Bella, we're leaving." I stopped running. I couldn't face him, though. I had worked so hard, and for what? Just to get my heart ripped out now? Well, that's just not going to happen. All I have to do is not forget to breathe.

"Okay, leaving for early Christmas break? Hmm, an island in the middle of nowhere? Or a cabin in the woods?"

"Bella, that's not what I mean. I mean we're moving away from Forks. We're not coming back."

"Well, that still doesn't answer the question to where we're going."

"I mean my family and myself." Apparently my sarcasm and unwillingness to listen is making him impatient. Well, it isn't going anywhere yet.

"I am your family. So, yet again, where are we going?"

"Sarah! You are not included in my family." Meant to be stinging and paralyzing, but instead, Edward dear, it's just pissing me off.

"Edward! It's Bella! And my family includes your family. Ava has been my sister since preschool! You can't possibly mean all of them are leaving. I'm still coming with you regardless of where you're leaving to."

"You can't, Sarah. Where we're going…it's not the right place for you."

"IT'S BELLA! You're probably just going up to Alaska, how is that the wrong place for me when you're going to be there?"

"I'm no good for you, Sarah."

"Edward, I swear…stop calling me that! Just so you know, I can make decisions like who is and isn't good for me on my own! And you want to know something else? You are the absolute best thing that's ever happened to me. Do you remember that dream I had the night after you saved me in Port Angeles and I thought you'd left? Of course you do, you're a vampire. So—"

"Sarah, that's exactly why I have to leave. I'm tired of pretending to be something I'm not. I'm not human. And I realized that you need to stop pretending too. You need to stop living in a fantasy world, Sarah."

Fantasy world? Me? It's not as if it's my fault that I'm living in Twilight. I just moved here hoping I would, not actually making it happen. Right now, I really wish it didn't happen. He's starting to break me, but I have to stay strong and remind myself that he's lying to me. He is trying to make me let go. "Edward, please, for the love of all that is good, stop calling me Sarah. Why do you keep doing that? And I don't care if I'm living in a fantasy world, I'm coming with you. End of story. That's it. Period."

"Sarah, I don't want you to come with me."

"EDWARD! STOP CALLING ME—"

"You're not even the real Bella! I want to find the real Bella, not someone who is pretending to be someone they are not. You aren't the person for me, Sarah, and you deserve to find the right person for yourself as well."

Tears started springing, but I had to remain strong. He's trying to make you let him go. "You are the right person for me. I love you and you love me. You've only told me that every time I've asked in the past two days. What about the promise you made me? You said you would stay as long as I wanted you to."

"Sarah, you don't want me. You want your own Edward Cullen, not me. I just want to find the real Bella Swan for me."

"Edward, please, stop this. I know why you're doing this. You think just because Jasper took a snap at me that I'm in danger now, so the only way to protect me is to leave, but it doesn't have to be that way! Edward, I know you love me and I know you're lying just so I'll let go, but I can't. The only thing that's going to happen because of this is that we'll both be miserable for months until I find you or you come back. And, truth be told, I don't want to have to run to the wolves the second Victoria comes back around."

"She's not going to bother you anymore once we're gone. She'll follow me and leave you alone and you'll be out of my world forever."

He can't do this. Wait, I know what to do. "Edward, I understand that you have to go after her, but if you're just leaving to find her, you don't have to do this. But I don't believe that you don't love me. You have to prove it."

"I have to prove it? Of course, I'll always love you…in a way. But what happened the other night made me realizes that it's time for a change. You're not good for me, Sarah." I could see the frustration pouring out of him. I was making this too hard for him, but it was taking its toll on me. My head was already swimming with doubts about his feelings. I mean, why shouldn't he want to find the real Bella? But I know what he's doing, and I can't let him do this without a fight. I can't.

The more I thought about what he was doing, the arguments he was using, the angrier I became. There was only one way for him to leave and that was shattering everything inside of him. I would make him tell me the darkest lie he could. "You're lying. Tell me, Edward. Look me in the eye and tell me you don't love me anymore. That you can't stand the sight of me. It's the only way I'll ever believe you." He looked down, clearly not able to maintain the mask any longer. "You see, you can't. Please, Edward, we can put this whole day behind—"

"I don't love you anymore. I don't really believe that I ever did, I was just caught up in the book. I was doing what the book told me to do. I would never want you. I'm not supposed to want you."

I can't believe he said that. It was like my worst nightmares coming alive. It was like all the oxygen in the world was gone, and it probably didn't help that I'd forgotten to breathe anyway. Bad thing about that, though, was that it was all going to spill out now. "Okay, fine, GO! GO, YOU-YOU JERK! IF THAT'S THE WAY YOU WANT TO DO THIS THEN GO! BUT DON'T EXPECT ME TO WAIT AROUND AT ALL FOR YOU. You should probably know, I'm going straight for the wolves. I might even start dating one. Oh yeah, who knows maybe in a few years I'll be having puppies!" Okay, so I let my temper get the better of me. I couldn't help it; everything felt like it was breaking inside of me. I knew I was probably killing Edward too, but he's going to pay for this. I turned away before he could actually see me burst out crying. I couldn't stop the water flow, either. It was like someone had turned the faucet stuck on high.

"Sarah, there's one thing you have to promise me before I go." He didn't try to wrap his arms around me or tell me to stop crying, but boy he sounded mad. I'd hit a nerve when I told him about the wolves.

