4. Blaine
The three minutes before the bell rang were so tense. Brittany was mind spitting Rachel. Sebastian was eye fucking Blaine and Sugar tried to sing. It was the biggest saved-by-the-bell ever.
Blaine ran out of the class with his satchel on his shoulder. "I'll call you later," he told Rachel on his way out.
"Whenever you want, hottie," Sebastian replied sarcastically.
The moment Mr. Shue left the choir room and there were just Sebastian, Sam, Rory and Joe, the guys made a circle around the boy. "We don't know your intentions and I honestly don't care, but if you do something to Blaine, if you say something that he doesn't want to hear, you're gonna get the fuck out of here in a heartbeat, okay?" Sam threatened.
"Are you gonna make me, Blondie?" Sebastian stood up and faced him. He was taller than Sam, so Trouty felt a little bit intimidated.
"I'm not going to warn you twice." Sam slapped Sebastian's face softly. Then he smiled and the three friends walked away.
"Hey!" Sebastian called. They turned around. "If Blondie ever touches me again, you two are going to have to do him the jerking off, okay?" Then he walked out of the classroom shouldering Sam aside.
Blaine threw his satchel on the floor of his room and laid on the bed. He just wanted to fall asleep and forget his problems. The last thing he wanted to do was to think.
"I didn't ask for any of this shit. I didn't ask for this loneliness. I didn't ask for a stalker. I didn't ask to be stuck in a place I don't belong to. I left it all for love. For a love I thought would last forever. And now I know that the honeymoon has to end sooner or later. It has. It fucking has."
He gave the money his parents had saved for him in case he wanted to go back to Dalton to his brother. And he couldn't take it back. He was really stuck at McKinley. He felt like the child whose hand is not held anymore. He felt alone. He felt lost.
The doorbell rang. He dried the tears off his face and opened the door. There was Rachel. Rachel with a box of chocolates. "Hey." That was the only thing Blaine could say.
The two of them went to the former Warbler's room. They sat on his bed and didn't say anything for a few minutes. "So…" Rachel broke the silence. "How are you doing?"
"The day I called Finn… I asked him if he regretted breaking up with you." His eyes filled with tears.
Rachel didn't know what to say. She felt her heart being smashed against the wall. Again. "If you want me to go, Blaine, you just have to say it."
"He cried like a baby on the phone, Rachel."
Her hands started shaking. "Why are you telling me this?" She asked.
"Because I don't regret what I've done." Blaine turned his head to look at his friend. He needed a confidant. He needed to take all of that shit out of his chest. "I don't." He cried softly.
She turned to look at Blaine too and held his hand. "I haven't spoken to Kurt, Blaine. I don't know what happened between you two."
"A few days after Kurt got into NYADA, before he left to New York, I called Finn because I was having too many doubts and I didn't know who could help me." Blaine took a deep breath, squeezing Rachel's hand back. "Even though he didn't want me to break up with his brother… you know Finn, he can't be dishonest with anyone. He told me that maybe it was better to pull the band aid right off than to watch love die little by little."
Rachel couldn't hold her tears back anymore.
Blaine carried on. "You can imagine the rest." He wrapped his arm around Rachel's shoulders, trying to comfort her.
There were tears flooding down Rachel's face, but there was a smile on it too. "I can't be mad at him, Blaine. I can't."
"But he told me that we all had to move on." Blaine rested his head on Rachel's. "But I just need to know if he's okay. I need to know that I didn't rip his heart out." He made a pause. "We should call them."
"I don't want him to know that I left it all for him," she answered sharply, drying her face.
"You don't have to be ashamed of it. You love him."
"But he doesn't love me back, right?"
Blaine couldn't answer the question.
"If he loved me back, he'd be here." Rachel kept crying.
"You just told him that you could leave it all for him. You didn't tell him that you were coming back home, Rachel. He doesn't know it. You didn't tell anyone!"
Rachel stood up and pulled her skirt back down. "I can't ask him to come back." She turned around, heading to the door. "The chocolates have liquor, so… keep it easy."
