L/Ryuuzaki's P.O.V.

"Yagami-kun's bladder is very small," I commented. We were heading to the bathroom together for the third time that day, and it was only lunch!

"Shut up, Ryuuzaki." He replied. He was very tense today. I wondered why? Tonight I was going to let him shower, he should be happy! I, on the other hand, was on the verge of insanity. Everytime I went to the bathroom, he followed. I had no chances to cut, and I was really feeling emotions now. A plan started forming in my head. Smiling, I decided to put it into action.

Light's P.O.V.

I was making frequent trips to the bathroom to ensure that Ryuuzaki had the chance to go, so he wouldn't need to later. That way, I was always with him. As we walked into the bathroom, Ryuuzaki stopped short.

"I don't have to go." He said.

"Alright..." I responded with a little hesitation. "But I still do, so come on."

I tugged on the chain, but Ryuuzaki didn't budge. "Ryuuzaki, wha-"

"I think Yagami-kun has a few problems." He stated.

"Oh? And what would those be?" I countered. My heart started beating a little faster, but I didn't let it show in my voice.

"I believe he is trying to escape work by using the facilities more than necesary. I also believe that he is very much obsessed with his appearance. Therefore, I am only permitting him one more bathroom break between now and seven o'clock tonight. At nine o'clock we will shower. If Yagami-kun uses more than his one break, he forefits the privelage of showering tonight. Also, he may not follow me into the bathroom unless he is using his one bathroom break, as he has already wasted enough valuable work time."

I sighed. How was I supposed to fake my way out of this one? If I said I was sick, he wouldn't believe me, since I was exhibiting no other symptoms, and since I couldn't really fake being sick. Of course, I was sick, but in another way. My mind was in turmoil. I was so fustrated, since I couldn't cut for the time being. It wasn't so unbearable, though, since I had gone such a long time without cutting when I was imprisoned, but it was still very hard not to suddenly lose control. All of a sudden something dawned on me.

"Ryuuzaki, what are you hiding?"

L/Ryuuzaki's P.O.V.

This question caught me off guard.

"What are you talking about, Yagami-kun?"

"Why would you feel the need to say explicitly that I should not follow you into the bathroom? That can be easily deduced from your previous statements." My heart started beating a little faster than normal. This was why I needed to cut! I was so distracted by my emotions that I had done something completely irrational and had given the teen more grounds for suspicion!

"Yagami-kun, the rest of the task force is going to get worried if we do not leave soon."

"Stop avoiding the question, L." His voice had suddenly gotten softer, and a lot less shrill. He seemed almost, darker than normal. This was very unlike him.

"Every 30 seconds we spend in here, starting now, your Kira percentage will be raised by 4%." I countered. "Also, I am staying firm on that deal. Let's go."

He seemed to accept this, and we wandered back to the rest of the task force.

Light's P.O.V.

Something inside me had suddenly snapped. I don't think it was anything in particular, but something had made me snap and loose that last bit of emotion I was hanging onto. I didn't feel like doing anything. I had no motivation. I felt like cutting, and that was it. I had never experienced this before. This was like a whole new level of numbness. Everything seemed to go by in a trance, and I felt no emotions toward it. It was like a movie that I couldn't stop, but felt nothing about. It's really hard to describe. If I was feeling anything, all it could be was need. I didn't feel anything but the need to cut. I couldn't focus on work at all, because cutting was the only thing I could think about. If someone has asked me my name, I would have had trouble answering them.

Everyone went home at five, since it was Sunday. Ryuuzaki and I stayed behind, me staring at some papers, him typing away on a laptop. I had already used my one bathroom break an hour ago, and it was now 6:00 p.m. Suddenly, Ryuuzaki got up. I gave him my best questioning look, even though I didn't really care.

"I'm going to the bathroom." He pulled out what looked like a small television. "This will monitor everything you do, and I will monitor you in real time. There are cameras from every angle, and they do record."

I made some unidentifiable noise in response to his statement, and he unlocked his end of the handcuffs and locked it to the desk. He then proceeded to walk in the direction of the bathroom, staring at the small screen in his hand.

L/Ryuuzaki's P.O.V.

Light seemed... distant. I could tell he wasn't really working, and how he just suddenly shifted emotions earlier was very strange. I decided to ignore it for now as I closed the bathroom door. I immediately grabbed the wristband off of my wrist and got the blade out of the small hole. The blade felt cool against my pale skin as I violently slashed and watched as my wrist changed colors from white to red. I didn't even bother to check the mini TV screen. I made the final cut as I felt calmness seep through me. I just stood there for a minute, leaning against the wall of the cubicle, watching the blood spread and eventually drip quietly to the ground. I realized that some of the cuts were pretty deep, and would require medical attention. I wrapped them up in gauze, put back the blade, put on the wristband, and cleaned the blood from the floor. I wondered how in the world I was going to hide such big scars in the shower as I glanced at the screen for the first time in ten minutes. What I saw scared the hell out of me.