A/N: Hello, a quick disclaimer; I don't own nothing, I wished I owned Demetri, but he's not even in this story. Oh well. Enjoy this story ^^

Dedicated to Raven589 and Franzii :) Thank you my darling girls for your support ^^


LETTING GO.

Is Never Easy.

Seth/Reader. Embry/Reader.


Chapter Seven:

Second thoughts.


Seth POV.

". . .What?"

I stared at her as she continued to chew at her french fries as if nothing was out of the ordinary. Leah and fast food, that was a sight to behold. I had known from the moment we entered this god forsaken place, til we ordered, til another suspicious phonecall til now, that something was wrong. Something extremely bad. For me.

"You heard me." She was wearing the same not-convincing-enough-poker-face. Her tune was laced with ignorance like she didn't care at all, but hell. She was my sister; I was just as capable to figure her out as she was to figure me out. Mind reading went both ways. She couldn't hide it for me, maybe for a while, but not forever. And only because I was too damn tolerant.

"Miki is leaving tomorrow. She got an urgent report from school, last minute homework, so she'll be busy with packing all day. Seems like you hafta go to the bonfire alone. Good thing you have me huh?" She gave me a loopsided grin, which just so happened to snap my temper completely. I shot up from the mahogany chair and crashed my hands as hard down on the also mahogany round table form. The else strong wood cracked like brances under my force and the circle split in two. Leahs french fries ended all over the floor, in her lap and even some in her hair. Like I cared.

"Dammit Leah! Quit your lame exuses and just tell me what is going on. What happened to Michelle?" The tension was thick, other costumers was filling the room with gasps and wide eyed gazes, looking from me to Leah repeatedly. The owner looked ready to trow us out, but apparantly too afraid to opose against me as long as I was in this mood, very wise. Once pissed off I could be quite terrible.

"Very well." Disgust came over her pretty face as she picked out the potato slices from her hair, trowing them away like she was burned. She got up from her chair as well, reached down into her wallet, sauntered over to the counter and placed a great amount of cash on the smooth surface, a little too much for what we had to give for the food and shakes, but I guess it served for payment for what I just broke. She looked very displeased as she left the place, me hot on her tail. I didn't care about her subtle anger right now, I was beyond pissed and just wanted to know what the fuck was going on. Why Miki was leaving, the real reason this time. I was in love with the woman for christ sake! Didn't I have a right to know?

When we reached the old car, her wine-coloured peugeot revolte, she didn't bother to get in as she just leaned against the side door to the drivers seat and faced me. She looked mad now, I could almost see the veins popping at her temple. I braced myself from some serious scolding or more lame exuses, but surprisingly she went right to the chase.

"Right after you left, Embry came over." My breath hitched. Embry? What did he have to do with this? I felt stupid for even asking that, though it was to myself. He had everything to do with this, but the realization rendered me helpless. Her face was completely serious as she watched for my reactions. I could almost taste where this was going, my despair grew and I stood like frozen. The taste was so bad and filled my mouth with rotten liqued. She nodded once and closed her eyes.

No. Fucking. Way.

"Seth. Embry imprinted on Michelle." My world stopped, right there. I ceased in existence, not in a pleasant way at all. The pitch black sheen swooped me up and dragged me down to the bottom of hell. Blasphemi. She was lying. She had to be lying. Slowly I shook my head just as the reast of me started to shake. My hands trembled violently and I fisted my fingers into balls, my knuckles turning white. My muscles flexed, but I found myself unable to move. Not Michelle. My Michelle. Embry couldn't be destinied to be with my Michelle!

. . . No. I couldn't believe it. I wouldn't believe it. This had to be some sort of sick joke. A complot even she was in on. Miki.

Leah didn't move either, just as she didn't speak either. Hell. Fuck. No. This was for real. She wasn't just handing my ass to me, she was fucking serious while doing it! My legs gave in under me and I fell to the ground, standing on only my knees now. I felt so weak, all my strenght was gone. With one sweep I was an empty shell. Left by my crab who had found one bigger and better than me. A crab named Michelle. She would leave me.

Realization sauntered in. She wasn't just leaving me. She was leaving him too? Leah said so, she'd leave tomorrow. But. . . Why? My eyes found Leahs again, my confusion laid out plain to see and I begged to that she understood. Begged to that I was wrong. Fuck. If Embry had. . . Had done anything to her. I shook with more fevor as the anger trembled trough me, Leah nodded as she did understand. She wasn't my bitchy sister for nothing. She heaved a sigh and ran a hand trough her semi long hair as she looked away.

"You wont like it, just don't go and kill him okay?" I already hated where this was going. Just like I hated just how natural it seemed to be for her. Okay, she had felt heartbreak first hand. Heart break caused by imprinting, but it didn't make her a fucking professional. So she just had to get the hell on with it.

"He made a mistake. She sought him out, on my request actually, to talk with him. Regarding you." I swallowed hard, what was with those sick pauses? Just keep going dammit, it almost couldn't get worse right? Silently I Begged that was true. My mind repeating the same over and over. Please say he kissed her, please say he kissed her. It was the only thing I found myself able to slip trough the fingers, anything more and. . . And I'd probaly kill him, yeah. But really, I didn't need the fucking long sided story with all the gory details. Just drop the bomb already and tell me what I asked for. This wasn't the least easy for me and she really wasn't helping.

