Chapter 5
Walking around a Homeless shelter is a sure fire way to make you realise just how lucky you are, seeing people with the same hopelessness on their faces, same longing for their life that once was. I didn't want this for Edward he saved me I wanted to save him, but it was more than that when he kissed me, even though it was brief my whole body felt warm, electrified, and right.
All I wanted right now was to find him & convince him to stay in the spare room if I could till he could get sorted easier said than done this was the first of many shelters on my list.
''excuse me miss, can I help you don't look like you belong in here''
'' oh Hi…..Hello um no actually I am looking for a friend''
'' a friend huh, listen miss we don't allow drugs or alcohol on these premises part of the deal in being allowed to stay here, so none of the residents would have any on them''
''it's not like that really, I promise. A Homeless man helped me out last night he fought off a man who was…was erm attacking me & I just wanted to Thank him again but I don't know where to find him so I thought I'd check out some of the shelters.''
'' oh …I see. Forgive me we get folks coming in here looking for a quick fix or trying to sell to the residents I'm for the man who helped you, what he look like? You know his name?''
''that's alright I understand, um his name is Edward…I don't know his last I'm afraid. But he has Green eyes & shaggy bronze hair & …''miss'' ''yes'' '' is that your Edward?'' I looked to where he was pointing to find Edward staring at me; I didn't take my eyes off him as I told the man thank you & started walking towards Edward.
''Hello again….you took off so suddenly …and I was worried'' he didn't say anything for what seemed like eternity just stood there staring at me with a sadness on his face or maybe anger because he had a deep frown creasing his face, & now I was worried not because I thought he'd hurt me, but I didn't want him to be mad that I came looking for him.
He pinched the bridge of his nose and finally spoke ''Bella, what are you doing here''
''I told you I was worried, & you just took off & I didn't know if I done something wrong & I just …'' ''Bella please you need to leave''
''why'' ''why she says, because it's not safe here for you Bella'' ''it's not safe for you either Edward''
''Your worried about me?'' There was a light awkwardness & I shuffled on my feet before answering him. ''yes I was…am. And I wanted to offer you a place to stay'' when I managed to look him back in the eye he looked in awe like he didn't believe what I had just said, he had a small unsure smile on his face.
''please Edward come Home with me, I don't want you here!'' he didn't speak just nodded & so we walked the few blocks to my Grandma's Home that she'd left me…in Silence.
When we got through the door the atmosphere automatically went into my senses were magnified & I wanted him to kiss me again. First things first to make him feel at home.
''Um if you would like to take a shower or Bath the Bathroom's up the stairs on the left, I could make us some Lunch & we can talk''
''that would be great thank you'' '' good uh, I'll get you a change of clothes & there are some men's toiletries in the Bathroom''
I rummaged through the hot press till I found some of my Dad's shirts & pants he left stuff here, so he wouldn't have to pack much when he visited which wasn't a lot.
''Here I think these should fit you'' I handed them to Edward who looked confused.
''they belong to my dad'' that seemed to brighten his face ''oh well…Thanks…I'll just''
Dang I should've asked him what he'd like for Lunch, too late now I heard the water running & I didn't want to disturb him, the thought of bursting in on Edward while he was showering both thrilled & terrified me I didn't know what was Happening, where these thoughts were coming from.
I decided after much mind debating to make a warm chicken salad with some potato bread rather than pizza or something else un-nutritious. I figured Edward could do with a healthy meal. Just as I was plating the food he came into the kitchen I looked up & almost dropped the whole platter of salad. What I saw made me weak in the knees, Edward he was…my god he was Beautiful. He had shaved & cut his hair his skin clean, his newly shaved face showing off his chiselled Jaw. He made my mouth water
''wow you look...um...Great.'' he smiled a shy smile. ''uhh lunch is ready, so just sit wherever you like'' ''would you like wine or Beer or Juice or I can make you tea or if you want Coffee ….''Bella just sit with me, you don't need to fuss over me this is perfect.''
''ok'' we ate in silence for the first few minutes then Edward Spoke nervously. ''so will your friends be dropping by'' I had completely forgotten about my so called friend being surrounded by the presence of Edward had snuffed out my negative thoughts on what a not great friend Tanya has been lately.
''um no…actually our friendship is on a break as far as I'm concerned.'' im sorry do you want to talk about it''
I let out a long sigh not realising how long I'd been holding it in, '' it's just that guy who attacked me last night,….. Tanya my friend sent him after me , because she wanted him to show me a good time. She feels I shouldn't be in this single state & I should be sleeping with different men every week like we live In the real world of sex & the City but that's just not who I am'' I could feel the intense blush rising on my cheeks I didn't really want Edward to know I was a virgin surely my reaction had let him no I more or less was. Cue the blush again.
''you could have been really hurt if I hadn't of been there, I can't even….. Think about someone hurting you.'' He looked so sad, like he would jump in front of a bullet for me to protect me.
