Chapter 5:

I woke up and groaned as I looked at the clock. I made my way out of bed and then into the shower. My phone had a text on it from Jake. I was upset with him now because he was acting stupid. I read it anyway.

What happened? -Jake

I sighed and threw it in my bag. I went into the bathroom trying hopelessly to cover up the now black and blue eye I have. It looked better in a way. I made sure my hair covered it while walking outside to wait for Edward. My phone rang and it was Rose.

"Hello?" I answered. She probably heard from somewhere about my face.

"Why didn't you tell us?" she asked and I sighed.

"A lot happened. I'm sorry," I said.

"Are you driving to school yet?" she asked.

"No..Edward is picking me up. Why?" SHOOT! I should not have said that.

"Bella...," she said and I rolled my eyes. But she thankfully let it go. "Okay..well I am having Emmett pick me up then. Gotta go so I can call him. Love ya! Bye!" she said and I hung up. Emmett is her boyfriend of a year. They are totally in love and it is nasty sometimes.

Edward pulled up and opened the door for me just as I was hanging up with Rose.

"Thanks," I said as I slid into the passenger seat.

"Who was on the phone?" he asked as we pulled away from the curb.

"Rose. She wanted me to take her to school today, but then said she would call her boyfriend," I told him.

"I would have taken her," he offered and I shrugged. "Actually I probably should have..Em just got out of bed as I left," he laughed to himself and I gave him a questionable look.

"Emmett?" I asked and it all made sense. Oh this is hilarious! I had no idea that they were brothers. I never put them together. Guess it makes sense though...Emmett Cullen...Edward Cullen.

"Yeah he's my bro. You didn't know that?" he asked and I blushed at being so out of the loop.

"Just that Rose..," I said. How could I not know this? Rose never mentioned this to me. Maybe it is because she didn't want to feel bad about advising me not to date Edward while at the same time dating his brother.

"Doesn't like me?" he guessed like he already knew. I gave him a sly smile.

"She never mentioned that," I said. "Maybe because she didn't want me to call her a hypocrite because she is seeing Emmett," I blushed as he smiled at me. I looked at my hands that were sitting in my lap. My phone buzzed again as we pulled into the school parking lot.

Are you going to tell me? -Jake

He was starting to bug me so I text him back something kind of mean.

That is not fair of you. -Bella

What do you mean? -Jake

I mean that you can't just start talking to me because something 'tramadic' happened. You need to grow up, Jake. Seriously? Ignoring my calls for that long? -Bella

You aren't so innocent yourself. You were the one telling me to call you. -Jake

Because I wanted to talk to you about everything! I asked you to call me before the incident...you were just too immature to care about me then. You had to wait until life got me physically injured. -Bella

That happens everyday. I do care about you..a lot. You just don't care about me as much as I do. -Jake

Don't play that card. -Bella

Don't talk to Edward. -Jake

Give me one reason. Not the bullshit about him being bad. -Bella

He doesn't really care about you. -Jake

Grow up and stop being a jealous asshole. You don't even know what it is like with him. You haven't been around to see anything. -Bella

He texted me those during the day. I was now at Engilsh and as mad as ever waiting for Jake to text back. How dare he! Edward noticed and came over to talk to me. I told him it was nothing and that I would meet him at his car after school. My phone buzzed again during lunch. I had already shown Alice and Rose my texts to him. I read the next one.

Stop being a dumb bitch and get your head on straight. When he breaks your heart I might be here waiting for you. I don't know anymore. -Jake

And what if he doesn't? -Bella

Then I hope you have a nice life. -Jake

I let out a frustrated sigh as I got into Edward's car.

"Are you okay?" he asked.

"Fine," I said through clentched teeth.

"I want you to come over so that my dad can look at your head. Is that okay?" he asked and I nodded and an angry tear fell as I looked out the window. I wiped it away but Edward saw it. He knew not to say anything just yet. Smart boy.

Dr. Cullen checked my head and said it was fine. I smiled. He knew how to calm me down pretty well. Or maybe that was Edward. I don't know. Emmett and Jasper came bursting through the door. They each gave me a hug and spun me around. I laughed and told them to set me down.

"Be careful," Edward said and they smiled apologetically at me and I shrugged. Edward grabbed my hand and took me up to his room.

"Okay..what's going on?" he asked as we sat on his couch.

"Nothing. Just texting Jake and he is being stupid," I said. He looked at me and I knew he wanted to see them. They were about him so I guess he had a right. I handed him my phone. He scrolled through them and was fumming at the end.

"How dare he speak to you like that!" he said and I rubbed his arm trying to calm him down. It worked a little bit.

"Doesn't matter. He will get over it eventually," I said and shrugged. He huffed and let it go thankfully. Even if he didn't show any emotion, you could tell he was still tense. I grabbed his hand in mine and interlaced our fingers. He relaxed a little more. After a minute I pulled him to his car so that he could drive me home.

When we got there Billy, Jake's dad, was there. I only saw his car, but not him so I didn't know if Jake was here or not. I said thank you to Edward and then watched his car drive away. I sighed and walked into my house.

"Bells, is that you?" Charlie asked from the living room.

"Yep," I said. Who else would it be?

I went into the living room to give Charlie a kiss on the cheek and waved to Billy. I noticed Jake in the corner, but didn't look his way. He followed me up to my room. I huffed and turned around to face him.

"What do you want?" I hissed and he threw his hands up in surrender.

"Look Bells, I'm sorry. I had to see if you were okay," he said.

"After weeks of not really speaking to me and you still care? Oh what a relief," I said sarcastically and then pulled out my homework.

"Bella, of course I still care. I lov-" he started but I cut him off.

"Don't say that. You knew that my first couple weeks of school were hard and that I needed you. I tried talking to you, but you wouldn't answer the phone. And what happened to 'Hope you have a nice life'," I said to him irritated.

"Because I was angry with you! Bella, it kills me to see you happy with another man! Don't you get that?" he asked walking towards me, but I backed away. He flinched at my response.

"No, I don't get that. I don't understand that because if you really did love me, you would have been there for me even if I didn't feel the same. Love is not abandoning someone. I love you Jake..so much. But not the way you wish. I am truely sorry, but I just can't control my emotions right now. That is how I feel, and if I don't follow my heart then I will regret it. And if you don't let me go or get over me, you will regret it as well. I don't want you to go through the pain. I just want my best friend back. The older brother that I loved so much," I said the last part in a small voice. I noticed I started to get tears in my eyes when my vision blurred. I quickly wiped them away.

"Bella," he said and I swallowed down hard. He came and engulfed me in a hug. I had to hug him back, it was natural for us. "Please," he whispered in my ear with a pleading voice. "Feel what you need to feel. What I need you to feel," I rested my chin on his shoulder and looked at the ceiling. I wanted this to be easy, but it doesn't look possible.

"Jacob," I said while backing away and looking into the sad brown eyes. I grabbed his hands and held them to mine. "I am feeling what I want to feel. I promise. I know that is not what you want to hear and I know I am hurting you, but I can't lie to myself or you about my feelings. I really do love you like my brother Jake. I just hope its enough," I whispered and he nodded and let go of my hands and walked away. I heard him tell Billy they had to go and I heard their car start up and drive away. My heart broke, but I had to believe that what I said was best. I knew it was, I just didn't know it would hurt so much.