"I guess in some twisted way it's my fault. But well-" I cut her off with a terrifying dark growl. She was testing my self control too much, my patience was running real thin now. With every fucking not important word trough her mouth, one more time and I'd snap. She just scowled as her eyes met mine.

"I was getting to it, this is not easy for me either Seth." Oh, but she was putting on quite a show of selfcontrol with her damn attitude.

"Fine, you asked for it." Hell yes I did, so hurry up. I didn't have to voice the words at this point all my emotions was a tad too easy to read anyways. I was practically horrified already, a dying prey just waiting for the final killing stab.

"He impaled her. They had sex. S. E. X." In mock anger she spelled and capitalized each dreaded letter for me. Didn't I just love my sister? Too bad it had me paralyzed and I couldn't slice her throat as much as I wished to do it. I was completely in shock, my eyes as big as dinner plates, my hands still fisted, shaking and my mouth hang open. My heart stopped apruptly as the words really sank in, hitting me just as hard a second time. He impaled her. I wasn't stupid, I knew what she meant even though she tried to sugar it up. He raped her. He fucking raped her.

My temper cracked fast in a terrible fury I launched myself at her, but Leah was faster as she trew me back with a well placed kick. My body flew across the lot and hit a telephone pole. Before I could do as much as breath she was back over me, pinning me to the ground as she hissed at me to calm down. She was my beta, my superior, I had no choice but to calm down, as much as I wished I could oppose. But it was better doing as she said than phasing right here and now. In full puplic. I'd admit that much.

She yanked me off the ground, supporting my weight as she hauled me all the way to her peugeot revolte. The passenger door was ripped open with a loud sound and she pushed me in, roughly. The door smacked closed behind me and she activated the children lock, though she should know if I really wanted to get out, nothing as stupid as a security for kids would stop me. She went to the drivers seat and yanked the door up and sat in. People were starring by now, at this point mostly because they were impressed by my sisters display of power and many seemed to pity me, pfft fucking strangers, they could go to hell.

I could hardly breath. I was drowned in a billion of emotions. Anger cursed violently trough my veins, my blood was boiling as my tempature kept rising. I was still trembling, terrible close to phase any given moment now, but Leah kept ordering me to calm down, I'd wait until in the rez at least. I didn't even care enough to fight with my control, I wanted to loose it, I wanted to tear, rip and bite at everything in my way. The rage was all consuming. I wanted him dead!

The drive home was quiet, beside the roaring sound of the engine as Leah pushed it more than it could go. It protested when its limmits where reached and coughed in a sick way. As soon as we hit the reservation and she pulled up in the driveway next to our house I was out. I bolted out trough the door, ripping it open regardless of the lock and nearly pulled it off its hinges in the process. Leah hissed and yelled after my retreathing form, but I openly ignored her. Yes, I wasn't listening anymore, didn't hear a thing, not even the nature around me as I let the trembles quake and control my body. I was long gone as I pushed my still humanoid body trough the thick branches, ignoring the slaps and cuts of the leafs and woody sticks on my bare skin. I tore my shirt off and trew it somewhere behind me, not caring about the shorts or the shoes and let it happen. The waves consumed me and I left the empty shell of my human self behind. Bye to Seth and hello to mighty sand coloured beast.

Too bad I wasn't alone.


Normal POV.

There was no passion behind as you packed your belongings. You just randomly stuffed it down in the huge sports slash back pack, slowly as you fought the tears. It was enough, you'd already cried your heart out dozens of time today, but the tears seemed endless, taunting you. You knew you didn't want to leave, but you couldn't stay either, it was too late for that.

Your eyes wandered over the thick carpenet floor, over the bed to the nightshelf. On the counter right by the corner next to the stand-lamp laid it, Emilys home cell phone. You stared at it, unable to form any coherent thoughts. Jared had used that one too, but now it was here, making you feel sick. You had called Leah, she was the only one person in the entire universe you knew the number off, she'd forced it on you before you left, you'd been surprised it still was the same. Funny enough she'd been very calm when you explained to her what had happened, you'd almost not been able to bring the words over your lips, but you forced yourself to be honest. She hadn't opposed against your decision to leave, though she had reminded you she stood behind Seth, in the end he'd maybe be able to get over this, but she wanted to be sure you wouldn't regret it. You hadn't replied, but asked her of a favor. She had agreed to tell him, explain him everything. How you hated doing this to him, you really did. He had done nothing wrong to desurve it.

It was Embry - wince - no matter how hard you tried, you couldn't get your mind off of him, you saw his face as you'd seen him when he looked at you. When he realized your decision with horror and panic. Regret had been all over him, but you felt nothing of the sort. Regret wasn't one of the million emotions haunting you, and it just added to your shame. Hadn't he fullfilled your desires - both of yours - then you'd have made him, eventually. Because it felt so right.

And that was what made it so wrong.

So you'd leave. Run off again, with your tail between your legs like so many times before, like always. Fucking brilliant. Apparantly it was the only thing you were really good at, not something you could escape; Once a coward, always a coward. You just didn't belind here, you home were back in Seattle. Now it felt like it was light years away, or like on the other side of the globe, China. But you knew one thing for sure, once you were there, back in your familiar home, it'd feel too close, like you'd meet them on the streets any day. You'd probaly lock yourself up inside, only going out for food, only drink water, never leave more than neccessesary, and when school started, you'd be afraid every single day. It'd be hell.

