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Bella: No, you don't honey.

Me: Thank you for letting me down gently.

Bella and Jacob sat next to each other on the couch watching Angus attack a rubber cheeseburger. He had already gotten the squeaker out of it and now wouldn't let either of them near it.

"When he gets tired of it, I'm throwing it away."

"Just like the bone." Jacob said with a laugh.

The bone had been a stuffed chew toy that Angus had chewed the stuffing out of within an hour of Jacob giving it to him.

"I'm still mad at you for making me clean that up by the way."

"I got it away from him, didn't I?"

"You turned it into a game." she said with a laugh.

Angus let out a loud bark as he put his paws on Bella's legs. She picked him up, and he lay on her stomach as she lazily scratched behind his ears. Jacob grabbed the toy and took it out of the room. He came back to find that the dog had fallen asleep. He picked him up gently and put him in his bed. He covered him with his blanket before coming to sit with Bella. She put her feet in his lap as he turned on the TV.

Ten minutes later, he turned off the TV with a sigh. Bella grabbed the stereo remote, and music filled the room. She turned it down until it was background noise. She moved until she was straddling his lap. Her hands splayed across his chest, feeling his heartbeat under her fingers. It was steady and strong.

"I found the box of condoms under the sink in the bathroom." she said with a smile.

"I meant to tell you about them." he said quickly.

"I'm not mad. In fact, I'm going to get one. Be undressed when I get back." she said before climbing off of him.

He pulled off his shorts and boxers and threw them onto the coffee table. He couldn't believe that she was offering him sex. He hadn't even had to ask for it. He heard her upstairs still, making him wonder what was taking so long.

"Bells?"

"I'll be right there." she called.

She came downstairs a minute later completely naked.

"You know I always imagined me taking your clothes off our first time. Not me taking off mine and you taking off yours." he said.

"You can't plan this kind of thing." she said coming to stand in front of him.

He took her in slowly. Her eyes raked over him making him hard. Their eyes met and she stepped towards him. She handed him the condom and he ripped it open.

"I can put it on if you want." she said.

"I've got it." he said rolling it down his erection.

It was small enough that it cut off his circulation. He would bear through it just this once and buy more in the morning.

"Are you going to be okay? It's too small." she said in concern.

"It'll work." he said with a nod.

She gripped his shoulders as she straddled his lap again. She gave him enough room to position his erection at her center. She winced in pain as he tried to break her vaginal wall.

"Maybe I should stretch it first." he said with furrowed eyebrows.

She was out of his lap and on the couch and he leaned over her.

"Take off the condom; this is going to be a while."

"I wouldn't feel comfortable using it if I took it off."

"I brought the box down. They're on the floor."

He pulled the condom off and heaved a sigh of relief. His fingers were at her center seconds later. She pulled him to her and brushed her lips over his. He kissed her tenderly as she ran her hands down his back. She sighed against his lips as she started to move against him. He slipped in another finger and quickened his pace.

She took him by surprise when one of her hands left his back to grab his erection. He growled deep in his throat as she matched his pace. She moaned as he added another finger. She pulled away from the kiss her chest heaving.

"I'm ready."

He nodded as he climbed off of her. He was standing over her again putting another condom on seconds later.

"Sit down." she said pointing to the end of the couch.

He sat down and she climbed across the couch towards him seductively. She was straddling him again and this time he didn't have any trouble. He kissed her again, wanting to take her mind off the pain. She sighed as she fisted his hair in her hands.

"Just relax, it'll hurt less." he said against her lips.

"How do you know?"

"I'm not telling you." he smirked.

Her laugh was cut off by his tongue brushing against hers. She moved against him as he thrust upward gently. Her hands moved to his shoulders so that she could lean up and give him more room. Her walls stretched even farther and the pain was almost too much to bear. She held back a grimace as she focused on him. The pain would be gone soon enough. He pulled away to look at her lovingly.

"How are you doing?"

"I'll live." she said with a small smile.

"How bad is it?"

"I'd rather not talk about it." she said as she shook her head.

