A/N: I believe this is the longest i've been gone.

oh well. it's hard nursing a broken heart.

it affected my everything. i hope not my writing.

but i did manage to write a chapter for you guys.. so it's all cool :D


"Hey Britt? Earth to Brittany!" I heard someone say. I know that voice but it didn't register on my brain, plus it sounded blurry, like it came from somewhere else. I'm aware that I'm enclosed in my own thoughts right now and I don't give a damn to my surroundings but it gives a damn about me. I saw a hand waving back and forth in front of my face trying to catch my attention, which it did. I snapped from my trance and looked up to see who's bothering me.

"You've been spaced out for the last 10 minutes! You're not even blinking! I thought you're dead!" Tina exaggeratedly stated. Died huh? Wouldn't it be nice to escape this life and just die? It'd be easier. "You look like a zombie panda with those eye bags. Tell me, are you still sleeping? That's not good for your health." I ignored Tina's shrews. I don't need more of her lectures and opinions.

"Tina, could you please… please just be quiet for a moment? Your nagging is not helping!" I said irritatedly. As much as I don't want to get annoyed at Tina, she's making it hard for me. I need a moment of silence. I already went to the library but I got kicked out coz the librarian caught me sleeping. So I had nowhere else to go but here.

"I only spoke just now. So… how's it going with miss hot lawyer?" That's Tina's new nickname for Santana. Don't ask me where she got it. "Have you talked to her again after the big argument?"

I sighed loudly. "No. And even if I did want to talk to her, I know she doesn't want to see me or maybe even hear my name." Tina shot me a confused stare.

"Why are you so worked up about this? Isn't this what you wanted? For it to be over? That she won't bother you anymore? You should celebrate." She cheerfully said. I looked at her in disbelief. The smile on her lips quickly disappeared. "Oh… right… you've fallen for her."

I scrunched my eyebrows and slapped her in the arm. She managed to gasp an 'Ow' while she glared at me and rubbed the stinging part of her arm. "It's not that. I just feel really guilty… which explains the lack of sleep." I followed up so Tina won't get any more ideas.

"If you say so. But you know…" Tina went on but I didn't listen.

I entered my dazed state again. I can't help but think about her. How is Santana? Is she doing okay? I could never live with myself for what I've done but the courage of going up to her always escapes me. I'm ashamed to face her, to look her in the eyes and apologize. Knowing she won't even give me a second look anyway, so I decided against it.

"…besides, it's not like you're going to see her anytime soon right?" I only caught the last part of Tina's speech. Hmm.. She's right. Maybe I should just forget about this and pretend it never happened. I can't do anything about it anymore. But I wish that thinking it would be as easy doing it.


It was Sunday night, Nick, Quinn, and I shared a meal I cooked. I love cooking for my siblings. Though I can't provide for them yet, financially, at least I can do something for them.

"Wow, this is awesome. You're really a good cook Britt." Quinn exclaimed as she tasted the food.

"Yeah sis! If you fail as a lawyer, try to be a chef!" Nick said as he happily filled his stomach with my prepared meal. Quinn glared at Nick. "What are you talking about? Britt will be the most brilliant lawyer in this country. And the best cook too!" I looked at my sister with an appreciative smile on my face.

"Thanks Quinn." I took a few bites of the food and it was really delicious. I deserve an award. I thought and I laughed inside at my own antics.

"Speaking of being a brilliant lawyer, when is your internship? Shouldn't you be starting now?" I heard Quinn ask as she shoved more food into her mouth. "Oh… It's starting on Tuesday. We will know which law firms we'll be assigned tomorrow. Frankly, I'm quite excited." I said as enthusiastically as I can. Not that I'm not happy but I do believe we should get to pick where we want to go to for internship. I mean, I've been eyeing one of the best law firms around. I just hope to god I get that one.

Unaware of my inner struggle, Quinn said, "That's good! I'm sure you'll do great. Impress them okay?" I nodded. I would impress them alright. That firm will be lucky to have me.


How could I not foresee this turn out of events? With the amount of luck that I have right now, I should be happy that I get home in one piece. Of course everything should be done in the hard way. By hard way I meant, not my way.

So the firm assignments were handed out today. I'm fired up; excited on what firm I would be assigned to. I looked at the paper given to me and that's when my world fell apart.

Yup. You guessed it right.