Seth came back to your mind, Leah must have told him by now. Shit. You couldn't even start to comperent what he'd do. He was your best friend, a kind, wonderful and amazing boy, but once he lost it- You shook all over and tried to drwon the images, why were you also so worried about him? Not Seth, but. . . Embry. . . If you could you'd talk with Seth, if he'd even want to see you again, period. You still loved him, of course you did, but you were just human. Apparantly it was possible to love two ment at the same time, because you did. You loved Embry - ouch - Somehting in you really loved him, and more than Seth. Still, the side that loved Seth was still more dominating and it hated Embry beyond coherency.

He was a threat, he had hurt you, removed his chance as he destroyed the relationship you had with Seth. Destroyed your life as you knew it, it wasn't even an overstatement. You felt horrible, drained form energy as from spirit, you were hollow, empty, only the pieces of your broken heart drummed unevenly and dull in your ears.

You nearly jumped trough the roof and a soundless scream tore from your lips, a low gasp filled the room instead when Emilys cell started to ring. The monotone meoldy filled the room and you shivered. Your hand was pressed against your chest in order to calm your racing heart beat, it was frantic and unsteady, absolutely out of control and so where your thoughts, scattered for the wind. You stared at it, almost as if it was dangerous, that it would jump you any minut and tear the last remnants of your heart out and devour it. You took a single step, then another, slowly nearing the night stand. Reaching out with a shaking hand, you carefully grapped the white phone and held it up. It was a unfamiliar number, any number beside Leahs or you own were unfamiliar. It still rang, apparantly the person on the other line was a very patient one. Finally it stopped and you blinked. Quickly your fingers moved as you pressed the re-dial and listened to the beeping sound before the phone was picked up at the other line after the first ring.

"Miki?" Relief gushed trough you with ease and you slumped in your shoulders as the tears ran in hot trails down your face, your cheeks were red and flushed, you felt like you had a fever. But it didn't matter, you knew that voice, that beautiful soft feminine voice you had come to love over the past few days. Silently your hand covered your mouth, a small smile forming and you stuttered out her name.

"Emily." You could almost hear her smile as she was filled with her own relief. Immediately cooing soothingly into the phone with a soft tune to calm you, it wasn't much, but it worked. You had expected Leah to call you back by now. No. You dreaded Leah would call you back. She was your friend, but also Seths sister and she would tell him. Had told him. No matter how it went, you doubted you'd like any of it. Emily spoke again, the natural softness to her voice did wonders to calm you down and the mild shaking stopped, at least for now. You fell down on the bed with slump shoulders and heavy breathing. Your limps fell lax and unmoveable.

"How are you sweety? I heard everything from Leah, she just called me in the hospital. I'm on my way home now." You flinched when she mentioned Leah, she'd told him already, you knew, but it still upset you. He must be hurting so much, so bad. No matter how horrible you felt, Seth had to feel worse. You knew Leah, she loved her brother and hated lying to him, she'd told him everything. You couldn't speak, only thick sobs spilled from your dry lips and you heard Emily gasp in the other line. You could almost see her face before you. Faintly in the background you heard the roar of an engine, you wondered how soon she'd be here. Soon you hoped, you felt like hell.

"Oh, baby girl, Shh. It's okay. I'll be there shortly, so hang on okay? Sam is with me, you want to talk to him?" From the sound of her words and the low mumbled from a man close to you, told you it was probaly Sam who wanted to talk to you. You hesitated for a moment and then nodded your head, realizing how stupid that was since there was no where in hell she'd be able to see it, but no words left your lips. It didn't seem necessary as you a few second after heard Sams odd masculine voice, it was thick with experience, but suited him perfectly well.

"Michelle. I saw what happened. After you left, Embry lost it, he phased and we saw everything he'd seen. He feels horrible and I don't support what he did. I am not going to persuave you to stay, but I want - if possible - to find an easy way to solve this, you understand?" Your breath hitched when he mentioned his name, but you kept nodding your head. Sam had an odd effect on you, it was easy to see his perspective on things and silently you wished you'd been blood related. having Sam as a brother, that'd be wonderful. You knew he was able to symphatize the most with -wince- Embry, after all he had been rejected by his soul mate once too; Emily. You just doubted you'd change your decision and were grateful he wouldn't try and make you.

"Miki?" Apparantly he'd spoken what he had needed to and handed the phone back, because Emily talked now. Your body trembled in soft quakes again, you just wanted to dissapear. They were all so nice people, warm hearted, fun and you already loved them. Like family, they only wanted the best for you, but it weren't just about you. They wanted the best for them too, would try to satisfy all of you. It just seemed so hopeless now.

"We can see the house now, can you hear the truck? . . . I'll be right there, hon, everything will be okay." She hang up and your arm fell lax against the comforter as you lost the grip on the cell phone who fell to the ground with a dul thump as it made impact with the thick carpet. You wanted to believe her last words; Everything will be okay. It was just hard to do so, it really did look hopeless and dark.

