So not real big changes in this one, but a few significant additions, I took nothing out.
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Jonas POV
No Charlie, Renee. NO! Oh Fuck…. I have to call Jasper!" I took off running completely forgetting Jonas. I ran into the house and grabbed the phone, dialing frantically. I started talking as soon as he answered.
"Jasper, Charlie and Renee are in trouble. Bella's house HURRY!!"
I started to follow Alice, as she ran off towards the house, but stopped as my phone started to ring. I looked at it and seeing that it was Xavier, I answered. His first words to me when I answered were unexpected.
"Jonas it is time." How? How can it already be time? They have only had a few weeks!
"Already Xavier? How?"
"Victoria, she has made it time. We have to tell them. Bella's reaction is going to be… well it is not going to be good." Victoria? Shit, that is what Alice's vision was about.
"I will tell them, we will head there now. Is…?" I didn't want to ask, but Xavier seemed to know.
"Yes Jonas, Lucas, or Peter as he now likes to be called, and his mate are on their way as well. They are spreading the word as they head this way as well." Well, that is good to know, I just hoped it was enough.
"I must go Jonas. May the old ones be with you."
"And you Xavier." I hung up the phone and started running towards the house again. I got there, and the family was all sitting in the living room, Alice and Esme in dry sobs, the rest trying to comfort them. I stood at the entryway, not wanting to interrupt, but knowing that we needed to be on our way.
Alice was the first to look up and notice me. Her face contorted in pain over Renee and Charlie, and what was going to happen to them. I felt this strange urge to go and join those comforting her, but I stood my ground.
"It is time everyone. We need to head back to Forks." With that everyone jumped into action and within minutes they were standing back in front of me packed and ready to go. We piled into two cars, Carlisle, Esme, Alice and I in one, and Rosalie and Emmett in the other. The drive was a silent one. Everyone was anxious, and worried, including myself.
The time I spent watching over Bella, I have come to care for her as more than just the most powerful witch to ever exist. She is a kind and compassionate person. Though she doesn't know me, I look at her as a friend. I knew that the Cullen's considered her family so their concern was as much as mine, if not greater.
I didn't notice when it happened, so lost in my thoughts about Bella, but at some point Alice had grasped my hand. I assumed it was for comfort, so when I noticed, I gave her a warm smile and left my hand in hers. It felt nice, almost natural, though I banished those feelings as soon as they came.
They wanted to go straight to the hospital, to be with Bella when we arrived in Forks, but I told them we needed to go to their house until we knew the whole situation. When we got to the house what awaited us surprised even me. Peter had made it already and brought a few friends with him.
But before I got a chance find out who they were, Xavier called telling us we needed to meet him in the forest outside of the hospital. Only telling me it was about Bella, and that we needed to come now. I hadn't noticed the sky darkening while inside the house, but when we came out it had turned almost black.
We had barely moved out of the house when the sky got even darker, and it started thundering and lightning. Alice looked at me, asking my permission, and I nodded, she threw me on her back and took off running. It started raining as she was running, and I could tell when we slowed down, and I got off her back, that the wind that I felt wasn't only from her. The storm had picked up tremendously while we were running.
The wind was whipping about in force, swaying the trees and cracking some of them. The thunder and lightning rolling constantly through the sky that was blacker than I had ever seen it. As we approached I realized where all this was coming from, in the middle of a newly made clearing stood Bella. Whether she realized it or not, she was using her powers to the full extent.
The wind whipped around her face, as she realized we had surrounded her. I saw limbs flying everywhere, and in some cases trees being uprooted and thrown and well. I ducked to the ground in hopes that I wouldn't get hit. I saw the wolves across from me, more of them than when I left. Then one of them made the move that set her off. He stepped forward toward Jacob and she sent him flying.
After that, to me, everything happened quickly. If someone moved the wrong way they got thrown, she was trying to keep us all in her line of sight. I looked to Jasper, he was the only one who could help her now, and I knew that. I saw him concentrating, and then start to move towards her. His lips were moving, but I don't think that even the vampires in the clearing would have been able to hear what he said with the storm.
