This chapter has some pretty big changes, all additions. There is also another song added, Stay With Me by Danity Kane

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BPOV

I knew I had to get out of this house before I broke down again. I started to get up and Jasper rose with me.

"Bella…"

"I can't Jasper, I just can't right now. I am sorry." With that I turned and ran out of the house to my truck. Turning it around as quickly as I could and leaving.

The questions kept running through my head as I tried to maintain control so I could get home. Was everyone here and just out? Why would Jasper be here without everyone else? Especially Alice. Where is Alice? What is going on? What was the electric jolt that I felt? Where is everyone? Where is HE? I wish I knew the answers, and I knew that the only way I could get them was to go back and ask Jasper. But I can't do that right now. I can't face him.

What if they are all here and I go back? I can't handle seeing everyone right now. Seeing Jasper was enough to tear me apart, what would seeing the rest of them do to me? The tears started sliding down my cheeks without my permission. I just need to make it home, to my room, to my safe haven. I shouldn't have gone to that house. I knew it would bring me more pain and seeing Jasper just tripled that effect.

I don't understand the pull I felt to go there. Was it because somewhere inside I knew Jasper was there? But then… why did seeing him hurt so much? It took me longer than usual to get home, I was having a hard time seeing through the tears, and when I pulled into the driveway it took all I had to get out of the truck.

"Shit!" I was hoping Charlie wouldn't be home yet, but there sat the cruiser. Now I am going to have to try and get past him without letting him see the pain that I am in.

I walked in the house trying to wipe the pain off my face, but knowing I wasn't succeeding.

"Hey Dad." I yelled from the kitchen.

"Hey Bells. I thought you were going to Jacob's this afternoon?"

Shit! With the afternoon's events I completely forgot. "Um… I forgot Dad. I had my mind on school work that I need to do." Ugh, that is the worst lie I have ever come up with.

"Bells? Are you ok?" He had come into the kitchen and seen the look on my face.

"Yeah Dad, I just need some time tonight. Ok?" That worried look that I haven't seen since I started spending time with Jacob crossed his features. But he covered it up quickly.

"Sure Bells, I am here though. Ok?" I nodded at him, turned and walked up the steps to my room.

I know he is worried about me falling into the depression I was in before I started hanging out with Jacob. If I was being honest with myself I am worried about it too… My thoughts are so conflicted right now. I have so many questions that I want the answers to, but seeing Jasper again to ask, that was not possible right now. I could feel the hole in my chest tearing trying to rip me apart. I sat down on my bed, pulling my knees up to my chest and wrapped my arms around them, letting more tears fall.

If I was honest with myself it wasn't actually seeing Jasper that hurt so much. It was my first thought that it was Him, and then the realization that it wasn't. He wasn't coming back for me. I let the one song, my song for Him, play through my head.

Raindrops, Fall From, Everywhere
I Reach Out, For You, But You're Not There
So I Stood, Waiting, In The Dark
With Your Picture, In My Hands
Story Of a Broken Heart

But He couldn't even leave me that, no picture, except the ones in memory. Broken heart doesn't cover it. He ripped a hole in my heart. I sobbed harder.

Stay With Me
Don't Let Me Go
Cause I Can't Be Without You
Just Stay With Me
And Hold Me Close
Because I've Built My World Around You
And I Don't Wanna Know What's It Like Without You
So Stay with Me
Just Stay With Me

But He couldn't do that, He left me, because He didn't want me anymore. I wasn't good enough for Him. My love wasn't good enough.

I'm Trying And Hoping, For The Day
When my touch is enough
To Take The Pain Away
Cause I've Searched For So Long
The Answer Is Clear
We'll be OK if We Don't Let It Disappear

I don't want to forget, no matter how much it hurts. But is that really what I want now? I gasped, shocked at myself, of course I don't want to forget Him. He was my true love, it didn't matter that He didn't want me anymore, I still wanted Him. Didn't I?

I wanted the pain to stop though, and no matter how hard I wished that he would have stayed, he didn't. He didn't love me. That thought stopped all rational thoughts through my head, and I was sobbing again. The last verse running through my head.

I've searched my heart over
So many many times
No you and I, is like no stars to light the sky at night
Our Picture Hangs Up To
Remind Me Of The Days
You Promised Me We'd Always Be
And Never Go Away
That's Why I Need You To Stay

But he broke his promise, and He didn't stay, wouldn't stay. He took everything with Him, leaving me to hurt. Leaving me to have a one-sided love. My thoughts were confusing me. They were both angry and sad. The sad I understood, that is all I ever felt when I thought about Him, but angry… I wanted someone to talk to so bad. Someone who knew the whole story, someone who could help me through this.

I needed Alice. But I can't talk to her, not now, she left with Him. Angela has been there for me as best as she can, but she doesn't know the whole story. And I can't tell her. Can I? She was always understanding about everything, giving me the feeling I could tell her anything. But this isn't my secret to tell. Not entirely anyway.

"Damnit!!!" I groaned. I just need someone to talk to. To help me figure out my own thoughts. I sat on the bed letting more tears fall. I don't even know if they are from the pain or the frustration now. I sighed and put my head between my knees trying to figure things out. I sat there for a few minutes until I heard my radio click on. What the hell? I looked up trying to see who had done it but there was no one there.

