Here's the next chapter! I'll explain in the next chapter why Kim covers her eyes all the time. It's a little important. After you read this next chapter, it should be a little more clear why. But I'll go into detail in the next chapter. Don't worry, it should be up soon! Thanks for reading!
Kim sang a few more songs that were more upbeat, each of them bringing up old memories from when they were rangers. Billy laughed when he heard one particular line that Kim sang:
"He wanted me to be his evil queen
I felt that he was nothing more than an ugly fiend"
He remembered all too well when Lord Zedd had tried to make Kim be his Queen of Darkness. He looked at Zack and Tommy. Zack was clearly enjoying himself, laughing whenever he remembered a particular battle or monster. Tommy seemed lost in his thoughts. He was staring up at Kim like he didn't know what to do.
Billy felt somebody tap him. "Remember that, Billy?" Zack laughed out loud again while Billy tuned into what Kim was singing.
"He was a rapper, at least he thought he was
To me, he was just an overgrown pumpkin head"
Zack laughed again. "The pumpkin rapper."
Billy glanced at Hayley, who was still watching Kim with full attention. He took her hand and gave her a kiss on the cheek. Hayley smiled at him. They were both caught off guard when Kim struck up a slow and mournful tune on her guitar. They both turned their attention back to her.
"Do you see me like I see you
Do you hear me when I speak of you
Do you feel me when I'm loving you
Do you see me because I see you"
Kim thought about when she moved to Florida. She remembered the missed phone calls to and from Tommy and most importantly, the letter that she sent him.
"But it's goodbye again"
She still felt those feelings she felt back then. Whenever she actually got Tommy on the phone, it was always them saying goodbye to one another. They couldn't have a normal conversation because Tommy was off saving the world while Kim had practice all the time.
"I saw your world from the side
A simple glimpse of the pleasures you pride
Now it's back to my own reality
I wish you could see me"
Kim thought of the dreams she used to have when she first moved to Florida. she dreamt of the many fights that Tommy, Aisha, Billy, Rocky, Adam, and even Kat would talk about. And she imagined herself on the sidelines, not being able to do anything. She couldn't help her friends when they were losing. She couldn't celebrate with them whenever they won. She didn't feel anything. She didn't do anything.
"But it's goodbye again"
She thought of the day she decided to write the letter. It was about a week after her accident. Tommy was dealing with some problems with the zords and of course, he had the world to save. So he didn't even know about the accident. And Kim wasn't intending on letting him find out.
"He chases the snow while I chase my dreams
So my life just got cold
Dancing alone in the dark it always seems
To be with him is to be bold"
Kim moved to Florida to become a Pan-Globalist and an Olympic gymnast. That was her dream. But because of one stupid, split-second mistake, Kim's gymnastics career was over. She had pulled her feet too fast from under her and landed on her head. She was hospitalized because of her head and neck injuries and suffered from a concussion and possible fluid in her brain. She had been in and out of consciousness for three days while Jason and Trini stayed with her in the hospital. Jason was her emergency contact since Kim knew Tommy was usually busy, and he called Trini. The two of them rushed to Florida as soon as they could.
"Cuz it's goodbye again"
Trini was trying to convince her to call Tommy, but Kim didn't want to worry him. He already pretty much had the weight of the world on his shoulders and she didn't want to add to it. Besides, Aisha had let her know that Kat and Tommy were getting closer and Kim thought that if Tommy was going to be happier with Kat, then she should just let go of him. So she wrote him a letter about a fictional guy and broke up with him in the most heartless way. She wanted him to hate her as much as she hated herself. She hated herself for leaving Angel Grove, for getting into an accident, and for feeling jealous of Kat and the other rangers. All she wanted was to be fighting again. In Angel Grove.
"Until the moon fell under the sun
Now life's begun"
Kim called Tommy a couple days after she sent the letter. He was out skiing with Kat. Her heart broke all over again and as her body healed from her injuries, she told herself that she would be okay. That she would get over him. That she is over him. But deep down, she knew...as all of her friends knew...she wasn't over Tommy Oliver. And she never would be.
Song is "Goodbye" by our very own Amy Jo Johnson.