Just moments after you heard the truck pull up and the roar of the engine died out. The car doors opened and closed, their voices were low and you couldn't make up any of the words, but no time passed before you heard Emilys light foot-steps on the stair case as she made her way to your door. She didn't knock as she pushed the screeching wooden door up and peeked inside. The tears swelled up, nearly blocking your vision to her familiar and kind face, she had never been more beautiful. Even with an expression torn in worry she was so loving, so motherly. The next you knew she was beside you, hugging you close in her soft arms.

"Oh, Miki, oh. I am so sorry dear." She cooed again as she made you rest your face at her shoulder, your hot tears stained her cotton cut brown jacket with wet spots, she didn't seem to mind. You heard the front door go open again and knew it had to be Sam. Was he leaving already? Slowly she pulled your face up and hold it in both her hands, her small warm hands.

"He will go find Seth. Leah said he lost it and if Embry is still-" She watched you flinch and her brows corked in concern, but she didn't ask as she continued. "Sam is worried that if they get into a fight he might not be able to bring the appart. He is not their Alpha anymore and Jacob is still by the Cullens. I think Paul and Jared left to get him, I know Quil want to join them, but Claire needs someone to look after her, she refuses to stay with Sue all alone. You swallowed thick as you nodded. Yes of course. You didn't want this. You didn't want them to fight. It was hurting you so much. You rememered how frightened you had been when - you forced yourself to think his name - Embry, had phased, how horrible the thought had been if anything would happen to him, and to Seth. And now you had dragged Sam into it, not just Sam, his entire pack, or the ones you knew of them at least. Even thought wether Embry - Flinch, ow - or Seth belonged to his pack no longer. You realized they had once, but what would it change really?

Emily sighed softly as she released her grip on your cheeks and hugged you tightly again. her hand caressed the lenght of your hair and she petted it softly. You knew she understood you, if not completely then at least very well and it was soothing to know - maybe a little sick too - that there was a small chance, that since she'd been able to survive all this once, that it would for you too. That you would have a happy ending. A happily ever after, a stupid fairytale concept, but a beautiful one. If the monsters and wonders from fairytales existed, then why not the beauty of it? Why couldn't you be Cinderella, or sleeping Beauty, or Snowwhite?

"Miki, if they start to fight. . . It's not. . . I mean, it won't be like their usual fights. The boys often wrestle for the fun of it, it's their ways to sort out their differences. Right now Embry has more advantage, he is definitely more experienced than Seth. So far Seth have never been able to win over him. Miki, I am so worried, it might end-" You had to stop her and you pressed your hand against her mouth as you shook your head violently. It wasn't helping, you knew already. You knew they'd go for the kill, both of them and it was making you sick. They would try to kill each other, because of you. God, you should never had been born, never have befriended Seth, never should you have fallen in love with him. If you never had, then you'd still be friends, and . . . Embrys imprinting would have been different, you'd have been able to be interested, to get to know him, to fall in love and Seth, Seth would be the worst of the boys to taunt you with it, tease you and laugh with you. Just like he always did when you crushed on a boy. It was so Seth. But this was reality, in real life you were apparantly meant to suffer with loosing everything dear to you.

You almost gagged, acid from your stomach hit your throat and you pushed away from Emily to cover your mouth, crushing your hand against your lips to prevent anything from spilling, you already felt it on the back of your tounge. Puking on Emilys linned wouldn't earn you any more points, but you felt so nauseaous. God . or someone up there - seriously hated your guts, or it was just payback for all the wrong you had done in your life, like ever being born. You hated Emilys pitiful expression, but you let her help you up and take you to the bathroom.

This had to have an end.


Embry POV.

I went for the throat. My determination was unbreakable and so was his. As his blood filled my mouth I couldn't even think of how it came to this. In one moment I had been all alone, my thoughts had been on her, how her face looked the last time I saw her, before she walked away. She didn't run, she just walked. How the darkness had swooped me up and brought me away. How the pain claimed for my soul and my body went weak. Anger took me and I ran off and grapped on to the last straw I had left. I phased, the fur was thick and heavy on my body, I felt the dirt under my paws, the usual freedom was transformed into a prison and I remembered her expression when she saw me like this. Pure horror, she had been beyond frightened. I'd howled out my pain, tried to just dissapear, running everywhere and nowhere and in an instant he was there. His thoughts invaded my mind, I felt his pain, his anger and fury overtook me at the same.

My thoughts were so much more dominant than his, after all I loved her more, the emotions I held, the pain I felt, his didn't even come close. He saw it all, I made him see it. All the sweet moments I had been able to take, the sensations that now were mere memories, but yet still so powerful as they filled me. It took him by surprise, he was shocked to see just how easily I had claimed her, how strongly she had responded to me, how she had wanted more. Her hands had clawed my back, her legs had tightened around my waist as she pulled me deeper, clamped around me as I made her come again and again. I felt the pain this caused him, his accusations, no, I never raped her, I did nothing more than she wanted of me. She had wanted it, with all her heart, just like I had. But Seth was sceptic, he didn't believe me, wouldn't believe me. He felt betrayed, abandoned. I didn't care, the pain this caused me was so much more worse than his. She belonged to me, he knew that. It pissed him off, how I'd dared to take it away from him, his happiness. What about me? Badluck had trailed me like a magnet, my life had been hell, my own mother was my personal devil. Finally happiness and luck washed in over me and he took it away, because she loved him. I cared shit about how he felt, he had to pay.

