Hello Everyone! Merry Christmas!

This is my present to you...a super long chapter! And me updating really early.

Here's the boring usual disclaimer: I don't own anything New Moon (because if I did, Edward would have been in a big present box this christmas...which he wasn't :( )

Enjoy this update...i'm halfway done with the next one so it might be soon!


I So Do Not Need Adrenaline!

"I wanna go fast! I wanna go fast! I wanna go fast! I wanna go fast! I wanna go fast!" I sang over and over to Jacob while he got the motorcycles set up off the truck. He'd shown me the Ricky Bobby movie sometime in the past couple of weeks, and now I can't stop talking like the little boy in the beginning. I'm just so excited about being a running motorcycle owner I can't even contain myself. I'm surprised I haven't started singing 'I'm going to see Edward!' over and over.

"Alright, cool it, Ricky. I'm going as fast as I can." He only tried to sound exasperated, but I knew better. He was grinning as big as I was. I waited in silence until he said everything was good to go, at which time I jumped onto my designated motorcycle faster than most vampires would be able to. Jacob rolled his eyes at my juvenile behavior, but went into the review of the parts anyway. "Okay, where's you clutch?" I pointed and made a point not to let go of the grip so I would stay upright. "Good, now where's your brake?"

I'll probably forget that I'm not supposed to use it, but I motioned towards the throttle instead of the back brake. "Why can't I use the back one again?"

"You'll be able to use that one later, when you know what you're doing." I nodded without making up some sort of argument because I really wanted to get moving. "Throttle?"

I twisted.

"Gearshift?"

I nudged.

"Very good. I think you've got all the parts down. Now you just have to get it moving."

"Thank God!" I murmured a little louder than I meant to. I wasn't nervous at all, just anxious. Jacob glared at me when he heard me, but grinned again when I glared back.

"I want you to hold down the clutch," I clutched the clutch probably harder than I was supposed to, "Now this is crucial, Bella, don't let go of that, okay? I want you to pretend that I've handed you a live grenade. The pin is out and you are holding down the spoon." I took a deep breath, thinking about how stupid this analogy this was, but I didn't say anything. "Good. Do you think you can kick-start it?"

I rolled my eyes. "Jake, I trip up stairs. I fall out of my bed when I reach for my alarm clock. I've fainted when Edw—nevermind. I'm as clumsy as they come and more. No, I think you'll have to start it for me. Please." I added when he started to send me a glare. He slammed down on the pedal, making the bike sort of rock. I caught myself before Jacob had to.

"Steady there. Do you still have the clutch?"

"Yep." I was about to take off without him explaining what to do if this didn't go any faster. I was going a little crazy thinking that I would be hearing Edward any second. The bike was ready and rearing for business, but not nearly as much as me.

"Alright, try out the throttle. Very lightly. And don't let go of the clutch." My baby sounded angry and hungry beneath me. It wanted to ride as much as I did. Patience will have to be taught to this bike. Jacob's voice brought my attention back to riding the actual bike. "Do you remember how to put in into first gear?" I didn't answer and put the bike into first gear. I took another deep breath, steadying myself. I hadn't realized, but my hands were shaking a little bit. "Are you sure you want to do this? You look scared." Jacob's voice brought me out of my thoughts again.

"I am not scared." I growled, rivaling Alice when she has her credit cards taken away. I punched down the gearshift when I remembered I still needed to do that.

"Very good," Jacob said, not taking into account my growl. "Now, very gently, ease up on the clutch."

I didn't feel like expressing any outrage towards letting go of the grenade, so, with a smile and a song in my heart, I started to let go of the clutch. But before I could, I saw a hand on top of mine. I looked up to see a perfect replica of Edward standing just beside the bike, and he was not happy. "This is reckless and childish and idiotic, Sarah!" His voice thundered in my ears. Thank goodness! I missed his voice. It sort of whispered in my head the last time I was sitting in his room, but I think that was just me reliving moments from when he was in there with me.

I know it is. Why do you think I'm doing it? I challenged in my head. I didn't lose control of the bike under me, so Jacob just reminded me, "Easy on the clutch," because I was gripping it quite tightly.

"Do you want to kill yourself, then? Is that what this is about?"

Of course that's what it is. I've wanted to off myself for months now. Keep up Edward, I'm being reckless to make you mad, not to kill myself!

