Chapter 3
Tim slammed the door shut in Lucy's face. He walked back inside towards his couch and sat down to try and calm himself down. He was livid and angry at himself, at Ashely and Lucy but now he was wondering if maybe he should have spoken to Lucy, hear her side of the story before yelling at her like that. But how could she do this to him? How could Lucy tell Ashley that she had wanted to be the only one to make Tim a father.
Tim closed his eyes as he remembered the terrible conversation from the night before. Tim had been sitting on his couch waiting nervously for Lucy to call him regarding her conversation with Ashley but her call never came. He was debating if he should call her when there was a knock on his door, assuming it was Lucy coming to talk to him in person he opened the door without asking who it was first. To his surprise there was Ashley on his doorstep visibly pregnant.
Tim: Ashely, this is a surprise. I didn't know you were coming here tonight.
Ashley: Really? Lucy said she was going to let you know I was stopping by so we could discuss
Tim: The baby?
Ashley: Yeah that
Tim: I haven't heard from Lucy since this afternoon. You met with her?
Ashley: Yeah, look I know this is awkward but can I please come in?
Tim: Yeah sure.
They walk inside and sit down on the couch
Tim: So, your pregnant
Ashley: I am
Tim: I thought you didn't want to have kids, not with me and not ever so what changed?
Ashley: Nothing Tim, nothing changed. I still don't want kids, not ever and definitely not now.
Tim: What exactly are you saying Ashley?
Ashley: That I don't want this baby Tim
Tim: So, what's your plan?
Ashley: That's what I wanted to talk to you about.
Tim: So, this baby is mine?
Ashley: Yeah, it is.
Tim: I figured as much given the time line.
Ashley: I never intended for this to happen Tim.
Tim: I know
Ashley: And if this baby belonged to any other guy, I would have already terminated the pregnancy and never told them about it. But Tim, this is your baby and being a father has always been your dream and I knew that if one day you found out that I got rid of your baby you would never be okay with it. So, I wanted to talk to you about what to do regarding this pregnancy.
Tim: You really want to kill my baby?
Ashley: No Tim, I don't want to kill your baby, but I do want to terminate the pregnancy, I just really don't want to be a mother
Tim: What are you suggesting we do? I want this baby Ash; I really do but I can't force you to go ahead with a pregnancy that you don't want to bring a child into this world that you don't want to love but I also cannot be okay with you terminating the pregnancy.
Ashley: I know. I was planning on offering you full custody of this baby as long as I can terminate my parental rights.
Tim: What changed?
Ashley: Lucy
Tim: You told her about this?
Ashley: It was obvious Tim; I couldn't exactly hide the fact I am pregnant especially since that was the purpose of the conversation with you.
Tim: What was Lucy's reaction, cuz I can't believe she would have been too happy about all this.
Ashley: She wasn't Tim. She was upset and angry and basically told me that she wanted to be the only woman to ever make you into a father.
Tim: Lucy wants you to get rid of the baby? She would never say that.
Ashley: Tim, I have it recorded on my phone.
Tim: Ashely, this is crazy Lucy knows how much I want kids. I know she wants kids of our own but she would never tell you to terminate the pregnancy
Ashley: Tim, here listen to this.
Ashley took out her phone and pressed play. Tim was stunned as he clearly heard Lucy talking.
Lucy: Ashley, is this situation extremely difficult for me, yes. Is it painful for me to watch your body create the life of Tim's child, yes. Did I want more than anything in the world to be the only woman to make Tim into a father, yes.
Tim: Stop! Stop! Stop! Turn it off, just turn that off.
Ashley: Tim, I'm so sorry. I never wanted to get between you and Lucy, that was never my intention. But I'm not sure what you want me to do here? Lucy clearly doesn't want to have to raise a kid with you that is not hers and I know you love her. I'm just not sure what you want.
Tim: I want you to have this baby. I will raise it and love it and I will be the best dad that this baby will ever know.
Ashley: Are you sure Tim? Because I don't think Lucy will do this with you
Tim: I hear that Ash, but how can I just turn my back on my own baby for a woman who doesn't care about it? I need to be alone right now Ashley.
Ashley: I understand. If this is really what you want, then I will go through with the pregnancy but Tim please once this baby is born leave me out of it.
Tim: Yes, I do want this baby Ashley, and whatever part you want to play in this child's life will be completely up to you.
Tim slowly watched as Ashley walked out of his house. He felt like his whole world had crashed around him. In one minute, he gained a child but he lost Lucy, the love of his life. How could he be with her when she didn't want to raise his kid. He couldn't understand how she could have possibly said something like that to Ashley but she had it recorded, on her phone and he had listened to it. His mind was still reeling from the shock that Ashley was pregnant with his kid when Ashely had told him that she was questioning if she should continue the pregnancy. Of course, Tim wanted this baby but he also wanted Lucy but he knew that there was no way he could have both.
He hardly slept that night so when Lucy knocked on his door this morning, he was exhausted and emotionally drained and somehow, he just yelled and screamed at her instead of trying to talk to her to see if there was a way they could work through this together. He understood that Lucy would not be so happy that he was having a baby with Ashley but he also wanted to believe that if Chris had gotten Lucy pregnant, he would have loved this child as his own simply because it was a part of Lucy. How could Lucy not feel the same way towards his child.
He was hurt and angry and Tim knew there was no way he could go into work feeling like this so he picked up the phone and called Sargent Grey.
Sargent Grey: Tim hi, let me guess, you need a personal day
Tim: Excuse me sir.
Sargent Grey: Officer Chen called in earlier requesting a personal day so I assumed that's why you are calling as well
Tim: It is
Sargent Grey: I will give you both the day off, but I expect you to show up on time tomorrow is that understood
Tim: Yes sir
Sargent Grey: Good.
Tim: Thank you.
Sargent Grey: And Tim
Tim: Yes Sarge
Sargent Grey: Don't waste this day off, whatever you did to hurt Lucy, fix it.
Tim: Excuse me Sir.
Sargent Grey: Tim, Lucy has been a really positive influence on you. You are not the guy she first met right out of the academy and that is thanks to her. She is good for you, so do whatever you need to do to make it right again.
Tim: Why are you saying I did something to her.
Sargent Grey: Because I just got off the phone with her after she requested a transfer to another station.
Lucy was sitting on her couch in her apartment when there was a knock on the door. She was so confused, so tired, so hurt. A part of her wanted it to be Tim so they could talk through whatever it was that had happened this morning but a different part of her was hoping it wasn't Tim because she just didn't have the energy for him right now. From his reaction this morning she knew their relationship was over she just wishes she knew what it was she had done to cause him to hate her this much that he didn't want her in his life anymore. Lucy tried to ignore the knocks but they got louder and louder until she had no choice but to open the door.
She took one look at the person on the other side of the door and freaked out. There would be only one reason why Bailey, the paramedic captain, was standing by her door and Lucy knew it couldn't be good.
Lucy: Please no! Just no, don't say it, please no, no, no.
Bailey: I'm so sorry Lucy. By the time we got there, there was nothing more we can do.