He thought the same, finding a location wasn't hard. I walked out from between the branches and saw his shadow across the field. His huge sand coloured form emitted from the trees, his fangs bared at me and mine bared at him. My fur stood up in thick strains on the back of my neck, he looked just as rage filled as me, his right paw scrapped the dirt and then we leaped. We wasted no second as we trew us self at each other. He bit at my throat, I bit at his. He knew I had the advantage, we had often fought for fun, never like this, but I always won. I was faster than him, I was nearly as fast as Leah, as much as it bugged me, she'd still hold the record. But never had I felt this enormous strenght Seth possesed, his mind was completely poluted. His usual pure thoughts were replaced with dark ones that would shock even Edward Cullen to the core. There was no doubt, he wanted me dead, so did I, I wanted him dead. That was our logic, only the one that survived would have Michelle. She couldn't belong to any of us, both of us, any other way.

He had be down many times, I was about to loose control, he was skilled, much better than I had ever exprienced, it made me wonder if he'd always held back or that he just never had a reason to fight seriously. It just pissed me more off, there was no way he was going to win this. Even if I had to play dirty, my set of mind was more powerful than his, given my emotions was more powerful. She was my imprintee, she belonged to me, the bond there should be between us was unbreakable and I used it against Seth. I'd never valued the skill of invading each others mind as much as now, I haunted him with the images. The images of Michelles pleasure writhen face, how she'd kissed me, hold me. It made me stronger and made him flinch. I found an opening and bit so deep into his troath I stroke a vein, his blood filled my mouth and he howled in pain. I tore at him, bit and clawed everywhere I could reach, from this point on he got weaker and weaker. His strenght betrayed him and he fell to the ground, but I didn't stop. He didn't ask me to stop, he didn't beg. He suffered in silence as the images kept filling his mind and I saw his vision blur. He was giving up, accepting he'd die now, by my hand, my paw. Still I couldn't stop. I really wanted him dead.

I trew him away, against a tree, it tore up upon his weight and split in two. He fell to the ground with a heavy crash, barely breathing as his throat was torn open. I could leave him there to die, but I wasn't stupid, I had to make sure he was completely dead, or else I couldn't rest. With a sweep I turned around and leaped, ready to give the finishing blow, but then it went wrong. He came to his feet and met my attack head on. I felt the invasion in my chest. I couldn't feel his teeth or his fur. The wolf I'd been fighting with was gone and I couldn't hear his thoughts in my mind anymore. He'd phased back. When and how he'd grapped the log was beyond me. He was completely covered in blood, his own and . . . Mine. The thick liqued just kept flooding out of me and spilled all over him, he smirked oddly satisfied before he let go and I fell to the ground. I was frozen, the thick pole he had tossed trough my stomach was still there, but I couldn't feel it, the pain had been taken away from the quick impact. I was unable to control my body anymore and the wolf me dissapeared. In my human body I felt the pain, it was heart wrenching and it'd be the dead of me.

He fell to the ground before me, he was coughing blood up, his hand clutching his throath as he tried to stop the bleeding, and failed. The dark substance kept leaving him, making him paler and I was absolutely sure his paling face mirrored my own. I could feel the important fluid of my life leave my body far too quick, I felt dizzy and I knew at this rate; We'd both die. But then my eyes met his, and he smiled. It wasn't the same smile as before, there was nothing mocking about it, nothing there to make me hate him in my last moment. He was just Seth, his warm sunny smile caused trough me and made me feel warm and oddly loved. He was my old friend, my pack brother. I felt my own smile tug at the corner at my lips as I mimicked him. A high pitched odd unpleasant sound left his troath, trough the second breath hole I'd given him when I punctured his air road, and I realized he was laughing. Before I could stop it I was laughing too, it was a little easier for me, but my chest burned, the fire licking its way up trough my throat as well and soon we both coughed violently. This was the end.

But neither of us minded, it had been a fair fight and maybe it was for the best. Michelle had decided to leave, I just hoped, no, we hoped she'd never find out. It would kill her, she'd not want to live, but neither of us could bear the thought of her ending her life, of loosing her even though we'd both die here. I reached my hand out and smiled again as he grapped it. I held his hand tight in mine as I heaved the last few breaths I had left, we only looked at each other. There wasn't many differences between me and Seth, we'd realized soon after me and Quil had entered Jakes pack. Of all of us me and Seth fought the most, goofed the most and I'd found myself loving the punk. He was like the brother I never had had. Trough his eyes I even started to like Leah, I snorted and immediately regretted it. Fuck it hurt. The highpitched sound from him was back as he laughed at me. I laughed back. I'm so sorry Seth, god man, I never wanted to hurt you. How did we let it come so far? Oh yeah, Michelle. He couldn't hear my thoughts when we were both in human form, but I knew he understood as he nodded his head. being so close and able to always enter each others mind did oddly syncronize your ways of thinking. Just looking into his eyes I knew his answer. They were foggy as I knew he was fighting with keeping them open, he'd probaly draw his last breath before me. I squeezed his hand and horror filled me when there was no response, his eyes were closed and the frantic rythm of his heart beat had stopped. I panicked as I tried to get up, but the log in my stomach sank in deeper and I groaned with pain. I felt the tears swell, it was too late anyways. He was dead. I killed him.