"Sarah, this is not the time for sarcasm." His disapproval kept on ringing in my ear, which made me oh so much happier when I finally let go of the grenade. I shot forward and suddenly I felt like I was back on Edward's back, running through the forest. I was amazed I was able to keep my balance just right.

I started to close my eyes at one point, but I saw Edward running by the motorcycle, screaming at me, "No, Sarah! Watch what you're doing!" I looked ahead to see the small curve, and realized what an idiot I was not to ask Jacob how to turn. I tried, though. I used my best guess, but I didn't guess fast enough and I ended up running the bike into some sort of rock. I went literally flying this time.

And slamming into a tree. I felt a little bad for Jasper that fateful night when Emmett the Teddy Bear threw him into a tree. Not going to lie, it hurt like hell. And the fact that my hallucination of Edward could do nothing but look at me with a pained, but still slightly amused, expression on his face. "I told you this was childish and idiotic, Sarah."

"You forgot reckless." I replied still smiling, despite the headache that was already starting. I was so happy to see my hallucination that I didn't even notice Jacob riding over towards me on his bike. Right before Edward disappeared I finally admitted out loud, "I miss you."

"Bella!" Jacob jumped over the wreckage that was my baby and the rock, and was staring at my impassive form pretty anxiously. "Bella, are you alive?"

I popped up fast, making Jacob jump. "Am I alive? Are you kidding? That. Was. Awesome! I wanna go again! Please, Jake, please?"

"I don't think so. I think I'd better drive you to the hospital first."

My smile vanished for a moment while I reached up to touch the spot on my head where I think I hit the tree. Sure enough there was some red sticky stuff on my hand when I looked. "Oh, I'm bleeding. Whoops, sorry."

"You're apologizing for bleeding?" He let out a shaky laugh as he pulled me up. I was starting to get nervous that he would rip his shirt off at any minute now, but I was also pretty worried that I had permanent head damage since my Edward hallucination just popped back up in front of us.

I couldn't take my eyes off of it, but I managed to answer Jacob. "Yeah, it's a force of habit. You know what they say, old habits die hard."

Jacob just shook his head and led me towards the car. Hallucination Edward hadn't taken his eyes off of Jacob since he helped me up. "Let's go. I'll drive."

I stopped him before he would run into where Edward was standing. "Umm, my babies?"

"Oh, right. Wait here. And take this," he said, ripping off his shirt. Ehmygawd! Praise the Lord and pass the biscuits. That boy most definitely has more than just six packs on him. I think there are eight, just like Taylor's. Oh my…

"Sarah, I don't like him." I heard Edward say, but I couldn't take my eyes off the sculpted beauty that was Jacob's abs in the distance. I know Edward has abs like that too, but they aren't right in front of me at the moment. "Stupid mongrel." I heard him saw through clenched teeth this time.

I turned to face my hallucination head on. If it had really been Edward, I would have probably started kissing him, I was close enough. "If you're jealous, then come back already," I turned back to watch Jacob, but directed my voice towards Edward, "I'm not the one who's stopping you."

Jacob was already heading back towards me in my truck now. He hopped out quickly and led me to the passenger side. Hallucination Edward was growling as I peeked down at Jake's torso again. "Okay, let's get you in the truck."

"I'm fine." I squeaked out. I was mainly shaken up over the fact that a shirtless boy was helping me into my truck and that my hallucination didn't seem to want to leave while said shirtless boy was in my presence. "Oh, umm, Jake? Since, Uncle Charlie will inevitably hear about me going to the ER, do you think we could swing by my house first so I can change and make it look like I tripped and banged my head into a hammer?"

"Bella, you need stitches. I don't want you to bleed to death while you change"

"I won't! It'll be quick, I swear."

"What about your Uncle and Sue?"

Hmm, good question. I think Sue was going…somewhere…and Uncle Charlie had to work, I think. I need to start paying better attention to what's going on around me. "They're out until later. They'll believe me if I told them anything about tripping. It really isn't as bad as it looks, trust me."

Somehow, my desperate plea worked on Jacob, who quickly dropped off the bikes at his place and drove me home. I dressed as fast as I could with his shirt still pressed against my head. I made sure to grab one of my huge t-shirts for him to put on as soon as I came back out. No one was home either, so that was good. Well, my hallucination followed me in, but that was it.

