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"These are for you," Jasper handed Bella a bouquet of flowers, noting exotic, but definitely not the type of flowers he could have picked up in Forks. She lifted them to her nose, inhaling their wonderful scent. A smile graced her face.
"I love them." Jasper smiled, helping her into his truck and setting the heater to low.
"I hoped you would." He intended to drive to Port Angeles for pizza and return for their talk, though knowing Bella it would happen sooner rather than later. She wasn't the most patience person and she probably wanted answered. Ones he would surely answer honestly as he could. The silence was comfortable, if only for the short while it lasted.
"You will tell me won't you?" She asked looking out to fading sun. She couldn't exactly look at him; she just tossed the question out.
"Yes, if you want to know. Ask questions, I'll tell you." Bella put a finger to her lip, debating.
"I vaguely remember something about the Southern Wars, and your scars. Will you tell me more about it?" Of course she would go straight to the most obvious. But true to his word Jasper told her what she wished to know, leaving out no detail of his life before the Cullen's. His story continued on when they pulled into the pizza parlor and still on while she munched on pizza, and while he dominated the conversation, she didn't feel like a child being talk down to, she felt like Jasper was bearing his soul, laying all out on the table for her to judge. She was no judge. She wouldn't-couldn't judge the sole vampire who treated her as an adult, an equal.
"There's something else Bella," He watched as she finished off her soda. Debating on whether to reveal the truth and let her decide or wait and allow her feelings to develop…but would she feel betrayed he hadn't reveal the truth to her earlier, if he waited? He shook his head to focus. These new feelings and thoughts were proving to be more trouble than he first thought. She put her drink down and looked at him expectantly.
You should just tell her.
Let me process this, it's very new.
"Let's go on that walk now." He quickly changed the topic and tried not to let his feelings show too much, or force them on Bella. The change in plans didn't bother her, as they roamed around Port A, looking at closed shops and watching other people go about their merry lives. It was easy natural to have her hand resting on Jasper's arm, while Edward had his chivalry and old world manners, Jasper had integrated them to fit modern society, giving her freedom and choice. It was something she truly enjoyed.
"I like this Jasper; I like the thought of us." She had no idea what she was doing to his control; he longed to kiss her, to just be. She was quickly becoming very important to him.
"I do too Darlin', it's a refreshing." And he meant it, it was easy to be himself and his thirst and control didn't even bother him with her around.
Tell her she's our mate, I don't like waiting, the longer we wait the more I get the feeling something will happen. Something bad.
I won't. I need her to want to be with me. Not because she feels she has to be. Bella thought she was Edward's and never went against him. I don't want that. Major was pushing his buttons, the need for his mate was clawing at him, but if he wanted her in any sense of the word he would have to play but Jasper's rules.
"Tell me Bella, do you regret your choice now?" He had to know if she wanted what he might possibly provide. Granted he couldn't give her kids or a decent meal other than animals, but anything else, he would find a way.
Bella stayed silent as they walked through the park, some fireflies were dancing around the sky and it was like a dream, well minus the conversation.
"Some I think. Edward was…well I thought he was exactly what I wanted, but something always felt off. I agreed to marry him, to have sex with him before my change because he wanted that experience for me. I don't think I'll experience them now. I never gave much thought to children; I suppose if it was possible I would, I doubt I'll miss much human food." She giggled and danced around with the fireflies.
"Nothing to ashamed of, I think we'd all want those things for you. It's rather untimely that the Volturi would force our hand. But you should know you're safe with us." With me. He wanted to add.
"That's a thought, if humans and vampires could have children."
Peter and Charlotte were diligent about Bree feeding and getting her adjusted to the diet of animal blood. It just made things easier living in a city like Houston. Though people were so odd no one questioned there, they still stayed out of the limits, in the deeply wooded areas. Thankfully Houston was like New York, a 24/7 kind of city. Peter studied the legends and folklore of any tag to vampires, the undead, bloodsuckers, shifters, anything supernatural.
"Charlotte, I think we need to make a trip to South America, there's something I want to check out. Will you get us some passports and the documents while I speak to the Major?" his mate nodded and sent Bree to library to read. South America was quite a ways away; Charlotte hoped nothing happened while they were away.
Jasper and Bella returned to the Cullen home well after midnight, they'd ended up talking about anything and everything on their little non date, and lay underneath the stars in the Port Angeles Park.
"I had a really good time tonight Jasper, thanks for taking me out." He gave a curtly nodded, helping her out of the truck.
"Me too, we should do it again sometime." Bella looked the other way but he saw her nod regardless. Esme greeted them at the front door, just like a mom would, which caused Bella to blush and Jasper to laugh.
"You look like you had fun." Emmett greeted from the living room as Bella reach the stairs to head up to her room.
"It was a great night out." She agreed, and it was true, Jasper had been the perfect gentlemen; he told her exactly what she wanted to know and kept no secrets from her. She could see how much the past bothered him, and how there was something he held back, but she was sure he would tell her in time. He was probably still getting use to the fact that the Volturi had still demanded her change. In all honestly, it hadn't bothered her, she was still prepared to accept her decision and at least she had someone she could trust, someone who would understand if she slipped and would be there for her because he'd gone through it himself, with no one to support him.
Jasper spent his evening replaying his date with Bella, he'd be informed by Carlisle that Bella was now considered dead to the people of Forks, and since they lived on the edge of town he'd allowed Jasper to take Bella out, but future outings needed to wait till they moved. That was something Jasper didn't like, being told what to do by this other male. He made sure his expression remained neutral, but he didn't need the Cullen's to know he'd reverted back to his true self until he knew he could trust them.
I'm glad you're coming to your senses.
Combining who I was and who I am
He agreed though, he couldn't allow anyone to put Bella in danger and that included himself so if he only took her out on house dates then so be it. But he suggested that Carlisle not waste time and plan a move as soon as possible.
"I agreed Jasper, but we're expected to attend Bella's funeral, and then we would need to stay a certain period of time otherwise it would be suspicious if we leave directly after that." Jasper nodded,
"Let me take Bella somewhere else, you and Esme can stay here for the allotted amount of time, Rose and Emmett could return after hearing of Bella's death, Edward and Alice were out of country on a school trip and weren't able to come back. Obviously I would be out of state at school as well. This way Bella won't be alone and distracted from knowing her friends and family were mourning her death." Carlisle couldn't find a problem with Jasper's solution and uneasily allowed it, so long as Bella agreed. Jasper was finding his smooth talk and knowledge of strategy was working in his favor. His thoughts returned to Bella and their date, it was the first time he'd really seen Bella happy and unburdened with stress and anxiety. She questioned and he answered and she never judge just accepting and loving in her natural way. He hoped he would be enough for her, if he was truthful he hoped he deserved her love, and that she could possible want to be with him.
Okay, so I know it's been a little while since I posted, I can say I'm trying I'm working on Chapter 5 as we speak but I'm a college student and I'm working so it's a little hard to find time to write. Also I haven't been writing as much b/c even thought I have great thoughts I'm finding it hard to start them. Please bear with me! Chapter 5 will be up soon. Promise.