My breath hitched as I trembled, I wouldn't be able to phase like this, I was too weak, too vulnerable. Secretly I wished I'd die already too, I couldn't bear watching him anymore, I'd fucking killed him. I'd fucking killed Seth! The innocent little punk from my pack, who always had his wierd way to make us laugh, make me feel better when I was completely down. He was more than just my friend, he was part of me. What had I done? The regret and pain was never ending. And why had I done this? Because of a girl. A girl that'd leave me anyways. I couldn't stop the heart wrenching howl that spilled from my throat, it filled the forest and a thick silence fell in around us as a dark echo. It was over, I'd die too. My mind went foggy and I groaned as I fell the last few inches til my face hit the ground. I still held his lifeless hand in mine, it was still warm. I pulled myself slowly over the ground, trying to reach him as I slid my arm up the lenght of his, I grapped his elbow as his hand rested by mine. It was the handshake we always used. With a last smile my lids closed, just as the nauseating sweet smell I knew all too well reached my nose. Leeches, even in death they haunted us, probaly some that wanted revenge, after all we'd killed a lot lately. Fucking blood suckers. Something cold grapped me, I caught a glimpse of bronze hair and golden topaz eyes, a silk smooth voice shouting my name.

And then everything went black.


Jacob POV.

I couldn't believe it. The FUCK had those idiots been doing while I was gone? It was so typical, you couldn't turn you back to them for one fucking mili second before they screwed everything up. I knew I was probaly unfair, but I yet had to learn what happened. I just knew from Paul and Jared that Seth and Embry was going to kill each other. First I had laughed of them, believing they had to be joking, because it was so far out it probaly came from space. Seriously, Seth in a death fight? With Embry? They often fought for fun, why was this anything different? But their serious faces rendered me speechless, they were absolutely not joking. Fuck. I was so gonna kick their asses for ruining my perfect weekend, I had even had Ness all for myself, she wasn't old enough yet, though she looked like a 13 year old already, still every second I had with her was pure heavenly bliss. I just had no choice, my pack was in danger. I knew Paul and Jared, if they were that serious it wasn't a joke, something was really up.

It wasn't til Quil joined our little group that I learned the truth. Emily had told him everything, he'd been able to bring Claire to them after he finally convinced her he had to help. Quil, he was so soft and good it made me sick sometimes, but I smiled. He was my best friend, my brother and our third half was in trouble. And Seth. Damn, he was a lot like me, a little too innocent, but I was almost just like him when I was a kid. For him to loose it, damn it had to be serious. And it had been. I almost froze in tracks when Quil explained. Seth had brought his girlfriend with as he learned of his mothers hospitalization, and that girl, I remembered her; Michelle Ryann, she just so happened to be Embrys imprint. As soon as Quil had mentioned the girl I had felt it coming. Damn. And of course she'd gone and rejected my friend in favor of Seth. I could understand it, they were in love, fuck. Suddenly it couldn't go fast enough. I didn't plan to loose any of my pack brothers because of an imprint, Seth was young and he'd find his happiness once, I hoped. And Embry, damn if anyone desurved happiness now it was him. How in the fucking world Seth could be so selfish was beyond me. If I found them alive I'd give him a serious spanking. If. I regretted the use of word, not if, but when I found them alive. They should just try and dare being dead.

Edward had decided to join us, we didn't phase til we reached the border of the treaty line, though the treaty was long broken. The truce wasn't neccesarry anymore, we all lived in piece. In some twisted way the Cullens became our family, at least mine. All because of her; My Renesmee. She had wanted to come too, but her mother, Bella, kept her home with the rest. It was fine, we was enough and I knew Edward was geniunely worried for Seth, somehow these two had managed to bond a friendship as strong as the one I had with Bella, once back in time, a friendship we still had. I would always love her, now she was my mother-in-law though. Under different circumstances I'd have snickered of that thought alone, she'd freak out if I called her so. I had to try it sometime. Edward grimaced beside me and I realized he read my thoughts. I was the last one who phased, I had seen the other flinch and Edward too, but I first understood why when the intense thoughts and hatred from Seth and Embry washed trough me. I saw everything trough their eyes, how they eyed each other until they attacked and horror filled me. They hadn't realized our intrusion, all they saw was the hate and desire to kill the other. It was horrible, I felt it all, it was too intense, to powerful. Edward saw it all trough our minds, mostly trough mine as I was closest to him. I knew he hated it just as much as me, and I felt bad for letting him mix into this. He could be a great help, but it made him sick, it was so obvious.

