I bet you didn't expect to hear from me so soon, eh? Well, I was bored after watching New Moon on DVD (collector's edition!), plus all the bonus features, plus the DVD about the real life La Push and Forks, Washington. (It takes about a total of three hours!)
Here is the latest chapter.
!!~WARNING~!!: This chapter suggests rape. Do NOT read if you are uncomfortable with such a theme!!
Chapter 18: Holding Back
I turned around. "Hey good looking." James greeted me. His hands went lower on my body.
"James. Don't." I said in less than a whisper. I was scared to death.
I tried to step away from him but he had me blocked between my desk and dresser. I had an idea. I would distract him. "How'd you get in here?" I asked quickly.
He smiled smugly. "The door was open." His nasty beer breath fanned my face. I turned away from him. Suddenly his strong grasp was on my chin forcing me to look at him. "Stupid girl. Why didn't you bring along some of your friends to help you pack?"
"They're here." I lied. Rose was packing her own things and was on her way to LA with Emmett. Alice and Jasper had driven to Boise, Idaho to visit with Jasper parents.
"Bella, Bella, Bella." James tsked. "I know they're not here. The entire dorm is empty." He grabed me forcefully around the waist and slammed me against the back of the door. I heard the lock click. My heart raced and my breathing stopped. This couldn't happen. I had to get away somehow. At the least, I had to keep him distracted.
"So, where's Tanya?" I gasped.
He sighed, obviously annoyed with the fact that I wouldn't shut up. "She's gone with some friends for a drink." He practically picked me up and threw me onto the bed. I tried to crawl away but he caught me...
~Edward's point of view~
It was New Year's Eve and the end of my two week seperation from my Bella. I was worried about her. Her calls had become less frequent and when she did call, she would be sharp about anything intimate. She always spoke softly and about the apartment. When I asked her about gathering our belongings from the dorm she just said, "I got it done." and that was it.
I found myself laying awake almost every night hoping and praying that my Bella was alright. I knew there was something she wasn't telling me and be damned if I didn't find out what it was.
So, the next day - January 1st, 2010 - I called Alice from the airport and tried to get answers from her.
"I'm not sure what to tell you, Edward. She's been really distant from everyone lately. She spends all her time perfecting that perfect apartment of yours." Alice sighed. "You need to get back here a.s.a.p. She's not right. Something's wrong."
I thanked my sister for the barely there answers and boarded my flight. Bella was keeping something from everyone.
~A scared to death Bella's point of view~
I hadn't talked to anyone since the dorm room incident. I hadn't even gone to a doctor. I did, however, take one of those home STD tests. It came out negitive.
Edward called me everyday and sometimes I would just ignore his calls. I couldn't listen to his voice and hoped that he would still love me after what happened. So, I vowed to only talk about the apartment. It was coming along great. I had all our stuff from the dorms moved in and was ready to start my life with Edward as soon as he got back...which would be in about twelve seconds.
My heard pounded with relief when I saw that beautiful head of bronze hair come out of the terminal. He smiled that perfect crooked smile I loved. He dropped the luggage in his hands and ran to me. I automatically tense when his strong arms came around my waist and picked me up. It was a knee-jerk reaction. Edward must've sensed my hesitation.
He set me on my feet and held me at arms length. "Bella...is something wrong?"
I faked a smiled. "No. Nothing's wrong. I just missed you a lot." The water-works started. He held me to his chest as I stained his shirt with tears. I knew he didn't believe me but I'm glad he didn't press for details. I wasn't ready to talk about it...nor would I ever be.
~An extremely worried Edward's point of view~
We got to the apartment and Bella showed me around. The dining room and living room were one big room with the kitchen seperated my a half wall. There was a hallway that lead down to three bedrooms and a bathroom. Through the master bedroom, mine and Bella's room, there was another full bathroom.
I unpacked my luggage and put it in the new - well, new to me - dresser and closet. Then I joined Bella on the bed. I sat up against the headboard and pulled her close to my side. She was tense. I wanted to ignore this and have a romantic welcome home with my finace'. I started kissing her neck. She coughed - which I knew was fake and said something about getting a drink. I followed her into the bathroom. She filled the glass beside the sink with water and drank the entire thing, sip by sip.
"Bella, are you avoiding me?" I wondered out loud.
She didn't look at me. "No. Of course not. I'm just not in the mood." She pushed passed me and sat down on the edge of the bed. I knelt down in front of her.
"Bella, please, tell me what's wrong." I begged literally on me knees.
She put her hands on my shoulders and we both stood up. She pushed me out side the bedroom door. "Edward, please. I'm tired. We'll talk in the morning."
"Promise?" I challenged her.
She didn't say anything. But before she closed the door in my face, I saw a tear run down her cheek. I wanted so badly to bang on the door until she opened it and demand answers, but something told me better of it.
That night, the first night in my new home, I didn't get to spend with my beautiful finace'. I stayed in the guest bedroom and tossed and turned all night trying to figure out what was bothering Bella. I knew she was holding back...again.
~A hurt Bella's point of view~
I hated to deny Edward. But I wasn't ready to face him just yet. I wasn't ready to face anyone. I lay in bed all night that night hoping and praying that Edward would drop the subject. Maybe he'd just accept that I'm condemed and find a new fiance'. One that isn't always doing idiotic stuff and making his life a living hell. Maybe it was time to leave him...again.
So...kind of a sad chapter. Very depressing to write.
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~Kelli(jellyjo2014)
