A/N: I am back from my cave. I'm sorry guys. I tried to update sooner but I'm so busy..
And guess who turned 20 last sunday... ugh.. am no longer a teenager.. :(
SANTANA'S POV
I still couldn't believe what was happening.
Just the other day, Brittany was so mad at me and doesn't want anywhere near me. But right now, she isn't even leaving my side.
We were sitting on the sand, watching the bonfire I made earlier. Yeah, I'm badass. I can make a bonfire. So anyway, she's sitting in front of me, between my legs actually, my arms were wrapped around her waist while my head was resting on her shoulders. Meanwhile, she's leaning against me comfortably. We were so close, I can feel every heartbeat and breath she's making.
"Britt…" I broke the comfortable silence. "Yeah?", she responded.
"I was wondering… what changed your mind?"
She took her time to answer. When she was ready, she turned her head slightly so that she was facing me and looking at me right in the eyes and then she whispered, "Because I love you. Did I ever tell you that?"
I smiled at her broadly. She's been telling me those three words the whole day and they instantly became my favorite words to hear. But I really wanted an answer so I stared at her seriously and I guess she sensed it. She took a deep breath before answering once again.
"Just for once, I want to have my happy ending." She said directing her gaze to the ground, almost shyly. I smiled despite myself and said, "You think I'm your happy ending?"
She lifted her head to meet my eyes. I could see the sincerity and love emitting from those blue orbs. I felt butterflies eating my stomach; my heart was beating out of control. I still couldn't grasp the familiar feelings she was making me feel that I thought I would never feel anymore. I've been through this and honestly, I'm scared. But I am positive that this time, my feelings are stronger despite the fears I have for the both of us.
None of it matters now because all I see is this wonderful person in front of me. But then, an inevitable thought crossed my mind and I just blurted what my brain yielded. "What about Quinn?"
Her look changed and I feared the worst. But I was surprised when she brought her fingers in to my lips again and said, "I don't want to talk about her. She doesn't exist. I told you, it's just you and me while we are here. So please, no more talking about other people."
Her request was stupid and reasonable at the same time. Stupid because we could never hide from our problems forever and we'll eventually have to face everything. Reasonable because I don't want to ruin this moment, for I fear it won't ever happen again and the thought of facing everything together with Brittany makes me feel much stronger.
"You do know we have to deal with her later on right?" I asked before I could even stop myself. She nodded slowly and she gave me a tight lipped smile. "I know San. But right now, I want to escape from the real world and just enjoy the feeling of being here with you. Quinn can wait. This, however, can't."
She took my hands and she planted soft kisses on both of them. She never broke eye contact with me while doing the action. It made me feel all hot inside and my breath hitched. She giggled and stood up. I gave her a puzzled look but she continued smiling and offered her hand once again to me. I took it without knowing what she was up to.
When we were both standing, she lifted both my hands around her neck and brought her own to my waist. She slowly started to sway to a silent beat, my body following her own.
"What are you doing?"
"Dancing."
"But there's no music."
"There is. Can't you hear it?"
I practically strained my ears to hear whatever music Brittany's hearing. But I failed.
"I don't hear anything." I said feeling stupid.
"Listen to the beat of your heart. I can hear yours clearly. Can you hear mine?" She said innocently.
I smiled at her even though her eyes were closed. Normally, I would find this cheesy and sucky, especially in movies. But now that I'm experiencing it, it doesn't feel corny at all. It's the most amazing feeling I've felt for years.
We continued swaying like that for I don't know how long, when suddenly tears were streaming down Brittany's face.
"Hey, baby, why are you crying?" I asked as I wiped the tears with my thumb.
"Nothing, I just feel really happy right now." She sniffed.
I held her close to me and I whispered, "Me too babe. You don't know how much happiness I feel right now."
"I think I do." She said and we both chuckled.
We pulled apart from each other and she said, "I'm so sorry."
"For what?" I asked.
"For everything I did to you. And from always running away." She said sadly.
I lifted her chin so her gaze would meet mine. "I should be the one to be sorry. I also made your life miserable remember? And please stop thinking about the past. The important thing now is that you're here now. And you'll not run away again right?" I asked, begging for assurance.