I tried to speak to them, but they couldn't hear me. Somehow they'd managed to build up a bubble of barrier, we could see their every thought and every image like from a movie, but nothing we said or did was noticeable to them. They kept going, clawing and biting each other, they wouldn't stop til any or they both were death. Fuck. If they survived I'd kill them both. Edward nearly smiled to me when he heard that thought and I grimaced, yeah alright, I wouldn't really kill them, I'd just make them wish I would. He nearly laughed then and I smiled; The best a wolf could. It was no time for joking around like this and I turned sharp to the right. It was hard seeing just where they were, but as Edward spoke I knew exactly where they were. He knew the place, it was the huge field I had once searched for with Bella, before my change happened, the one that meant so much for her. She had never told me why, but I could get the story later. Edward nodded and followed me. I almost howled in anguish and Edward cried a heart wrenching NO! When Seth was trown against a tree after his throat was torn open. Embry was going for the killer strike and we knew we had very little time left. We were both shocked to the core when Seths mind was gone and we didn't realize what happened before a thick wooden log went right trough Embrys chest. I snarled with fury and despair as I felt his shock and the following pain. But then something happened non of us expected, something that had us nearly crying. Embry had dissapeared from our mind the moment we reached the field, but the scene there was to behold us made my breath hitch. They were smiling, holding each hands, goofy smiles and strained laughter came from them. Fuck those stupid idiots. I phased back, my fist clenched tightly at my sites and I really couldn't bother less about clothes. My own tears fell down my hot cheeks and I growled low. Edward grapped my shoulder and I understood the silent words in his eyes. We had to move fast. Just as we sprinted over the field towards them, other Cullens appeared, Doctor fang- Ehm, Carlisle, his wife Esme and Bella, quickly explaining Rose took Ness. Edward went to Seth immediately and I watched my pack brothers arrive as well, Bella helped Edward and I went to Embry, I took his pulse and breathed out relieved; He was still alive, but barely. Carlilse took Seth from Edward, he needed help the most and Edward went to my side and liftet up Embry, turning him so I could grap the log. Carlisle informed me once it was out we had very little time, I nodded my head.

And then I pulled.

We brought them back to the Cullens house and inside the office of the doctor. He didn't chase us out as he usually would, he needed all the help he could get. I pressed my hands as tight against the open wound in Embrys stomach as I could, there had been great force behind when Seth trew the log into him, I had to hand him that, the pup was getting stronger for every passing day. Carlilse tended to Seth first, he was the one closest to say bye bye and therefor first priority. At first I had believed it was too late, I couldn't even hear his heart now, but said he could, it was very faint and very slow and he wasn't even breathing, but he was still alive and there was hope, for both of them. I watched Bella start to wash Embrys wound, she'd become a nurse my now, she almost held the same amount of self control as Carlisle, it was nearly insane, but she was good as what she did, and helping people was what she wanted. Blood was no longer disgusting to her, but not as appealing she would loose control. I wouldn't let any of them die, nada, zip, absolutely not. They were more than pack members, they were my friends, my brothers, my family. Nessie held my hand and I smiled weak to her.

There was nothing I could do, so I left. Carlisle smiled apolegic to me but I shook my head, I trusted them. Yes, I knew his skills, he had saved my ass more than once after all. Now it was up to them, to him, but I wouldn't just stick around and wait, I had another mission to tend to. I gave Ness a tight hug and told her I would be back tonight, she nodded and smiled to me, a sad smile and it made my heart ache, but it was better than nothing. Jared, Quil and Paul accompanied me and we phased to reach La-Push faster. We split up as Paul and Jared would run the bondaries, me and Quil both heading for the same location, our goal, Emilys house. On the way we met Sam, he wasn't inside our head, but I gave him permission to hear my mind and I took every single information he held with gratitude. The girl I was going to see, Michelle, she was torn between her own hatred for herself and the love for the two boys now in the hands of the skilled Doctor. I couldn't pity her, I knew Quil did, but it was beyond me, I had to talk with her, let her know what her stubbornity had caused and the state of the boys. They could die any minut now and if she still wished to leave, fine. She should just know she wouldn't be welcome here again, never, not as long as I was alive and given Nessie was just as immortal as me, it was a very long time.

Sam would join the Cullens and see what he could do, I agreed and then we reached the house. Quil phased first and bolted in trough the door, followed by me. The little Claire sprang up and hugged him immediately, Emily looked reliefed as she saw my collected face, she had been ready for anything now and I tried to smile to her, but I failed. She left Claire in the safe hands of Quil as she lead me upstairs. The girl was spread on the bed, her eyes were completely empty and for a moment I did pity her. The way I had seen her trough Embry and Seths mind and trough Sams had all been completely different views, seeing her with my own two eyes painted a different image of her. She was without doubt extremely beautiful, a natural beauty. Her long hair reminded me of Nessies the way it curled at the ends and fell over her shoulders. It was a rich brown colour, her eyes burgundy and she stared at nothing particular. I motioned for Emily to leave us alone. She had placed herself at the girls side as she patted Michelles arm, silently telling her we were here. Her eyes met mine just as Emily rose, and I told myself I had a purpose to be here. I didn't care for response or not, I just had to tell her how it was and would be.

The door closed behind us and I took a step closer, I grapped a chair and sat down on it reversed. My hands crossed on the back of the chair and I silently met her gaze. Slowly but steady life creeped back in her eyes and she sat up. I felt the chills run down my back, it was neither of pleasure or not, just chills of seeing how dead she was. She moved very slow as she moved her legs out over the bed, her feet barely reached the ground and for a moment her eyes left mine as she looked to her night desk. There was a letter there, I could see the amount of words scribbled on the surface. It was probaly a note she had written for the boys. Her eyes found mine and she nodded when she saw the silent question. I grapped the note and trailed my eyes over each formed letter and word. My breath almost hitched when the emotions behind the letter sank in. I had misunderstood, she wasn't leaving because they weren't good enough for her, but she couldn't decide, she was so hopeless in love with both of them. It reminded me of me, of Edward and Bella. She'd been torn between her love for me and him. My hands trembled as I read the note again;

I am sorry.

Seth, you've always been able to make me smile.

Whenever I was with you I was complete, you know how much I love you.