As he finally stood in front of her and wrapped his arms around her, Bella let out a scream that was deafening as well as heart wrenching. As her scream died, I heard her whisper something, but I couldn't believe my own ears. I shouldn't have been able to hear her anyway, and she couldn't, there was no way that she could. How could she know about Asana?
BPOV
I wasn't sure where I was. It was black all around me, and I couldn't see anything. I could feel the tears rolling down my cheeks, and wondered why. As soon as the thought went through my head it all came rushing back to me. Charlie, Renee, the hatred for Victoria, the scene in the forest. Oh Damn. What have I done?! My family, all the people I loved. Jasper, Jacob, Seth, Carlisle, Esme… Everyone was there. And I had hurt them.
How did they all get here? When did they all get here? I hit the ground, all of it weighing down on me. Through my tears I saw a light coming towards me, I looked up, though I wasn't sure who or what is was. It was still too far away. Does anyone else see it? I tried to listen to see if they did, but didn't hear anyone. Where are they? Where is Jasper?
The light got close enough that I could see who it was. Asana. But how did she get here? She is only in my dreams. Then I remembered everything that had happened. Jasper had stopped me. I had called to Asana before blacking out. That is why she was here, and everyone else is gone. So why does this not feel like a dream? Why does it feel real?
Asana had reached me by this point, the only light in this darkness. She didn't say anything, just held me. I felt the tears flowing freely, for my parents, for my friends and family that I had treated so wrong. For all the pain I was going through, all the hurt sadness, anger, and every other emotion I was feeling, I let it out. I cried until I felt like I couldn't cry anymore.
I pulled back and looked at her. "What have I done Asana? My family, my friends…" What have I done to them? I attacked them. They will never forgive me. I hung my head waiting for her to rebuke me. But instead she gently grabbed my chin in her hand and pulled my face up to look me in the eyes.
"My dear Isabella, do not fear. They have already forgiven you. The love that is shared between all of you will not be lost. This I can promise you." She hugged me close, and I wanted to believe her, but I still had doubt. She pulled back with sadness in her eyes this time.
"Isabella, our time together is not to be spent crying. I am here for a purpose. It is time for you to hear my story." I looked at her not knowing what she meant. I knew now she wasn't a figment of my dreams, but why could her story be important to me? I didn't understand, but I guessed that I would soon.
"Before I begin I need to tell you that I am sorry, I wish I could tell you all of the details, but I have been forbidden to do so. I have only been allotted this time with you to help you realize your true destiny. The ones that have sent me knew that you would need someone to help guide you to where you need to be. I will tell you my story, so that you understand why it is me who has been sent to you. Are you ready to hear my story Isabella?" I nodded to her, not sure what to say and she began.
"I lived in this world one thousand years ago. It was a time when beings such as myself, and other creatures of the supernatural world were truly believed in and had to hide who they were. I was a witch when I was alive, in one of the most powerful covens that ever was. When I lost my husband to a coven of vampires I ran, I left the coven and went into hiding. I knew that they would come after me and my child as well. The child that I carried was the beginning of something greater, and they had found out.
I hid myself well from this coven, using my powers, and the spells that I knew to cloak myself so that they could not detect me. I stayed hidden until the day that my child came. I found a doctor who could deliver her, and keeping myself from being detected, I went to him. I had watched this doctor and his wife. They were kind and caring people. I couldn't have found two better people in my time. I knew what I had to do to keep my child safe.
I had a daughter she was beautiful, I stayed long enough to make arrangements for her with them. They agreed to keep her and raise her as their own. I didn't want to do it, but it was the only way. I had to leave my daughter, if they found us, they would kill us both. If they did not know where she was then she would be safe. I needed her to be safe, the future depended on it. I left them a few weeks after she was born, leaving them with only one last request. I had named my daughter, and I wished for them to keep her name the same. They agreed, adding their last name to it and it was as beautiful as she was. Alise Isabella Swan."
