Chapter 17
''Don't be so nervous Baby'' I love it when she calls me that.
I'm still nervous as fuck though. ''Sorry, I'm fine'' we walk up the drive of the Cullen Home their house is like a fucking mansion I've never seen anything like it.
My hands start sweating again, we stop at the front door & Bella take's my face in her hands.
''Edward baby if this is too much, we can leave just say the word''
Fuck she's too good for me. ''No I'm sorry, I'm fine I just…I've never been anywhere like this before''
''it'll be fine, their gonna love you baby'' she kisses me softly on the lips. Then rings the door bell.
Too late to run now…
''Hey Belly Boo'' that guy Emmett answers the door. I feel a tinge of Jealousy & possessiveness when he picks Bella up off the ground hugging her.
''Edward, man how ya doing'' he holds his hand out, I take it shakily giving him a curt nod.''
''come on through everyone's out back'' Bella hands Emmett the wine we brought over & grabs my hand again, rubbing her thumb soothingly on my palm.
A woman rushes over to hug us both.
''oh I'm so glad you both came, hello you must be Edward. I'm Esme & this is my Husband Carlisle''
'' Hello Son, it's nice to meet you at last, Bella's always talking about you'' he holds out his hand & I shake it. Giving him a small nod. They must think I'm mute or something but I'm still nervous as fuck.
Esme just looks at me giving a knowing smile.
She's Beautiful, too young looking to be Emmett's mom, god how'd she even give birth to him she's so small & he's a… Bear of a man. Ugh why am I even thinking about that. I'm a fucking loser. I feel Bella squeeze my hand, I still haven't said anything to them & I feel my face heat up.
''I'm sorry, hello …um thank you for inviting us over.''
''your very welcome here anytime, grab a drink & have some fun'' they walk off to get the grill going. As Alice waves us over, we head over where everyone is standing & chatting. Bella & she hug this family's big on Hugs that's for sure.
''Hey you guys, Bella this is Jasper that I was telling you about, Jasper this is Bella & her Boyfriend Edward''
Boyfriend… sounds so menial compared to what Bella means to me.
''Hi how y'all doing, it's nice to meet you'' Bella reaches out her hand to him.
''it's nice to meet you too Jasper, you've made Alice a very happy girl''
''oh why thank you, she's made me a very happy guy. She's very special I ain't ever met anyone like her.''
A Blond girl comes over with drinks, I know Bella told me her name but fuck if I remember it.
''cocktails for the girls, beer for the men. Unless you want to join us for a screaming orgasm''
What, holy fuck!
Bella bursts out laughing when she looks at me. ''it's the name of the cocktail Baby''
Oh I knew that….fucking idiot.I don't know why I'm even here I must be embarrassing the hell out of Bella.
I take a beer leaving the 'screaming orgasms to the girls' god Bella underneath me screaming out her orgasm as I…''I know what you're thinking you dirty boy'' Bella whispers in my ear making my cock twitch in my pants. Fuck if there's a god please don't let me get a hard-on out here.
''so Edward what is it you do?'' Fuck .
''I…I'm not working right now unfortunetly.I will be soon.'' Bella just smiles & rubs my arm. I feel pathetic.
''Oh well, I work in construction I might be able to help you out if you don't mind hard work give me your number & I'll give you a call''
''yeah absolutely, that'd be great thanks.'' He gives me his card, & I give him my number. I was pissed Bella got me a phone but I guess it's good for situations like this. I really wish I had money to pay her back.
Alice pulls him away, leading him into the house. 'Im going to steal him for a few minutes'' she winks at Bella who just laughs.
I take a slug of my beer, & see Emmett walking toward us. ''so you guys alright'' he smiles a big grin showing all his teeth, he'd squash me like a bug. But he's a friendly fucker.
''yeah thanks Em''
''Rosalie told me about that James guy that was in the restaurant last night bells, you see him again you call me straight away. Fucker assaulting you & putting his hands on my wife's ass. Dickhead needs to be taught some fucking manners on how to treat women. Know what I'm saying Edward.''
James!... I stop drinking my beer, bottle frozen on my lips as I look at Bella. She's looking at her feet, stirring her cocktail with the straw.
''Uhh… I 'll just go see how dad's doing on the cooking''
''what is he talking about Bella'' I'm angry now, hurt even that she didn't tell me something happened. That she ran into James again.
''James he was at the restaurant last night with some other guys, I didn't even know he'd been in there till Rosalie came out back to the kitchen & described the guy that was grabbing her ass.''
''why didn't you call me, you spend money on a fucking phone for me then don't call me when it's necessary. I would have come straight to you.'' She looks at me wide eyed.