Hallucination Edward sat in the back seat glaring at Jacob the whole time. I handed Jacob the shirt once we reached the hospital mainly because the view from where I was next to him in the truck was too good to pass up. But every time I looked, I mentally slapped myself for even thinking about how good they looked. Plus I reminded myself that Edward most definitely had abs that were just as toned if not more, and they would stay that way forever.

"Don't worry, it doesn't fit me anyway." I said as I handed him the shirt. He looked reluctant to take it.

"I'm fine." He finally decided.

"No, you're shirtless and we're about to go into a hospital. Put the shirt on." Before Hallucination Edward and me both lose it.

Jacob noticed that I couldn't entirely stop looking down at his abs, and started looking rather mischievous. "No, really, I'm not cold at all. But, you must be since you keep blushing."

I looked up quickly to see that I had been found out. "Jacob Black, put this shirt on now before…well, before I…oh, just put it on."

"Like what you see, Bella?" He called after I shoved the shirt at him and ran to the ER doors.

I snuck a look at Hallucination Edward to see how he was taking this. If real Edward would have been here, Jacob would be dead by now. Hallucination Edward looked like he wanted to murder Jacob in a slow agonizingly painful way. "Just taking in my surroundings, Jake. It's not my fault that your eight abs are in the surrounding area." I rushed inside the ER after that. I made up the crack story about tripping and hitting my head on a hammer, which they believed easily enough. My reputation preceded me. All the nurses in town knew I was the clumsy girl who could have a second home in the ER.

While the doctor sewed in my seven stitches, I tried incredibly hard not to think that I was lucky that I didn't get glass embedded in my wound, like…before. Every time I scrape my knee nowadays, I have to check to make sure. Even as Jacob held my hand while I got my stitches, I remembered back to my birthday as Edward stood there a vast majority of the time, letting me squeeze his hand every time Carlisle pulled another piece out. I could almost feel him holding my hand again, but then I remembered it was only Jacob. I eventually pulled my hand away from his and gripped the seat instead.

It was better not to lead him on anyway. He seemed to understand why I pulled away too. Hallucination Edward even cracked a smile when I gripped the seat instead of Jacob. He disappeared once I dropped Jacob off and didn't come back when I went to sleep either. I was kind of hoping that I'd banged him into being around permanently.

I was almost asleep that night when I got a phone call from someone I still needed to yell at. I almost ignored the call, but thought better of it since she would just keep calling if I didn't answer. "Hello, Alice." Silence answered me on the other side. "Alice?"

"Bella?" I heard her ask in a tiny voice after another long pause.

"Alice, what's wrong?" Her voice sounded remarkably like Ava's when I got the call from James last spring. It sent me into full panic mode, and made me forget that I was supposed to be mad at her. "Alice, answer me!"

"Bella, I am so sorry. I didn't mean to…to mess you up so much. With Jacob and keeping you from going after Edward. I just…thought it would be better for you. I'm so sorry." Phew, she was just crying from being sorry, not from being kidnapped or tortured. Good grief, that scared the crap out of me. She sounded genuinely sorry, too. It sounded like she'd been crying for a long time, jeez I'm a pushover.

"Oh, Alice, it's…well, it's not alright, but you were just thinking of what was best for me. But you should have told me about Jasper and Angel. I mean, you could have just warned me that they weren't going to stay down there forever watching Edward."

"I know I should have! That's what I'm really sorry about. I've been a terrible friend, Bella, can you ever forgive me?" Jeez, I'm going to cave. Why did Alice have to be so good at begging?

"Alice, you know I will already. Just don't keep anything like that from me anymore. Promise?"

She sounded significantly happier. "Promise."

"Jesus, Alice, I was prepared to be angry at you for months if I had to! It's not fair you realized you were wrong so quickly. But now I'm sort of stuck hanging out with Jacob."

"Yeah, I saw that. You like him, don't you?" She sounded sympathetic.

"No, I do not like him! He's only my friend, which is why I've avoided any and all situations where he might take us as something other than just friends. Haven't you seen that?"

"Yeah, but Bella, you seemed pretty happy this afternoon when you were riding your 'babies' and then looked really unhappy, like Edward-just-left-me-again unhappy, when you dropped Jacob off."

