Ohmigosh! I've had a heck of a time getting this chapter uploaded. First off, my family is in the process of packing up our things and getting our home ready to sell. Second, I was precrastinating on even writing the chapter. Third, when the chapter was done - almost a week ago - I couldn't get the thing to upload!
Anyway...no more excuses. Time to read and enjoy...hopefully... :)
P.S. I'm SO sorry if this chapter has a bunch of spelling/grammar errors. I didn't have time to spell check it all. :(
Chapter 12: Walking and Waiting
Previously: "Bella, love, I'm asking you to marry me."
~A very nervous Edward's point of view~
My hands were sweaty and shaking. I was sure that if I were to pull the sapphire ring for Bella from my pocket I would drop it. So, it would stay there for the time being.
I looked intently at Bella. Her mouth was hanging open and she was staring at me. Well, not really at me...more through me. She was in deep thought.
It seemed like centuries while Bella thought it over. I began to second guess myself. Was she ready to take this step? Did she feel as strongly for me as I did for her? Was this meadow the right place to bring her? I felt pretty confident in myself but Bella's hesitation had me thinking.
When I refocused on Bella's face, there were tears in her eyes, one spilled over. I wiped it away with the tip of my finger. I couldn't tell if these were happy tears or not which made me tenser - if that were possible.
She looked down at our entwined hands and whispered something quickly. I didn't hear her.
"What was that, Bella?" I asked, leaning my head closer to her so I could hear.
She sniffled and looked up. Her eyes became locked on mine, more tears running down her face. "No." She said.
I stopped breathing.
~Bella's point of view~
Edward's face looked like someone had just punched him in the gut. It was pure pain and sadness. I hated that I made him feel that way, but it was for the better...I hoped.
I dropped his hand and turned to walk towards the woods. I didn't know where I was going, but I had to get away from him. Preferably quickly.
Edward was still staring at me when I reached the woods. I looked away and walked faster. I kept running in to trees and tripping over bushes because the heavy tears in my eyes inpaired my vision. I had a sufficient number of cuts and scrapes. But I didn't care. That pain was nothing compared to the internal battle I was having with my heart and head.
I walked in God knows what direction for about ten minutes. I found a large boulder and sat down on the ground behind it. I curled my knees to my chest and sobbed.
Edward didn't want me. He may think he does but he's lying to himself. Who would want a scrawny, cumsly, nerdy, brunette? He had Jessica, the blonde, sporty, coordinated girl. He'll forget about me and go find her. I don't deserve him. This is just a fling, I told myself, he'll get over it and move on. But I knew I wouldn't. Edward was my everything. That's why I have to let him go. He deserves better.
After the tears - not the internal pain - subsided some, I got up off the ground and tried to look through the thick trees to find a road. We had driven Edward's Volvo so I would have to walk home. I wasn't about to share a car with him.
I pulled out my cell phone and typed a quick text message to Edward. I would at least tell him I was going home so he wouldn't think he had to wait for me.
I'm sorry. I'll call you when I get to Charlie's. ~B
I sent the text and began walking towards town.
~Edward's point of view~
I watched in shock as Bella disappeared into the woods. All I could do was stand there. My body wouldn't move. Bella's words kept running through my mind as if it were on a loop:
No, no, no, no...
And to each no I asked myself why. Was there something I had done? Did I make this step in our relationship too quickly? Did she not feel the same way about me? Did - God forbid - she love someone else? I hoped and prayed to any God out there that the answer to all those questions was no. But I could help but second guess myself.
I stood there for a while - I have no idea how long - thinking of Bella's words - or word, rather - and tried to put a meaning with it. My cell phone beeped signaling me to a text message.
It was from Bella. I didn't even realize I was crying until a tear escaped my eye when her picture popped up with the text message.
I'm sorry. I'll call you when I get to Charlie's. ~B
I had to reread the message three times because the little letters were blury from the tears in my eyes. I was supposed to be a strong man and never cry, but my heart was broken in a million different pieces. I had a right to tear up at least.
Then I wondered how Bella was getting to Charlie's. I had the keys to the Volvo. Oh no...she was going to walk the fifteen miles back to Forks?! I quickly - or as quickly as possible - ran through the woods to my car. I wasn't about to let her walk home. Something could happen to her. But I wouldn't - couldn't - think about that.
Once I was in my car and pulling out of the driveway of my home, I texted a message to Bella with one hand:
Where are you? I'm not going to let you walk home! ~E
I drove slowly to Forks just incase she hadn't made it that far yet. She texted me back:
It's okay. I'll be fine. But, just so you'll know I'm okay, I'm at Miller's barn. ~B
I sighed she was closer to Forks than me, but not by much though. Miller's barn was exactly what it said it was, an old barn owned by a man named Niel Miller. Me, Bella, and a bunch of other people used to hang out there when we were younger. I sped up and found Bella walking on the side of the road just ahead of Miller's barn. I knew she could hear my car but she didn't look up. She just kept walking.
I drove up beside her at a crawl and rolled down the passenger side window. "Come on, Bella. Get in."
"No." She retorted stubbornly and kept on walking. She'd been using that word a lot lately.
I sighed. "Bella Swan, please get in the car." I begged. I wanted to talk about this.
"Edward, no. Just let me walk home." She was still looking away from me. I could see the remnants of tears on her cheeks. It made my heart hurt to know that I was the one who put them there.
I stopped the car and got out. I caught up with Bella and stopped right in front of her. I put my hands on her shoulders to keep her from running away. She looked at the ground. "Edward please leave me alone." It was barely a whisper.
"No!" I said a little sharper than I intended. "Not until you talk to me!"
Bella was silent for a moment. She sobbed and looked up at me. She pushed my hands off her shoulders and shouted, "I don't want you!" She started walking towards Forks again.
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~Kelli(jellyjo2014)