I gasped. That name, the name of her daughter was the name of a great, many times over, grandmother of mine. I had only heard the name once or twice from Charlie when I was younger and he had told me a little about his family. But it was how I got my name. Out of each generation that came into the Swan family there was at least one girl with either Alise or Isabella in their name. Charlie's mom had the middle name of Alise, and as he was an only child, it was obviously passed to me.
But that meant… Asana was her mother, she is… holy shit! I looked at Asana not realizing I had been looking down while lost in my thoughts. She had tears in her eyes, whether from the last part of her story or from my realizations I was not sure. I didn't know what to say so I waited for her to speak.
"Yes my dear, I am not recently, but effectually, your grandmother. I know that it is a shock, but that is why you are so dear to me. We will talk about this shortly, but may I finish my story first?" I still hadn't found my voice from this realization, so I just nodded.
"As I left their home I gave it every protection I could, I knew if I could just get far enough away, the ones chasing me would not be able to find her. But doing so weakened my power over keeping myself hidden. I made through two countries before they caught up with me. I was sad to go, but my demise was worth it for my daughter got to live. Because of the sacrifice I made to keep her alive, is why I am being allowed this time with you now. They needed someone to guide you and help you through your troubled times, and this is the gift they are giving me, to spend this short time with you."
I didn't know what to say. She has done so much, lost so much, just to give her daughter, and the rest of our family a future. I felt the tears rolling down my cheeks as I thought of what she had given up.
"Isabella my dear, do not cry for me, because you are sitting her in front of me, everything I have done it worth it. Now my dear do you think we can brighten this place up a little? I know that it does not seem so dark to you with me sitting here, but it truly is." As she said this, I looked around to the place we were in. I realized other than the little circle we were in created by her, it was dark.
"How Asana? How am I supposed to do that?"
"Just think about it my dear, and it will happen."I put my trust in Asana, and did as she said. As I did, I saw the brightening of the clearing we were in, and realized that it was the clearing I had just unintentionally created. I looked down again, with the realization of what I had done hitting me.
"Isabella, I will not say that what you have done is not wrong, but you will not be condemned for it. Do you remember what I told you I was?" She looked at me waiting for an answer.
"You… you were a witch."
"Yes Isabella, and it is time you realized what you are." She waited expectantly.
"You mean… The things I did… I am a witch?" I just couldn't fathom that thought. How could I be? I had never had powers before. It was only in the past few weeks… Since I ran into Jasper that day… Could it be?
"Yes Isabella, you are a witch, a very powerful one at that. With the incident in the forest, you reached your powers capacity, at least while you are still human. But you must learn to control them correctly. You must learn to control them, not let them control you. The episode in the forest was your powers controlling you."
"I let them control me? But how?" The possibility of that was frightening. How do I learn to control them, I am just learning about them. I don't know of anyone else who is a witch besides Asana. Is she supposed to be the one to show me, as well as guide me in other things? I looked at her questioningly.
"Isabella, your lack of knowledge regarding your powers is what allowed them to control you. There will be others, that you will meet soon, that will be able to help you in learning your powers. Though the power to do so lies in your hands." She paused, and I wondered what she was thinking.
"There are many things that I wish that I could tell you Isabella, but only a few that I can. I know that to you feeling your emotions is helpful. But there are going to be times until you get your powers under control that you will require help, and you need to accept it. I wish I could give you the full details, but though I cannot, you will know soon." She smiled. I knew the help that she spoke of was Jasper. I needed to let him help me with my emotions. But… I was out of control in the clearing, wouldn't he have helped anyway? Unless… that is what she meant by accept. I wonder…
She broke into my thoughts, by bringing up another topic.
"There is another topic we must discuss. Do you remember me telling you about the choice you will soon have to make?"
"Yes." That statement brought to mind something she had said earlier. I reached my powers capacity while I was still human… human… did she mean?
