AN: Okay, listen to me babble and curse, okay? I know this thing is fake, but really, people on youtube just tick me off. Okay, so I used to be best friends with twilight4eva121 (who, mind you was the first TS filmer) but then her other friend (who's now my friend) who I hated at the time was getting in the way of our friendship. Then ramboducky1213/HumanoidFilms (who was the second filmer and one of this series biggest fans) and I became best friends along with her friend Steven and we would always talk about how much we hated the other two, including 4eva. Then Rambo had to cancel the series and stopped talking to me (yeah, YOU stopped talking to ME, I know my OWN HISTORY). Suddenly, I see 4eva and Rambo/humanoid are the best of friends and 4eva's giving humanoid the best parts in her series. And Steven even cancels the series we were making… I put HOURS into making the script! Then I meet jdthemindfreak/Sky. So, 4eva and humanoid start dissing me and making up lies and crap and BLOCK ME! I complain about it to Sky and he says he's on my side. When I was in the middle of writing this chapter, I get some kind of message "I'm quitting HSM2 because I don't want to work with you." So we go on MSN and I ask why. He says "I don't trust you. 4eva told me about what kind of a horrible friend you are and I realize she's right." So I'm saying WTF????!!!! I told him secrets and he was only USING me? I EVEN STAYED UP UNTIL MIDNIGHT TO TALK TO HIM! Really, I hate it when people become your friends and get close… then dump you for your exfriends! That's why I hate this. I have something to say to you, twilight4eva121, HumanoidFilms/ramboducky1213, jdthemindfreak/Sky… FUCK YOU! FUCK YOU TO THE DEEPEST PIT IN HELL WHERE YOU AND YOUR KIND BELONG!
Whoo… that's off my chest… enjoy. And if it suddenly sounds weird in the makeout scene, it was because that's where I was when this happened… jd's hate mail I mean. Oh yeah, and Humanoid, you're going to LOVE what I did to you in this chapter.
Breaking Eclipse: Renesmee and Jacob
Chapter 11: Deep
Renesmee Cullen
We were at the hospital. Seth thankfully, wasn't hit completely, only his left leg was broken. Unfortunately, he would need crutches as props. He was healed about 2 hours after the incident.
I was waiting outside of the door of his room, feeling extremely guilty at the moment. The only reason why he was here was because he was trying to protect me. But I never knew he'd go to such extremes. He was right, he was very protective of me. In fact, I didn't know he would do that for me… Jake was usually the one to go to such measures.
"Nessie!" Jacob walked at a fast pace to me entering the hospital doors. He hugged me tightly. "Thank GOD! You're okay!" he whispered. He looked at me now. "What happened?"
I told him through my touch, skipping Seth's singing to get to the point. I only showed where Seth pushed me out of the way and him struggling to get his bleeding leg out of the stage floor.
"Ouch." Jacob said, biting his lip. "I owe him one." I shook my head.
"You owe him nothing, Jake." I said. "I'm the one he was trying to protect."
"But it's because he protected you means you're alive. You're my girlfriend, and he knows I can't live without you."
I could've brought up the fact that it could've been only for… his own sake and not Jake's, but that could work too. I didn't notice that Jacob struggled to get the word girlfriend out a little.
"But it's my fault," I insisted. "If that didn't happen, Seth wouldn't have gotten hurt."
"It's not like you magically made the stage light fall, Ness."
Maybe I did. I thought. I sighed.
Jacob drove me to La Push in my car. He ran all the way from the forest to the hospital so he didn't have his own car. I had to make Jacob dinner, anyway. Seth had to stay overnight in the hospital, just in case.
Charlie was staying with Sue at the hospital for a while, which meant that I could stay as long as I wanted at Jacob's house. I was cool with that. We didn't really have much to do, since it was night. So, we ended up watching some old movies. One of them was a musical.
In the middle of it, Jacob asked me, "How was Seth's audition, other than the light, I mean."
I smiled a little. "It was actually… not bad." Lie. Not bad was a lack of words. But saying Seth was fantastic or amazing sounded too… unexpected for Jacob. "He was pretty good."
Jacob chuckled a little. "What part did you and the others give him?"
"We had to rush him to the hospital, so I don't know if the list was done, anyway." He nodded, eyes still on the screen.
"What were you thinking? One of the nerds?" I laughed a little.
"Maybe Kenickie…" I said, honestly, that part or Danny. Both were good parts and suited Seth's voice.