"Char… Dad?" I whispered out. But I knew he hadn't come in. I looked over at the radio, the volume knob was turning on its own. "Holy Fuck!"

I jumped off the bed and went to the door and then I heard the song that was playing. I stopped at the door and listened.

Someone once told me that you have to choose
What you win or lose
You can't have everything
Don't cha take chances
Might feel the pain
Don't cha love in vain
Cause love won't set you free
I could stand by the side
And watch this life pass me by
So unhappy
But safe as could be

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy, yeah
Just wanna be happy, yeah

Holding on tightly
Just can't let it go
Just trying to play my role
Slowly disappear, ohh
All these days I feel like they're the same
Just different faces, different names
Get me outta here
I can't stand by your side, ohh no
Watch this life pass me by, pass me by

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me
Cause I'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

So and it's just that I can't see
The kind of stranger on this road
But don't say victim
Don't say anything

So what if it hurts me?
So what if I break down?
So what if this world just throws me off the edge
My feet run out of ground
I gotta find my place
I wanna hear myself
Don't care about all the pain in front of me

I just wanna be happy
Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy
I just wanna be, ohh
I just wanna be happy
Ohh, happy

I was crying again by the end of the song. The words had hit home. Whoever or whatever just did that knew what they were doing. I didn't know what was going on, but the song was right. So what if I hurt or break down. I am tired of being the weak link. I have got to find my place. I have got to find myself again.

I have let the pain take over, and I have lost myself in the process. I know what I have to do no matter the consequences, I have to go back and talk to Jasper. But there is something I need to do first.

I got up off the floor, got the phone of the desk and called Angela.

"Angela, its Bella. I know it is late, but I need to talk. Can you come over?"

Selena POV

"Selena I need you. Come to Bella's."

Fuck what had happened? If Jonas has screwed up the mission…. Well I don't know what I will do to him…. But it will not be good. I told Mom that I had to go, that Jonas had called. She understood, she always did, it was Dad… Not the time Selena. I chastised myself.

I got to Bella's right before she pulled into the driveway, so I hid in the trees waiting for Jonas. A few seconds later Jonas ran up beside me.

"What the fuck Jonas? What is going on? Tell me you haven't screwed up!" I was livid to say the least.

"Whoa slow down Selena. I need your help. I haven't done anything and neither has Xavier." He waited while I calmed down.

"Ok Jonas, tell me then why I am here."

"Well, we thought things were going good today. She felt the pull and went to the house."

"What?!" I interrupted him. "She is not ready, I know it needs to be soon, but the pain she is in. Jonas… What happened?"

"Well she went to the porch steps. I could tell she was in pain…. But I thought, you know with the prophecy and all…. That it would be ok." I rolled my eyes at him, but nodded for him to continue.

"When she saw Jasper she fell to the ground with her pain. He picked her up and carried her inside. I felt it Selena, so did Xavier, his lips have touched her. I never expected…" He stopped.

"What Jonas? What happened next?" From what he was telling me this was good. What could have him so worried?

"She came running out of the house Selena. The pain on her face was immeasurable, she was hurting so much. I… I don't really know what happened, but I don't think she will go back on her own." He hung his head.

"So what do you want me to do Jonas? I can't exactly waltz into her house and tell her to go back to him it is her fate."

"I thought maybe…. Well that maybe you could use your power to give her a sign so to speak."

"A sign? What kind of sign?" We aren't supposed to use our powers he knows that. But I guess desperate times call for desperate measures. The leaders have let, or I guess I should say told him, to use his power to help.

"We will have to get closer, but just turn her radio on and play a song that might hold some meaning for her that might convince her of what she needs to do." He gave me a hopeful look. He doesn't want our mission to fail either.

"Alright Jonas, I will try. That tree next to her window will get me close enough, but also keep me hidden. If what you say is true, and his lips have touched her, then we can't both go. Her powers will start to show themselves and we can't risk it. Ok?"

"Yeah, ok. Just don't get caught."

I walked away from Jonas and up to the tree. She was lying on her bed, crying. I felt so bad for Bella. I wished I could just go in and hug her until she felt better. But that would be suspicious and raise too many questions.

I watched her for a few minutes, until she had calmed a little bit. I knew this would scare her, but I hoped the song I had picked would ease that a little bit. I concentrated on her radio turning it on, and then played the song in my head so it would play on the radio.

She had jumped from the bed when I turned the knobs on the radio but stopped when she heard the song. This just might work. I truly hoped that it did.

I waited until the song was over, watching the tears roll down her face. Jumping silently from the tree I realized I had tears of my own falling. I hurt for Bella.

I walked over to Jonas, and he gave me a hug knowing how I felt.

"It is done Jonas. I hope that it helps her. The song seemed to sadden her, but I saw a little determination there at the end."

"Thank you Selena. Be safe and may The Old Ones be with you."

I gave him a small smile as I turned to head home. As soon as I had turned my phone rang. Jonas looked at me curiously.

"Hello."

"Angela, its Bella. I know it is late, but I need to talk. Can you come over?"


So there it is another Chapter! Because I love reviews so much, as an incentive to get more reviews I am offering a sneak peak of the next chapter to anybody that reviews this chapter. Merry Christmas Everyone!!! :)

I also wanted to let you all know that the name of the song that plays is Happy by Leona Lewis.