So as some of you have failed to review/P.M. what the song was in the last chapter, I have decided to skip the whole until you guys guess what the song was I can't continue. But as of now, if there's a song in it and I don't say what it is before or after the chapter, just let me know if you're curious.

Anyways this chapter may seem a bit jumpy, just because there were some main points that I wanted to hit and just throwing in some other things.

And a Big shout out/pimp to Jenna (Angel's blue eyed girl) for taking time out of her extremely busy schedule to read my fics. If you guys get the time, you must read hers also they are absolutely fantastic. She also has another account with bunches of other writers too, under Angelusdarkangels.

Once again I want to let you all know that I suck at writing Angelus/ really really really want a beta so if anyone could tell me if their interested, that'd be great.

Anyways, on with the show.

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It has been a few weeks since I left Sunnydale, and I can't tell if it's a good thing or bad. The powers were right; I was getting into something I didn't know fully. But also they wouldn't let me see what was going on.

I had learned a lot, more about my natural talents, more about being a witch. But they still won't let me go back. Soon though, I'll find a way.

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Buffy's point of view

Right now, I couldn't say whether I hated my life or absolutely loved it. I was sleeping with Angelus. But what was really bad about that, what is the difference between soul and no soul. But do I love him?

It's the question that I keep asking myself over and over. He's evil, and I'm pretty sure he wants to turn me. But I know he would go through hell for me, and it's not just because I'm a good lay.

"Nowhere. I mean, he said he was gonna wait until I was ready, but I'm ready. Honest. I'm good to go here." Willow replies to the question I can't remember asking.

" Well, I think it's nice that he's not just being an animal." I try to be the good best friend.

" It is nice. He's great. We have a lot of fun. But I want smoochies!" she cries desperately.

" Have you dropped any hints?"

" I've dropped anvils."

"Ah, he'll come around. What guy could resist your wily Willow charms?" I try to make her feel better.

"At last count, all of them. Maybe more." She jokes. I hope she really doesn't think she's that hopeless.

"Well, none of them know a thing. They all get an 'F' in Willow." Bring grade humor up. She just loves that.

" But I want Oz to get an 'A', and, oh, one of those gold stars." Wow, she never jokes about grades.

We come to a bench in the quad. " He will." I say restoring her peace of mind.

"Well, he better hurry. I don't want to be the only girl in school without a real boyfriend." Ouch, that hurt. I looked down, trying not to laugh and cry at the same time. I bet no one in school it sleeping with a guy that has over a hundred and fifty years of experience. Willow starts to get a worried look on her face. Realizing how insensitive that was."Oh, I'm such an idiot. I'm sorry. I-I shouldn't even be talking about... Do you want me to go away?" she starts to get jumpy whenever the topic of Angel is brought up.

"I wish you wouldn't." I really do. She's my best friend, just a little naive.

"How are you holding up anyway?" right, now it's my turn to play distressed little Buffy.

"I'm holding. I was going on two minutes there without thinking about Angel." About he's sexy bod, that is.

" Well, there you go." She says trying to be cheerful.

"But I would do a lot better if you and Xander and I could do that 'sharing our misery' thing tonight." I say, knowing I'm going to miss out on it. Because, uah Giles had me doing extra slayage.

"Great! I'll give Xander a call. What's his number? Oh, yeah, 1-800-I'm-Dating-A-Skanky-Ho." She retorts rolling her eyes.

"Meow!" I jumped up surprised by her reaction. I knew she had a crush on him, but I've never heard Willow slam anyone.

Willow smiles "Really? Thanks. I've never gotten a 'meow' before."

"Well-deserved." We joined arms and started for the library.

"Darn tootin'. I'm just saying Xander and Cordelia? I mean, what does he see in her anyway?"

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That night, the Bronze.

I was staring at my coke, waiting for him, always waiting. Suddenly a pair of cool arms wrapped around me. "Hello lover." He whispered into my ear, using the familiar greeting. I turned in my seat.

"Why hello stranger. What brings you here? Aren't you just going to follow me in the shadows like some sort of stalker?" I asked knowing it would get to him. His anger makes everything sweeter. I only got a growl in response, as he dragged me to his car.

I'm not proud of my new life, but I wouldn't trade it for the world.

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The next morning, Cordelia was going on about how a werewolf attacked her car, and how we had once again managed to ruin her life. While meanwhile I was still in bliss.

School went by in a blur, the only thing that really stood out was Larry. I mean, his getting attack by a big dog, and the whole almost breaking his back after he grabbed my butt.

The night went the same way, with only a guy that thinks he can kill werewolves for sport now on my back. All I have now to finish my day is to go see Angel.

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Angelus point of view.

Buff will pay for the little comment she made yesterday. I'm not her lap dog, she just has to learn that the hard way. in fact one of her little pals is just walking by now, I should go say hello.