"That bad?"

"I didn't plan on you being this big." she said with a laugh.

"You're complimenting me, so it must not be that bad." he said with a smile of his own.

"You are one cocky bastard." she murmured against his lips.

He smiled against her lips before kissing her lightly. She was able to take her mind off of the pain when he kissed her. All that she thought about was him. He pulled away a few inches to cradle her breast. She leaned back resting her hands on his legs, offering herself to him. His fingers brushed over her nipples slowly as she rocked against him.

He leaned down bringing one of the now hard nubs into his mouth. She moaned breathlessly as she licked her lips. His tongue swirled over the nipple as he sucked lightly. He cupped her other breast, massaging it.

"God." she said as she rocked faster.

"Easy. I don't want this to be over yet." he said pulling her to a sitting position.

She laughed as she slowed the pace. He stared at her as he ran his fingers down her cheek. She leaned into the touch, closing her eyes with a smile. The pain from earlier was now gone and it was replaced by a tingling feeling that started in her stomach and moved its way to her center. Her breath hitched as she gasped.

"Oh God." she said breathlessly.

She fell against him trying to catch her breath. He moved against her, going rigid for half a second before moaning deep in his throat. She kissed his neck as he wrapped his arms around her waist.

"It wasn't that bad."

"Sex with me, 'wasn't that bad'? I'm hurt." he said with a pout.

"The sex was great so put your lip back in." she said kissing him lightly.

"The pain wasn't that bad?"

"Once I was able to put it out of my mind."

He nodded, glad that it hadn't been traumatizing for her. He had worried that she would never want to do have sex with him again. The fact that she was joking about it eased his fears. She climbed off of him to sit next to him.

"Take that thing off, it's probably cutting off your circulation down there."

"It doesn't hurt that bad." he said pulling the condom off.

Semen oozed from the tip as he held it in his hand. The damn thing had a hole in it. He looked over at Bella with wide eyes.

"I am so sorry."

"For what?" she said with a laugh.

"You aren't mad?"

"No. You're scared." she said realizing the reason for his panic.

"A little."

"I might get pregnant, I might not. Let's not worry about it until we know for sure."

"You're right. I could be worrying over nothing."

Bella pulled him onto the couch with her. He pulled the afghan from off the back of the couch, covering them with it. Her skin was cold against his. He would start a fire later. Right now he would keep her warm.

XXXX

Jacob's mind was somewhere else as he tightened a bolt to the carburetor on the Rabbit. Embry looked over his shoulder in worry.

"You're gonna crack the carburetor if you tighten it anymore." he said disapprovingly.

"Do you want to do this?" Jacob asked acidly.

"No."

"Then don't tell me how to do it."

"What's your problem?" Quil asked from under the car.

"I've got a lot on my mind." he said as he banged his fist against the carburetor.

He felt the pulling of skin as he hissed in pain. He had busted four of his knuckles.

"Great." he said, inspecting his hand.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Embry asked from his spot next to Jacob.

"How long had you had those condoms before you gave them to me, Quil?"

"Great idea going celibate until Claire's older by the way." Embry said sarcastically.

"A month maybe." Quil said from under the car.

"And they last forever, right? Just because one is bad doesn't mean that the others are?"

"I guess. So you've used them? Hot damn!" Quil said, coming out from underneath the car.

"Only one. It had a hole in it."

"How big of a hole?" Embry asked with a serious look.

"Enough for something to come out." Jacob said with a sigh.

"She might not even be pregnant. So don't worry about it." Quil said with a shrug.

"That's what she said." Jacob said with a nod.

They didn't know what else to say. Neither of them had ever had to deal with anything like this before.

XXXX

Bella was ringing up a customer when she pressed a wrong button.

"I'm sorry; this will only take a minute."

The person nodded, but it was obvious that they were growing impatient. She started over and finally got it right the second time.

"Have a good day, Sir." she said as the man walked away.

The door slammed shut in response. She rested her elbows on the counter as she held her head with one hand. She had a splitting headache and was scared to take anything. She would give anything to have Alice come in and massage it away.