She was completely missing the fact of what was happening when I rode those motorcycles. "Alice, I'm going to explain this one time. I saw Edward today. I saw him when I started the bike, I saw him when I was at the hospital, and I saw him disappear when I dropped Jacob off. So, in a way, it was like Edward left me all over again when he disappeared."

"Whoa, whoa, whoa, wait a minute! Wait a minute! Are you telling me that you aren't just hearing Edward when you act like an idiot? You see him too?!? Just like in the movie?"

"Yes, Alice, but he's not hazy like he was in the movie."

"OH MY GOD! Bella! Really? You aren't just messing with me because of the whole 'lying about Jazz and Angel' thing, are you?"

"No, Alice, I really have been seeing him. He stuck around just to tell me he didn't like Jacob."

"Oh, Bella, that's so romantic!" Her voice dropped considerably when she asked me her next question. "You've heard about Edward, haven't you?"

My heart rate just spiked into dangerous mode. "What do you mean, Alice? Angel told me that he was dejected and everything, but I mean I didn't get any details." Please don't tell me that he's taken an early flight to Volterra.

"Oh, well, it's just he's sort of stopped answering our calls. I think he's gone catatonic, personally. Or he's realized what an ass he's been and is currently running back to tell you in person."

"What?!? Can't you see his future? Alice! You are going to make me lose my mind and make me have a heart attack!"

"Bella, it's nothing to worry about. I've just been a little preoccupied with my stuff down here that I haven't really been paying attention to what Edward's been doing, or is going to do."

Okay, I'm lost. "Alice, you've been watching me, but you haven't been watching your own brother? The one who's at suicide risk?!? The one that I still happen to be madly in love with?!?" Wow, I'm still madly in love with him? I thought about it for a second, and decided. Yes, I am still and will always be as madly in love with Edward Anthony Masen Cullen as I was when I first laid eyes on him coming into the cafeteria my first day in Forks. Well, actually the first time I read the line when he told Bella 'hello' I was pretty much doomed to remain in love with the jerk forever.

"I know, Bella, but really! I've been searching like crazy for my information down here, and I've found everything already. But, the thing is, I've been so attuned to you and watching to make sure you don't jump off a cliff, I haven't really been paying attention to much else. I even missed the new Marc Jacob line because I was so busy freaking out about your fight with Ava. You know, you really should just get over yourselves and work out your issues."

"Thanks, Alice. Listen, I have to go to sleep now. I'm about to pass out, plus I've got a head injury if you didn't see that."

"Yeah, I did. That looked pretty darn stupid from my standpoint."

"Yet again, thank you Alice. Will you do me a favor, though?"

"Sure, sure! You want me to pick up something fabulous for you to go running after Edward in? Oh! I can see it already!" She squeals way too much. And she said 'sure, sure' just like Jacob. I hadn't really noticed, but I think I've been saying that too.

"Umm, no, not exactly. Will you make sure Edward is okay? Please? You've got me worried to death now that something is wrong with him."

I could practically feel her eyes rolling on the other end. "Sure, hang on." The line was quiet for about a minute until I heard Alice groaning. I was about to ask what was wrong, but I was cut off when she started jabbering. "Oh, that moron! Jesus, Bella, the only thing he's doing is sitting in some squatty apartment in the middle of Rio, it looks like, staring at that God-forsaken book of yours he took! OH! WHY DOESN'T HE JUST COME HOME ALREADY?!? I give you full permission to run down there and kick his butt." If I could see her, she would probably be pouting right now.

"Alice, it's okay. I think he can suck it and come back begging anytime he wants to. I'm going to kick his butt any way he does come back, so going after him would incite that I actually want him back."

"You don't?!?" Whoops, that sent her into hysterics.

"Calm down, I mean that I'm not going to welcome him back with open arms. I'm going to punish him profusely, just so you know."

She was quiet for another thirty seconds. "Oh, I see. Well, Bella, I think I'll let you sleep now. I've got some business to attend to anyway. I'll be seeing you soon, Bella, so be on the watch! I think I'll bring you back some amazing outfit anyway! Bye!"

I grumbled a bye, and then honestly blacked out on my bed.

I wasn't allowed to set foot in the garage for the next couple of days, not only by Sue, but also by Jacob. He wasn't going to have me tripping over any other hammers anytime soon. Or helping out with the scratches on my babies. He wouldn't even let me see my babies.

I was beyond angry.

