A/N: Because you guys are so awesome, i squeezed out my brains for this update. haha.


BRITTANY'S POV

"What's with the face? You look like you've seen a murder or something." Nick said while doing his caricature on the dining table. It has become our ritual lately to talk after dinner. I didn't know what happened. A few years ago, Nick always gets on my nerves because of random stuff and I hated him for that. But right now, it feels like I can talk to him about anything. Maybe it's a part of growing up.

And besides, he knows everything that happened in the past. Even though he was just a kid then, both of us had so many questions and we were doing all we can to find the answers.

"Sugar was at the office earlier." I said, keeping my head down.

"So?" He said unfazed. Of course he wouldn't understand the gravity of Sugar showing up out of the blue. He wasn't there when everything turned crap because of that woman.

"I don't understand why she's here. I mean, I thought everything's over between her and Santana." I reasoned out but Nick just shot me a pathetic look.

"Sis, why do you care so much?"

I was caught off guard by that question. Yeah, why do I care? I shouldn't care whoever Santana wanted to see or date. It's none of my business. We aren't together.

I'm lying to myself again.

I could also lie to Nick.

"I don't." I said with a poker face. "It's just I don't want her around here coz maybe Quinn would see her around and that would be a mess. You know how I proved just a couple of months ago that the world is so small, that the persons in our past kept haunting us."

"Even if that's the case, I don't think you should be involved sis. You know how Quinn is."

"I know." I said quietly as thoughts of me and Santana being together flew out of my brain.

"You seem disappointed." Nick said eyeing me curiously. "Is there anything that you're not telling me?"

I chuckled at what he said. "When did you become a concerned brother?"

He also laughed at our little joke. "Just doing my job."

I can't help feel happy and proud of Nick. He's growing up so fast. I feel somewhat ashamed that he's kinda thinking maturely than me.

"And who is that unlucky person you are drawing?" He scrambled the paper out of my reach but I was fast. "Hey!" he yelled when I got to see the picture clearly.

I gasped dramatically. "Isn't this the girl you had a crush on?"

He kept his head down but still trying to get the paper out of my hands. "Aww… Nick. She's very pretty." I said batting my eyelashes at him.

"Of course she is! Now give that back!" He said as he annoyingly snatched the paper out of my hands. I smiled widely at him teasingly but it was a genuine smile. At least one of us will have a good love life.


It was another day at the office and I don't think I can face Santana anymore. Knowing that she and Sugar probably hit off last night, I can't take seeing her being cheerful maybe because of that girl.

Midday had come and I haven't seen Santana around. Wow, maybe they were really tired or something because knowing Santana, she wouldn't skip work for anything. Well now she is because of Sugar.

I just tried burying myself to my work and instantly, it killed roughly an hour before my thoughts went back to her again. I let out a loud sigh and dropped my head on my desk.

"Tired?" I looked up and saw Sam hovering over me. I immediately arranged my expression and hair as if getting caught sleeping at work. He laughed at me and said, "Don't worry. I'm not telling you were sleeping on the job."

I shot him a glare, "I'm not sleeping."

"Oh yeah? Then what are you doing?" He asked challengingly.

"Nothing."

"See, you're doing nothing on the job." He said, winning the argument. But I'm not in the mood to joke around. I'm in a foul disposition and Sam is making it worse. Sensing I'm not up for the teasing, he retreated and sat carefully at seat in front of my desk.

"Is there a problem?" I'm sick of hearing that question. Everyone I see asks me that and it's getting on my nerves. What am I supposed to do huh? Pretend to be happy when I'm not? I wish they would just leave me alone.

And at that moment I saw her emerge outside her office, crying. She darted towards the girl's bathroom disappearing quickly. I didn't know she was here. Well now, I'm guessing Sugar was here too. I excused myself to Sam and started looking for the girl.

I found Sugar inside Santana's office and I entered without fear, getting her off guard.

I glared at her but she welcomed me with a sickeningly sweet smile. "Hey Brittany! Did you want something?"

I pursed my lips as I'm trying to suppress my anger. I managed to tell myself to calm down but my voice failed me. "You haven't answered the question I asked you yesterday. Now that you know me, I guess you owe me an explanation."

She squint her eyes at me, a smile playing in her lips. "Uhh, no Brittany. I still don't."

I let out an audible sigh and said defeated, "Fine. But whatever the reason you're here I just hope that you won't cause any trouble."

"Why do you think that, Brittany? I'm not the one to cause any trouble." She said calmly.

I rolled my eyes at her statement. "Then why was Santana crying yesterday and earlier?" I demanded.

She's still unmoving like she didn't do anything wrong. "Why do you want to know? No offense but I think it's not your place Britt."

I felt angrier at the pet name. How dare she call me that? We're not close! Wait, I have to think of a comeback. "I just…" Nothing's coming out. Oh God. I don't want to lose. I'll look stupid in front of this lady and I would never live with myself if that happened.

"You know…" She started not giving me the chance to finish my answer. "Santana told me what you did to her." I winced at the thought of them maybe laughing and giving comments on what I did. Shame took over my body and I couldn't look her in the eyes.

