a.n: okay, I know I said I wouldn't update this all the time, but I changed my mind. I update when I have time. oh, and this chapter should be short. I'm trying to touch up on my fanart as well. Please do recommend me an easy character to draw.
REREAD IT THERE WERE SOME SERIOUS ERRORS
Disclaimer: I do not own Hellsing.
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Chapter Five: Realization
His eyes were closed. It almost felt like he was dreaming a wonderful dream. He could no longer feel the burning pain of the water that had almost claimed him; it had all been replaced with warmth and a feeling a weightless feeling. It was almost as if he was floating and surrounded in curtains of light. The radiating warmth soon began to pulse. One minute, it would be throughout his while body, and then the next, it would all go towards his stomach area, lowering a bit to his abdomen. As this continued, he slowly brought his hand to his stomach area and began to move it in a circular motion. He'd paused once he'd found a pulse.
Then he opened his eyes.
There was a thick white blanket covering his body. He slowly removed it and began to sit up on to realize that there was an IV attached to his arm delivering blood. He tiled his head in confusion at this, why would he need an IV?
Also, why was he in a bed, and why wasn't he in the basement? He looked around the room he was in. Everything was white, the walls, the bed, the dresser on the bed next to him, the curtains, as were the two doors. The windows were wide, rays of sunlight leaking from behind the thin white curtains. There was a plate of food on the dresser next to him. It had a note on it that read, "You may not eat human food, but the thing growing inside of you does.Eat.
Sincerely,
Your Master, Integra
P.S: as a result of what has happened, I have chosen to break my engagement with my fiancé. I haven't gone yet, but by the time you are able to move around, I may already be on my way. The thing growing inside of you might as well suite as an heir, bastard, vampire, or whatever. The queen is expecting someone in this case, something to serve as the heir of Hellsing. And unfortunately, you've let yourself fall victim to a serious crime. How this happened, I do not know, but time will only tell. And do note, if the queen see's it as a threat, or I happen to change my mind before I meet with Her, I will have no other choice but to kill it. "
The thing growing inside of him? The note triggered previous memories that Alucard had wished to forget. He'd personally believed that it was all a nightmare, that none of it was true. He didn't want Integra to have to leave her fiancé because of him, and he certainly did not want others to feel guilty, therefore entitles to help him.
True, Alucard had simply loathed her fiancé the moment he'd corrupted him, but he'd known how much Integra had loved him. And to Alucard, Integra's feeling mattered more than any pain he'd have to through. But out of complete fear for what might be done to her, he had to tell, and now he was certain that she'd hated him.
He flinched at the sound of a noise next to his bed. He slowly turned his head, and then looked down towards the floor. He was shocked to see a sleeping Pip and Seras, both on the floor, each with their own pillow and blanket over them. Alucard smiled at the two, the site of them together always warmed his heart. He thought of it as a relationship that always seemed to work out. How wrong he was.
Seras was the first to wake. As usual, she sat up with her eyes closed and opened them as she began to yawn. As soon as she caught her Master's eye, she jumped up and prepared to hug him, only to be stopped by herself. "He may not know it now ,but the experience could've been more traumatizing then he'd thought." She'd remembered Pip saying to her.
Seras found herself falling forward, but luckily she was caught by her Master. "Clumsy, are we?" Alucard asked, gently pushing Seras aside. Chances are she was paying no attention. This was because as a reply, all she did was smile and nod. She was so excited to see him and she'd wanted to make things right. He'd felt really bad about that, she'd probably find some way to blame herself.
"Master?" she asked, staring up nervously at him. He looked at her and then spoke, "If it's about what happened, it's not your fault." Seras' eyes opened wide for about two seconds, and then went back to normal. She simply nodded, but Alucard could tell that she hadn't taken him seriously. He put his hand on her head and shook her back and forth, something that he usually didn't do, but he didn't want her to feel bad because of his dilemma and yelling wouldn't help either.
He stopped when he'd noticed her sniffing. "Seras, please, it's not your fault." And still, the sniffs continued, and eventually progressed into tears. Being his fledgling and not being there to help him had certainly taken an emotional toll on her. Alucard pulled Seras into a soft hug as she continued to silently weep.
As soon as he did this, he felt the baby inside of him lurch towards Seras, jerking him forward, and then suddenly it pulled back. The baby most likely recognized Seras as its fledgling as well and sought anyway to comfort her. For a while, Seras stared at him with a daze, then asked, "Could I…touch your stomach?" Alucard thought about protesting, but then he'd only make Seras feel worse. "First," Alucard said, bringing his hand up and rubbing the tears off of her face, "I need to wipe these tears off of your face, I would've want them to accidently fall on my clothing." Alucard had noticed that his vest, cravat, and coat had all been removed, along with his boots and socks. It also seemed that he was wearing something new, nothing like his old clothing.
As soon as Seras' face was dry, he allowed her to feel his stomach, reminding her that she would be able to fell nothing yet, but soon she would be. "Shall I go tell Sir Integra you're awake?" she asked.
Alucard really didn't want to face Integra due to the amount of guilt building up inside of him, but she'd get angry if she was being avoided. So with remorse, he nodded, and watched the now joyous Seras leave the room. Sometimes her smile just saved him.
Now all that was left was the sleeping Captain. For some reason, Alucard felt very uneasy being left alone in the room with another man. So as slowly as he could, Alucard put his hand on the dresser, completely ignoring the plate of food and attempted to balance himself in order to stand. This, unfortunately, only resulted in him falling face first towards the Captain, someone he'd wanted to avoid complete contact with at the moment.
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I know that this is pretty long and sorry. Thanks for all of you who have reviewed this so far! Updates will come when I have time! Anyway, Seras is upset because she blames herself for not being able to care for her Master, she almost sees herself as a failure. Integra loved her fiancé so much, but for Alucard, she'll leave him. Alucard is losing trust in Pip only because he's a man and a man is the one who hurt Alucard. So, till next time, see ya and God bless!
