Chapter 13
''Edward,... your… are you okay?'' that's a stupid fucking question Bella obviously he's not. '' you w-work here'' god Edward your freezing where's your coat?'' he doesn't answer me & my heart sinks he doesn't want to talk to me, he doesn't want me.
''um yeah I work here now, I told you I wouldn't go back & work for them. Anyway Tanya has my job now & I actually love it here so it's all good. Let me get you something Hot to drink…..please don't let me come back out & find you gone ok.'' He just nods, I walk back to the kitchen & Emmett is at the door.
''What's going on, you know that guy Bells''- ''what guy'' Alice says as she appears from the lobby, ugh I don't want this to turn into a scene I don't want them all rushing out there to have a gawk at him, I don't want him to run from me.
''It's Edward, He… he's outside'' – ''no wayyyy'' she runs to the door into the alley before I can say a word god knows what she'll say to him, I hurry outside hot coffee in hand for Edward, praying he didn't leave''
''Hello I'm Alice, Bella's new BFF it's nice to get a visual of you Bella's told me a lot about you, I'm sorry Tanya called you a druggie, she used to call me a lot worse in high school, if you love Bella please come back to her & make her happy because she's being a miserable bi.. '' ''jeez Alice… take a breath & go away while your at it''
I pull her arm & nudge her in the direction of the kitchen, ''sorry about her, she's a little hyper sometimes…Here drink this''
''than -nk youu'' He takes it from me our hands touching briefly he's frozen, & I can't help it I start crying. I sit on the ground beside Him.'' Please come back to the House Edward you can sleep in the spare room I won't Bother you. I've missed you... So much but I won't push for more I just…you don't need to be out here.''
''you look like your getting the flu too. Please Edward I don't want you to get sick.''
''I …are you... Are youu Happy'' he says softly I don't know how to answer him with without getting mad or having a breakdown, I take a deep breath.
''if you mean am I happy working here & having new friends who love me then yes, if you mean I am happy without you…. then the answer would be a definite no. I still love & want you even if you don't want me.'' Surprise, surprise im crying yet again, I gasp when I feel his hand take mine.
''I'm sorrry for what I said t-to you when I left, you've been the only person apart from my my parents who's ever given a damn about me.I just want you to be…be happy… even if it's not with me. I thought you would get your job back at the magazine you worked so-oo hard to get there & then I come in & blow your whole life up I didn't want to be that m-mman, the man who took things away from you, you deserve the best of every-thing''
-it doesn't matter I told you that, they don't matter & you didn't take anything away me that I wanted to keep, except for you losing you is the only thing that broke my heart. Being with you made me realise how shallow all of the people around me were, & I want nothing to do with them '' He starts crying like really crying & I wrap my arms around him he's so cold & I'm so scared. ''Edward please come home with me, please''
''how… How can you wan-ttt me there after what I did, after what I said to yo-uuu.''
''Because I love you…. now come on my butt's going numb from the cold'' he lets out a small laugh & it calms me immediately he's getting up he's going to come with me. I lead him back into the kitchen where Alice & Emmett are flicking dough at one another. ''my god can't I leave you two alone for one minute without destroying the place''
'' oh quiet Belly Boo, here have some'' he flings a soggy glop of dough at me which lands right on my cheek.'' Much to Alice's amusement.
-'' Emmett!...well that's the last time I save you any tiramisu'' ''what, no bells, Belly Boo I'm sorry.'' he picks me up yet again like im a little rag doll.
''Alright Emmett put me down-god haha'' –Hi we met before I'm Alice'' - & I'm Emmett her new Big Brother'' I just roll my eyes at them both & smile ''so does this mean you two are going to kiss & makeup….'' Alice always so straight forward.'' Because if you make her cry again buddy I'll chop you're testy's off & make you wear em as earrings'' - hear hear, belly boo is like my new lil sister so if you hurt her im gonna have to hurt you.''
''I..I couldn't believe sssh-ee gave me a first chance, there's no way in hell I'll risk loo-ssing a second chance with her''- '' good answer, anyway it was nice to meet you man, make sure Bella feeds you more there's no way I can challenge you to an arm wrestle when your that skinny. I'm gonna see how Rose is fairing at reception''
''Emmett he does like a good arm wrestle, why don't you & Edward go home I can clean up here. There's just one group finishing up before we close, & I have my digits to share with one of them''
''are you sure Alice'' – yeah it's fine, plus me & Emmett did make most of the mess'
''ok well I'll see you tomorrow then, good luck with your mystery man'' ''I know right, he's so hot Bella I think I'll marry him ha. It was nice to meet you Edward, everything is going to work out I just know it, now scoot haha.''