'' I saw you once'' he spoke so softly I wasn't sure I heard right….''What'' '' I saw you one day sitting at the Twilight Café across from the park, you looked so Beautiful I remember you were with your friends & they were putting you down I knew you they didn't deserve to know you to have you as a friend…everyday at 12.30 you go there on your lunch break & read a book & everyday I've watched you''
Come again did Edward just tell me he's been watching me for the last few months, I should be creeped out by that….but im not. But I don't know what to say so I just stare at him. He obviously takes it the wrong way though he gets up to leave.
''I'll just go I knew this was a bad idea'' I grab his wrist before he gets any further ''EDWARD….wait, don't run from me, not now. What do you mean you've been watching me?''
He lets out a breath & I think he'll never answer.'' I'd sleep sometimes in the park on the bench that's directly across from the café, I was sitting there the first time I saw you, I heard you laughing, & I couldn't help but keep my eyes on you, you enchanted me'' he let out a small chuckle that made me smile, I couldn't believe he knew me before last night. Still I wasn't weirded out by this he didn't follow me around…. Right, just noticed me from afar when I'd go to the cafe. ''I watched you everyday after that at twelve thirty, when you'd sit outside reading your book, im sorry I swear I'd never hurt you, Im not a stalker slash serial killer, you just gave me something to look forward to everyday. You made my miserable days brighter you were the only thing I found beautiful in this harsh reality of mine''
He's breathing heavily now, which only makes the atmosphere even more intense as we stare at each other hypnotised no one's ever said such words to me or told me I was Beautiful. Finally I can't take it anymore & I smash my mouth to his, he groans & grabs my waist to pull me closer, god he taste's…..so good, never have I wanted more from a man than I did right now.
I push my fingers into his hair & grip lightly he groans into my mouth & pushes me up against the wall, I wrap my legs around him trying to find some sort of friction, he grinds his hips into mine & I cry out in pleasure. ''Oh god Bella, you have to say it…I can't. Tell me to stop'' ''Edward….don't stop, I want you'' with that I crush my mouth to his once more things are getting out of control I feel dizzy & my body is aching with need.
''Bedroom….this way'' I tug on his shirt leading him into my room without breaking the kiss he lays me on the bed covering me with his body as we kiss like the world is about to end, it's hot too hot & I want him out of his clothes now, I pull his shirt up his back & Edward throws it on the floor behind him, he crashes his mouth back to mine & I whimper. ''Edward, I need you now please'' I thought that would make him lose the rest of his clothing, instead he sat back on his heels with a grimace, not the reaction I was Hoping for.
''Bella you have no idea how much I want you right now, but I know your…it's your first time I don't want to hurt you are you sure you want...''
''sssh you won't I trust you Edward, please.'' He leans back down & kisses me slowly while I open his pants & move them down his legs with my feet, he sits back on his heels & pulls me with him not breaking our kiss so he can remove my dress, I thought I would feel shy & awkward being exposed for the first time in front of a man but being half naked in front of Edward only makes me wetter & I can't stop the onslaught of want emerging from my body I pull him back down all that's between us now are my panties .I push my hips up into his & he lets out a guttural groan, I feel his hands on my hips removing my underwear & I get even more excited he's setting my body on fire.
''Bella please help me, help me not to hurt you, god if I hurt you please stop me at once'' '' Edward it's gonna hurt at first I know, just go slow I promise to tell you if it's too much'' I feel his tip at my entrance god he's Big, I gulp the nervousness now setting in.''Bella you have to relax'' he kisses my neck & my shoulders & suddenly I'm wet again & thrusting my hips up into his only to bring him deep inside me all at once I cry out.'' Ohhh fuck Bellaaaa, god baby are you ok'' ''yes just slow please''
He stops moving just caressing my arms & kissing me gently letting me get used to the feeling of his large cock inside of my tight pussy, he looks pained from holding back, so I start thrusting my hips up lightly the pain Lessing & the pleasure increasing. Oh fuck it feels good.'' Oh ugh Bella ….yes you feel better than I ever imagined'' soon my pussy becomes tighter if that's even possible & im squirming underneath Edward calling out his name. His thrusts get harder & deeper & I feel like im dying but in a really good fucking way I grab his ass & push him into me even deeper.'' Oh sweet Jesus….Bellaaaa, Oh god Im close, please love come with me'' he moves his fingers down to swirl in my wet pussy sending me over the edge.''fuck Edward oh yes…yeah, yeah, yeah…oh god…..Edwaarrd!'' ''ughhh! Ohhh Bellaaaaaa'' one final hard thrust into me & I feel him fill me.
He rolls over & pulls me with him to lie on his chest stroking my hair & kissing my forehead, I just lost my virginity to a homeless man. But lying here in Edward's arms feels so right I drift off to a peaceful slumber.