"Sir! Please! I'd do anything! Just please reconsider!" I'm controlling myself not to be hysterical, but I just can't. I know if I want my professor to consider, I should calm down and think clearly but panic has taken over me. I'm getting out of control.

The look on my professor's face is unmistakably annoyance by my frantic protests but I won't go down without a fight. I have to defend this with all I can. I just can't let this happen!

But before I can even argue again, he stood up from his chair. Clearly he has had enough of my pleading. Why won't he listen?

"No Ms. Pierce. It's final. If you don't like it, then drop out of my class and repeat next year." I watched him walk out the door, my mouth agape with a matching terrified face. No. This is not happening. I shook my head back and forth as my eyes darted once again at the paper I was holding, almost scrunched because of my tight hold of it.

I stared at my name, printed in bold letters. Across from it was the name of Santana's law firm.


I literally don't know what to do. I'm pacing back and forth in front of Tina's photocopy machine for who knows how long that I think I created a rut. I kept biting my nails, looking like I got to go to the bathroom. I let out squeals randomly from time to time. I'm aware of the weirded out stares the other students are giving me but I really don't care. I'm seriously freaking out right now.

"Stop moving around! You're making me dizzy!" Tina dramatically said, getting tired of my appearance and actions. "You can't do anything about it now. You don't want to fail do you?"

I shot her a glare. "Of course I don't!" I stopped pacing and settled in front of the machine. "Why does God hate me? I swear. Of all the firms in this place, I got stuck at Santana's? I mean seriously? Is this some kind of sick joke? Apparently, luck doesn't want to side with me too!" I have no idea what I was saying. I just want to rant and rant and rant and rant until I get exhausted. I saw Tina roll her eyes. "What?" I asked angrily. "You're not helping at all you know! As always!" I'm surprised Tina isn't getting tired of me yet. If I would be the one to calm myself down, I'd walk out on me.

"Look, I think this is happening for a reason. Maybe luck or God doesn't want you to end things with Santana like that." I thanked her mentally for her patience but I made sure she heard me scoff at her reasoning. "And I thought you missed her?" My eyes widened at what I heard. Something sank inside me but at the same time I felt warm. "I…" This time, my brain started malfunctioning and simultaneously, I felt my heart pound in my chest.

She noticed that she gave me something to think about. Satisfied with her comeback, Tina went silent and left me with my thoughts.

I do miss Santana and this will be the opportunity to be with her again but everything is plain wrong. I won't deny it to myself anymore. I really want to see her. But not right now. Just remembering those eyes full of hatred and anger the last time I saw her makes me want to dismiss the thought.

I do miss her beautiful smile but not the sarcastic smirk she kept throwing at me when we had that confrontation.

And as sick as it might sound, I have this desire to hold her hand. To feel the warmth of it again, like the day when we accidentally touched each other. But that incident won't ever be repeated again. Even if I wanted it to, I won't let it.

I'm scared of seeing her. I'm terrified of what she'll do to me.

If she would ignore me then that's fine I guess. Come to think about it, it will be the better option. But would I really want that? Who am I kidding? I already know the answer.

I decided to do something dire for once and karma is already waiting to bite me hard on the ass. Maybe I'm not cut out to be a mean person. Or maybe this is my punishment, for what I did to her. Whatever the case, I will look at this as a hurdle, a really huge one I must surpass before I face the real world. I'm almost at the finish line. Nothing can stop me in achieving my dreams. Not even the things I feel about Santana.


So today's the day.

Day one of my internship. I stood outside the familiar building and saw the same guard that wouldn't allow me to enter that time I was here. He saw me and I think he recognized me because of the smile forming on his face. I nervously approached the entrance and the guard courteously greeted me.

"Good morning Miss! Sorry about the last time. Are you here to see Attorney Lopez again?" He asked delightfully. Although my mood isn't that great and my nerves are killing me, it isn't polite to snap at him seeing he's all polite with me. So I gathered up my will and managed a weak smile and said, "Uhm no. Actually, I'm the new intern."

"Oh, alright. So I'll be seeing you more often now?" He asked playfully as he ushered me inside the building. I flashed him a weak smile again and I let my feet bring me to the part of the office where I will be staying for 3 weeks.

The office was unchanged, except for the other places where I noticed that more papers have been piled up. It was still pleasing to the eyes. The smell of coffee and papers weirdly perked me up and I can feel I'm excited for what's in store for me in this place. But then again, the thought of Santana being my boss frightens me, making my enthusiasm disappear.

