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DUDES, sorry for the delay. I'm having a few rough weeks. I'm not sure when I can update again, sorry

-Kathrine

(Language, sexual themes for warning)

Keep Moving

I Want You Always

Nighttime is so peaceful. My only light was coming from the inside of the house, giving the front yard a small glow. I'm not sure how many times I've looked for the moon, I still can't find it. It was a real disappointment that I couldn't find the moon. It's also a disappointment that the next time I'll see Dallas is in two weeks. Two fucking weeks. I wonder if anyone knows what can happen in two weeks now a days. Dallas could get bored. Fuck someone. Break my heart. It could happen. Anything is possible. That is defiantly something dangerous unpredictable. Dallas's faithfulness, I mean.

Dallas is a completely different guy when I'm not around. Or when he's not thinking, because he's too drunk. Yeah, that's how it usually goes. He said he loved me though. But I have to remember that Dallas fucking Winston doesn't love anyone! I don't know what he does when I'm not with him. Not that I don't trust him, but two weeks is a long time. He will get restless. He will forget that he is supposed to be faithful to me. Dally, what are you doing to me fool?

I threw my face in my hands as I curled into a ball on the rail. It was a small, organized, balanced ball. My confused self began to cry. My weak, emotional self! God, I loath myself sometimes. My body was shaking against the beam that held up the porch. At least I'm crying silently, I thought. Suddenly, I felt two hands quickly go down on my shoulders. A cackling laugh come out in the night air.

"Save ya life!" Two-bit said with his usual laughter. It didn't only scare me, but it pissed me off. I was falling apart for a moment and he has no consideration. Can't he see that I'm not in the mood for his antics.

"Go away Two-bit." I told him in a shaky whisper.

"Aw, don't be sore Lucy girl. I'm was just foolin with you." he said leaning his torso against the railing next to me. It want then that he opened his eyes and noticed I was crying.

"Are you crying?" he commented as he leaned onto my arm and leg. I was holding my legs up to my to my stomach, holding myself together.

"Go away." I said again, with the same shakiness.

"Lucy girl, you best tell Two-y what's wrong." he told me in a baby voice. I turned and looked at him. He wouldn't understand, he's Two-bit. Keith Matthews. I'm a girl. He's a guy. An insensitive, playful, and loveable guy. He's just not a person you tell your problems to, that's why I love him. The guy usually steers away the issues and goes straight for the recovery. He lives to make people smile and laugh, but he doesn't deal with people's problems. That's okay, that's who he is.

"Two-y, I don't want to talk about it. I just want a hug." I said in a whiny voice, as I swung myself around to face him. Immediately, I fell into his strong body. He held me tightly, pulling me close to his chest. I can't remember the last time that I held onto someone so tightly. It was like I would fall apart and die if he let go. I needed him to hold me together, it made me feel nice. His hug got me to stop crying. It got me breathe normally. It made me forget about my problems for just a few moments. When we pulled apart, I looked into Two-bit's eyes. He was gently smiling at me but his eyes had a look of sadness. Almost longing in them, it was strange to see him look like that.

"Can I do anything else for my Lucy girl?" he asked in a low voice. I hugged him against, which he eagerly accepted from the looks of it. Two-bit was making me warm inside. I sighed into his chest, feeling at peace once more. Pulling apart again, he had the same look as before on his face.

"So umm, ya okay?" he asked rubbing the sides of my arms. I nodded with a thankful smile.

"I will be. Can you do me a favor Two-y?" he nodded quickly.

"Anything to keep you from crying, Louie." I smiled at that remark.

"Please find Dally. Tell him to meet me at my window at midnight. Thank you so much Two-y." I hugged him again. As I pulled away, I kissed him on the cheek. "I owe you."

"Give me another kiss and it'll make us even." I chuckled, kissing him on the cheek with a smooch sound to perfect the moment. He smiled as I patted him on the cheek. I thanked him again before going in the house. When I went back inside, my brothers were all watching TV. The only one not asleep though, was Ponyboy. He looked over at me with a soft smile. My baby brother got up and gave me a hug. That hug made me feel safe and secure. He spoke to my ear gingerly, we swayed back and forth.

