84.) "Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what your parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?" (Jude, upcoming from Major Pain, post chapter 16)
Stepping out of North's place in a bit of a daze, I stumbled into our car. Jude looked strangely at me, and taking in my messed up hair, plumped up lips, and general disarray, did what any brother would do. Holding up his hand, he said playfully, "High five for getting some, sis!"
Embarrassed, I met his palm, and we drove away.
"So, what next?"
"It's complicated."
Jude rolled his eyes and said, "Sometimes, I wonder how we came out of the same womb."
"You're gross."
"You're changing the subject."
I looked over at my brother and said, "What do you want me to say? That I'm hopelessly in love with the band's instructor? Fine, I am. That everything is going to work out fine? It's not. That North is like one of the random girls you hook up with? It's different. That this is some sort of magic world where we can actually be together?! Because it's not!"
He sighed loudly and replied tersely, "Would you stop thinking about what everyone wants? Stop thinking about what I want, what he wants, what our parents want. What do YOU want? What do you WANT?"
AN: Maybe this will be a kick to start the next chapter. And also, The Notebook = Ryan Gosling = win.