"I understand you feel hostile towards me and Santana because of what we did to Quinn. But Brittany, you should know that it happened in the past. We were kids. We didn't know any better. All we cared about was our feelings and of course, it went like shit. So I'm here to finally settle things."

What is she talking about? Does that mean she's here to get Santana back? I haven't had the chance to respond because she continued her monologue.

"I know Santana better than anyone. And I love her still and I always will. And I think I'm the only person who can make her truly happy." It's as if a hole was being drilled to my chest. Is she throwing it to my face? But like me she doesn't have the right! I know what she did.

"How bold of you to say that!" I finally found my voice which quivered in suppressed anger. "You think you're so great, showing up here all of a sudden and making Santana cry? I know you left her when she needed you. Yes, I didn't know the full story but whatever it was, I don't think if you truly loved her, you would leave her for any reason!"

My rage just went out like fire that I couldn't control. Sugar was also on her feet now, guarded on what stupid thing I would do. I continued my rant.

"After you left, I knew she was broken. I can see it in her eyes everyday. I know she wasn't happy and it's all because of you! If you haven't left her, then maybe she would've experienced love and being truly happy like what you were talking about!" I flailed my arms around while I was explaining myself. Every word I uttered made the burden in my chest feel lighter.

Suddenly, Sugar was on her feet inches away from my face. She was angry too. Maybe I went too far.

"You. Have. No. Right. To tell me that!" She said slowly, emphasizing the words 'you have no right'. "Do you think I wasn't broken when I left her? Don't you think I didn't want to do that? Did you think I would do that if I had any other choice?" She said, running out of breath.

I looked at her, confused as ever. She continued, "I came back here because I want to set things right! Santana is the person I only ever loved and I want another chance!" My breath hitched at that statement. It's all too much! She wanted her back. What do I do now?

"After all these years, I realized that she was the only person who could make me feel that way. The only one who could take away every amount of pain I am feeling right now. And I was right. Coming here made me feel happy like I've never been for years. Seeing her again made me feel like I never left."

Is she insane? The nerve of her! Who the hell does she think she is? Just because they had history together, doesn't mean she can walk into her life and trample on it again! I won't let her do that.

"I honestly don't think that you deserve her. Santana needs someone who would be there for her and not leave her when she's at her lowest!" I said almost yelling. "And I don't think you are that person! You are just selfish for coming back and you're only thinking about yourself!"

"What the hell is your problem? Why are you being like this?" Sugar asked loudly.

I've had enough of this! I felt tears threatening to pool out of my eyes. I started heading towards the door but Sugar grabbed my arms and spun me around.

"Do you like Santana?"

"No!" I said too quickly. But I realized I just have to come clean. So that she would know that o meant every word that I said. And I'm not letting her get Santana that easily. "I LOVE Santana! And if you do anything to hurt her I'll make sure you'll pay for it." I said with contempt, tears slowly streaming down my face.

She was dumbfounded and didn't react for a while. I guess what I said didn't sink in yet. I didn't give her the chance though. I turned around to get out of the office but once again, I was stopped by the sight that was blocking the doorway.

Santana was standing there, eyes widened with shock I guess. I couldn't make out her reaction because the tears in my eyes made my vision blurry. But when they dropped, I can see clearly that she was walking towards me and cupped her hands to my face.

She wiped my tears and said carefully, "Did I hear you right? You… love me?"

I saw her brown eyes slowly filling with tears and I can also see them begging for me to answer. When I didn't, she added, "Please tell it to my face Brittany. Repeat what you said." She said slowly so she won't sound too much demanding.

There's that desperation in her voice again that made it hard for me to refuse. "Santana, I…" I began. Just two more words. If I say it then there could be a chance for us to be together. I could get her away from Sugar and heal her wounded heart.

As I was having the confidence to finish my sentence, thoughts of Quinn flooded in my head. My brained warned me of the consequences I will have to face if I say those words in front of Santana. I'm just not ready for that.

She looked at me eagerly but I can't get the words out of my mouth. So I just sobbed an audible 'I'm sorry' and left the room hurriedly.

I feel such a hypocrite. There I was telling Sugar that Santana needed someone to love her but I can't do it. I'm weak. I suck. But then again, I never told her that I would be the one to do that. But can I just look on and see them be happy together? Can I just sit here and watch Santana be with someone that isn't me?

I guess I can.

For Quinn.


SANTANA'S POV

My heart just practically wanted to jump out of my chest in pure happiness after I heard Brittany say, "I love Santana." It was like all my problems were taken away. Like everything in my life was perfect. Like my past didn't happen.

But it was all too good to be true.

I watched her strut out of my office, leaving me and Sugar behind. I looked at her for support but she smirked at me knowingly and sat at my revolving chair.

"Well, there you have it. Are you impressed with my acting skills?" She said jokingly but I didn't find the humor of the situation.

"Sugar, it's not funny."

"I told you she loves you."

"Yeah, but she wouldn't admit it!" I said frustrated. "Why is she being this way? I'm so tired of this."

"I told you, it has something to do with Quinn."