"Don't go like this." Blaine stood up as well, holding Rachel's wrist. "I'm sorry." He knew that he was taking his problems out on his friend. "We are the next co-captains of New Directions, and we should be supporting each other." Blaine chuckled and stroked Rachel's hand with his thumb.
Rachel wrapped her arms around Blaine's neck and hugged him tight. "I'm gonna need you so much this year." She smiled back at him and kissed his cheek before letting go of the hug. "And we have a duet to prepare."
"Have we?" Blaine felt so good when he saw that smile. He knew that he and Rachel were one of a kind. Both of them were living in the ruins of their broken relationships. And they only had each other when it was about to getting out of all that sorrow.
Blaine and Rachel stepped into the stage of the auditorium with their right foot. They stood behind Mr. Schuester while he explained the rules. "The five of our candidates get to sing a song, and only Blaine and Rachel haven't yet, so give them a big round of applause and may the best win."
Will climbed off the stage and sat in the audience next to Emma. "I love it when they go all Game-of-throny," she said while she, and only she, applauded the kids on stage.
[Wide awake – Katy Perry]
Rachel:
I'm wide awake.
Blaine:
I'm wide awake.
Rachel:
I'm wide awake.
Blaine:
Yeah, I was in the dark,
I was falling hard
with an open heart.
Rachel:
I'm wide awake.
Blaine:
How did I read the stars so wrong.
I'm wide awake.
Rachel:
And now it's clear to me
that everything you see
Ain't always what it seems.
Blaine:
I'm wide awake.
Rachel:
Yeah, I was dreaming for so long.
I wish I knew then
what I know now.
Wouldn't dive in.
Wouldn't bow down.
Gravity hurts,
you made it so sweet
till I woke up on,
on the concrete.
Falling from cloud 9.
Crashing from the high.
I'm letting go tonight.
Yeah I'm falling from cloud 9.
I'm wide awake.
Blaine:
Not losing any sleep.
I picked up every piece,
and landed on my feet.
Rachel:
I'm wide awake.
Blaine:
Need nothing to complete myself.
No.
Rachel:
I'm wide awake.
Blaine:
Yeah, I am born again.
Outta the lion's den.
I don't have to pretend.
Rachel:
And it's too late.
Blaine:
The story's over now, the end.
I wish I knew then,
what I know now.
Wouldn't dive in.
Wouldn't bow down
Gravity hurts,
you made it so sweet
till I woke up on,
on the concrete.
Blaine:
Falling from cloud 9. (Rachel: It was out of the blue, I…)
Crashing from the high.
I'm letting go tonight. (Rachel: Yeah, I'm letting it go, I…)
I'm falling from cloud 9.
I'm wide awake.
Rachel:
Thunder rumbling.
Castles crumbling. (Blaine: I'm wide awake)
I am trying to hold on.
I'm wide awake.
Blaine:
God knows that I tried
seeing the bright side, (Rachel: I'm wide awake)
but I'm not blind anymore.
I'm wide awake.
Rachel with Sebastian, backing up in the audience:
I'm wide awake.
Blaine and Rachel. Joe, Rory and Sam harmonizing:
Yeah, I'm falling from cloud 9. (Sebastian: It was out of the blue, I…)
Crashing from the high.
You know I'm letting go tonight. (Sebastian: Yeah, I'm letting go, I…)
I'm falling from cloud 9.
I'm wide awake.
I'm wide awake.
I'm wide awake.
I'm wide awake.
I'm wide awake.
Blaine and Rachel bowed and went backstage, Rachel hopping all the way when they weren't seen. "We nailed it!"
Blaine smiled, though he felt totally messed up. He wasn't expecting the hand Sebastian gave them/him. Mostly him. "Maybe I'm taking things for granted. Maybe I'm wrong. Maybe I'm just prejudiced against him. Maybe…" His inner thoughts were interrupted by the sudden kiss Rachel planted on his lips.