"Asana… Is the choice that I have to make… Is it whether or not to stay human?" I had wanted this with Edward, wanted it so that I could be with him. But do I still want it? I love Jasper. I want to be with him… yes I want it. But does he want me that much?
"It is your decision to make, but you will have to make it soon. You will have the choice of staying as you are, or being turned. But I want you to know that there is a lot riding on your decision." I wanted to say that yes it was what I wanted, but I couldn't not knowing if it was what Jasper wanted. But isn't that wrong of me? To base my choice off of Jasper, or any other person for that matter?
I was so confused. I just needed time to think about all of this. I needed the full details, but Asana had said she couldn't give them to me. I just couldn't figure out why not. At that moment amidst all the confusion, I heard soft music. It was as if someone was singing. But Asana and I were the only ones here that I was sure of. I looked to Asana for the answer.
"It is Jasper my dear, he has stayed by your side the whole time."
"The whole time? What do you mean? It has not been that long since the forest, has it?"
"I am afraid it has, it has been over two days so far, and our time is coming to an end again." Her eyes showed the sadness in her voice when she said those words.
"Isabella, your life is going to be changing over the next few weeks, and though there will be choices that have to be made, I do not want you to feel that you are being forced into anything. The others that you will be meeting soon, will be able to give you the full details of everything that is coming. It is their purpose so to say. But I want you to still let your decisions always be just that, your decisions. I did the things that I have done because I wanted to, not because I had to. I want you to do the same." She paused for a moment, thinking I assumed, and continued.
"Love…" She whispered. "Love is the key Isabella, it is what caused your anger, the love for your parents, the anger for what Victoria did to them. Love is what saved you in the forest. The love shared between you and Jasper. I want you to think back though, to everything that happened. Who are the two other people that even in your state of rage that you couldn't hurt?"
I thought about what she said. I had swung around the clearing, sending people and trees flying, those that I knew, and some that I didn't. Then I remembered, Carlisle and Esme, even with all that was going on, I didn't hurt them. They were as much my parents as my real ones, and loved me as such.
"Carlisle and Esme. I couldn't do that to them. They loved me as their own daughter. I couldn't do what I did to the others to them."
"Exactly!" She was happy. What was she trying to tell me? "Don't you see Isabella? Even as lost as you were, you were still able to feel love. It is your guiding light, as it is mine. It is the one thing that never stops. All you have to do is believe in love, and it will lead you in the right direction." Love can do all of that? I just couldn't believe that. All love had done for me in the past was leave me broken. Yes, I was able to love again, but I still lived in fear of it.
"Isabella…" She shook her head. "Loving is not always easy. But I want you to think, if you hadn't loved Edward, you wouldn't have found your path to Jasper, or to Jacob. As much as some things hurt, you must always remember that everything happens for a reason." Everything happens for a reason?!
"But why Asana? Why did it have to happen this way? Why especially did Renee have to die? Why did Charlie have to get hurt? Why did I have to love Edward so much and then have my heart broken? I…" Damn these tears. I was tired of crying. The hurt the pain, it was all too much. Why did things have to happen this way? I love Jasper, I knew that without a doubt, but it was not my love that I doubted.
Because of the way things had happened with Edward… I had heard the love that Jasper still has for Alice in his voice, and though I didn't want to, I couldn't help fearing getting hurt.
"Isabella!" For the first time since I had met Asana she actually had a small bit of anger in her features. Though it was mostly pain and sadness, there was still anger.
"You must listen to me Isabella. I know it is hard to believe without doubt, you have been through so much already. But you must not doubt. Do not doubt yourself, do not doubt Jasper, and do not doubt your family. All of those who were in that clearing are your family, they may not be blood related, but their love for you and your love for them, makes them your family. You must get over your fears. Do whatever it takes.
This is the one thing I cannot stress to you enough. You must not doubt Jasper. Talk with him, tell him your fears. Believe in him Isabella."