Mike cleared his throat from across the room. She looked up with tired eyes. She hadn't slept in days. She'd had the same dream five nights in a row ever since she had slept with Jacob. She had put on a brave face while he was with her. As soon as she dropped him off, she had lost it.

In her dream, she was chasing two little boys around the front yard. Jane, Felix, Alec, and Demetri would come out of the forest and pounce on the boys while she fought with everything she had. She would wake up screaming loud enough to scare Angus out of his wits. She wanted to plead with Billy to let Jacob stay with her this weekend, but she knew that he would know that something was wrong. So she would stay at her dad's. That way she could at least see Jacob.

"Are you okay?" Mike asked in a worried tone.

"I'm not feeling well." she mumbled.

"You can go home if you want. I can close up."

"Are you sure?"

"I'm sure." he said with a nod.

"Thanks, Mike." she said, giving him a grateful smile.

"I'll clock you out. You go ahead."

"I really do appreciate it."

"It's not a problem." he said, opening the door for her.

She almost collided with a very warm body as she stepped onto the sidewalk. She looked up to see Jacob staring down at her.

"I guess I don't need to worry about you getting home okay." Mike said before closing the door.

"Hi." she said sheepishly.

"You are worried." he said, pulling her closer.

"Not for the same reason you are." she said, shaking her head.

"Then what?"

"I have a deep seeded fear of vampire's killing our children."

"More than one?" he asked with wide eyes.

"Twin boys. I've had the same nightmare every night since Sunday." she said as tears pricked her eyes.

"Do you save them?"

"No, but I kill one of the vampires with my bare hands though."

"That's my girl." he said into her hair.

"I haven't slept in days." she said with a ragged sigh.

"Something told me to come and see you. I'm glad I did."

"I have a splitting headache."

"Do you want to see Alice?"

"You know me so well." she said with a sad smile.

She pulled out her phone, and Alice picked up on the first ring.

"Hey."

"No wonder I didn't know that it was going to ring." she said teasingly.

"How have you been?"

"Good. You?"

"Good. I miss all of you."

Jacob let go of her and started to walk away. She took hold of his hand and squeezed. She shook her head as he looked over his shoulder. She traced lazy circles as she heard the phone being passed.

"Bella! What a surprise." Esme said.

"I know. It's like I dropped off the face of the planet."

"Emmett said the same thing the other day."

"Is it alright if Jacob and I come by for a little while?"

"Actually we aren't home. We're out of town." she said in a quiet voice.

The phone was passed again and Bella waited patiently.

"Hello, Bella."

After not hearing his voice in almost three months, it was like someone had punched her in the gut. There were so many things that she wanted to say to him, so many questions that needed answers. She snapped her phone shut with a sigh. Her headache had just become a migraine.

"They aren't home." she said in a strained tone.

"We're going to my house. I'm driving." He said, holding out his free hand for her keys.

She handed them to him before he pulled her towards the truck. She was in the middle seat before he could get around to the other side. He draped an arm over the back of the seat, and she leaned against him.

"Why did you get upset with Alice?"

"It wasn't Alice." she said in a small voice.

"Where are they?"

"Alaska."

"He tried to talk to you, didn't he?"

"I hung up on him."

"Have I told you that I love you today?"

She smiled before he kissed her forehead. That was what she needed to hear.

"Do you hear something?" he asked as they pulled to a stop at his house.

"Other than the truck? No."

His brows furrowed in concern as he heard the noise again. It was barely audible, and he couldn't place it. He only heard it when Bella was next to him. Paul was walking out of the house and paused next to Bella. Jacob noticed the look that was on his face. It was same one that he had.

"I'll be inside in a minute." Jacob said to Bella.

She closed the door behind her as Paul turned to face Jacob.

"You heard it too."

"What was that?"

"I don't know. I could barely hear it."

"Me too. It came from Bella?"

Jacob nodded, thinking about what it could be. It was going to bug him until he figured it out.