Chapter 18

Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions
that's alright
welcome to my silly life….

I wait patiently for my mom to arrive, Edward looks nervous again…he should be my mom's a nightmare. It's not that we don't get along, she just has this Idea that things should be a certain way.

And I'd never let her know that I walk around the House in Hoodies & sweats or when im running here we are, me in my Best dress & Edward in his new clothes I bought for him.

My mom's parents were pretty rich & they did have old ways on how things should be & how women should behave, so I don't blame my mom entirely that's just how she was brought up. When my Grandmother died she left the house to me & I moved in almost straight away, my mom had gotten remarried a few months prior & she was always jetting off somewhere with him, I was starting college too so it made sense.

I look over to Edward whose deep in thought, I love him so much. I hope my mom likes him. At that thought I see her Porsche pull up outside.

''Ready Baby''

''yeah'' we hold hands as I open the door to greet her.

'' mom , hey it's so good to see you. You look great'' I go to hug her & she steps back.

''I think we need to talk before we get all kissy Isabella…You must be Edward''

She looks over to Edward, I guess Charlie called & told her about him. she still has her huge sunglasses on so I can't judge her eyes, I can always tell what kind of mood she's in by her eyes.

'' uh yes….yes ma'am I 's nice to meet you. Here let me get your Bag & your coat for you.'' such a gentleman.

''that's alright, if you wouldn't mind going out for awhile though, I need to speak with Isabella in private.''

I glance at Edward who's ringing his hands & biting his lower lip. I know what he's thinking, he thinks this will be the end.

''Mom anything you have to say to me, you can say in front of Edward. We don't…we don't' keep secrets.'' I grab his hand again holding on so he won't run.

''No apparently it's your Mother you keep the Secrets from''

''I'm not even sure exactly what it is your going on about. I wasn't Hiding Edward from you if that's what you mean. I haven't seen you in ages & I've been busy.''

''you didn't have ten minutes to phone your mother'' Ughhhhh!

''the phone works both ways mom''

She steps into the living room looking around at everything here we go….

'' This settee is dreadful in here, it smells like it could do with a clean too.'' She starts rearranging all the cushions.

My face blazes as I look at Edward who's holding in a smirk.

''so I guess you were talking to Charlie.''

She stops & turns around to look at me with a not so happy face. ''Charlie knows about him'' Pointing her finger at Edward. I don't like where this is going.

''yes & his name is Edward'' Edward lets go of my hand & I feel lost already.

''Maybe I should Leave Bella''

''Don't you dare Edward''

''If you weren't talking to Charlie, how do you know about Edward''

''Tanya called me very upset, telling me you said the most awful things to her. And your no longer friends because you started having a relationship with this…this drug addicted homeless man''

''are you shitting me'' I can't believe this, that bitch is really grinding on my last nerve.

''Isabella language''

''ok mom, just hear me out please...don't say a word until I'm done.'' She folds her arms looking away from me. I look at Edward who looks both angry & desolate. I feel like screaming at the top of my lungs. Deep Breaths Bella.

''Tanya & I are no longer Friends but it's all on her. She almost got me Raped one night by sending a guy from the bar to hit on me.'' Edward squeezes my hand.

''I did say some mean things to her & I don't regret them. She cost me my job by telling our Boss what she's obviously told you & now she's sitting behind my desk, doing my job. Edward was Homeless Mom but he does not do drugs. He's the sweetest most beautiful kind hearted man.

he means alot to me & I want you to forget everything that Tanya's told you because it's not true ok… I'm gonna make us some tea.'' I turn to go the kitchen.

''Isabella we have known Tanya for years, she was your best friend since you were ten. I really don't think she would say all that if it weren't true.'' Whatttt! Is she kidding me.

''well mom you've known me longer & I am after all your Daughter, I would think you would take my side over some skank.'' She huffs out a breath & stands from the sofa her voice annoying me as she yells.

''what could you possibly gain from dating a homeless man with no money or achievements, besides a bad name .'' Stay calm Bella….stay calm.

''That's all that matters to you isn't it? Appearances, Money, social status! That's not what's in my heart. People become Homeless all the time for different reason's & you have no idea about Edward's Circumstances or what happened to him & you have no right to blacken him for it.I love Edward & he loves me with his whole heart. There's nothing you can say mom.''

''I won't allow this Bella, there are better men for you. End this now & I'll forgive you. You can come home with me till you're over this. Tanya is staying with me too Honey''

Un-fucking believable.

''Tanya is staying with you''

''Yes, her fiance dumped her & she never got married, she's hurting very bad & she wants to be friends again if you want help the homeless we can have a fundraiser or something.'' That's it!

''Get out''

''I beg your par…''

''GET OUT!''

My mom looks at me like I backhanded her, composing herself & raising her head as she walks out the door.

''I feel very sorry for you Isabella, I hope you come to your senses soon.''

I bang the door shut the second she steps over the threshold.

''can you believe her,she…Edward?'' my heart drops to my stomach. Where is he?

''Edward?'' I run through the house calling his name…he's not here. I was so absorbed in arguing with my mom I didn't even notice that he'd left.

I go to the Closet under the stairs to grab my coat, when I open the door Edward is sitting on the floor with his legs pulled up to his chest rocking back & forth.

''Edward…Baby'' he just sniffs.

''Hey please, talk to me. she's gone it's ok & she won't be getting through that door again.''

He looks up at me his eyes red from crying.'' I'm nothing, she's right there are better men for you.''

I grind my teeth, doesn't he know by now I don't want anyone else.

'' what would make you a better man for me, name one thing that another man could give me that you can't Edward & don't mention money because I don't need that''

He stares at me swallowing hard.

''you can't think of anything hmm…so this is what it all comes back to money. jasper said he would help you out with a job baby as soon as you get all your necessary i.d so you don't need to stress out about this you'll find work we'll be ok.''

''I've driven a wedge between you & your mother'' oh no..

''she did that all on her own, listen to me.I love you, I want you for the rest of my life I don't care if the pope didn't approve of you, I'd still want you.'' I put my arms around him stroking his hair, his body is shaking.

''Nobody's ever wanted me, every home they put me into they always sent me back saying it wasn't working out. I was too quiet, sad that my parent's were gone & I never tried to fit in with families & other kids, I kept to myself which made everyone think I had mental problems like I was going to come stab them in the middle of the night or something. I just missed my parent's Bella. I miss them so much….''

Oh god, my poor voice is thick with emotion & tears falling down my face running into his hair as I hold him. I pull his head up to look at me.

''you never have to feel that way again. I'm here for you baby, I Love you so, so much & I want to keep you forever.''

Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood
Mistaken, Always second guessing
pretty, pretty please
don't you ever, ever feel
like your less than, less than perfect.

Pretty, pretty please
if you ever, ever feel
like your nothing
you are perfect to me
.