AN: SO SORRY for the update! I had a birthday party (figured out my Bella Swan clothes ESPECIALLY my new moon birthday dress were all cursed, REVIEW if u want the story lol! It was loads of fun) and I had to plan it and I'm kinda working on "New Moon the Musical" (lol, I have like, 2 songs, the wolves to perfect harmony) and guess what… I had two of my best guy friends (playing Seth and Embry at the party!) they kissed me on the cheek! (And last night I had a weird dream about me as Nessie kissing Embry and then… I forget what happens but Jake was pissed!) Oh, and once again, I had to write part of this on my Ipod (most during play practice) oh, and I GOT JESUS in the STATIONS OF THE CROSS LOL! (I know u hate me Adam) Anyway, READ!

(Oh yeah, and a majority of you said Jake should save Nessie, but some said Seth… I decided both =P)

Breaking Eclipse: Renesmee and Jacob

Chapter 18: No

"Breathe… breathe! C'mon, Nessie! BREATHE!" I felt pressure against my chest and a sweet, but panicked voice speaking over and over. It was complete darkness. My throat burned, but not like my thirst for blood in anyway.

"Come on, Nessie… Jake, something's wrong." I heard the voice say.

"She's alive, I hear her thoughts. She can hear you, too."

"Try talking to her." The other voice said.

"Nessie, come back hon… please…" I felt water being pushed out of my lungs and I was able to open my eyes. It was hard to breathe but I managed.

"Nessie…" Jacob let out a sigh of relief. He held my face in his hands, pushing Seth out of the way. It hurt to blink because of the salt water that got into my eyes. Jacob slowly lifted my body up. He and Seth were both shirtless, Seth's hair and body were completely soaked, he was obviously the one to pull me out of the water. Jake may've been wet from the rain.

"What the hell were you thinking?!" he whispered.

Before I could answer Seth said "I have to go check on Leah…I'll check on you guys later."

"Bring some of Leah's clothes for Nessie when you come over, don't be long." Jake said. I heard Seth running off.

"What happened to Leah?" Jacob sighed.

"She's pregnant." He said, frowning. Oh… I thought.

How selfish of me to do something so reckless when everyone needed to focus on Leah and Kevin! I was so stupid.

"How's Kevin taking it?" I asked. He sighed.

"Not so well… he's happy but he's been looking forward to college, you know?" I nodded. Then, Jacob lifted me up and carried me to my car. I assumed either he ran here or Seth took his car. He lay me in the front seat and as he swiftly moved to the driver's side, I reclined the chair a little. The burn in my throat was slowly going away.

"Are you cold?" he asked when he turned on the car. I turned up the heater and rested my head on his shoulder, it was the only thing I could reach. He put his arm around me, which helped a little. I was still cold by the time we got to his house. He carried me inside and didn't bother getting a blanket. He lay us both on the couch and hugged me for ten minutes. Those ten minutes were silent, uncomfortable. What was wrong with us today? I was so confused.

I was glad when Seth came with some clothes and I had to take a shower. I didn't bother asking Jacob to use his shower, I was scared he wouldn't answer and give me the silent treatment. I wasn't sure how to treat Jake. Was he mad at Leah? And why would he be? Was he just in shock?

I checked my cell phone for any text messages or phone calls missed. Seth picked up my sweater from before I jumped off the cliff.

I finished my shower and put Leah's warm clothes—a plus for Seth that they not only fit, but I was comfortable wearing, the new style I've gotten used to due to my new freedom of picking my own outfits in the morning. Seth really does know me well. I decided now was the time to tell Jake. I couldn't hold this secret anymore. I was tired of lying and I couldn't put Seth in anymore danger. It was selfish of me to take his safety for granted. Just because I was getting killed didn't mean I had to drag him down with me. I hated keeping secrets from Jake... And I did promise that I'd tell him what I was worried and scared about, the first day I got a phone call from Unknown, I promised I'd tell him when I figured it out. Does that mean I trusted Seth more than Jacob?

I tried to think about how to break it to him? Go straight forward or build to it? Should I tell him about Seth or act like little miss innocent? No, it would be better to tell him then him finding out, if Seth couldn't keep his own secret, then how could he keep mine? I had to tell him myself.

When I gathered my courage to talk to him, I opened the bathroom door, I was relieved yet upset Jacob and weren't there. I looked around the house, turns out he was sleeping in his bedroom. Peacefully and softly snoring. He didn't toss and turn like I expected him to. I've never actually seen him sleep, at least not in human form. Well, I have but not in broad day light, well not really since it was 5:37 pm.

I was debating whether or not to wake him up. I wasn't sure about the last time he slept so I put a blanket on top of him, even though I knew it was unnecessary, and I left to make him dinner. I wasn't sure if he would be hungry or not but I knew for a fact that he was never too full to taste my cooking. I knew it would wake him up if I used the stove, so I decided to make something I didn't have to cook. I wasn't really sure if he would want me here when he woke up, but I was tired so, I made him the ham sandwich with tomatoes and cheese and lay down on the couch.

I closed my eyes and I felt a stinging on my leg, I knew better than to scream when I saw Seth putting alcohol on my ankle.

"Sorry, I know it hurts, Nessie, but it's to prevent irritation." he started to blow on it, which numbed the pain a little from a little cut on my ankle.
"I don't mind." I said. It did hurt, but I've felt worse. He smiled a little. "How long have you been here?"
"Actually, I was here as soon as I saw you crash onto the couch. You have a few cuts we need to get rid of before Jake notices." I really didn't even notice the cuts.

When Seth started working on my arm, my ankle cut turned pink, that was good.
"How's Leah." he didn't look at me, he did stop dabbing the cut though. He sighed.
"Jake told you." it wasn't a question.
"Sorry..." I said. He smiled a little.
"It's okay, Nessie." he said, starting to dab again. "I'm surprisingly happy about all this. It's just that... Kevin..." he frowned.
"I feel so bad, I didn't have to jump just so—,"
"It's not your fault." he said.
"I feel so selfish. No one had to worry about me when Leah—,"
"This isn't your fault." he repeated, looking at me. I took a deep breath and relaxed as he tended my wounds.
We were silent again, uncomfortably silent.
"Am I being too rough?" he asked when he reached the cut on my neck.
"No." I said, I was used to the pain. "Just... Don't stop..." he looked at me for a second, not realizing what I just said sounded like. He gave me a look, I knew what it was. His eyes held the same thing he did when we watched that movie... For a split second, he looked like a younger Jacob, one that I would see in my mom's picture album when she was human.

I quickly turned my head away so when he leaned in, he would know I wasn't okay with it. That didn't stop him, he kissed every wound he mended, most of them already gone as if they were never there in the first place.
"Stop... Seth..." my body and him were doing the exact opposite of what I told them not to do. Instead of pulling away when Seth kissed my leg, my body would shake and my breathing would increase...
I was eventually able to gather enough strength and sense to push him away, Jacob was in the bedroom, who knows what could happen.
"STOP!" I whispered in a stern voice, pushing his shoulders. I tried to get up but he pushed me down and put my face in his burning hands.
"I don't want to, neither do you."
"I-I do." I tried to sound as convincing as possible, but I stuttered. He rolled his eyes.
"Nessie, stop lying to yourself..." I was about to yell at him, not caring if I woke Jacob up. Seth put his hand up to say something instead before I did.
"Nessie... I have to tell you something before it's too late... I'm running out of time... I feel so... Wrong." I almost laughed from the way he was talking. He took a deep breath. "I'm... I'm in love with you, Nessie." he said. My breathing stopped.

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