"Fuck Quinn. I want her so bad." I said sitting on the couch with my hands on my face. Sugar stood up from the chair and sat beside me. She rubbed my back and I felt comfort in my body.

"Don't worry Santana. She'll come around."

I looked at her skeptically, "How'd you know?"

"Coz she told me she loves you and you heard it." I opened my mouth to argue but she cut me off. "But you didn't see her face when she said it."

That last statement gave me hope. I want nothing more to be with Brittany. And maybe I should just be happy with the fact that she loves me too.

Just then I remembered something. "Wait, what acting skills? That was the truth!"

Sugar chuckled and said, "Oh then we won't owe her any more explanations then. We just have to fill her in with the details."

I smiled weakly. "Maybe you're right. But thanks for what you did. I can't believe you're still here after what happened yesterday."

"Oh shut up. Don't get mushy on me." Sugar playfully punched me on the arm. Her smile faded to a serious one and said, "I should be the one thankful San. And I'm sorry if I put you in that situation again. I just wanted to make sure before…"

"I know. And I'm always here for you no matter what happens. Remember that."

Sugar and I shared a long comforting hug. I've never felt at ease in my life. I know we went through so much and being like this with her made me feel at home. Like someone truly cares.


BRITTANY'S POV

I can't recall what I did to deserve this. All my life I've been the perfect daughter and sister. I didn't do anything to deserve this.

I sat here choking on random sobs but there were no tears falling. People are starting to stare but I didn't care. I'm at the park where Santana and I had our 'first date' and I can see the food stand where we ate which brought a sad smile to my face.

I can hear my phone ring but I ignored it. Who would've cared enough to find me?

Out of curiosity, I pulled out my phone to see who it was.

SANTANA LOPEZ CALLING.

Her name flashed wildly on the screen. I half smiled knowing that she cared. But still I didn't answer it.

I kept staring at the food cart, watching the people eating and laughing with not a care in the world.

Just then I felt someone sat beside me but like my phone I ignored it. Not until that person spoke. "Why are you staring at that food cart?"

I lifted my head to see Sam beside me, also watching the food cart. "It's special isn't it?" He asked eyeing me for any reaction.

I chuckled silently, not taking my eyes off the cart. "Yeah. It was."

"Was? You mean it's over?" He asked again.

"There was never any thing to be over to begin with." I said. He nodded in understanding.

"Not that I'm prying coz I really don't have any idea what's happening but Brittany, I'm not blind. I know you love Santana." Sam paused for whatever reason. I'm tired of arguing and thinking of comebacks so I just kept silent.

Sensing he's not gonna get a reaction out of me, he just continued. "Love for some people is a heavy word. Some people even freak out just hearing that word. And Santana's like that. She's so vulnerable that I was surprised when she began to let you in."

Let me in? What? I looked at Sam this time, wanting answers.

He smiled coz he finally got my attention. "You don't know a lot of things about her. Outside she's mean and guarded. She's a pain in the ass if that would sum it up." We both smiled at the accuracy of his description.

"But she's a good person. Did you know that she helped me get this job? I was a cocky lawyer back then. I thought I would get everything I want because I had the money and skills. But my vice took over my life and I became poorer than dirt. I spent all my savings gambling and then my sister had a heart disease which I didn't have money to pay for because I was broke. Santana then, found me wasted in a club and helped me paid for my sister's hospital bills. I, a complete stranger, had gotten help from what people call heartless Attorney Santana Lopez. I owe her a lot, practically my life."

"Why are you telling me this?" I asked him.

"I just thought maybe it would help you consider her." He said. "Give her a chance Britt. I think of all people, she deserves it."

I smiled sincerely at him. "Sam, it's not that simple. I wish it was though."

"Look, there's a lot I don't know. I get it. But whatever it is, don't you think it's about time you listened to your heart? If you love Santana, then go after her. I know that there's something stopping you but let me ask you this, would that person or thing give you the happiness you feel with Santana?"

Yes. No. I don't know.

Quinn is family. Santana is… Santana.

But Sam has a point. Quinn won't be around forever. But Santana… will she stay?

"Think about it carefully Brittany. Coz I don't want you to regret it." Sam said.

"Thanks Sam. You gave me a lot to think about."

Sam stretched his arms and yawned a bit. "Well, that's that. I think we're really stressed. So thank god for Kurt for planning that trip."

"Trip? What trip?" I asked curious. I wasn't informed of any trip.

"This weekend we're all going to the beach. Company trip. You have to be there okay?"

A company trip? But that would mean…

"Brittany. Promise me. You owe me for that date."

Sam is making it hard to refuse. I took in a deep breath and said…

"Okay."


A/N (Part 2): i can't believe there are still people story alerting this.. thanks so much guys for the supportive comments~!

you make me happy~~ every single one of you!

and yeah i'm sorry, i don't have an itouch or cool gadgets to write on lol.. and my phone is the crappiest model there is. lol.. i just have my trusty laptop which i had to leave at home.. coz i can't bring it at my dormitory. you may not know what evil things lurk there and i would die if i lose my laptop.

you know what to do~~ :)