But my anger was slightly lessened because the second I saw Jacob was also the second that Hallucination Edward popped back into my view. It seems that Hallucination Edward didn't want me hanging around Jacob. He glared at Jacob the whole time I was around him. But as soon as I would leave Jake's, Hallucination Edward would disappear.

Uncle Charlie caught up to me the next week after the doctor called to say that I might have gotten a concussion or something along the lines of head trauma. "Maybe you should stay out of the garage altogether instead of just this week, Bella." He warned.

"Oh, honestly, Uncle Charlie, it could have happened anywhere! You know I trip on a daily basis. I could have been at school and banged my head into a desk."

That seemed to calm him down quite a bit, because, mainly, I was right. "Alright, but be careful from now on. One more trip to the ER, and I might just have to cut Jake off for a while."

"Of course, Uncle Charlie." I was able to keep a straight face, but inside I was panicking a little. I don't think Uncle Charlie would cut anything off just in case I would stop functioning altogether.

"Where's Lizzie these days? I feel like she hasn't been around for a while."

"That's because we sort of had a fight and aren't really talking right now. But we'll work it out later, so don't worry. I'm fine, I promise." Uncle Charlie was giving me the worried look, but apparently I was able to somewhat alleviate the lecture about being honest with him.

Things with Uncle Charlie had been like that these days. I've been on the verge of hearing a lecture, but then I'll come up with some sort of line that makes him not tell me anything. Sue, too. I've been sort of ignoring the fact that her husband's death anniversary is coming up really soon, and all the people in La Push are going to have some sort of memorial for him. Apparently Harry Clearwater was well-liked in La Push, almost as much as Billy.

Leah had been on the quiet side lately, just throwing me a couple of thumbs up every once in a while usually when I'm on my way out to go see Jacob. She's stopped giving more advice when it comes to how to make Edward hurt. Not to say anything bad about her, but I think she should start taking her own advice. She's been even more cooped up than usual, which is probably due to the fact that Sam and Emily are engaged now. I haven't met Emily yet, or if I have I can't remember, but Leah knows that she can't break them up. She needs to move on. Maybe I'll try to hook her up with Nahuel or another one of the vampires if they come around Breaking Dawn time.

I thought about what I was going to do at Jacob's because I really did not want to go hiking anytime soon. I've thought about what I would do for a while when it comes to Laurent. If I somehow am able to save him, I can avoid losing allies in the Denalis if a big fight is going to happen with Victoria plus I can probably save Irina's life. On the down side, if I save him, he could easily come to Forks and kill me and my family, or tell Victoria where I am.

It's all very confusing. I need Ava's help when it comes to this. But neither she nor I will make the first move towards making up since we're both stubborn as a couple of mules.

Maybe if I have Jacob around when I'm in the meadow, Laurent wouldn't attack. Or if I found it earlier I could avoid him completely. But since I know he's going to be around the area, I figure it might be better to just meet with him and freak him out with a vision of the future for him. I could bargain something with him before the wolves get to him.

Oh, I just don't know! Besides, I need to avoid Jacob a little bit from now on. If I avoid him, maybe I can draw out the whole werewolf thing. I really don't need another mythical creature in my life right now. Especially an annoying, emotional, and overly-hormonal/perverted werewolf that will incidentally be my son-in-law one day.

So, when Jacob asked me what I wanted to do instead of bikes at his house after school on Friday, I had no answer. I just couldn't make up my mind whether or not to ask him to go walking through the woods or not. If I did, Hallucination Edward would be there too. That's a good enough reason for me, I think. "What are you thinking about so hard?" Jacob asked all of a sudden.

"Well, there's this place that I've debating on whether I want to go hiking to or not. And I'm thinking about asking you if you want to come with me or not." I tried a smile, but it must have looked a little unsure.

"Sure, sure, where is it? Well, what is it?"

"It's this perfect little place where Ed—" I cleared my throat so it wouldn't sound like I was about to slip and tell him it was where Edward always took me. "It's a meadow that me and my friends used to hang out in."

Jacob nodded, looking resigned to do what I wanted. What a pushover. "We could use a compass and a grid pattern to get there. Do you know where you started from?"

"Yeah, I know exactly where to start from." I started smiling at the possibility of going back to my special place. I still remember the night after prom when Edward made it look so amazing for me.