I called us a cab since it was late & freezing out & I didn't want Edward getting any colder than he already was. When we got home & through the door it was such a relief, just knowing he was right there & he was ok.I put my arms around him & he embraced me back it felt so good. The house was warm since I set the heat to come so it'd be warm when I got home
''im gonna make you some hot Tea, I'll get you some warm clothes too..''
''Bella'' he grabs my arms & pulls me back to him & our heads are pressed together & his eyes are deep in mine'' I Love you'' oh –thank -you - lord .
''really- you love me'' – with everything that I am, I loved you the minute I heard your beautiful little laugh before I even saw your face I'm so sorry I told you I didn't.''- ''its ok I didn't believe you anyway'' I crush my lips to his & push my tongue deep into his mouth; it's not long before he pushes me away & looks…shameful. 'What's wrong?''
-'' I stink.'' Oh my sweet beautiful Boy, I smile at him I'm trying not to laugh because really it's not funny, but Fuck im so happy I could start bouncing all over the house. 'Well that can be fixed, then you owe me a ton of kisses, I still want to kiss you anyway but you need to get warm. Why don't you go have a hot shower & I'll make you some tea.'' Thank you for everything- you don't need to thank me just be with me. ''you're always with me… I love you'' – I love you too.
When Edward was finished showering we sat together on the couch kissing & talking I told him all about Alice & her family, how they've become sort of like my family too. Esme especially she's been so good to me, better than my own mom ever was .it felt so good being close to him having him right there.
but I couldn't wait for more, I was needy & desperate for him when we went to bed we kissed goodnight & he held me he went for the spare room when we got upstairs but I didn't want him to sleep there I wanted him with me. I crept my hand up his chest around his neck & pushed my fingers into his hair massaging his scalp, he moaned that was all the encouragement I needed. I crawled up his body planting my legs on either side of his hips & ground into him softly while I kissed him. ''Oh love, oh Bella'' our kisses became needy & sloppy but I didn't care it felt fucking great.
He grabbed my hips to turn me over but I wasn't done with him yet. I kissed him once more & moved down his body pulling his sweats & boxers off. He was so big & I was a little unsure of having him in my mouth in case I sucked at it pardon the pun, but god I wanted to taste him so I did just that. He thought I was going to come back up & kiss his lips instead I licked the whole length of his cock. ''Christ...oh ugh …Bella oh baby you… you don't have to do that'' I relaxed a little more hearing the sounds he was making I wanted to make this good for him, I lowered my mouth down his length till he hit the back of my throat & swirled my tongue around him as I went back up.''fuck ohhhhhGod, Bella that's so good.'' he held my hair up watching me as much as he could as I sucked him deep into my throat over & over his eyes rolling into the back of his head. ''uh no I... Bella love stop.'' – I'm sorry did I do something wrong, I've never done that to anyone before'
He cups my face shaking his head & smiling like I just said the must absurd thing. ''There was nothing wrong with what you just did love & I'm so very happy im the first guy you've done that to, but if you keep doing it this will all be over too soon & I'd rather much like to make love to you now.'' He kisses me & lays me down on the bed twining his fingers with mine, ''I'm so sorry'' – sssh you're here that's all that matters'
I run my hands over his Back as he kisses me, he's gotten so thin my eyes well up again & I try not to think of it because he's here & I can take care of him. He slides his hands up my legs pulling my nightdress off as he goes & once more im bare for him. 'I've missed your beautiful body'' he kisses my neck moving down to take my hardened nipple in his mouth & it floods me with desire as I get even wetter for him . ''Please baby, I need you to make love to me''
''you never have to ask'' he slides into my slick Heat & god im Cumming hard. ''oh Bella god already? oh so tight, so good'' he sits back grabbing my legs to rest on his Shoulders & holds my ass in his hands as he slides deeper, he's pounding into me & nothing has ever felt this good. 'I love you, im sorry, so sorry. I love you so much'' ''oh god Edward, I love you too.'' – Again baby, cum for me again'' he moves his hand around my leg to play with my pussy & I cum so fast crying out for him & begging him to stay with me.
He yells my name & tells me repeatedly he loves me as he spills into me. I hold him to my chest running my hands through his sweaty hair we fall asleep this way & I promise myself I won't give up on him again so easily, I won't let anything separate us again…
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