''Edward calm down ok, it was all over in a few minutes he just got up & left by the time you got there he would have been gone'' I want to punch something, I want to grab that fucker & knock him out again. The thought of him with his hands on her makes my blood boil.
''don't tell me to calm down, what if he'd been waiting for you when you got off work huh Bella, did you even think of that. You didn't even say anything when you got home''
''is everything ok…Bella?'' Esme is staring at us with concern, I'm too angry with Bella right now to give a fuck about ruining her little party.
''yes Esme thanks''
''ok well the food is almost done so join us when your ready'' she walks off as I try to calm my breathing.
''Edward, I'm sorry I didn't tell you. I just didn't want you to worry, your stressed enough as it is.''
'I fucking worry about you all the time anyway, if something happened to you…I…you should have told me Bella.''
She steps closer running her hand through the hair on the back of my neck, with her forehead pressed against mine. ''I know your right, I should have. I'm sorry… please calm down''
''Bella, promise me…promise you won't keep something like that from me again. I can't lose you.''
''I promise, & your not going to lose me Edward.'' I feel my body relax more but not by much.
''come on lets join the others, I'm making a bad first impression.''
Everyone takes their seats, everyone's smiling & joking with each other. These people mean something to Bella so I try for her to be gracious when all I feel like doing is tracking that scumbag down & making sure he stays away from Bella.
The rest of the evening goes well I've relaxed after downing a few beers, the Cullen's are a really nice family. Esme & Carlisle bring back memories of my own parents the way they were with each other. It's nice to see & also upsetting to see. I wish I had my parent's around for things like this.I wish they could have met Bella.
''are you okay sweetie'' my Bella.
''yeah, can we go soon though, I Want you all to myself'' I tuck her hair behind her ear studying her face.
''sure lets go now, those cocktails have gone to my head & I can't wait to get home for a real screaming Orgasm''
Fuck… don't get hard, don't get hard. I grab her hand pulling her up off her seat towards Alice.
''I was saying to Bella the other day we should all go out one night, like Date night. Rose & Em, me & Jazz & you guys it'd be so much fun.''
''Alice''
I look at Bella who's glaring at the little pixie, wondering what it was she said wrong.
''um yeah sure I guess, I don't mind if Bella doesn't'' she looks at me with her eyebrows raised.
''yay okay, I'll make plans for us, Bella I'll see you at work Tomorrow'' she kisses her on the cheek as we say our goodbyes to everyone & thank Esme & Carlisle.
When we get home all I want to do is curl up in bed with Bella. She presses her head against mine.
''Hey''
''Hey'' I say repeating her.
''I love you, you mean so much to me Bella''
''Edward…I''
Bella's home phone starts ringing, I step back from her so she can answer it. Instead she pulls me back to her by my collar.
''I love you too, are you still angry with me?'' I'm such a shithead, I realise now I wasn't even angry really. I was scared, the thought of losing her or her being hurt terrifies the life out of me.
''I'm sorry I yelled at you, I'm not angry. I was scared Bella…I don't know how I'd live without you. Your everything to me, your everything'' I lower my mouth to hers trying to convey all my love in that one kiss.
The machine beeps ''Bella its mom, I'm coming to see you. I think we need to talk about a few things. I'll be arriving tomorrow afternoon so make sure you're in.
Bella pulls away looking at the machine horrified, it's her mom surely she can't be that bad.
''love?''
''um…I need to clean…everything''
''There's nothing to clean, the house is spotless''
''uh Hello, Look around. My mom will find something. I should wash these too'' she starts pulling all the covers from the sofa.
''Bella Baby, leave them its fine.''
''no we had sex here, she'll know'' what… all nervous thoughts I had about meeting another one of Bella's Parent's go out the window… I can't it help I burst out laughing, Bella looks too comical rushing around trying to clean things that don't need to be cleaned.
''it's not funny you jerk, & she sounds mad! did you hear the way she said we need to talk . What's that about? I need to get more shopping in.''
I push her onto to the sofa & climb on top of her. Kissing her & grinding my dick into her heat.
''oh…no…I need to…''
''you don't need to do anything but let me make love to you'' I say my voice sounding hoarse.
''Edward''
''yeah Baby'' I lick up her neck sucking the skin just behind her ear.
''My mom is...''
''not coming till tomorrow, relax Love. Let me make you feel good… then we can clean the house.''
We undress each other slowly, getting lost in each others kiss. We make love for the second time on this sofa, she falls asleep in my arms afterward & I carry her to bed & spoon behind her. I fall asleep worrying about James, about Bella's mother coming tomorrow & if she'll tell her I'm no good.I worry because I know I am no good, but I'm selfish & I can't let her go again. she's everything…
Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.
You are the strength that keeps me walking.
You are the hope that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.
~ Lifehouse
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