You know, I never honestly thought that I would be doing this. After I abandoned my Inuyasha story two years ago, I made a promise to myself that I would try to finish all of the stories that I have started. Unfortunately, that is just not the case.
This past week has been absolute hell for me, between scrambling to finish all of my schoolwork so I can get a decent final grade, finals, suddenly working 40 hours a week and having consecutive double shifts while trying to finish up finals, and my dog becoming deathly ill. And to top it all off, my dog, my continuous companion since I was a small child, died yesterday. I had to take her to the pet crematorium so I could have her ashes, since I live in an area where I can't burry my dog due to the lack of space. In short, the shit cart decided to do a hit and run on my life. And, if that already wasn't enough, I've been continually harassed by a reviewer over the past week.
This individual had taken it upon himself to 'help' me by continually sending me my own chapters and editing them through spell-check on Microsoft Word. Even after I asked him to stop, politely. His excuse is that he 'just wants to help'. I did not ask for his 'help', and I had been doing just fine on my own when it came to editing. My best friend, who can be really harsh when it comes to editing, had been assisting me, but it looks like all of her help and hard work is going to go to waste.
I'm quitting 'What One May Never See'.
I am sick and tired of someone who has no clue who the hell I am, what I'm trying to do with my life, what I'm going though, demanding that I drop everything and write just because they're bored. And for all of you who have been reading and reviewing this story since I started, I truly am sorry. You don't deserve this, and I even had a new chapter that I was going to post next week, but it looks like that's not gonna happen.
And to answer any questions on the subject, yes, I am quitting this story because of one person.
This person's antics were the straw that broke the camel's back. I've had enough. I've been under continuous stress since the beginning of November, especially since I'm in an incredibly demanding college program, and add in work on top of that, you get the basic ingredients for a complete and total emotional breakdown.
Here's the message that I sent to him.
How in the world is continually harassing me helping?
Okay, how do I possibly word this without going absolutely ballistic? I do not want, nor need your help in editing my story. And the fact that you continue to ignore my requests is really starting to annoy. I did not respond to any of your previous e-mails due to the fact that they all contained the same BLOODY message: LOL (insert obvious remark about chapter here) Great chapter. I ignored your request for a response, because if I usually do respond, I do it in the next chapter. Obviously I was wrong in doing that, seeing as you took it upon yourself to 'help' me get my editing done so I would update sooner. Here's the thing with that; all you have managed to accomplish right now through your actions is that you have really, REALLY pissed me off.
I would rather have a single review that actually meant something and gave some constructive criticism than a thousand reviews with the contents as stated above. Also, I do not like it when someone demands me to update or do anything else. Writing does not run on time schedules, and real life is more important than anything that takes place online. A week ago, I had never even heard of you, and all of a sudden you're editing my chapters for me without even asking permission? I honestly have no idea what to say to that, other than the fact that I'm incredibly annoyed.
I can appreciate that you're a fan of my work, and I'm flattered that you enjoy it so much. However, I do have a life outside of FanFiction, in spite of what you may believe. I go to school, I have a family, and friends, and I have a job. In short, I have multiple demands on my time that I need to attend to first before I write ANYTHING. I understand that may be disappointing, but hey, that's life. I am a grown woman, and I write fanfiction for fun, not because I have to. To have someone actually order me to do what I see as a relaxing pastime really takes all of the fun out of it. Not to mention the fact that it causes an insane amount of unwanted stress that I really do not need on top of what I already have to deal with.
As a direct result of this, I have made the decision that I am quitting 'What One May Never See'. I can no longer handle the stress of having someone that only knows me through my stories that are posted online take it upon themselves to continually harass me until I update. And just in case you're getting the wrong message, I am not upset because you reviewed for every chapter. Hundreds of people do that and it doesn't bother me at all, because reviews are feedback. I'm upset because you came upon my work a week ago, and decided that you needed to harass me and give 'help' without even asking, and without even BEGINNING to think that maybe, just maybe, I have something else going on. So, I am no longer updating this story.
End of story. No further explanation needed.
Again, I am so sorry, but I just can't do this anymore.