Which I got. "I won't San. I won't run away again."
BRITTANY'S POV
These last few hours of my life were surreal. Every time I had the chance, I would torture myself mentally for not doing something about me and San earlier. Yeah. I call her San now.
I was sitting on the chaise near the beach on our second day at this paradise, which now I call it for my own personal reasons, well who am I kidding? Of course it's because of a hot Latina whom I love so much.
So where was I? Oh yeah, I'm sitting here watching the sun set. I was exhausted from playing around the whole day with my officemates and of course San. We had a beach volleyball competition and then we went boating in the afternoon with the locals.
I was so tired so I decided to break away from my co-workers and have some alone time.
I sighed deeply as the sun was just about to disappear from the horizon, giving way to the darkness. I let myself be hypnotized by the waves, now reciprocating the color of the sky, endlessly crashing on the shore. It's one of the most beautiful sounds for me but nothing would compare to the voice that broke my trance and said, "…so beautiful."
I craned my neck at her direction and saw Santana making her way towards me wearing a laced bikini. I raked my eyes down her body and she let out a sly smile, indicating she was aware of what I'm doing. "Yeah..." I said mindlessly. "And thank you. You look beautiful as well."
"I was talking about the sunset Britt." She said jokingly. I slapped her playfully on the arms as she was taking a seat beside me. "I'm kidding! You're beautiful Britt. The most beautiful person I've ever seen."
I felt my cheeks burn and I was certain I was blushing furiously. It's a good thing it wasn't too bright out anymore for her to notice.
"What were you thinking about earlier?" I heard Santana ask. "I was watching you from afar and I can't help but think you were immersed in your thoughts."
"Oh… nothing." I said hesitantly. "I was just thinking about how the sunset is similar to us right now."
She raised an eyebrow to what I said. "In what way?"
"It's just that right now we're warm and happy like the sun but once we go back, it will be nothing but darkness." I said gloomily.
"What makes you say that?"
"It's just there's Quinn and everyone else…"
Santana placed her hands in my lap. She rubbed it soothingly and she said, "I thought you said you don't want to talk about it yet?" I nodded my head. She took my hand, gave it a little squeeze, and intertwined it with hers. "And besides… The night doesn't last long. Before you know it, the sun will be shining again."
I smiled sincerely at her. Letting all the feelings I have for her take over me. But still the thought of Quinn was plaguing my mind and I didn't realize I was sporting a pout.
"Babe now what? You're thinking about it again aren't you?"
"I couldn't help it. Now I realize it's hard to block it out of my mind since…" I trailed off, feeling embarrassed of what I'm about to say.
"Since what…?" Santana asked curiously.
I hesitated a little, but I eventually gave in. "Since… I realized that being with you feels this good." I said shyly. I didn't dare look at her and continued. "And I wanted to be like this with you everyday."
I felt Santana's soft hands cup my face. She connected those deep brown eyes of hers with mine. She said sincerely, "Me too Britt. I'd do anything to never be apart from you."
I can feel tears threatening to fall out of my eyes once again which Santana noticed. "Why do you always cry when you're with me? Is loving me really that painful to do?"
I shook my head furiously which made the tears fall. "No. I'm just glad that you're mine."
"I'm yours. Proudly so."
The last day of the trip came too quickly. It saddened me that in a few minutes, we're about to leave this paradise I've grown to love.
I'm standing at the beach again, taking one last longing look. Memorizing every detail that I can remember of the place so that when I'm alone, I would remember vividly the moments I spent with Santana here.
Just then, I felt a pair of arms envelop my waist. I immediately knew who it belonged to. "I don't want to leave." I muttered.
"Me too." Santana said while leaning on my back. She spun me around and she held out her hand to me. I placed my hand in hers and she put something in it. "What's this?" I asked curiously.
I opened my hands and I found a common looking shell I assumed Santana found somewhere on the shore. "You're giving me a shell?" I asked amused.
"That's just not a normal shell. It's a special one." I let out a small chuckle at Santana's silliness. She could be childish at times. One of the things I love about her. She doesn't look like it. The famous lawyer that she is but, she's the sweetest person I've met in my life. And the funny thing is, I think I'm the only one who can see this side of her. Maybe except for my sister and Sugar.