Jacob kissed my head, his arms around me. I cuddled into his chest a little to make things more comfortable. I breathed in his woodsy scent, the best in the world. His heart beat, the best lullaby in the world. His eyes, had trust and love in them; Every time I looked in them, I was drowning in an onyx sea. His smile, it brightened the room, maybe all of Forks. His lips, so perfect and loved to be kissed. I loved Jacob with all my heart, everything I am. He was mine, and will be for eternity.
"What?" Jacob asked, realizing my staring. I giggled.
"I just love you." I said. He smiled and my heart beat faster than it already was.
"Well, I hate to break it to you but I think I love you more then you know." I raised one eyebrow.
"How so?" I asked. He shrugged.
"I just don't tell you I love you as often as I should."
"Well, do you?" I asked. He laughed a little and turned his body to mine.
"Of course I do, Nessie. I thought we established that." He looked into my eyes. As a result, I barely remembered what we were talking about.
"Then say it." I whispered. He kissed my forehead, then my cheek, then my lips for a few seconds. When he let go, he was breathless.
"I love you." He said, with love in his voice.
He kissed my lips again, longer this time and I kissed him back with the same amount of love I could. He lay me down on the couch, with him on top of me, kissing my neck.
"I love you, too." I said, breathless. I could feel him smile against my neck, kissing to my collar bone and back to my jaw. I took his face in my hands after a few minutes so he could kiss my lips, he turned his head though, to tease me.
"You're mean." I said, pouting. He laughed.
"I'm just teasing you." He repeated my words. I rolled my eyes.
"Shut up and kiss me, Jake." He shook his head. I pouted again, he laughed again.
"You're so adorable when you pout like that." I huffed and decided to press my own lips to his.
I kissed him angrily now, but it eventually wore off to the same passion as before. My tongue played with his and my hands went under his shirt to touch his bare back. He didn't mind it at all. We were breathing through our noses so we wouldn't have to let go to breath. But I was hard to breath because Jacob was making be breathless. Then, he did something unexpected. He put his hands under my shirt and started traveling upward…
Suddenly, the phone rang. He groaned, let go of me and got up to answer it. I followed him there and hugged him, he wrapped his arms around my waist and started kissing my hair.
"Hello?" he asked. I could hear who it was on the other end.
"Hey, Jacob… um, is Nessie there?" Charlie, of course. Why did he sound so upset? Jacob handed me the phone.
"Hey, Charlie." I said.
"I'm so sorry…" he said in a grave voice.
"What is it?" I asked. Charlie paused, I could hear him breathing heavily.
"Charlotte…she…" Charlie took another deep breath and got it out in it. "Your friend Charlotte got killed by some animal in Seattle..."
I was in shock. I could barely move. All I could do was stare at nothing.
"Nessie… you still there? Jacob, did she faint again?" I could barely hear him, Jacob took the phone from me and talked to Charlie. I didn't listen. Charlotte was dead? How could this happen? She was my best human friend… was, at least.
I felt Jacob carrying me to the couch and he held onto me. Kissing my hair and whispering it was going to be alright. No, it couldn't be. Charlotte was dead… I didn't even say goodbye to her.
Tears came down from my eyes and soaked Jacob's shirt. He didn't mind, he knew I was in pain. I started sobbing as well and clutched Jacob's shirt. I needed him right now, I couldn't stand to be alone. Not now. Jacob didn't talk and I appreciated that. I couldn't talk right now. I needed to get the tears out of me.
When I calmed down a little, I was also a little tired.
"Charlie said it's okay for you to stay here for tonight." He whispered.
Funny of Charlie to think nothing would happen with Jacob and I alone in the house… he trusts him that much? Really? Maybe he took me in pain into consideration that nothing can happen since I was in so much pain. He would be right. We wouldn't try anything tonight.
I only nodded in response and fell asleep in his warm embrace.
I didn't go to Charlotte's funeral. I waited for the next day to go, when her coffin was buried. I payed a visit to her parents. Her boyfriend, Steven, died as well. People say he was killed by the animal, but I personally thought he committed suicide. I knew this was no animal though… I could tell.
I went back to work after visiting her grave, feeling guilty for talking such a long time off of work. Seth offered to take over Charlotte's job, I was okay with it, so was the boss. So now, I brought him to work.
No one wanted me to serve them, unlike other days. They could see I was depressed, and Seth could as well, so he was never so happy go lucky around me.