I've needed nothing in my life as much as I knew I needed you.

When we lost the contact something in me died.

I tried to be understanding, but it was hard.

First now, after I saw you again, finally able to spend time with you, like in the old days,

first then I realized just how much I already loved you.

I always have, and it'll never change, please forget about me.

I'm not leaving because of . . . Embry. . .

So don't blame him.

I feel terrible for doing this to you. I never wanted to ruin your friendship.

My decision is made of my own selfishness entirely.

I'm a coward. A stupid coward. I've always been.

I love you.

Embry. . .

I never really noticed you.

The times I did you were just like any other boy, always happy and smiling.

A little goofy to times and I found that I always liked to watch you fool around.

Your silly jokes and your warm smile was intriguing and never once did I expect you did not have the perfect life.

I didn't realize the struggles you'd been trough before Leah told me.

I don't pity you, but even if I did. You could forgive me, right?

I'd been prepared for that Seth would leave me someday.

But that you. . . What happened when you saw me.

It shocked me. I wasn't prepared and I am so sorry for all the suffering I caused you.

I am not leaving because of you. What we had, was so special to me.

Please believe it, because it's the truth.

In so short a time you made me realize just how wonderful the world was.

I fell in love with you.

So strongly I never thought was possible.

I'm a coward Embry, I always try to run away when anything goes wrong.

I don't belong here, you'd be better off without me. Both of you.

I don't desurve you.

But I love you, so, so much.

I wish I could change things. I wish I would stop loving Seth.

I love you.

I love you.

I love you.

Michelle.

I placed the letter back at the night shelf and looked back at her. It surprised me she was smiling, just faintly as she looked at me more intense than before. I realized I was crying when the wetness stained my shirt. I wiped the tears away with the back of my hand before I cleared my throat. How could I hate her when she suffered so greatly? She hang her head low and I felt my heart ache. I reached forward, the chair stumbled to the ground as I lifted up her chin with my hand. She was crying too. With my other hand I wiped away the hot trails and shot her a smile. The words I had been determined about telling her, my rules, they were gone. But my face grew serious when I realized I had to tell her the truth. I sat down beside her and wrapped my arm around her shoulders, pulling her into my fabriced chest and rested my chin on her head. She was shaking mildly under my touch and I heaved a sigh.

"Sorry to tell you, they got into a fight and nearly killed each other. We took them to the Cullens, they have a skilled doctor who is fighting to save their lives now." She flinched and I heard the whine in her throat as she swallowed several sobs, the tears running hot and thick again. I hummed low and rubbed her arm. I'd never imagined I'd sit here and comfort the single person that caused all this, as little as I knew she'd expected I'd be nice to her. Somehow she knew from the moment she saw me who I was. I hadn't seen her for what felt like a century, yet she remembered me better than I did her. I knew she'd been running around a lot with Leah before her attention turned to Seth, the worst she could ever have done. I sighed again. At least she genuinely loved both of them and she regretted it more than I could compeherend. It was just so stupid she'd run away. A coward she'd said, but that didn't mean just because she used to be one that she'd be one for life. I was a coward too, I'd run away more than once in my stupid despair, in order to be alone. I'd just abandoned my pack, but they'd been there with open arms and minds when I returned, fuck that shit. And here I was, about to tell her if she left she should never come back. I was such a hypocite.

"I am sorry for the trouble I caused your pack, Jacob Black . . . I know what you want, and I promise I wont ever return. That is. . . I'm not sure . . . I want to leave any more." Her voice startled me, I'd not expected she'd talk, and her voice was so tiny, so vulnerable, so weak. My eyebrows rose of her words and for a few moments I just stared at her as I tried to form a reply in my head. With a smug expression I shook my head and let a smile reach her. My hand rubbed her arm still and I squeezed her a tad tighter.

"You are welcome to stay as long as you want, you know that. And. . . Even if you decide to leave, just come back when you're ready." It seemed to surprise her what I said and I had to smile again. She hadn't expected any more generosity from me than what I had already given her. The realization was thick and her dried out tears swelled up again, damn, how much could this woman cry? It was starting to creep me out, I had never been very capable around crying females, they rendered me completely hopeless. Kinda why I was so reliefed Nessie never cried, I knew she could, she just never had a reason to. She nodded her head repeatedly as she hugged me back, the smile in her face was geniune and she seemed less sad now. I tilted her head up and locked my gaze with hers.

"How come you have second thoughts?" I was just curious, I had to know if it was because of what I thought it was. If she truly meant her words. I saw her face fall, but she fought to keep the smile, she wasn't surprised that I asked, just a little dissapointed I really couldn't figure it out myself, but hey. I was 99% sure I knew why, I just needed her to say it, and it seemed as if she understood when her eyes lit up and she nodded her head. Her hands moved to her stomach and she sighed. Her eyes closed for a moment, her hesitation was bearable and I waited patiently, until her burgundy eyes fround my dark brown ones, her smile bigger than I had seen it before, her answer nearly made me blush, but only nearly. She was definitely prettier when she smiled, unbelieveable beautiful and I understood how Seth could fall so deeply in love. It was how I'd always seen Bella.

"Embry desurves a happily ever after!"

End of Chapter Seven.


A/N: Hope you enjoyed ^^ Review please :) - Jacob got dressed in between the lines somewhere btw XD

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