Chapter Six

April

I couldn't remember how long it had been science I had gotten off of the couch. My room was still a mess and my new room, the living room, was covered in trash. I had given up looking for jobs. It was a good thing I wasn't eating much because I would probably be gaining a lot of weight.

Jake had left a message on my answering machine the night before explaining that he would be over today. He had come over to say hi last week surprised by the mess, but it had gotten a lot bigger. The door bell rang, "COME IN!" I yelled. I heard it open and shut. When he opened the living room he didn't look pleased."

"Bella what if I had been some crazy murderer? Or a bear?"

"Ya Jake because a bear can knock on the door and open it. When's the last time you heard of a crazy murder knocking on the door before he killed someone?"

"Why is this place such a mess? Have you gotten up scenic I came over?"

"Yes I got up this morning to change and use the bathroom." He bent down to pick up a pile of tissues.

"What's that?" I nodded to the large box he was carrying.

"It's your bridesmaids dress for Becca's wedding."

"Oh Crap that's next month. Can I see it?" He sat down next to me on the couch and placed it between us. I took the top off and pulled it out. It was black with a white ribbon just around the ribs. It was classic and simple. "Should I try it on?" I looked at Jake and he smiled at me.

Then realizing he was smiling he answered me. "Yes! I mean you know if there's something wring with it we have time to get it fixed. Better now than never."

I went in to my dad's room; I started using his part of the house to stay away from the glass. I had trouble zipping up the back all the way. "Jake!"

He came running in, "Is something wrong? What happened?"

"Can you zip this up?" I had my back to him trying to hold up the dress from falling. He slowly did it and I adjusted it so it looked like it should have. I turned around.

"I think its looks perfect." He was smiling again.

"Okay well it fits perfectly so I guess we are set."

"Yep, now go change. We are cleaning then going out to lunch. Chop chops Bells." I groaned and went to change. I kept my sponge bob P.J.s on and put on a black tank top. We picked up the tissues and he did the dishes. He swept up all the glass before I put away my laundry. He finally went to get my mail.

I had a bunch of bills, about a month and a half's worth. There where a bunch of newspapers and junk mail. There where a few responses to my job applications, they all had response dates on them and the latest was three days ago.

We went out to eat at a crappy sandwich shop. The only thing I could say I enjoyed about it was their bourbon on rocks. Jake and I talked about his school and how he had met Rachel's new boyfriend. I must have had too many drinks because Jake started talking about Edward. I did nothing about it.

"Are you doing better?"

"Eh."

"How much have you been drinking since you got fired?"

"Maybe a whine bottle a week. But that's it."

"That's not good for you Bella."

"Actually it's great for your heart."

"I mean it's not healthy to let him do this to you. He has ruined your life in every way possible. You can't give up."

"He didn't ruin my life Jake, I did. Don't put this on him."

"Bella you deserve your every dream and wish. Let me help you. You know I can get you there."

"Jake, I can handle it."

"Not when you sitting on the couch all day watching TV."

We left and drove home silently. I was stumbling inside and he tucked me in to bed in my dad's room. I'm not sure why but he didn't like spending too much time in my room.

"Night Bella, ill come by after class tomorrow. Sweet dreams." He kissed me on the forehead and went home.

A cloud surrounded me.

It was pinkish and I couldn't help but giggle, like it was laughing gas.

The cloud cleared and I saw the Cullen house. All the lights where off.

There where lots of people inside and loud music I could hear from the border of trees.

Everyone inside was wearing glow sticks and odd clothing, some dressed head to toe in plastic and fake leather.

I went inside and there where black lights everywhere.

They all looked like gods perfect in every way, but why where gods at a rave?

I went to the mirror I remembered was in the hallway.

I was the only reflection I saw and I did look like a god.

My brown eyes where lit up and my white skin looked like white gold, my cheeks glowing a gentle hue.

I turned and walked in to the living room.

There was a DJ and strobe lights.

People where packed in to it.

There was a guy standing off in the corner.

I looked at him and Edwards's eyes flashed at me.

I walked towards him and he started walking away.

I chased him in to the hallway and up the two flights of stairs.

We where both walking extremely slow, every time I tried to go faster it was like something was pulling me back.

We walked on the balcony around the house. He entered a sliding door leading in to Carlisle office.

I chased him in to the hallway and he went in to his room.

I could feel the music pumping from down stairs shaking through my feet.

I opened the door and the music stopped everything went dark.

The lights turned back on and I was outside, it was raining and the house was empty and quiet.

I Sat up in bed, the clock on the side table said it was 6 AM.