"Everything okay?" I asked like the helpful man, twirling a daisy.

"Yeah, I just, uh, I, I thought I heard something... behind me." She has the look in her eyes, knows it was me. I walk around her looking all over as she gets self-conscious. But still look behind, as if I didn't know it was me.

"No one there." No one to hear her scream either.

"Oh. I guess I was wrong. I could have sworn that..."

I cut her off "It's okay. It can get pretty scary out here, all alone at night."

"Yeah." She agreed.

"Hey, don't I know you from somewhere? Don't you go to school with Buffy?" obviously, any girl of seventeen years goes to school with her.

"Oh, you know Buffy?" she smiles, thinking anyone who knows her must be good. If only she knew the half of it.

" Yes, I do, very well." I started to chuckle.

"Oh." She keeps smiling, feeling reassured.

"Come on, I'll get you home." We never made it to her house. I almost got caught by a werewolf too, trying to take what's mine. That will never happen

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"Hey Buff." Xander says coming from behind me as Willow left. He still hates me for sleeping with the enemy, little did he know, I still was. But I have to keep it that way, no one could know.

"Hey Xand, how'd it go with Larry?" I asked.

"What's that supposed to mean?" he asked suspiciously.

"I think it's supposed to mean, 'so how'd it go with Larry'?" I commented sarcastically. We stopped at me locker and I started to fiddle with the lock.

"He's not the werewolf. Can't we just leave it at that? Must you continue to *push* and *push*?" once again really strangely.

I opened my locker "I'm sorry. I was just wondering." I said putting my backpack into it.

"Well, he's not." Xander once again confirmed.

"Okay."

"Okay."

"But there goes our lead suspect." I said disappointed. "Which then puts us right back at" I closed the locker. "square boned."

"'You're not boned, you're Buffy. Eradicator of evil. Defender of, um... things that need defending." He tried to cheer me up.

"Tell that to Theresa. She could have used my defending before she was ripped apart by that..." I suddenly thought of what was going on.

"Werewolf." He said like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

"Nowhere in any of the reports did it say anything about her being mauled." I looked up at him "I mean, they were linked to the animal attacks from the other night, so we just assumed werewolf."

"What else should we have assumed?" he asked the obvious question.

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" Vampire." I confirmed as I saw the scar hidden by her scarf.

"So that's good, right? I mean in the sense of the werewolf didn't get her, and..." I was looking at him oddly "No. There is no good here."

" No good. Instead of not protecting Theresa from the werewolf," we walk over to the guest registry. " I was able to not protect her from something just as bad." I looked at all the signature. "She had a lot of friends." I take the pen and begin writing my name.

"Buffy, you can't blame yourself for every death that happens in Sunnydale. If it weren't for you people'd be lined up five deep waitin' to get themselves buried. Willow would be Robbie the Robot's love slave, I wouldn't even have a head," he looked over at the coffin. "and Theresa's a vampire."

Theresa sits up, looks over at us and growls. I turned around and saw her hop out of the coffin. I then lunges at Theresa, grabbed her and tries to wrestle her to the floor, but Theresa throws me down instead. She dives after me and tries to pin me, but I roll her over and gets on top. I made a quick grab for a wooden easel holding a flower wreath and breaks off a leg. I almost had her, about to thrust the handmade stake into Theresa's chest when she speaks.

" Angel sends his love." I was caught off guard by that. I should have known the consequences of my words. Even after the mind blowing sex. And I hesitated a moment. Theresa kicks my arm and sends the stake flying away. She grabs me by the shoulders, wrestles me onto my back and pins me there. Really not my best fight. I then do my best to keep her at bay. Xander comes to my rescue and jams on of the esal legs into Theresa's back. She bursts into ashes.

" Angel." I whispered to myself. I got to my knees.

Xander leans down to me "Are you okay?" he asked.

I took his hand "This isn't happening." He killed someone because he was mad at me for joking around. I pull myself up and hug Xander. I have to be more careful "He's gonna keep coming after me." I realize.

He hugs back gently "Don't let him get to you. He's not the same guy you knew." If only he knew.

I pulled back and walked out of the funeral home, happy to never come there again

"Oh, no, my life's not too complicated." He talks to himself, shakes his head the follows.

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"so you caught the werewolf?" he asked me, as we were lying in his bed.

"Yep, turns out that it was Oz, we now have another monster in the group."

"Buff, I'm not in your little Scooby group." He sat up letting the sheet fall off of his chest.

"I know. I meant another one in my life. Except he's nowhere near as important as you are."

"Damn straight." It wasn't normal, what was going on between us but since when was anything in my life ever normal.

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K guy that's it for this chapter. I did things a little different though. Using a whole episode. Let me know how you like the chapter, longer or shorter.

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