"I'm sorry. I was being insensitive." he nodded my head yes.

"You were. But I was overreacting. Sorry." he nodded to me as well. We pulled apart, looking at our older brothers. Ponyboy had his arm rested across my shoulder as my was stretched around his back.

"Lets get these pinheads to bed, shall we." I commented after a moment. Turning off the TV, Soda instantly woke up. He was still half asleep, but was awake enough for me to usher him to his room. I tucked him in after taking his shoes and shirt off. He mumbled something to me that I couldn't make out. Than he said something that surprised me, he said.

"Thanks, Mom." I shook my thoughts away from my head before exiting the dark room. Before leaving, I made sure his alarm was set. He always forgets, and wakes up late if Darry goes in earlier than seven. Leaving the room, I warmly blew Sodapop a kiss and shut the door. Darry was already awake and standing next to Ponyboy when I entered the living room. He looked at me with an unreadable look. As soon as he outstretched his arms to me, I threw myself into them. I felt Ponyboy come in from my side, wrapping his arms around both me and Darry. He was the one to rock us back and forth, he whispered out loud.

"Lucy sandwich." I smiled into Darry's shoulder as I stood on my tip toes to reach them. Pony was the first to pull away, then Darry. We three stood just looking at each other. Finally Darry spoke.

"We should all try to get some sleep. I've got work at seven." he made a face that told me he wasn't looking forward to getting up early or working. He leaned over and kissed me on the forehead. Then he leaned over and ruffled Ponyboy's hair in a brotherly way. My two brothers smiled at each other before Darry left to go to bed. Pony gave me another hug, everyone was very huggy tonight. I loved it. We pulled away and I kissed him on the cheek. He smiled and went for his room. I was last to leave the room. Before heading to my room, I cleaned up a bit. Throwing away trash and food crumbs from around the living room and dining room. They saved me a piece of pizza, but I just put it in the fridge.

Once in my room, I stared at the clock for a while. It was going on eleven forty-six when I heard a small tap on my window. Even though I was sleepy, I jumped up and opened it. As I looked out to see who it was, I noticed the moon smiling down at me. Dally climbed in onto my bed, leaving the window open. I jumped off my bed and locked my door. The two of us were in my room with only the moon to light our vision. Dally made the first move this time, pulling me onto the bed. He hugged me tighter than Two-bit did earlier, it was a different kind of hug. This hug was an apologetic one, a regretful one.

"Ruth told me this afternoon." he said pulling away from me. Dally looked at me with eyes with fear, but he wasn't afraid.

"Same here. I'm sorry, I understand if you don't want to go through that."

"I'm not breaking up with you, Luc." Dally said putting his hands on my shoulders.

"I know, I'm just saying if you want to take a break during the two weeks." a tear fell from my eyes. "I know you Dally. I know it wont be easy for you to be…what I want you to be during the two weeks. I can't expect you to stay with me when we can't even see each other."

His eyes were a little mad now as they burned into my soul. "Lucy, I love you. I would never cheat on you. I would never allow myself to break up with you over something so stupid. If this is going to help you, than maybe this two week period would be good for you."

"But I don't want to be away from you. I want you always!" I said as I crashed my face into his.

We locked lips, massaging them with each other. It was nice and wet, I was still crying. When I invited my tongue into his mouth, he immediately let it free to explore. He threw his tongue into the twist, fighting with mine for dominance. My hands pulled his face to mine. His right hand held my side tightly, guiding me down to a laying position. Both my legs wrapped around his stomach, drawing him closer to me. Dally's left hand rubbed my right thigh gently but firmly. Finally I stopped crying and focused on the task at hand.

With my hands, I ripped his leather jacket and threw it to the ground. He didn't even seem to notice as his mouth moved to my neck. Both my arms entered into his shirt, taking it over his head. I tossed it down with his jacket, this time he noticed. Dally pulled away from my neck and looked at my face. My hands were going up and down his torso as I looked up at him. Dallas glanced down at his naked torso with a quizzical expression.