"What?" I spit at him, but still refused to turn around. The last image of my face he would have for the following months would be me screaming at him.

"Don't do anything reckless or stupid, like involving the wolves," he rested his hand on my shoulder, still sending electricity bursting through my body despite my internal shock and hatred for him at the moment, "Do you understand what I'm saying?"

"Do I understand? Do you really think I'm that stupid? Of course I understand, but why should I ever agree to promise something for you when you've broken every single promise you've made to me? I dare you to give me a reason."

I could feel him growing more and more angry with me by the second. Then, without warning, he flipped me around so I was facing him again. So much for that final screaming image. "Sarah, promise me." His completely molten eyes were boring into mine, but I just stared as defiantly as I could back. I suddenly felt hope bubbling up in my stomach that this argument was like the one we had the other night that had ended up with us making out on my bed. Hmm, the forest floor looks pretty comfy. And, yet again, his facial expression made it seem that he was thinking along the same lines as I was. I unintentionally leaned in as close as I could without actually touching our lips together before he backed away slowly, reluctantly. "Fine then, I will make you one last promise. I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your own life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I'd never existed."

He turned away again, but I still had one question left for him. "And how is that going to be achieved when I'll have reminders of you around the world? Anywhere I go, I'll be attacked by Twilight and Edward Cullen. Are you going to destroy every piece of Twilight paraphernalia out there?"

He looked sad now, if that was even possible. That soulless monster, trying to make me feel sorry for him. "If it helps, I will. That's all, Sarah, we won't bother you again." Wait, of course they will. Alice said she'd be back, and Ava too for that matter.

"How did you get Alice to go? Or Ava for that matter?"

"They agreed to leave. They finally saw that I was right." Right? I don't think so.

"Oh, I see." I couldn't do it anymore. I was losing consciousness. Everything was falling apart. My former life seemed completely out of reach with Ava no longer in it, my Edward actually said he didn't love me, and I didn't know how to make him stay. I'd officially run out of ideas except running straight for the cliffs as soon as he's out of sight. A nice long jump sounds good already. "Just go…without goodbyes. I want to look up and have you gone before I try to punch a tree. Just go, Edward, but you should know something. Vicky won't be in South America anytime soon and I'm a lot tougher than I look." I sat down on the nearest tree stump I could find and buried my face in my hands letting the moisture continue to pour out of me until there wouldn't be anything there. I felt cool lips on my forehead, but I didn't bother swatting him away. This was all I had left, even if he did come back. This would be the last time that I could ever really trust him. Ever.

"I'm so sorry, Sarah, truly." If I would have looked up, he probably would have been crying as hard as I was.

I don't remember how long I sat crying, but it was already getting dark when I looked up.

Edward was gone. Gone. I failed. I had everything that I wanted and I screwed it all up by not being able to convince myself that my boyfriend loved me. I can't believe how stupid I was to believe that I could stop him even if I wanted to. But I decided he would regret this for the rest of eternity. I would be the most reckless and stupid person in the world. I would go out of my way to put myself in danger. And I would make sure that he knows about it.

Sadly all this came with a cost. My heart felt like it was no longer beating. I wasn't breathing. I couldn't control the emotions that came out anymore. I felt like I'd turned into Kristen Stewart. There was nothing inside of me. So once I heard footsteps around me, I didn't bother to acknowledge whoever it was that finally found me. "Bella! I found her!" I heard a familiar voice call out. I'd argued with him before probably. I looked up just for measure.

"Oh, it's you." There was no emotion in my voice, but I could hear a tiny voice in my head saying to befriend this guy. He might be able to help me if I let him. Or if I let Jacob. "What do you want? I'm not around any vampires so you don't have to worry. They're all gone anyway. Why don't you go with your little pack and celebrate?" Okay, maybe I had a little emotion in me. Mostly bitterness.

"Bella? Are you alright? Did he hurt you?"

"No, he just pulled a…well…you and went and broke up with me like you did to Leah. Go away, Sam! Or better yet, push me off a cliff. Please…" I stood up to face him, to work on my first official act of stupidity. But the thing was, he didn't look mad, he just looked like he felt sorry for me. "Fine, move then, I'm going home." I ran to the house without another backward glance towards the forest. I ran past everyone waiting by the house who just stared at me like I was a crazy person, which, in retrospect, I was.

I ran straight for my room. I'd forgotten while I was yelling at him that he would take half my things with him. Of course, when I looked around the photos I'd gotten developed in the past couple of days, the CD, and the plane tickets were gone. I stumbled over to the loose floorboard and proceeded to take it off. There they were, just as I thought they would be. But something was still missing.

I had left my Twilight book out on the bed stand last night to remember better times. I had written in what had happened to me in it, just for laughs. But when I looked, it wasn't there.

Oh, no he did not.

The bastard stole my book…


...very sad...*sniffle*...Hey, i'd be pretty pissed if he took my book. Review por favor!

Preview for the next chapter:

"I would love to see your motorcycle. You know what would be even better? Taking a ride on it! Wanna teach me?" I purred, only mustering enough life into my voice by pretending I was seducing Edward. Edward. I shook off the sadness for a moment to look back again.

"Sure, doll, let's go." He grabbed my hand and pulled me out to the parking lot.

"Oh, no you don't! ISABELLA MARIE SWAN GET YOUR HEART-BROKEN BUTT BACK HERE RIGHT NOW!" A distinct vampire voice said from behind me. And she sounded mad.