A tap on the shoulder made me turn around and I was greeted by Attorney Hummel. "Hi Heath- I mean Miss Brittany." His first expression of delight vanished suddenly for what I think is the realization that I gave him my fake name. I hope I didn't offend him or something. What a first impression I made huh? I assumed Santana filled him in with the details.

To recover from that damaging encounter, I decided to speak up. "Good morning Attorney Hummel. My name is Brittany Pierce and I will be working as an intern here starting from today." I held out my hand and he gladly shook it. He gave me an encouraging smile which made me think that he isn't mad at me or bothered that I am here. "That's what I was told. Come, I'll show you to your table." He kindly said as he walked towards the said table with me following behind.

I noticed that my desk is right next to Santana's office. I couldn't see her from the blurred glass door but the thought of her being in the same floor as me, breathing the same air as me, sends unwanted feelings in my chest. But now is not the right time to think about it.

"So, I am assigned to look after you within your stay here at our firm. I'll be your supervisor and I would also be the one to make sure you do your tasks properly. As you know, paper work is also important to a lawyer's work so basically, you'll be doing research for our current cases, or when we don't need your assistance, we need a lot of help filing." He said while reading something on a paper on his hand. I nodded my head in understanding. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. As long as Attorney Hummel will be the one to supervise me that means I have no problem passing for sure.

My inner celebration was cut short as Attorney Hummel continued his instructions. "And of course, you'll also be taking orders from those in higher ranks above me, namely Attorney Lopez. She's the boss and she has the final say if you would pass this on-the-job training. Her signature of approval is needed after all."

My mouth hanged agape at that last bit. Santana would be the one to decide if I pass? Well, that's it. I'm done for. The fear in my face showed more than I could control it since Attorney Hummel patted me on the shoulders comfortingly and said, "Don't worry Brittany. Santana is not as bad as you think she is." He gave me an encouraging smile but there's no way I would get encouraged by it.

Just then, the glass door of Santana's office opened and she herself emerged from it. "Kurt! I've been calling your desk for about 5 times—" She abruptly stopped when she saw us near the office door. Her gaze was fixed on me, but I can't read her expression. Suddenly she was walking towards us with a smirk on her face, while another guy emerged from the office. He was blonde and tall, handsomely wearing a suit. His eyes caught mine and then he averted a worrying gaze to Kurt when he caught up with the situation.

My attention was transferred back to Santana as she said, "Well, I didn't think you'd show up. You seriously have guts Brittany Pierce." Her tone of course is still full of hatred but I won't let myself be scared. I am here for work, not for personal reasons.

I imitated her cocky smile and said confidently, "Of course Attorney Lopez. I do not consider myself a coward. And besides, I see no reason why I shouldn't be here. This is work after all." Santana's smirk faded and gave me that death glare. "Just remember that I hold the key to your dreams of being a lawyer. If I don't approve of you then…" She didn't finish her sentence knowing that I already know what it meant.

Anger welled up inside me. This is so unfair! She'll get her revenge by not passing me? Damn her.

She gave me one final look before she turned to Attorney Hummel. "Kurt, in my office now." Satisfied with the torment she gave me, Santana walk away and disappeared from her office. I was left standing with my fists clenched while glaring at her retreating back. A soft chuckle emitted from the man who was with Santana in her office earlier. He eyes were fixed on me, clearly amused. I raised my eyebrows curiously as he made his way to me.

"Wow. You really are something. Santana's finally found her match." He said beaming at me. I don't know why but there seemed to be a tone of approval in his voice. At this distance, I found that his mouth is kinda big for his face but still he still manage to look cute. "I am Attorney Sam Evans but you can call me Sam." He extended his hand and I took it gracefully. "H-hi I am Brittany Pierce." I said.

"That's what I heard. So you're the new intern huh?" He said still smiling.

"Sadly yes." I said, but not dejectedly. I heard him chuckle again. He followed my actions with his eyes as I circled around the table studying my work place. "So what do you plan to do? You think you can survive this?"

"I'll be okay. Three weeks of hell then I'm done!" I'm surprised at my confident words but I can tell it impressed him because of the smirk on his face. I mentally gave myself a pat in the back.

"I like you." I heard him say. "This is gonna be fun."

I watched him as he turned around and went inside Santana's office.


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