"I will try Asana. For you and for him, I will try."
"I am glad Isabella. The bond between you and Jasper is too strong for doubt. You will soon find this out." She smiled, but her smile was filled with sadness.
"What is it Asana?"
"Our time again is up. I want you to remember for me Isabella, your choices are yours to make, do not let anyone or anything chose for you." She looked at me again, hugged me close and kissed my forehead. With a whisper of "I love you my dear Isabella" she was gone.
I knew I needed to wake up soon, but I don't think I was ready yet. I sat down on the ground to think of all that she had told me.
JPOV
Her eyes were still black, and she still had tears flowing freely. I wrapped my arms around her quickly before she threw me back as well. The scream that came out of her was full of all of the pain and anger that she felt. It seemed to go on for hours, though I knew it was only seconds.
"Asana." She whispered as her scream died and she passed out.
I was so worried about Bella, it has been two days since she passed out in the forest. Though when she passed out things calmed down a bit, they were still shaking, and sometimes flying, and the storm was still going, so we decided it would be best to bring her back to the house, instead of the hospital, where others might see.
I stayed by her side, not leaving, lest she wake up while I was gone. I haven't hunted in two days, the family was worried about my closeness to Bella, with not having hunted, but I knew that I would never hurt her. I loved her too much.
I was worried about her though, even though she slept her emotions were still all over the place. I wish I knew what she was dreaming about. I knew that Asana was there, she had spoken her name a few times. Though she had also said mine, and I felt the love when she did, she had spoken other members of the family as well, including Edward. Though there was worry when she said his name.
I didn't know what to think. I just wanted her to wake. I didn't want to lose her. I couldn't lose her. Alice couldn't give me anything on when or if she would wake, and I was scared. I thought back to the first night I spent in her room, and the state her emotions had been in that night, there was so much conflict. But when I had started singing… Singing, that is what I could do. It had given her a little peace that night, maybe it would help this time.
I chose a song that to me fit the moment and began to softly sing to her.
You`re in my arms
And all the world is calm
The music playing on for only two
So close together
And when I`m with you
So close to feeling alive
A life goes by
Romantic dreams will stop
So I bid mine goodbye
And never knew
So close was waiting,
Waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I wanted to hold you
So close
So close to reaching
that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
And now you`re beside me
And look how far we`ve come
So far we are so close
Oh how could I face the faceless days
If I should lose you now?
We`re so close
To reaching that famous happy end
And almost believing this was not pretend
Let`s go on dreaming
for we know we are
So close
So close
And still so far
I could feel the peace soar through her as I sung to her, but it wasn't everlasting. I sat with her waiting. I sang a few more songs to her, waiting for something to tell me she would be ok. Then out of nowhere she whispered my name. Silent on her lips though it was it made me smile. Her face even in her sleep lit up as she said my name, and I knew then that she would be ok.
At that same moment Alice came in smiling. She looked at me knowingly as she spoke.
"One more hour Jasper, and then the two of you can be together again." She gave me a smile that matched her emotions. Happy, yet also sad.
"Thank you Alice. For everything. I know how hard it was for you." She gave me a sad smile.
"Jasper, I made the choices that I did, knowing that it would be hard, but also knowing it was the right thing. I saw you with her so many times in my visions, and the love in your eyes… The two of you were meant to be Jasper." She gave me a sad smile.
"Alice," I sat up on the bed, not wanting to leave Bella. "I still want you in my life. Everything we have been through, been to each other, you are my best friend." She came and sat next to me on the bed, looking at Bella.
"I will always be here for you Jasper and for Bella too. I love you both, always have and always will. You are my best friend too." She smiled the first real smile I have seen on her in months. I pulled her in for a hug, and we sat there for a minute before she pecked me on the cheek, got up and left.
I laid back down with Bella, and whispering to her, letting her know I would never leave her side, that I loved her and couldn't wait until she was with me again.
The song is So Close by Jon McLaughlin.
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