After a week of working, I dropped someone's order and didn't bother picking it up. I ran in the kitchen, ignoring the man's screams and Seth's apologies to the man, I ran into the fridge. I usually saw in movies this is what cooks did when they were depressed or needed some alone time. I sobbed in my hands, tears soaking them, as if I put my hand in water.
The boss, Craig, suggested I go home early and come back when I was better. Seth offered to do double for me, at least that made me smile a little.
When I came home that day and hung up my coat, Charlie was waiting for me.
"Seth called." He said automatically. I nodded and headed for the stairs to work on homework, what was left of it that is.
When I was in the middle of math, Charlie walked inside, not bothering to knock.
"I called your mom." He said. I frowned to myself. He waited for a reply, maybe a scream or two. But I stayed silent. He took a deep breath and continued. "We think you should… go to Alaska to visit her…" I looked at him, shock in my eyes.
"What?!" I asked, barely able to talk. He held his hands up defensively.
"Just until you get better… you need a break from work. Just a week or two… or a month… however long it takes." He was right. Maybe I did need a break.
I missed my family so much. I missed Emmett's booming laugh, Alice's smile, Esme's cooking… but I mostly missed my parents. Edward's piano playing, filling the whole house with music. And I missed Bella's… well, mothering.
I nodded. "Okay," I said, smiling a little from the thought of seeing my family again. "I'll call Jacob and see—,"
"Jacob's not going." Charlie said. I stared at him. I spoke in a calm, but shaking voice.
"Grandpa, I need Jacob more than ever right now." I said.
"But you need to think about your family too, Nessie. You see Jacob and Seth everyday—,"
"But I need him now! He's comforting me—,"
"Your family can do the same for you!" Charlie was beginning to raise his voice. I was too. "You can go one week without sleeping with Jacob!"
My jaw hung open. Did he really just say that? He thinks that I'm having sex with Jacob? I hit my head with my hands.
"So, is this what this is about? Jacob and I having… sex?" I couldn't get the word out without shivering. Charlie bit his lip. He hated having this conversation as much as I did. I took a deep breath to calm down, he wouldn't believe me if I yelled.
"Grandpa, I'm a virgin, okay?" I said. "Jacob and I haven't done anything! Where'd you get that idea?"
"Um… Billy was getting a little… concerned about you guys so…" I rolled my eyes.
"You and Billy gossip like old women!" I said. He rolled his eyes.
"So I've been told." We were now silent.
"Is it that you don't trust Jacob?" I asked. I needed to know so I knew my ground rules here with the truth. I've been convinced that he trusted Jacob more than his own son in law.
"It's not that." He said. He took a deep breath. "It's just that… I lost my daughter so young and… I'm concerned about you guys." He laughed a little without humor. I nodded understanding. "I trust Jacob. I really do. But… I just want you two to be safe. I don't want you to get hurt… like your mother and father…"
"Jacob won't leave me." I said, remembering the story of Edward leaving Bella.
"I know that…" he said. "But… don't grow up too fast, please? I can see Jacob treats you well." I nodded in agreement.
"Like a princess." I said. He laughed.
"Nessie, listen." He said after a minute. "Can you spend a little less time with Jacob? I liked how Seth came over for a bit." I nodded.
"I need to work with Seth anyway for school." I said. Charlie smiled a little. I wasn't done my previous argument, though. "So… can Jacob come?" He nodded. I smiled.
"If it's okay with your mom." He said. I hugged him.
"Thanks Grandpa!"
AN: I wanted to write about Alaska and all but I was wondering what to write about it =P I'm kinda better now… you know what I need? A new friend. Yeah. I'm a little better (thank you my Taylor poster…s :P, love you *SMOOCH*). Any new friends? Thanks. (Oh yeah, if ur on my side, write TEAM WEREPIRE on a review along with your comments ;D). What are you looking for in the next chapter? Should I use the whole thing for Alaska? Or like half or whatever… I miss the Cullens too… And what do you need more of to make this a more interesting story? More makeout scenes? Any moves =P what about Seth? (And I have an idea for the ahem attempt… so don't ask)
-Nessie
PS: Congrats to Sharronxxx56, the new filmer for the twilight's sun saga =D
PSS: I may or may not update much now, it's close to show night for the musical I'm in =P so they're calling me in a lot. But don't worry, I'll get these done.