"Special how?" I asked.
"Well, it symbolizes my promise to you." She grabbed my hand with the shell in it. "My promise that I will always love you and I will never leave you whatever happens."
"When we get back, I'm not certain on how you'll act." Santana continued. "But I assure you that I will never change and I'll face Quinn for you if you need me to."
Santana once again held out her hands which I took. She pulled me close and started swaying our bodies together. "Do you remember the first time that we danced? It was before your school dance." She said as we continued swaying our bodies slowly.
"Yes. You were my first dance." I said.
"Believe it or not, you're mine as well." We both let out a light laugh. "I didn't know what came over me actually. But I found you beautiful that night, with all your braces and glasses on. I don't know. Maybe I was attracted to you back then."
"Shut up." I slightly smacked my hand on Santana's shoulder. She laughed and got all defensive. "It's true. I mean, even before, I found you beautiful Brittany."
I pulled back and said, "C'mon San. You don't have to sweet talk your girlfriend anymore. I'm already yours so shut it." I said
"G-girlfriend?" Santana stuttered.
SANTANA'S POV
Did I hear her right?
Did she just say girlfriend?
I stared at Brittany, my eyes wide. "Y-you want to be my girlfriend?"
"Isn't it obvious? I've been waiting for the whole weekend for you to ask. I can't believe I have to drop it like that. I seem so desperate." Brittany said pouting, like she was disappointed with me and ashamed of herself.
I couldn't take it anymore.
I grabbed Brittany's face and kissed her on the lips. Both of our breaths hitched at the contact and we slowly found a rhythm that we were comfortable with.
I pulled back slowly after a while, my eyes still closed, savoring the feeling of how perfect Brittany's lips fit mine, like her hand and most parts of her body. Okay… not that kind of part but you know what I mean.
I looked at Brittany and she I saw that she was shocked by my actions. I almost said sorry but she cut me off. "And you just got my first kiss."
I swallowed hard. "I-I'm sorry."
"W-why?" She said as nervous as I was.
"Maybe you didn't like it." I said unsure. Wait, what did I just say? I. Am. Santana. Lopez. I'm a good kisser. I KNOW I'm a good kisser but seriously, when I'm with Brittany I just crumble and turn into shit.
"Are you kidding? It was awesome." She said quietly, not looking at me. I saw how her cheeks were flushed and I'm pretty sure she's feeling embarrassed like I am right now. Okay, since when did I get embarrassed when I kiss a girl? I should like giving her a sexy smirk or something. Now I just look like a foolish teenager who's head over heels in love. I see nothing wrong with that though.
I cleared up my throat and said, "Brittany Pierce, would you be my girlfriend?"
She smiled broadly at me. "Of course San. I want nothing else." She said slowly trying to bring her face closer to mine. I also leaned in slowly, not wanting to do it like the first time.
But before our lips touched, an annoying voice came out and broke our moment. "Aren't you two had enough of being all over each other? Coz seriously I've had enough." Kurt said with fake annoyance.
I rolled my eyes and scoffed. I was about to go all Lima Heights in his ass when suddenly, Britt pulled me back again for a kiss. I was caught off guard and I my knees felt weak. Damn Brittany.
"Why didn't you kiss me before? I didn't know it feels this way." She said shyly. I smirked. "Actually, kissing never felt this good for me before. It's better with feelings." It is true. I kissed a lot of girls and guys and slept with them but the way Britt makes me feel is just too powerful.
"C'mon you two! We're heading out!" Sam called out near the van.
"Yeah, coming!" I yelled back. As I was about to go head towards the vehicle, I felt Brittany's hands tug me from behind again.
"I love you Santana." She said.
"I love you too Britt." I smiled. She gave me a peck on the lips again but after she pulled back, her features became stern and serious.
"I've decided to tell Quinn."
A/N Part 2: I know this is kinda short and it sucks.. but yeah, i'll try to make it up to you all. I just need rest... O_O
HAPPY 11.11.11 TO EVERYONE! :D
