Chapter 3

''Stupid, Stupid, Stupid nice going Dickward the first person who shows you kindness & Hospitality not to mention she's the mystery girl you've been longing for, for the past three months & what do you do you, you attack her across the Breakfast table. Your just as bad as that sick fuck from last night'' only when I notice the kid standing in front of me with his mother's hands over his ears do I realise I've been walking down the street yelling at myself rather than thinking my words.

Bella is better off without me, my life is so fucked up the last thing she needs is me fucking up hers too.

The first time I saw her I was mesmerized she was across the street with two friends sitting outside a coffee shop I was curled up on a bench staring at nothing when I heard her laugh, straight away I looked at her she was the most Beautiful girl …..Woman I'd ever seen. She seemed nothing like her two friends who were prattling on about Diets & men with fat wallets, they started to talk about Bella being a virgin which made me sad for her not because of that but because she was obviously embarrassed & distressed & they seemed like friends she could do without.

Everyday at twelve thirty Bella was at the Coffee shop outside reading a book on her lunch except if it was raining she would stay inside or not come at all…. I hated those days! She was always Reading & she was fascinating to watch I could always tell if she was reading something sad, or Funny or Romantic. At first I felt like a sick weirdo watching her all the time but I couldn't help myself she had become the most beautiful thing in my miserable world.

Last Night when I was Sleeping in an alley because it was warmer than the park not by much but I found some cardboard to lay on the damp ground, I was half asleep when I heard a Woman scream there was a man pushing her into the alley I rose to my feet & stalked towards him he slapped her across the face when she bit his hand, I moved forward ready to tackle him when What I saw froze me to the Bone It was Bella …My Bella and this scum had his hands all over her ready to force himself upon her. I grabbed Him by surprise & threw him into the wall.

'Hey man get your own, this slut's mine'

With that I punched him until my hand hurt, how dare he think he can do that to her to anyone! But it pissed me off even more because it was Bella.

She was passed out on the ground, I didn't know what to do I didn't want to take her to the hospital & just leave her there I looked in her purse for an address & found her I.D Isabella Marie Swan. Seeing her on the ground made my heart hurt, luckily she lived just right around the corner I carried her to her house and put her on her step for a second while I got her key out, when I got in I was assaulted by the smell of pure Bella everything smelt like her & I wanted to stay here forever. I lay her on her couch & grabbed a blanket from the nearest bedroom I wanted to put her in Bed where she'd be more comfortable but I didn't want her to wake up more freaked.I stayed all night just watching her sleep & listening to her Breathe yeah I felt like the world's biggest weirdo but I couldn't bring myself to leave.

When she woke I was scared to move at first, afraid she'd start screaming when she saw me I thought she would but she just got a little panicked & start asking questions I rushed to reassure her only fucking it up when I said I'd touched her, I meant when I had to carry her of course but her panic set in & I explained myself again , she looked like she wanted to believe me, but why should she I'm a homeless freak who's been watching her everyday at Lunch. I turned to leave but then she thanked me & my Heart melted for her, I wish I was Normal so I could have the chance to get to know her it saddened me that I would never know her, then she asked me to stay for breakfast & I thought for sure I was Hallucinating. But I didn't want to impose on her anymore than I had, I knew she was only asking because she felt like she had to repay me, but in the end I couldn't turn down a meal I was Starving & sharing a meal with Bella was a Bonus. She was entrancing moving around the kitchen, cooking & smiling when she poured me coffee our eyes met & all I thought was I want to see them everyday. She blushed a deep pink which made her even more Beautiful.

She placed Breakfast in front of me & I closed my eyes & inhaled it smelt delicious, it was perfect & I told her so.

She wanted to know my name, nobody's asked me my name in years, again she thanked me I begged her not to walk home alone again, then her hand was on mine & that's where I fucked up I reached across the counter & kissed her …..Kissed her! Who the hell did I think I was trying to kiss her .I've got five bucks in my pocket, nothing to offer her. I am nothing.

I used to wish for a Home to go to everyday, to have a family again, to have someone left in this world who loved me…..Now I wish I could be a better man, a man Bella could love, because god knows I am in Love with Her.