"You've never done that before." he said surprised with my aggressiveness.

Since the moment I went outside, to the second Dallas showed up at my window; I've been considering something. I've thought about ways I could keep Dallas for the two weeks, but still not see him. I could sneak around, but that wouldn't work out because I will eventually get caught. I could just plain out ignore the rules. Then there is one more thing that I've debated about in my head for hours. Giving myself to Dally. Letting him have me the way I am, a virgin. It would give him the message that I want to be with him still. That I don't want him to cheat on me while I can't be there to occupy his free time. It might not be the most romantic moment of my life, but I want him. I want him to have me. I want him to be my first ever. If things don't work out in these two weeks, than I will never get what I wanted. Dallas would never know how serious about him I really am. And I told him all this.

Every single thought that's run through my mind about the matter, I just threw in his face. He looked at me a little worried, but with lust as well. I took that as a sign that he's wanted me too, but has been respectful. Worried? Maybe because he thought I wouldn't be the one to put it out there. Worried because I've never really mentioned to have sex with him before. As much as I don't want to do this with my three brothers across the hall, I want to do this!

"Are you sure about this? Don't you think you are rushing into things?" he asked me still looking worried.

"I've been thinking about this for a while now. Tonight being the most recent. You deserve it Dal. I deserve it. I don't want to loose you, you're my man." I put my forehead against his, we closed our eyes.

"But you're still hurt. What if I break your ribs or something?" that's what he was worried about.

"We'll just take it slow, okay. I want you to have this." I began to kiss him again, but he pulled away.

"I don't want to hurt you." Dally stood up and walked over to his clothes. He put his shirt on and his jacket. I looked at him horrified.

"What are you doing? Don't you want this as much as me?" I sat on the bed with my legs dangling from the side. Dally sighed and stood in-between my legs, pressing himself against me. It made me hot when I felt the enlargement in his jeans against my thigh.

"You have no idea how much I want it. How much I want you. But you are still injured. Believe me when I say I can't do it while I'm worried I'll puncher your lung with your rib if I break one. I love you too much to risk that." Dally said this without looking away from me.

"Don't leave though. Don't leave me." he nodded as he crushed my head into his chest. Again I pulled his leather jacket off, forcing him to lay down on my bed. I laid on top of him as he put his hand through my thin, short hair. After a while, I sucked on his collar bones without his permission. It was funny because he was trying to squirm away from me, I knew he loved it though. In a quick motion he rolled over on top of me, but hovered so he wouldn't crush me. I pulled away from his collar bones, smiling evilly.

"You are evil. Since I wont do it tonight, you are torturing me."

"Exactly." I said with the same evil smile. He laughed at me.

"You know, another reason is that your brothers are right over there. What if you're noisy and they kill me for your happiness?" he chuckled this.

"Doesn't it bother you that they are right across the hall?"

"At the moment, I don't give a shit who hears me. I just want to give you something that I know will let you know I love you. That I'm dedicated to you only. That I don't want you to fool around when I'm not there."

"I told you before, I would never cheat on you. You are still my girl. I'll sneak in at night. I'll sneak over to the diner during your breaks. I'll do whatever I can to make sure I can see you. Because I need you as much as you need me, even if I don't admit it as often."

"I'll meet you outside my window, every night at midnight. I'll wait for you out there, okay?" he nodded.

"That sounds perfect to me." he smiled at me, kissing my lips.

"I'll ask Johnny to give you notes and stuff. I trust him not to say anything and I trust him not to read them."

"That's a great idea." I smiled at him. "Maybe this will make us closer as a couple. It will prove we do belong together and that we can get through anything." Dally nodded and rolled over on his side. The two of us got more comfortable after that. I laid my head on his chest while he curled me under his arms. We faced each other while we laid side by side. After we kissed and talked some more, we both fell asleep.