"Cool. We'll find it." Jacob, always the confident optimistic one. I think I'll really miss this sort of normalness when he goes all wolfy on me. Jacob Black, the guy I couldn't stand in the books, has made his way into the slot of my best guy friend. I still don't know how that happened.

Just to make sure that we would have ample time to make it to the meadow before dark, I coerced him into making his map before I left and agreeing to wake up early to get moving. So, the next morning, I got the extreme pleasure of jumping on his tiny bed to wake him up. His eyes snapped open the second I started jumping and almost knocked me off. "Get up, Jake! Time to go! Get up! Get up! Get UP!"

Jacob looked past me to Billy laughing in the doorway. "Dad, why'd you let her in if she was this excited?"

Billy just laughed some more at us. "She didn't look all that excited until she saw you were still asleep. I think she's an evil genius when it comes to getting people out of bed. Maybe I should have you come over every morning to wake Jake up, Bella."

Evil genius? Yeah, that's probably a good term for me. I smiled at Billy, who, I think, is never going to ask me how I knew all the stuff about the wolves. Oh well, that's better for me anyway. "Is he always this hard to get up?" I jumped harder, finally knocking him out of the bed.

"Yes." Billy answered the same time Jacob said, "No!" He and Billy argued about his sleeping habits until I dragged Jacob out the door a half hour later. I practically sped to the same spot Edward and I started at when he took me to the meadow for the first time however long ago. Poor Hallucination Edward was looking particularly dejected today.

He glanced up at me once and said, "I can't believe you're taking the dog to our meadow."

Well, I would have gone alone, but Jacob is the only person who brings you into my vision. I retorted in my head. And, besides, he's not a dog yet.

Jacob was starting a bit further down the path, but I called out to him, "Jake, it's this way!"

He came running back to me, looking confused. "I would have figured you for a trail girl."

"I am, my friends, however, were not."

Jacob smiled again, making Hallucination Edward growl beside me. "Which friends were these?"

I was kind of hoping he wouldn't ask that, but being Jacob, he did. "The Cullens."

Jacob realized I didn't want to talk about it and shrugged it off. He twisted the map until he got it to the right settings or whatever. "Okay—first line on the grid. Let's do it!"

Instead of keeping my own pace, I ran most of the time to keep up with Jacob. We talked about random things for most of the walk, instead of keeping on the quiet side. I figured it would warn the wolves to run far away if we were getting too close to them. We even started talking about Sam again. I felt the need to console him again since he was bringing me down. "You know Seth's bed is always open."

He laughed loud enough that I think Seth could have probably heard him all the way back home. For some unfathomable reason, we still didn't find the stupid meadow despite all of my careful planning to make it on time. It was almost dark when Jacob led me back to the truck.

I was kind of nervous all of a sudden because I thought I might tell him that we shouldn't hang out for a little bit when we got in the car. Right when I was about to, though, I couldn't bring myself to do it.

"I think we'll save hiking for Sundays from now on. I didn't know you were that slow." Jacob teased me. I smiled, but I was still worried about him. I didn't want him to turn into a werewolf now, everything was going so…well, not good, but fair. "So you up for another try tomorrow?" he asked as he hopped out of the truck at his house.

"Umm, not tomorrow. I've got some things I have to do tomorrow with…Lizzie." I lied. I glanced over to see if he caught it, but he seemed to take it like it was normal news. Hallucination Edward grinned in the back seat.

"Okay, see you Monday, then?" He called as I was about to drive away.

"Sure, sure." I mumbled, not really sure at all.

Damn werewolf genes how I hate you!


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Preview for the next chapter:

"Not Friday, I'm going to the movies with some of my friends from school Friday. Look, I'm really sorry, but it might be a while. How about Sunday, we'll go hiking again? Deal? If I can think of some other way, I'll call you and tell I'm coming."

That did it. I'm officially the biggest butthead in the world. Okay, maybe not the biggest, that's Edward. But second biggest is definitely me. "Sure, sure," he sounded totally sad now. Way to go, Bella!

I hung up before I could mess things up any further. I was about to tell him I was lying and to run down here now, but I was able to keep some level of control. Jacob's going to hate me forever, which is a good thing. Hallucination Edward was waiting for me in my room once I went upstairs. I kind of lost it. "What? You're still here? I think you should just disappear like the real Edward did before you cause any more trouble!"

"Bella, who are you talkin' to?" I heard from behind me.